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LIFE 



CATHERINE PHILLIPS: 



TO WlllCtI ARE ADDXD SOME OF HER 



EPISTLES. 



LONDON: 

fRlNTED AND SOLD BT JAMES PHItLIPS AND SON, 
GEORGE YARD, LOMBARD STREET. 



1797. 



M EM O I R S, &c. 



CHAP. I. 



AS the dealings of the Almighty with me from 
my youth have been fmgular, and are worthy 
to be retained in remembrance with thankfulnefs, I 
have committed to writing fome remarkable cir- 
cumftances of my Hfe ; tending to awaken future 
thankfgiving and watchfulnefs in myfelf ; and, con- 
fidering how w^onderfully the divine arm has been 
manifefled for my help, to encourage me to a fteady 
trufl therein, and perfeverance in fubmifTion there- 
to : and in order to leave to my furviving relations, 
fome memorials of the various exercifes and dangers 
which I have pafled through, and of the merciful 
fupport and prefervation vouchfafed from the Lord 
therein. 

But fir ft: it appears proper for mc to leave a tef- 
timony to my parents, who not only profeffed the 
truth, but had it in pofTeffion, My father, Henry 

A Payton, 



Payton, of Dudley in Worceflerfliire (fon of John 
and Catherine Payton, refpe£lable members in the 
fociety of Friends), was called into the work of the 
miniilry about the eighteenth year of his age; and, 
when young, travelled much in the fervice of truth 
in divers parts of this nation, Ireland, and Scotland, 
as alfo in the American colonies : and from the 
teftimonies of friends, I have good reafon to believe 
that his fervice was truly acceptable and edifjdng 
to the churches ; his miniilry being lively and clear, 
and his care not to exceed the openings of truth 
therein apparent. His deportment was grave, his 
conduft clean and fleady, and his charity, in pro- 
portion to his circumflances, diffufive. He was an 
affectionate hufband, a tender father, and kind 
mafter; ferviceable amongft his neighbours, and 
beloved and refpeCled by them. Many years before 
his deceafe, he was difabled not only for public 
fervice in the miniflry, but for acting in the private 
duties of life in providing for his family ; being 
afRifted with a paralytic diforder, under which his 
faculties gradually gave way. I was much his com- 
panion in his long weaknefs, reading to him and 
attending upon him ; and can give this teftimony 
refpefting him, that he retained the favour of the 
divine life to the laft ; and frequently manifefted a 
religious concern for his children, and particularly 
for me, his youngefl: child and tenderly beloved 
by him. He would often fay, ' The Lord blefs 
• you my children/ when his fpeech faltered fo 

that 



tliat he could articulate but little. - In the feventy- 
fiFtli year of his age he was releafed from his afflic- 
tion, and I doubt not is entered into everlafling 
blifs. 

My motlier was the daughter of Henry and Eliza- 
beth Fowler, of Evefliara in Worceflerfliire. She 
was a religious woman, endued with a flrong and 
Heady underftanding, and many and fmgular virtues 
whereby (lie was fitted for the part (lie had to ad 
in life. This was peculiarly exercifing in part, 
through my father's incapacity for bufinefs, the 
care of a pretty large and young family, and a 
confiderable bufinefs (and that not of the kind the 
moft fit for a woman) devolving upon her. When 
my father was difabled from acting for his family, 
being engaged in a partnerfhip in one branch of 
bufinefs which terminated in great lofs of property, 
his afiairs were in a very unfettled ftate ; all 
which, with other very trying circumftances, my 
mother pafiTed through with admirable lleadinefs, 
fortitude, and patience ; and through a long feries 
of necefi^ary worldly engagements, flie v/as favoured 
to retain the bed life. The Lord greatly blelTed 
her endeavours for her children, in temporals ; 
and I doubt not heard her prayers that the 
dew of heaven might reft upon them. She would 
fay, (he defired not great riches for her children, 
but that they might dwell in the fear of God. Her 
fleady and Ibong conjugal affedion was manifefted 
ill my father's long indifpofuion, by tender atten- 
A* lion; 



lion ; and after his deccafe, by licr frequent men- 
tioning him in terms which evinced that their union 
was founded in that love, which death cannot dif- 
folve. She faid that when {he married him, Ih-e was 
fo far from being intimidated at the thought of his 
leaving her, to travel in his miniflerial office, that 
{he entered the folemn covenant, with a rcfolution 
to do her utmofl to fet him at liberty therein ; and 
when it pleafed Divine Wifdom to deprive her of a 
hufband whom Ihe might offer up to his fervicc, 
ftie was defu-ous that fome one at Icafl of her off- 
fpring might be called to the miniilry : which was 
fulfilled in me, whom fhe bore rather late in life, 
and tenderly loved ; but, I believe flie as freely 
dedicated me to the Lord as Hannah did Samuel, 
and was always ready to put me forward in his work ; 
yet was weightily concerned that I might not run 
before my true guide. And although, after I was 
called to the miniilry, it was my lot to be much 
abfent from her, fhe never repined at it, but 
frequently encouraged and excited me to fiiithful- 
nefs : fo that among the many mercies bedowed by 
bounteous Providence, I may jullly number as not 
the leafl, the having fuch a parent. 

She was an affcftionate mother to all her chil- 
dren, yet very quick-fighted to their faults, ready, to 
reprove them ; and not fubjeft to indulge them in 
childhood J but educated them in induflry. In fine, 
Ihe was an example of fortitude, checrfulnefs, gravity, 
induflry, oecouomy, felf-denial, and refjgnation to 

the 



the divine will. She was generous to her friends ; 
her houfe and heart always open to receive the 
Lord's mejTcngcrs : for which flie would fay flic 
thouglit a bleHmjT was dropped upon her family. 
She was charitable to the poor ; rather choofing to 
fave from other expenfcs, that (lie might have to 
difpenfe. She died in the ninety-firfl year of her 
age ; and retained a confiderable degree of found- 
nefs of judgment until near the clofe of a ufeful, but 
careful, hfe. 

Thus defcended, it may be fuppofed I was in the 
way to receive religious in(lru6tion from my infancy; 
and indeed I cannot date the firfl dawn of divine 
light upon my foul ; for with humble thankfulnefs 
I may fay, that early in the morning of hfe I knew 
the Lord to be a God nigh at hand ; convincing of 
evil, and raifing breathings after the faving know- 
ledge of his divine love and power. Friends who 
travelled in the miniftry ufually lodged at my fa- 
ther's houfe. I loved their company when but 
very young, and their tender notice of me I com- 
memorate with gratitude. And here I remark, that 
if our youth prized the favour of the company 
and converfe of fuch whofe *' feet appear beautiful 
" upon the mountains'* of falvation, and who have 
had large experience of the love of God, they 
might profit much thereby. — But, alas ! how 
often do fome avoid their company, fcarcely giving 
them an opportunity of manifefting to them that 
tender allcdtion, wherewith their fpirits are clothed; 

A 3 being 



being probably afraid of reproof, on account oi 
their indulging in liberties, contrary to the pure 
liberty of truth ; which they think hard, akhough it 
be given in that love which feeks the true happinefs 
of their fouls. I could read well when very young, 
and (as is before hinted) fpending much time with my 
affli£led f^uher, I read much to him; and the expe- 
riences and fufferings of faithful martyrs, and of our 
worthy friends, with the accounts of the glorious 
exit of fuch as launched out of time in full aflur- 
ance of everlafling blifs, made profitable imprelHons 
upon my mind; my fpirit being often tendered there- 
by, and my love of virtue and piety ftrengthened ; fo 
that I may truly fay that fuch holy perfons, " though 
*' they are dead, yet fpeak.*' May their language 
be heard by the youth of the prefent and fucceeding 
generations; and excite them to efchew the paths of 
vanity, and to follow the footflcps of Chrift's com- 
panions. So will the fong of his redeemed be theirs. 
But, notwithflanding thefe promifmg beginnings, 
as I grew up, I yielded to divers temptations, and 
was allured from the fimplicity of truth ; the evil 
propenfities in nature getting the afcendency. But 
even in my childhood I experienced many confli(fts, 
and my convictions for evil were flrong ; fo that at 
times my heart was forrowful, and my pillow- 
watered with my tears, although my countenance 
and deportment were moflly cheerful. Once, having 
yielded to temptation, my fenfe of guilt was fuch, 
that I concluded I had linned againfi the Holy 

Ghofl ; 



Ghofl:; and that, agreeably to Chrifl's tefliinony, I 
" flioiild never be forgiven." This fo afl'efted my ten- 
der mind viith forrow and unutterable diflrefs, that 
it could not be entirely concealed from the family ; 
although I was enabled, even in childhood, to keep 
my exercifes of mind much to myfclf. I think I mufl 
have been about eight or nine years old when it was 
thus with me ; and as in my childhood I was feveral 
times vifited with fevers, which brought me very 
low, I was led to confider how I was prepared for 
the awful change wherewith I was threatened ; and 
a weighty fenfe refted upon my fpirit, that my foul 
was not pure enough for admittance into Chrift's 
holy kingdom. Sometimes I would covenant with 
the Lord to be more clrcumfpe£l and watchful for 
the future ; but the airy natural difpofition again 
got the afcendency, whereby again an occafion for 
repentance would arife. My natural difpofition was 
very volatile, and my apprehenfion quick j and as my 
faculties opened, I delighted much in books of a 
very contrary nature and tendency to thofe which 
had engaged my attention in my childhood. I had a 
near relation, who, notwithftanding his having been 
divinely favoured in his youth, had flighted his 
foul's mercies, and purfued lying vanities. He kept 
houfe in the town ; and through him, myfelf, and 
my fiftcrs, had opportunities of obtaining plays and 
romances, which I read with avidity. I alio fpont fo 
much time at his houfe as to be introduced into 
amufements very inconfiflent with the fimplicity of 
A 4 truth. 



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truth, and my former religious impreflions ; fo that 
my flate was indeed dangerous, and but for the in- 
terpofition of Divine Providence, I had been left 
to purfue courfes which muit have terminated de- 
plorably. I alfo read hillory, was fond of poetry, 
and had a tafte for philofophy ; fo that I was in the 
way to embellifli my underllanding (as is the com- 
mon phrafe), and become accomplilhed to fliine in 
converfation ; which might have tended to feed the 
vain proud nature, render me plcafmg to thofe who 
were in it, and make me confpicuous in the world. 
But the Lord, in his wifdom, defigned to bring me 
to public view in a line direftly oppofite to worldly 
wifdom, pleafure, or honour ; and when he was 
pleafed more fully to open to my underftanding 
his great and glorious work of renovation of fpirit, 
I faw that I mull defift from thefe amufmg publica- 
tions and ftudies, and purfue the one nccellary 
bufmefs, viz. working out the falvation of my im- 
mortal foul : and I eilecm it a great mercy that I 
readily attended to this intimation. However lawful 
it may be, in proper feafons, to look into the works 
of nature, and become acquainted with the hiflory 
of former or prefent times, my attention was now 
powerfully attracted to higher fubjefts ; and had I 
purfued thofe lower things, I might have become as a 
" velTel marred upon the wheel." This is, alas 1 
the cafe with many who have been divinely vifited, 
but who, not deeply and (Icadily attending to the 
ipflru<5lions of pure wifdom, but fecking to be wife 

and 



and learned ; in matters which merely relate to this 
prefent (late, have not advanced in the fimplicity of 
divine knowledge; and although it has remained 
obvious that the Lord's hand has mercifully been 
turned upon them to form them for his fcrvice, they 
have not grov/n up to that degree of ufefulnefs in 
Chriil's church, whereto they might have attained, 
had they palTively abode the turnings of his' pre^ 
paring hand. Were the fons and daughters of our 
religious fociety, who are favoured with good natural 
underlbmdings, clothed with heavenly wifdom, they 
would become and appear truly great, in the dignified 
fimplicity and humility of the fervice of the King of 
kings. Human knowledge and acquirements too 
often puff up the minds of youth ; and indeed fome 
of more advanced age pride themfelves therein, 
when, as examples to the rifmg generation, they 
{hould be clothed with humility. It was obferved 
of a truly honourable member of our favoured 
fociety, that * he v/as a divine and a naturalift, 
and all of the Almighty's making.' * I have read 
very little on natural philofophy, and am not in a 
difpofuion to boaft of my acquired knowledge, of 
cither human, natural, or divine things ; but I may 
fay, that I have admired how by one gleam of 
heavenly light the underftanding is opened into 
natural things ; fo as in degree to behold, as at one 
view, the general cjeconomy of the divine Former of 



♦ William Pcnn's Account of George Fox. 

all 



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all thing<;, as it Is difplayed in the outward creation. 
'J'his produces adoration to him under the humbling 
fenfe of his power, mercy, and wifdom, as well as 
admiration of his works ; and difcovers that they 
are indeed marvellous, and in their full extent in- 
comprehenfible ; and impofTible to be traced in 
innumerable ages. Therefore, let not the faculties 
of his adopted children be fo improperly occupied 
in exploring them, as to prevent their advances in 
their various flations in his militant church : when 
happily their fouls are fixed in the triumphant, they 
will know fo much, as for ever to infpire the angelic 
fong of " Great and marvellous are thy works. Lord 
" God Almighty, in wifdom had thou made them 
" all!" 

From thefe remarks I return to my education, 
which, whilfl I was at home, had not been entirely 
neglefted, as to ufeful and necelTary learning; yet, as 
through the afilifted circumflances of our family, I 
had been kept pretty clofely there until I had 
attained my fixtecnth year, my mother concluded to 
fend me to London, and put me for one year under 
the care of Rachel Trafford, who, with her fifter, 
kept a refpeftable boarding-fchool ; not doubting 
her attention to me, as flie when young had fpent 
a confidcrable time in my father's family : and 
indeed flie was afrc(rtionately kind to me ; and, as a 
minifter as well as miflrefs, I believe her mind was 
frequently exercifed for the religious improvement 
•of her fcholars, which at times was manifefled by 

verbal 



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verbal fuppllcation for them, as well as advice and 
reproof. 

I improved much for the time I (laid in the 
fchool, in fome arts taught in it ; and my fchool- 
feilows behaved well to me ; but being fo far 
ad winced toward maturity, tall, and proportionably 
grown for my age, 1 looked rather too much like a 
woman for a fchool ; yet fome of my fchool-fellows 
were older than myfelf, which I believe increafed 
my mifl:refs*s anxious folicitude for our prefervation, 
we being (to ufe her own expreffion) a fchool of 
women. I foon connected myfelf mod intimately with 
my miflrefs's niece, who afled as a teacher, and 
with one of the fcholars, a fenfible agreeable well- 
behaveJ young woman, but not of our fociety, who 
was admitted into the fchool to qualify herfelf in 
needle-work, for a fchool-midrefs. As neither of 
them were much under the influence of religion, I 
did not profit by their converfation, in the mofi: 
elTential refpeft. But after I had been a few months 
in the fchool, I was favoured with a renewed vifita- 
tion of divine love, and grew uneafy with my fitua. 
lion. Home became defirable, although I knew it to 
be a houfe of affliftion ; and on my intimating it to 
my dear mother, my brother James fetched me there, 
fooner than (lie intended when I left her. 

Thus far 1 have commemorated the dealings of 
the Almighty with my foul, manifcfted principally in 
render mercy ; but now the day was coming wherein 
llis righteous judgments were manifcflcd againft all 

that 



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tliat was high, and oppofite to his pure fplrit ; in 
which day my wanderings from him, the Shepherd 
of Ifrael, were brought to my remembrance, and my 
fins fet in order before me ; which wrought great 
humihation and brokennefs of heart, w^ith flrong 
cries to him, that he would gracioufly pufs by my 
tranfgreffions, and receive me into covenant with him- 
felf. And akhough this difpendition was not agree- 
ftble to degenerated nature, which, hke Adam when 
he had tranfgrefi'cd, feeks to evade the condemnation; 
yet, becaufe of the glorv which I was favoured to 
difcover beyond it, and the divine love which I faw 
therein, I faid, in the fecret of my foul, " It is good 
*' for me to be under it ;'* and I was made willing 
patiently to abide the judgments of the Lord for 
fm, in order that I might witnefs remiHion thereof 
through the bapiifm of repentance, and the fan£lify- 
ing life or fpirit of his Son Jefus Chrift. And this 
mercy, in the appointed feafon of infinite wifdom, I 
experienced ; fo that my pafl tranfgreifions were 
blotted out of the book of remembrance, upon the 
terms of my future fteady perfeverance in the fear 
of God ; and in the fenfible exaltation of the attri- 
bute of divine mercy over judgment, my foul rejoiced 
with humble thankfnlnefs. Yet as when the children 
of Ifrael were delivered out of Egypt, and travelled 
through the wildernefs, they had there new trials 
of various kinds to encounter, infomuch that they 
thought their fufferings rather increafcd than dimi- 
niflied, and frequently feared perilhing in that dcfert 

land ; 



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land ; fo, being now relieved from the opprefiivc 
weight of pad a£lual tranfgrtfTion, and travelling 
after the faints promifed inheritance, which is a 
ftate of eftabliflimcnt in righteoufnefs, I had to pafs, 
to the attainment thereof, through many deep bap- 
tlfms and exercifes of faith and patience. I was 
now brought into my own heart, which, by reafon 
of the irregularity of its pafTions and inclinations, 
might well be compared to an uncultivated wilder- 
nefs ; through which I mud travel, and wherein 
I mull receive the law for the ordering of my out- 
ward conduifi: : and O ! the feafons of hunger and 
third, the toiTings and perplexities, the " thunder- 
" ings, lightnings, and tempers," which feemed to 
threaten dedru£^ti on, which I had to pafs through in 
that day, are to be had in cverlading remembrance j 
with thankfgiving to that divine hand which pre- 
ferved me from being fo far difmayed at them as to 
look back with a defire to return to that country, 
or date, from which I had happily efcaped. The 
adverfary here transformed himfelf as into an 
angel of light, and, under the fpecious appearance 
of righteoufnefs, reprcfcnted the way fo drait, that 
it was impoflible to walk therein and aft a^ a rational 
being ; thereby endeavouring to difcourage me, or 
prevent my attaining to the true gofpel liberty, in the 
ufe of the creatures, and the courfe of my conduft. 
Indeed, in this feafon of deep didrefs, both the 
*' earth and heavens were fliaken ;'* feme of thofe 
religious prmciplcs, which I had received by educa- 
tion. 



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lion, were called in queflion; and I was left witlioiit 
any foundation of certainty refpefling them ; nor 
could I attain to it by the teftimony of others, or 
the writings of fuch as had vindicated them to the 
World ; being to receive my convincement of them, 
from the deep ground of divine revelation. 

All which I have feen was neceflary to fit me for 
the fervice which was appointed me ; that the founda- 
tions of my faith might be laid in certainty, and that 
I might be able to teftify with boldnefs, that I had 
experienced what I afferted to be the truth ; and be 
alfo fuitably qualified to fympathize with, and minifler 
to, fuch as were in the like dates. I faw early for 
what ftation I was defigned in Chrifl:*s church. 
This manifeflation of the divine will, my foul received 
"with a good degree of refignation ; neverthelefs, 
until the Lord's time for putting me forth to fervice 
was come, I was frequently aflaulted with fears, left 
it fliould be required of me at fuch times, and in 
fuch manners, as would be doubly hard to fiefli and 
blood : and the adverfary was vciy bufy with his 
prefentations, intending thereby either to difpirit 
my mind from purfuing its proper duty, or, by 
hurrying me into what had the appearance thereof, 
to bring me into confufion. But, in all thefe " voices 
*' of the ftranger,'* there was a want of that cer- 
tainty, which I had concluded fliould attend fuch a 
difcovery of the divine will, and which I was happily 
led to look for ; and I was at length fl;rengthened 
to covenant with the Almighty, that whenever 

the 



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the evidence was clear and flrong, I would fubmit 
thereto. 

And here It may not be unprofitable to remark, 
that fome minds arc more liable to be thus affected 
than others. Such as have a flrong and quick imagi- 
nation, and whofe hearts have been deeply affefted 
with the exceeding fmfulncfs of fm, and of the love 
of God to mankindj whofe defires are flrong, that 
the one might come to an end, and the other abound 
in the earth ; it is difficult for thefe at all times 
(efpecially when young in religious experience) 
to keep the quiet habitation, wherein alone the 
voice of the true Shepherd is to be heard, and dif- 
tinguifhed from that of the flranger's. But as the 
will becomes gradually refigned to that of God, and 
the imagination in its natural working filenced, and 
the foul comes more conftantly to worfliip in the 
Lord's temple ; the adverfary in thefe falfe ap- 
pearances is bound, or if fuflered to prefent them, 
there is flrength acquired to fland flill and try the 
fpirits. This 1 have feen, in the light of truth, to 
be abfolutely neceffary before we move in the Lord's 
fervice ; the want of which has been productive of 
much confiifion, and adminillered caufe of reproach 
on our high and holy profefllon, to fuch who are 
fceking for an occafion to lay walle the belief in 
divine revelation. 

But to return : — Being come to the aforefaid 
date of refignation, I waited quietly to difcern the 
puttings forth of the divine hand, in a flaie of earneft 

prayer 



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prayer that I might not be fuffered to move before 
the proper time ; which I have good ground to 
beheve was heard and anfwered ; and that from the 
motion of divine hfe I was conftrained to fuppHcate 
the Almighty in our little meeting at Dudley, the 
tenth day of the Second month, 1748, being then 
newly entered the twenty-fccond year of my age. 
May fuch of the Lord's children, whom he appoints 
to the folemn important fervice of the miniflry, 
humbly and patiently wait to know v/hen to move 
therein ; as through negleft of it fome have ftept 
into it, before they have fully palled through the 
difpenfation of preparation for it ; and, if ever they 
have become ftrong in his fervice, they have con- 
tinued long in a flate of wcaknefs. Yet let none de- 
fpife " the day of fmall things.*' A few words Ipoken 
under divine direction, are often bleffed to thofe to 
whom the Mafter of the folemn affemblies dire<fts 

thevn. 

I continued to minifter, as the Lord was pleafed 

to give me ability, in great brokennefs of heart, 

and for a time in but a few words ; for great fear 

"was upon my fpirit left I ftiould minifter in the 

wifdom of the creature, which ever brings death, 

and begets its like : and, in a fenfe of this danger, 

ftrong were my cries to the Almighty, that what I 

handed forth to the people might be unmixed, let 

it appear ever fo fimple or defpi fable in the view 

of the worldly wife and learned. And as I then 

continued to move in fear and trembling, the Lord 

was 



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Was with me, and enlarged my underflanding, and 
increafed my fervice in the openings of truth : ac 
which his people rejoiced, and, in obedience to his 
requirings I felt fweet peace. Yet was my fpirit fre- 
quently in heavinefs, being humbled with many deep 
cxcrcifes, which I found profitable to eilabliili it in 
righteoufnefs, although painful to nature. And I 
leave it as an obfervation, that I have feldom, if ever, 
feen any ftand, and arrive to any confiderable degree 
of ufefulnefs in the church, whofe foundation have 
not been deeply laid in afflictions and exercifes ; 
whereby they are crucified with Chrift, and fhall 
therefore rife with him to glory and honour, in the 
prcfent as well as in a future flate. But in all my afflic- 
tions and deep baptifms, the Shepherd of Ifrael was 
with me, and preferved and fupported my fpirit to the 
honour of his own nature, to whom alone I could 
attribute the praife : for in thofe allotted days and 
years of tribulation, very little inftrumental help 
was afforded me j my lot being call in a quarter, 
where there were none near who were capable of 
giving me much affiftance or wife counfel, not 
having trodden the fame fteps. I fometimes thought 
my cafe was hidden from fome of the Lord's fervants 
who were concerned to vifit his heritage ; or clfc 
that they were in part retrained from minifterinc- 
to it ; and my tongue was much fealed in filcnce, 
for my exercifes were incommunicable. 

All this I faw to be of excellent ufe, as tlie 

contrary might have led to a dependance on the 

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fervants (which ever brings weaknefs); or have beeil 
productive of confufion, through my imparting my 
cafe to fuch as were not Jkilful to miniller to it, 
and who neverthelefs might have advifed therein. 
I have feen it to be profitable and neceiTary for fuch 
as are in a flatc of infancy in rehgion, to dwell 
with theu* cxercifes ; leaning fnnply on that arm, 
which alone is able to carry through them ; and, 
until the mind has acquired a depth of judgment to 
dillinguifli clearly who is on the Lord's fide, to be 
very cauiious to whom they communicate them j left 
they be wounded, by difcovcring thofe, whom they 
have chofen for their friends, to be enemies to the 
crofs of Chriil. Yet when the Lord direfts, in times 
of (^reat ftrait, to advife with fome experienced fer- 
vant, it will undoubtedly be advantageous ; and a 
fteady fympathizing friend is a great flrength and 
bleiBng, when it is afforded in divine wifdora. 

I am inclined to clofe this chapter with a little 
poem, which I wrote in my nineteenth yearj as it 
has been handed about in manufcript, and fuffered 
much by copying. It is even in print, and one 
whole verfe omitted. Between my eighteenth and 
twenty-fecond year I penned feveral fmall trads, all 
of a religious nature ; but foon after I appeared in 
the miniflry, I dropped my pen in regard to vcrfes. 
I do not fay it was a facrifice required ; but the 
continuing of the pruftice might have proved a 
fnarc fome way; it might have engaged my attention 
too much, or tended to make me popular, which 

I hav^ 



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I have ever guarded againfl:, perhaps too much fo 
in feme points ; but I was early afraid of my mind 
and fervices being tarniflied with vanity. And here 
I may add, that from the time I came from fchool, 
I read but Httle, fave religious books ; and after I 
appeared in the miniftry, until late in life, reading 
even them was much taken from me, except the 
fcripturcs : all which I believe was in divine wifdom, 
that I might not minifter from what I had gathered 
from religious writings; but might receive the argu- 
ments I was enabled to advance on behalf of the 
truth, by the immediate revelation of the Holy Spirit, 
And I can with truth fay, that the Lord has been to 
me, mouth and wifdom, tongue and utterance, to my 
own humbling admiration. May all the praife be 
given to him now and for ever 1 



A PRAYER FOR WISDOM. 

Maker fupreme, of heav'n and earth, 

Of fea, of air, and /ky ; 
O! thovi who gav'ft to all things birth, 

Lord, hear me when I cry. 

To Thee, invifible, I'll pray, 

Thou only righteous God ; 
And Thee, omnipotent, obey, 

And fear thy dreadful rod. 

B 1 Riches 



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Riches or life, I do not crave. 
Nor any tranfient things ; 

The one has wings, and in the grave 
Are laid the proudeft kings. 

*Tis heav'nly wifdom I admire ; 

'Tis this is my requeft : 
Oh, grant, great God, this my defirc, 

And I am fully blefl : 

Wifdom to worfliip thee aright, 

To underfland thy will. 
To do my duty in thy fight. 

And thy commands fulfil ; 

That when my fleeting fands arc run. 
And death fliall fet me free ; 

When the fhort thread of life is fpun. 
My foul may fly to thee : 

Where I fliall live eternally. 
And fear no end of time ; 

But praife thy name, enthron'd on high. 
Thou powerful God divine, 

Not with a weak and mortal voice. 

But in celeflial flrains ; 
In heav'n, the centre of my joys. 

And end of all my pains. 



CHAP. II. 



21 



CHAP. ir. 

HAVING now entered the lifl: of piiblick com- 
batants in the Lamb's army, I pretty foon be- 
came concerned to travel for the promotion of truth 
and righteoufnefs ; and for more than twenty years, 
had but little intermillion from gofpel labours. 

In the Fifth month, 1749 (old ftile) I left home, 
in order to vilit fome part of Wales ; in which 
journey my dear friend Lucy Bradley was made 
willing to accompany me (although, as (lie faid, flie 
knew not that her call to fervice was much farther 
than to ailiil me) ; with whom I travelled in fwect 
unity, flie being a true fympathizing friend, and deep 
travailler In fpirit, as well as rightly qualified pub- 
lickly to minifter. We vifited the meetings of 
Friends in Radnorfliire, Monmouthfliire, Glamor- 
ganQiire, Pembrokefliire, and part of North Walesj 
and in about feven weeks I returned home in peace 
and thankfulnefs, to my dear mother and relations; 
who had been made willing to give me up for 
truth's fike, and gladly received me back. In this 
journey the principal fliare of the publick fervice fell 
to my lot; wherein the Lord was evidently with me, 
ftrengthening for the work of the day to the honour 
of his own name; and the teflimoiiy of truth was 
fometimes exalted, in its ov>n authority, over the li- 
bcTtin ande hypocritical profeffors of it. The youth, 
B 1 and 



22 

and tender honcft-mlndcd, were vifitcd and refreflicd 
in divine love ; liberty and ftrength were afforded to 
declare it to thofe not of our fociety; and I had 
ground to hope that our labour was not entirely in 
vain: fome perfons being powerfully affe^led, who, 
I hope, long retained a fenfe of that vifitation; par- 
ticularly William Phillips from Cornwall, who was 
then upon a vifit to his relations at Swanfea. 

In lefs than a week after my return from this 
journey, I went to the circular yearly meeting for 
the feven weftern countries, which was held this 
year at Coventry, and was very large, and, in 
the main, fatisfaftory. It was attended by many 
valuable experienced miniflcrs, who were careful of 
laying hands fuddenly upon me ; although I had 
good reafon to believe that the mod weighty of them 
loved me ; but were fearful of hurting me by dif- 
covering too much of their approbation or affection; 
which fome minds, in the infancy of religious expe- 
rience, have not been able to bear. After my return 
from this meeting, I was ftrippcd of that ftrength 
wherewith the Almighty had been pleafed to clothe 
me; which, with fome other difcouragement I met 
with, funk me very low, infomuch that I was ready 
to doubt of all I had known, and call in quellion my 
commiffion to minifter : and my foul was attacked 
by the adverfary in fome of his mod fubtil appear- 
ances, and baptized into a cloud of darknefs. This 
difpenfation I afterwards faw to be ferviccable; the 
more fo, as before my return from my Wclfli jour- 
ney, I had a profpe^t of another into the weft of 

England ; 



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England ; for therein I forgot all my former fervices, 
was empiied of all felf-fufliciency, and became 
weak and depending as when I firft engaged in the 
weighty fervice of the minillry : and it lives in my 
experience, that thus the Lord will deal with his 
fervants, for their prefervation, that they may dwell 
in a continual fenfe, that the excellency is of Him j 
from whom proceeds wifdom, power, light, utter- 
ance, peace, and every good gift. 

My concern for the weft continuing and in- 
creafmg, I imparted it to my relations, who being 
willing to give me up (though forry to part with 
me), I fought for a companion, but could hear of 
none fuitable. This added to my exercife ; for it 
feemed very dangerous for fuch a child as I, to 
travel alone ; but after waiting as long as I durft, 
I laid my concern before Friends of our Monthly 
meeting, and requefted their certificate,* but told 
them that I knew of no companion; and if they had 
not been free to let me go alone, I believe I Ihould 
have been eafy to have waited longer ; but they 
gave me a certificate; and in the Eleventh month, 
1749, I left home in great humility and fear, be- 

• Should any one not acquainted with Friends difclpllne read 
thefc Memoirs, it is not improper to obferve, that, when s 
minifter, approved amongtt them, believes it his or her duty to 
vifit a dillant part of the nation. Sec. a certificate is given of the 
unity of Friends of the monthly meeting whereof fuch miiullct 
is a member, that Friends where they travel may be aflured that 
they do not move in fo weighty a fervice without the concur- 
rence of their Friends at home : alfo that the laying on of hands 
mentioned in the preceding page, is only to be undeiftood as a 
figurative exprcffioa. 

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24 

Ing accompanied by my dear brother James Pay ton, 
■who went with me to feveral meetings in our own 
county, and left me not without fome doubt on 
account of, the natural weaknefs of my conflitu- 
tion, which he feared might fufier in this win- 
ter's journey. I proceeded to Briftol, and from 
thence, through part of the counties of Wilts, 
Somerfet, Dorfer, and Devon, to Penzance in Corn- 
wall, and returned back to that city in the fpring. 

And although I went from home alone, I was not 
much without a fuitable companion, the Almighty 
putting it into the heart of one or other of his fer- 
vants to accompany me. Mary Fry, of Sutton in 
Wiltiliire, went with me through Dorfetfliire ; and 
Mary Pole, of Milverton in Somcrfetfliire, through 
Devonfliire and Cornwall; who were both very 
tender of me, and ferviceable to me. The latter 
was not in the miniflry, but a folid fympathizing 
friend, and true labourer in fpirit in meetings. 

I vifited the meetings of Friends pretty generally 
in Dorfetfliire, Devonfliire, and Coniwall; fome of 
which were attended by many people of other 
focieties ; before whom the Lord gave me boldnefs 
to teftify of his truth with good authority, and to 
lay open the falfc and dangerous opinions of fome 
profefTed Chriflians, particularly that of uncon- 
ditional election and reprobation; which dark prin- 
ciple was then likely to gain ground in thefe parts. 
I was concerned to appoint meetings at feveral 
places, where Friends had no meeting-houfes ; all 
which I hope had their fervicc. At Truro in 

Cornwall, 



25 

Cornwall, I had a fatisfa<n:ory meeting, although 
the people at that town had heretofore manifefted 
their diflike to Friends labouring among them ; but 
they behaved pretty peaceably now, and I had caufe 
to believe my fervice in this meeting tended to open 
the way for the circular yearly meeting to be held 
here; which it was in the year 1752, much to the 
fatisfaftion of Friends. At Bath, in my return, I 
was concerned to appoint a meeting for the ftrangers 
in town (it being the feafon for drinking the waters); 
to which fome of them came, and it was a memorable 
opportunity, the power of truth being exalted to the 
reducing of their light and airy fpirits, to fome degree 
of folidity; for which my foul bowed in thankfulnefs 
to Him who calls to and qualifies for his fervice. In 
this meeting a man fat oppofite to me, who wrote 
by intervals while I was fpeaking, and I appre- 
hended was taking down what I faid; but my fpirit 
was borne above looking at that, being bound to 
the teftimony of truth. 

After ftaying about a week at Briftol, I went for 
the Welili yearly meeting, which which was held 
this year at Brecknock, being accompanied by John 
Curtis, a valuable miniiler of Briflol, and divers 
other Friends. In our way we appointed meetings 
at Cacrleon. Pontypool, and Abergavenny ; at the 
firfl: of which places, I could not find that there had 
ever been a meeting before ; but the people behaved 
well, and I hope it ended to the fatisfaftion of the 
fenfible friends prefcnt. It was held upon a Firfl- 

day 



25 

day la the afternoon; and while we were in it, a 
nuinl)cr of people were going about the ftreet with 
a fiddle ; it being the cuflom in fome places in 
Wales, after what they call divine fervice, to en- 
tertain themfclves with mufick, or other diverfions. 
What an inconfiftency ! 

That at Abergavenny was large, and I hope of 
fen'ice, in opening the way of the teftimony 
amongft the people. Here a Prefbyterian preacher 
made fome dillurbance in the clofe of it. I thought 
his aim was to cloud the doctrine which had been 
preached, and (o prevent the people from being 
fliaken thereby from their old fentiments; but he 
was blamed by them, and I hope miffed his end. 
I had not much publick fervice at Brecknock, yet 
was glad I was there, for indeed it was a humbling 
lime to me. For although, in proportion to my gift 
and experience, the Almighty had eminently fa- 
voured me in this journey ; yer, on beholding the 
fervice and conduct of fome other of his minillers, 
and comparing mine with them, I was led to look 
upon myfelf but as a mean inflrument, and greatly 
to cfteem thefe my elders in the truth. O ! how 
fecretly does the Lord work, to the purifying of the 
hearts of fuch of his fervants who defire to be di- 
vcilcd of every high thought, and humbly to cart: 
down their crowns at his feet: v>hich was the ar- 
dent prayer of my foul, from the fcnfe of the mifer- 
able lofs fome had furtiained, in being puffed up 
.with fclf-conceit and the efleem of the people ; 

which 



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which I have fcen to be a very fallaciotis' line to" 
meafure one's fclf by: for fometimcs that which is 
highly applauded by them, is reproved by that 
Spirit which fearcheth all tilings. 

From Brecknock I returned to Briflol yearly- 
meeting, from v^hence 1 thought of returning home; 
but, to ray great difappointment, a concern refted 
upon me to proceed to the yearly meeting at Lon- 
don, in company with Rachel Wilfon, who came 
with me from Brecknock, and was without any 
companion in the miniitry. This brought a great 
exercife upon my mind, under the confideration of 
the concern it would bring upon my relations; who 
I knew were defirous that I might fteadily move m 
the counfel of God ; and perhaps might fear my 
running too faft, which I alfo dreaded; but find- 
ing 1 could not otherwife be eafy, I advifed with 
fome friends, and particularly with my ancient and 
honourable friend, Benjamin Kidd, who encouraged 
me therein. 

The Briftol yearly meeting ended fatisfaftorily, 
many valuable miniilers attended it, and the tefli- 
mony of Truth was meafurably exalted. It had 
pleafed the Lord in the feveral times I had been in 
this city, to favour me with confiderable liberty in 
the exercife of my gift, whereby a door was opened 
to me in the minds of Friends there ; which favour 
I hope I received with due thankfulnefs. 

Being clear of Briftol, I proceeded to London 
attending feveral meetings in the way appointed 

by 



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by Rachel Wilfon ; at one of which wc met 
with our vakiable friend, Daniel Stanton from 
America, with whom we went in company to Lon- 
don ; where we were affeftionately received by 
many Friends, and I had good ground to believe 
my coming to that city, was in the will and wifdom 
of the Almighty, though greatly in a crofs to my 
own. 

After the yearly meeting, I returned directly 
home, through mercy in peace, and was there 
gladly received by my dear mother, &c. 

Upon a review of this journey, I found abundant 
caufe to adore the wifdom, love, and care, of the 
heavenly Shepherd ; which was eminently mani- 
fefted in his conducing, dealing with, and pre- 
ferving, me, a poor weak inexperienced child. The 
many dangers I had efcaped, the many deep exer- 
cifes I had been fupported under, with the multi- 
tude of favours conferred on fo unworthy an ob- 
jeft, flruck me with admiration, and raifed this 
acknowledgement, that He " had not dealt with 
" me according to my defert, but according to the 
*' multitude of his mercies." 

My return from this journey was in the Fourth 
month (old fl:ile), 1750. I ftaid about home until 
the fall of the year, when I found my mind drawn 
to Bath, principally on the account of fuch as re- 
forted thither to drink the waters ; to which city 
I went, and fpent a few weeks therein, and at 
Briflol, &c. 1 hope profitably. I palled the winter 

of 



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of this year chiefly at and about home, and amongft 
my relations. 

In the fpring of the year 1751, I attended the 
yearly meeting for Wales, held at Newport in 
Shropfliire, which was large and divinely favoured. 
My dear friend Samuel Fothergill attended it, to 
whom I imparted a concern, which I had for fome 
time been under, of vifiting Ireland ; in which he 
encouraged me, and advifed that I would endeavour 
to get to Dublin half-year's meeting; and I had 
afterwards caufe to believe his advice was right 5 
for, although I did not arrive timely to attend it, 
yet, had I not come in time to have confulted Mary 
Peifley before flie left the city, I might not have 
been favoured with her company. Accordingly 
I very foon fet forward, my brother accom- 
panying me to Liverpool, and feeing me on board 
a velTel boimd for Dublin, in which he left me 
to the protection of Providence. We failed down 
the liarbour, but the wind proving contrary, lay 
that night at anchor, and the next day returned to 
Liverpool; where I was content to wait, until He 
who fent me forth was pleafed to afford the means 
of my releafe from my native land ; which was in 
a few days, when I was favoured with a good 
paffage, for which my fpirit was thankful. I took 
up my lodgings in Dublin at John Barclay's, by 
whom, though perfonally unknown, I was kindly 
received. 

Sooa 



30 

Soon after I landed I heard that my dear friend 
Mary Peifley was in town. I told her that, as I 
was without a companion, I (liould be glad if flic 
-could find freedom to go with me a part of the 
journey; to which fhe faid little then, but before fhe 
left the city, fhe informed me that fhe had for fome 
time felt drawings to vifit the weflern and northern 
provinces, and was free to join me in thefe parts; 
•with which I thankfully concurred. It is worthy 
remarking, that the evening before I landed, fhe 
being under the influence of heavenly goodnefs, 
and in that flate refigned to go this journey, it 
appeared to her that a companion would be fent 
her from England. Thus docs the Lord mercifully 
provide all things necefTary for fuch as trufl in him, 
and are willing to follow whitherfoever he leads 
them. 

Mary Peifley returned home from Dublin, in or- 
der to prepare for the journey. I ftaid a few 
days, and then left it with an intention to vifit two 
meetings in the county of Wicklow, and return 
back to the city. Several Friends accompanied 
me in a coach, which I mention as being fmgularly 
providential, for the day we left town I was taken 
ill; but as a meeting was appointed at Wicklow, 
we went forward, and reached the place that night. 
Next day I was much worie, yet attended the 
meeting and had fome little fervice therein, though 
under a heavy load of ficknefs; which continuing, 
I returned the next day to Dublin (which I could 
a » not 



31 

tiot have done on horfeback), where I was laid up 
for about two weeks; in all which time my mind 
was remarkably refigned to this difpenfation of Pro- 
vidence; feeling fweet peace in giving up to come 
the journey, even if it were the Lord's will I fhould 
lay down my natural life in that city; having a com» 
fortable hope that it would have been in peace ; 
but as he faw meet, in wifdom and mercy, to raifc 
me from this ftate of weaknefs, my earned delire 
was, that ray longer continuance in mutability might 
be to the honour of his ever worthy name. 

In the time of my indifpofition, I lodged at Ro« 
bert Clibborn's, whofe wife was exceedingly tender 
of me. John Barclay and two more in his family 
were ill, which rendered it improper for me to rc^ 
turn to his houfe. I (laid fome Httle time in Dublin 
to recover my ftrength, and my friend John Bar- 
clay's indifpofition proving mortal, I attended the 
meeting held on account of his funeral ; which was 
very large, and attended with a good degree of fo- 
lemnity. After this, I left the city accompanied 
by a folid young woman, named Elizabeth Carlton, 
not in the miniftry, who was with me about three 
weeks; in which time I pafTed through the meetings 
of Friends in the counties of Carlow and Wexford, 
to Watcrford ; where I was met by my dear friend 
Mary Peifley, who was my companion through moft 
of the remainder of this journey : and I had caufe 
thankfully to acknowledge the mercy of Provi- 
dence in affording me one fo fteady and expe- 
rienced, 



32 

rlcnccd, from whofe conduft I might gather inflriic- 
tion. We travelled together in great unity and 
alTeclion, which rendered the trials we met with in 
the journey the more eafy. Thefe were confider- 
able, refulting in part from the nature of our 
fervices ; which were moflly pointed to the Hates 
of perfons or meetings, and expofed us to cenfurc 
from fpirits unfubje£ted to the power of truth ; 
but our good Mafter fupported us through all, and 
nearly united our fpirits to the living confcientious 
profeffors of it, in that nation. It was fometimes- 
my lot in this journey to appoint meetings in places 
where there were none of our Society, in which I 
had the unity of my companion and friend ; and 
they moflly ended to fatisfaftion, the Almighty 
proportioning wifdom and ftrength to the occafions. 
The 27th of the Seventh month I returned to 
Dublin, in hope that I might in a few days take 
my pafTage for my native land; but two women 
friends from England, who had been vifiting Ire- 
land, being expe(5ted in town foon, and to return 
home, I was free to wait a little for their com- 
pany; but therein was difappointed, for one of the 
friends got a fiill from her horfe in Dublin flrcet, 
by which llie was difiibled from purfuing her in- 
tention of going home. So I put to fea, but the 
wind proving contrary, -we were forced back, after 
having been beating againft it almofl four days. 
This funk my fpirits confiderably, but on my return 
fervice opened for me, ^uid the wind being ftill 

contrary. 



3a 

contrary, I took a little turn in the country to 
fiitisfac^ion, and attended the province meeting for 
Leinfler, where I was met by my dear friend Mary 
Peifley; with whom I went to her father's houfe, 
and ftaid about a week, and we went in company 
to the half-year's meeting at Dublin ; in which fo- 
lemnity I was favoured to minifter in the authority 
of truth ; and after taking an affectionate leave of 
my near friends, and efpecially of my companion, 
who was flill more near to me in the union of the 
divine Spirit, I failed for England the 12th of the 
Ninth month, 1751,* arrived at Parkgate 14th, 
and reached home the i6th, to the mutual rejoicing 
of myfelf and relations. 

After my return my fpirit refted fome time in a 
quiet fettlement, and great enjoyment in the truth ; 
which was an abundant compenfation for all my 
labour and fufferings attending the journey. Be- 
fore I left Ireland, I found my mind drawn to vifit 
the quarterly meeting of minifters and elders in the 
province of Ulfter by an Epiflle ; and foon after 
my return home, I was alfo concerned to write a 

• It feems worthy of noting, that although I did not make 
my paffage when I firft went to fea, my attempting it might 
have been of ufe to the captain, who was a religious-minded 
man, with whom I had converfation. He fuffered no profane 
language aboard his veffcl. He faid he had difficulty to pre- 
vent it, but he made it a rule ; and that the failors might obey 
his orders, fometimes aflced their advice, and when they con- 
curred with him in judgment, they quietly fubmitted to orders. 

c few 



34 

few lines to a people at CardilY in Wales, who 
had in part relinquiflied their former profellions of 
religion, and fat together in filence, but were in an 
unfettled ftate. 

This winter I found my mind drawn in the love 
of truth to vifit the meetings of Friends^ in London, 
and experienced true peace in the difcharge of that 
duty. My fervice was acceptable to Friends, and 
I returned home in thankfulnefs of heart to the 
Lord, unto whom is due the praife of all his works. 
I lodged with my former fchoolmiflrefs, Rachel 
Traftbrd, who now rejoiced in receiving me as a 
minifter of Chrlll:. 

Thus far have I wrote as things have been re- 
vived in my remembrance, having made little or no 
minutes, whilfl on my journies, of my labours and 
exercifes ; but in my next journey which was into 
Scotland, my mind feemed direfted to make fome 
remarks as I went along ; which, as they are ex- 
prcfTive of the nature of my fervice, and the 
manner wherein divine Wifdom led me in the va- 
rious changes of feafons, I infert almofl entire. 



C 11 AT. m. 



35 



C H A P. III. 

Borne Minutes of ;;/v yourney into Scotland^ in Com- 
pany with Mary Abbot, ofNorthamptonJhire, 

ON the 3d of the Fourth month, 1752 (new 
ftile), we went to Coalbrook Dale, and had 
a meeting there the fame evening, in which we 
had good fatisfadlion : the teftimony of truth flowed 
to the youth, fome of whom were carried away 
with the vanities of this world, and the tender feed 
of life in them was oppreflcd. 

The 4i:h, we went to Shrewfbury, and that 
evening, accompanied by fome friends of the town, 
vifited two friends who were imprifoned for tithes : 
in which vifit we were favoured with the flowings 
of the refrefliiiig flreams of divine love, wherein 
the fpirits of fome of us were united and comforted. 

The 5th, being the Firft of the week, we at- 
tended two meetings in that town. In the morning, 
the teftimony of truth was in a good degree fet 
over the minds of the people of other focieties, as 
well as of our own; although there is in this place 
a dark fpirit; but the Lord was gracioufly pleafed 
to bear our fpirits above it. 

In the afternoon, a pretty many people of other 
focieties came in ; but it conliftcd with infinite wif- 

c 2 dom 



36 

dom to difiippoint their expectations ; and as 1 
abode in filcncc, I had peace. I thought the caufe 
of this trial might be an example to one of tliat 
place, who was forward to minifler, but without 
divine authority. 

In the evening, we again vifited the prifoners j 
and the 6th, went towards Warrington, where we 
came the 7th, and fo proceeded the 8th and 9th 
to the quarterly meeting at Lancafter ; wherein 
I thought the expectation of the people was con- 
fiderable towards me, who was a ftranger in the 
country; under which I fuffered, but patiently bore 
my teftimony in filence ; being deeply affeftcd 
with a fenfe of the prevalency of that fpirit which 
w^ould exalt the creature. I was refreflied under 
the miniftry of that deep and experienced fervant of 
Jefus Chrift, John Churchman of America, whom, 
with his companion John Peraberton, we met at 
this place. 

The nth, we went to Kendal, where the quar- 
terly meeting for Weftmoreland was held ; wherein 
John Churchman had good fervice, but I was flill 
pretty much filent ; in which difpenfation I felt the 
refining power of the Almighty near, and was fenfible 
of its fervice, in emptying my foul of old things, 
and preparing it for the frefh reception of the open- 
ings of truth. 

The 13th, in company with John Churchman, 
and many other friends, we fet forward for the yearly 
meeting for tlie four northern counties, which was 

held 



37 

held this year at Carliflc. In our way thitlier my- 
felf and companion fluid a meeting at Penritli, 
which was prcviouily appointed by Kendal Friends, 
and was attended by many people of other focieiies ; 
and I believe would have been of good fervice, had 
it not been for fome, with whom difcerning Friends 
had not unity, intruding into the fervice of the mi- 
niftry. 

At Carlifle, my fpirit was fet at liberty, and I 
laboured weightily, and was much favoured in the 
enlargement of truth. There feemed a great 
flruggle between the two powers of light and dark- 
nefs, and what greatly added to the exercife of 
fcnfible Friends was, that the power of darknefs 
difcovered itfelf in the appearance of miniflry, 
through fome deluded fpirits; but, through divine 
favour, truth had the afcendency. 

We flaid at Carlifle over the next Firfl-day, in 
which time we vifited feveral families of Friends to 
fatisfaftion : the meetings on the Firfli-day were at- 
tended by many of the town's people, and we were 
favoured with an evidence of being in our proper 
place and fervice, which was renewed caufe of 
thankfulnefs. 

From the 20th to the 23d, we vifited feveral 
meetings in Cumberland, wherein the expeftation 
of the people was great ; but my fatisfa^tion and 
rejoicing flood in abiding with the feed of God, 
which being opprefled in the fouls of fome pro- 

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38 

fcffors of tnuh, the teflimony of It did not rife in 
fuch authority, as at fome other times. 

The 24th, v.-e went a long day's journey to 
Kelfo in Scotland, at which place my fpirit was 
forely diftrcfled on account of truth's being almofl 
forfaken by its profeflbrs, who were but few in that 
town. We got fome comfort in vifiting a fick friend, 
whofe fun and hulband we thought in a hopeful 
way. 

The 27th, we went to Ormfton, and in the way 
thither, my mind was drawn to the eaftward ; but 
when we came to our quarters, I could fee but little 
likelihood of getting any afliftance in vifiting the 
people that way. 

The 28th, we had a meeting at Ormfton, which 
was exceedingly crowded, but fatisfaclory. Being 
flill thoughtful about the people to the eaflward, 
John Chrlfty (at whofe houfe we lodged) told me 
that if I would ftay till the 30th, he would accom- 
pany me to any one place I (hould choofe ; which 
I was free to do, and we went to North Berwick, 
where I knew not that any meeting of Friends had 
been held before. We had a dark fpirit in fome 
to encounter, before we could get a place to meet 
in, but at lafl we got a large granary. My fpirit 
was inexprelTibly loaded before meeting, but in pa- 
tience bent towards the centre of its ftrength, in 
which ftate I went to the meeting. There came 
many people, and I admired at the folidity of their 

behaviour. 



39 

behaviour. The Lord was with us, and exalted 
the teflimony of his truth, and \vc left tlic town iu 
great fatisfaftion, and I hope true thankfulnefs. 

We returned that night to Ormfton, and the 
next day, the ifh of the Fifth month, went to Edin- 
burgh, where we lodged at William Miller's. We 
attended the meetings in that city on the next Firfl- 
day. That in the morning was pretty large, al- 
though tiiere are very few who profefs with us in 
that city, and although cloudy in the beginning, 
yet the Almighty was pleafed to favour in the con- 
clufion, in exalting the teflimony of his truth. In 
the afternoon the houfe was exceedingly crowded, 
and the people very unfettled ; but after a long 
time of exercife, life rofe meafurably, wherein the 
fpring of gofpel miniltry was opened. 

The 5th, we went to Linlithgow, where was no 
meeting of Friends. We got a fmall meeting in an 
inn with the town's people, which was low, though 
not quite dead; and returned at night to Edin- 
burgh, having travelled about twenty-eight Scotch 
miles that day. In the morning before I fet out, I 
found myfelf very poorly, and in the journey I got 
worfe, and the next day Hill worfe; yet I attended 
a meeting which was appointed for the profefibrs of 
truth only, whofe fl:ates were rnoflly diflrefhng, a 
libertine fpirit having carried away the youth, and 
an eafy indifferent one prevailing amongft thofe far- 
ther advanced in years; both which were fpoken 
to. 

c 4 My 



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My illnefs flUl increafed, and, proving a fever, re. 
duccd me to a flare of great weaknefs, and I ex- 
perienced much poverty of fpirit; but my frequent 
petition to the Ahnighty was for patience, and he 
was pleafed to favour me with quietnefs and re- 
iignation. 

The 25th, we went from Edinburgh towards the 
north. I was flill very weak, but gradually ga- 
thered flrength, and was encouraged to prefs for- 
ward; which I did as far as there were any meetings 
of Friends, and returned to England by way of 
Perth and Glafgow. The number of Friends in 
Scotland is fmall, and the life of truth low in fomc 
of them; but among the few, there are fome who 
fland as monuments of the divine power, in this 
barren and almoft defolate land; wherein however 
there is an open door in many places, to preach the 
gofpel to thofe not profelTing with us. 

From Glafgow we went to Carlifle without hold- 
ing any meetings. The firlT: night we lodged at Stir-. 
ling, where my fpirit was exercifed refpe£ting the 
holding of a meeting ; but having only one young 
man with us, not the mod fleady as a Friend, and 
it appearing to be a high profefling place, I fuffered 
cowardice to prevail, which occafioned future dif- 
trefs : there was time enough for an evening meet- 
ing after we came to our inn ; and I think the 
landlord would have granted us his large dining- 
room. In the morning we proceeded forward, a 
long day's journey, and dangerous roads ; lodged 

at 



41 

at a very poor lonely Scotch inn upon a chaff bed ; 
our bed-room a ground floor, and no faftcning to 
the door ; and there being men in the houfe drink- 
ing, we were not quite eafy with our fituation, but 
through divine favour, we went to fleep, and were 
preferved from harm. We rode through much 
heavy niin from Glafgow to this place, which had 
fwelled the river Erik fo much, that it was not 
thought fdfe to attempt to pafs it the night we 
came there; but next morning we crofled it in two 
branches: it had a dreadful appearance, the water 
looked very muddy, the llream wide, deep, and ra- 
pid ; but we had careful guides, and through fa- 
vour of Providence got fafe over the lyih of the 
Sixth month, and came to Carlifle the fame day. 
And here I may note to the honour of Scotland, 
that in all the time I was in it, I do not recollect 
hearing an oath or a curfe uttered, except the word 
faith might be accounted an oath, which was fpoken 
by a foldier. Alas, for England ! the flreets of 
whofe towns echo with moil profane language, to 
the lliame and condemnation of its magriftrates, as 
well as its wicked inhabitants. At Carlifle I parted 
from my companion, who was concerned to vifit 
fome of the northern counties, and I, to attend 
the quarterly meeting at York ; where I came the 
22d, taking meetings in my way, at Penrith, Raby, 
and Haby. The lail, being a monthly meeting, was 
pretty large, and I believe many fouls were re- 
freflied therein : the teilimony of truth rofe in con- 

liderable 



42 

fidcrable ftrcngth and clearncfs; and the meeting 
concluded in a fenfe of heavenly fweetnefs, which 
was again renewed in the women's meeting. My 
fpirit was humbly bowed in thankfulnefs, that my 
lot was cafl: there that day. 

At York I met with my dear friend Ann Fothcr- 
gill from London, and many other friends whom I 
dearly loved, who were glad to fee me returned to 
my native land, the more fo from a report having 
prevailed in England, that I was dead.* Here my 
mind was turned to confider the wonderful loving- 
kindnefs of Providence manifefted in this journey; 
and, confidering my weak ftaie of health through a 
great part of it, I thought it miraculous that I 
fliould fo foon accomplifli it; fuch a fatigue feem- 
ing no way proportioned to my ftrength. But 
with God all things are poflible ; therefore have 
his fervants caufe to trufl in his holy arm of power. 

The quarterly meeting at York was mercifully 
attended with the prefence of the Mafter of our 
folemn afTemblies; the tedimony of truth was ex- 
alted, and the fpirits of his people united in gofpel 
fellov/fliip. 

The 25th, I went to Malton, accompanied by my 
dear friend Sarah Taylor of Manchefler. We had a 

* I think it worthy noting, that Samuel Fothergill, being at 
London yearly-meeting, when this report was current, on a 
friend's bringing him a fuppofcd confirmation of the truth of 
it, paufed awhile, and bid her tell the perfon who informed 
her, from him. She is not dead ; which was foon confirmed by 
an account frogi Scotland. 

meetir'T 



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meeting there that evening, and the 26th went to 
Scarborough, and that evening vifited a young 
man, who I thought was near his end ; but wc 
had Httle to fay to him, his condition being lament- 
ably flupid. I thought intemperance was the caufc 
of his indifpofition, and found afterwards I was not 
miftaken. O ! the deplorable eifefts of this de- 
grading vice on the body, foul, and temporal fub- 
ftance, of numbers who unhappily indulge in it; 
whofe faculties are debafed below thofe of the 
brute animals ; and fo (lupified as not to be roufed 
to the mod important work of their foul's falvation. 
It lays men open to every temptation, and reduces 
many from opulent circumftances to extreme po- 
verty. It is dcftrufVive of every delicate focial en- 
joyment ; it often emaciates the body, deprives 
the foul of its highefl good, the divine Prefencc, 
whilfl in time; and if continued to the end of it, 
finally excludes it from Chrifl's pure kingdom of 
everlafting blifs. Alas! that men fliould indulge 
in it to their fliame. Solomon faith truly, * " Wine 
" is a mocker, ftrong drink is raging, and whofo- 
*' ever is deceived thereby is not wife ;" again, 
*' f Who hath wo ? who hath forrow ? who hath 
*' contentions? who hath babbling? who hath 
" wounds without caufe ? who hath rednefs of 
" eyes ? They that tarry long at the wine, that go 
" to feek mixt wine. Look not thou upon the 
** wine when it is red, when it giveth his colour 



• Pro. XX. 1. f Ibid xxiii. 29, 30, 31, and 32. 



(C 



m 



44 

" in the cup, when it moveth itfelf aright. At the 
*' laft it biteth hke a ferpent, and ftingeth Hke an 
« adder." 

The 27th, being Firfl-day, we attended the 
meetings. In the morning, we were much fa- 
voured with the evidence of truth in our fervice : 
feveral were there not of our Society who behaved 
well, and I believe went away fatisfied. My con- 
cern was to {hew them the difference betwixt true 
and falfe faith, and the tendency of each ; with 
fome other truths, which immediately opened in my 
underftanding. In the afternoon, the meeting was 
large, but the Lord faw meet to difappoint the ex- 
pectations of the people, and manifefl: both to them 
and us, that without him we can do nothing in 
his fervice; for neither of us had a word to fay to 
them; but I was concerned in fupplication, and was 
abundantly rewarded, in fubmitting quietly to this 
difpenfation of divine wifdom. In the evening, wc 
vifited two friends who could not attend meetings, 
by reafon of age or indifpofition; and next morning, 
another friend in a very low eftate of mind, with 
whom we had a good opportunity, and left him 
better than we found him; and I afterwards heard 
that from that time, he was reflored. That afternoon 
we departed in peace from Scarborough, and re- 
turned to Malton, fo to York, Leeds, Rawden, 
Bradford, and Halifax; in all which places I met 
with a fhare of exercifes, and, I thought, was moflly 
very low in the miniftry; but had the confolation to 

behevc 



45 

believe that what I flammered out was fulted ta 
the dates of the people; which is a proof of true 
minillry. 

The 7th of the Seventh month, we came to 
Manchefter, where I left Sarah Taylor j the loth, 
I went to Warrington, and had a meeting there 
that evening, wherein I was Clent as to teilimony. 

The I ith, I went to Liverpool, in my way flopped 
to take fome refrefliment at Prefcot, and found my 
mind exercifed for the people of that town, whereia 
there was no meeting of Friends ; but went on for 
Liverpool, and next day was at two meetings there, 
and vifited a friend in diftrefs, in all which I had 
good fatisfa^lion. In the evening, finding a con- 
cern for Prefcot flill to remain, I propofed to 
Friends, the having of a meeting there the next 
morning, in my way to Warrington; which, though 
fome difficulty was darted, was accompliflied, and a 
blefTed opportunity it was ; the Lord's power being 
largely revealed, and the people behaving folidly, 
although I fuppofe, a meeting of Friends had not 
been held in the town for very many years. 

In the evening, I had a meeting in Warrington. 
The 14th, I went to iMorley, my dear friend Samuel 
Fothergill, and feveral other friends accompanying 
me, and divers others meeting us from Manchefter: 
and the Lord, in his wonderful mercy, was pleafed 
to open the freih fpring of his love, and favour us 
with a fweet opportunity together therein : in a 
thanlvfuJ fcnfe whereof we parted from each other; 

and 



and I came, by way of Stafford and Atherfloii, 
home the 20th, where I was gladly received by 
my dear and worthy mother, ^'c. After fomc 
little time of fettlemcnt, my mind was directed to 
take a view of my late journey, in the courfe 
whereof I difcovered the wonderful loving-kindnefs 
of God largely manifefted; but was for a time 
much diftrelTed on account of not having had a 
meeting at Stirling, as before hinted: under which 
diflrefs my foul ardently defired that for the fu- 
ture I might be careful to difcharge my duty ; for 
I found it a heavy burden not to be clear from the 
blood of the people. 

In a few weeks after my return from this jour- 
ney I went to our quarterly meeting at Shipfton; 
which was eminently favoured with the prefence of 
the Mofl High. 

In the fall of the year I was obliged to accom- 
pany ray fifler to Bath, for the benefit of her 
health; in which city I was the mod affeftingly 
dipped into a flate of poverty, that ever I had 
known myfeif to be, which, being joined by great 
weakncfs of body, was hard to bear, yet I believe 
not without its peculiar fervice. 

I vifited Briftol meeting twice in this journey, 
where I was made to tafte of the poverty and weak- 
nefs, which appears in many there, through unfaith- 
fulnefs. It was indeed a time of mourning to the 
fcrvants of the Lord, while thofe who v. ere the 
caufe of it required of them a (ong-^ but they were 

court rained 



47 

conflralned for the mofl: part to bear their burdens 
ill folemn filence. 

At Bath I fuffcred much under a libertine fpirit, 
which was very apparent both amongd thofe who 
profeffed truth, and others in that place. I had fe- 
veral teftimonies of clofe reproof to bear to friends, 
and fome pretty open fervice with ftrangers in town, 
and upon the whole had caufe of thankfulnefs ad- 
miniflered; the Lord rewarding my faithfulnefs and 
fufferings with peace in the end; and I returned 
home in a much better ftate of health than I left it; 
the life of the waters having been of fervice to me, 
though of little to my fifter. But now another trial 
of faith came upon me, which was the near ap- 
proach of a vifit to Friends in America, which had 
appeared in profpeft for about a year ; with an ap- 
prehenfion that I miift go with my dear friend 
Mary Peifley, who I believed was preparing for 
that fervice : yet I never gave her any hint of ac- 
companying her, being defirous that if it muft be 
my lot, it might be evidently pointed by the finger 
of Providence. 

On my return home I received a letter from her, 
wherein Ihe defired to be informed, whether I 
knew of any woman friend going to America from 
England, and hinted her concern for that quarter 
of the world. This fluck clofe to my mind, yet I 
kept it to myfelf for fevcral weeks, and then com- 
municated it to my dear mother, who heard it with 

a becomino- 



48 

a becommg refignatlon, telling me it was not en- 
tirely unexpc61cd to her. 

And although it was exceeding hard, to the na- 
tural part in her, thus to part with me in her de- 
clining years; efpecially as (lie fo tenderly loved 
me as a child, as well as in the truth ; fhe freely 
gave me up to the divine requiring, eameftly de- 
firing that the Lord might be my direcler and pre- 
ferver. 

Upon this, I wrote to my dear friend Mary 
Peifley. Some extracts of my letter to her, with 
her anfwer, follow. 

Catherine Payto7i to Mary Pei/ley, 

My dear friend. 

It is not becaufe I forgot thy affeftlonate requefl: 
of hearing from me foon, that I have fo long poft- 
poned a reply to thy lafl acceptable favour ; but 
when it came here I was from home (as I hope 
thou art already advifed by a few lines 1 wrote 
from Bath), and the fequel of this will difcover my 
reafon for not writing thee immediately on my re- 
turn. 

With pleafure I obferved that thy health was 
better than heretofore, and hope the bleiTmg is 
flill continued, fo that by the afTiftancc of heavenly 
goodnefs, thou hafl; been and fliil maycft be capa- 
ble to perform the duty required, with a degree of 
eafe and chcerfulnefs, to which a good (liare of 

health 



49 

health greatly contributes; although it mufl: be con- 
feffed with humble gratitude, that the Lord is to 
his fcrvants ftrength in weaknefs, of body as well 
mind. 

What we have fecn of the exaltation of his 
arm of power in this refpe^l, may encourage us to 
perfevcrance, and a ftcady dependency thereon; 
and filence the voice of nature, which fometimes 
infmuates that we are not able to perform what 
is required; for we have good caufe to believe no- 
thing is impollible with Him who has called us; but, 
through his power communicated, we may perfectly 
perform his will. And fuppofe our race to be at- 
tended with weaknefs, pain, anxious concern, tra- 
vail of foul, and inconveniency to the body; can it 
ever equal the incomparable fuifcrings of the Cap- 
tain of our falvation ? Oh! how does the con- 
fideration of the tribulating path he invariably 
trod, ftifle the pleadings for eafe and pleafure ? For 
fhall we, who dare to afpire to no higher title than 
fervants, expeft to be better accommodated than 
was our Lord r Shall we fupinely fettle in the out- 
ward pofldTions afforded us, when he laborioufly 
trod the wine-prefs alone, and that for our fakes? He 
was deftitute of a place of refidence, and had not 
where to lay his head, though Lord of all ; and 
although he could limit the power of Satan, yea, 
totally bind him, yet fuffered the contradiflion of 
fniners againfl himfelf, as well as a feries of deep 
temptations. Let us be united to the fufferings in- 

D anitc 



50 

» 

finite Wifdom allots, remembering the blelTmg dropt 
on fuch as endure afili^tions. 

I know to whom I am writing, and beheve that 
thou art much farther advanced than myfelf ii) this 
glorious refignation to the divine will ; but thus 
much I may fay, that, as I have feen, in a degree, 
into this happy flate of conftant devotion, I ardently 
defire to be made a partaker therein. 

I rejoice to find that unity, and fympathy of fpirit, 
'which fo rejmarkably attended us when prefent, 
fubfifts now abfent; and thought my wiih in my 
lafl was anfwered in the fenfe thou hadfl of my 
flate. Oh! may we both be preferved near to the 
fountain of life, and then we muil be near each 
other in the fellowfliip of the gofpel, which diflancc 
of fpace cannot hinder, nor time efface; but it will 
centre with our fpirits in that unchangeable (late of 
felicity we humbly hope for. 

I now come to anRwr thy lafl requefl, which 
will fliew the caufe of my filence, viz. Whether 
I know of any woman friend who was going from 
England to America.^ I told thee J had a hint 

of 's inclination, the fame I had of , bui 

know not that cither is more than fuppofition, for 
I do not hear that cither are preparing to fet for- 
ward, and have heard of no one elfe. 

But ray dear friend, I am almoft at a lofs to fin4 
terms to exprefs the laborious thought which has 
poffeffed my foul ; for it feems to me, that Provi- 
vknce deiigns I iliould accompany thee j unto which, 

if 



51 

if way may be made for me, and an unquedionablc 
evidence given that it is right, I am at lad re- 
figned ; although it be bin to be a fcrvant of fcr- 
vants ; but he only knows who difcovers the in- 
ward ftruggle betwixt flefli and fpirit, with what 
reluctance I fliall, if it mufl: be (o, part from my 
dear relations, efpecially my dear and honoured 
mother, unto whom I have communicated the pain- 
ful thought. She heard it with becoming refigna- 
tion, being determined to give me up to the di- 
vine requiring ; only defires to be convinced it is 
fuch, which I hope is but an allowaWe requeft. 
I have waited to have the thing a little fettled on 
her mind, and (lie ycflerday gave me leave to in- 
form thee of it. 

And now my dear friend, I intreat thee to weigh 
it well, and as difmterefledly as poflible, and give mc 
thy thoughts thereupon with all the freedor^ which 
our friendiliip, and the nature of the cafe, requires, 
not concealing one doubt j for I am exceedingly 
afraid of being deceived, and would willingly be 
convinced, if this appearance is but for the proving 
of my fubmiffion. But however it may be, I find 
peace in (landing refigned, and truft my good Mailer 
will rightly condu6l me. 

Notwithftanding what I have before faid, if any. 
companion oflfers with whom thou had fi-eedom to 
}oin, purfue thy journey, and leave me to Provi- 
dence, who, I believe will take care of me. 

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52 



Some Estra6ls of Mary PeiJJefs Lctlcr to Catberwe 
Phillips y in Anfwcr to the foregoing. 

My dearly beloved in the Lord, 
This goes with the falutation of my bell love, 
and may inform thee, that I received thy two very 
acceptable favours of the Tenth and Twelfth 
month. The laft came firfl: to hand, for I did not 
get that from Bath till laft week ; yet was it very 
acceptable to me, and a flronger confirmation of 
what thou mentions in the latter part of thy laft 
being right, if my concern is fo. For the baptifm 
thou there defcrlbes as into a cloud of darknefs, 
bears a juft refemblance to what my fpirit pafled 
through, before I had a diftinft difcerning of the 
near approach of the journey which is now before 
me : and agrees with the experience of that great 
inftrument John Churchman, as he wrote to me 
before he had any knowledge of my concern, but 
what he received by fympathy; which was fome 
ftrength to me, and what I greatly defired. Thy 
laft came to hand about two weeks after its date, 
which I fliould have anfwered fooner, but that I 
waited for his anfwer, being willing to comply 
with thy requeft* in confuking him, which I had 
not done before : and notwithftanding his writing 
as he did, his reply was, ' That he had thoughts 

• That part of my letter to Mary Peifley I omitted to tran- 
fcribe in the before-written abllraCl, 

' of 



53 

* of my being under fucli an exerclfe, and therc- 
' fore my letter was not furprifmg to him; but that 
' he had little to fay to it, well knowing that it is 
' fafe for us all to attend to that divine inflrii^tion 
' which can alone make truly knowing In our lead 
' acceptable fervices at home, as well as the mofl 
' weighty we may be called to abroad ;' but 
what he did fay w^s very edifying, and although 
the concurrence of fuch as him is what we mud 
naturally delire ; yet to our own Mafler we muft 
Hand or fall. 

I find It a great trial to my poor father to part 
with me, but the thoughts of thy going with me 
has made it much eafier to him; and for my part 
I may acknowledge it is a favour, neither looked for, 
nor expe£led ; it being like forbid me to take any 
thought about a companion, as well indeed it 
might, when my kind, good MaRcr was providing 
fo agreeably for me. To my kind and good Maf- 
ter L owe firfl and chief my hearty thanks, for all 
the benefit received from fecondary caufes. 

But thou mayefl: remember, my dear, though I 
wrote to thee to know if any friend from your 
natlon^ was likely to go, it was not by way of. 
querying for a companion ; but it fprings on my 
heart to fay. Thou art the woman, and I really be- 
lieve the thing is of the Lord; and as we abide 
in his counfel, I firmly hope that he will blefs us 
together, and make his work to profper in our 
hands, if our eye be but fingle to his glory, feeking, 

D 3 hoping* 



5^ 

hoping, nor dcfiring, any thing but the advance- 
ment thereof; and I can aiTure thee my dear friend, 
notwithftanding the love I have for thee in the 
truth, and the afTection which I bear to thy per- 
fon, with the hkenefs of fouls I had difcovered ; 
yet, did I feel any obftruclion or doubt in my mind 
of the thing's being right, I dare not conceal it 
from thee, nor take one Hep knowingly, out of 
the light and counfel of truth, in fo important an 
affair; and it is with me jufi: to fay, " Tempt not 
*' the Lord thy God," in feeking more ftrong and 
convincing manifellations than he may fee meet to 
give thee : but be willing to go in faith, leaning on 
thy ftaff; for I muft tell thee, I think I have 
fcrought fuflcrings on myfelf for fo doing ; for, 
fmce the time that it was deafly manifefted unto me 
as a duty, till Vvlthin thefe few weeks, I have been 
peaceably refigned ; in which flate was favoured 
with great tranquillity of foul, which made me 
look on the difficulties and dangers of the journey, 
with fuch eyes, that I began to fear that I had a 
will to go, and fo fet my face againil it, till I had 
a further manifeflation of its being right. And here 
nature began to pleafe itfelf with many pleafmg 
profpefts in my (lay; and the enemy was at hand 
to fuggefl that the former manifeflation was but 
to try my love and obedience ; and here I loll 
faith, and without it could no more think of going 
than of removing mountains. Thus did the enemy 
work as in a myflery, till my fpirit was brought 

into 



55 

into fuch darknefs and diftrefs, as is better felt 
than exprefled. I am now again, by the mercy of 
God, and by that faith which is his gift, fully re- 
figned without any further manifeftation ; than in- 
Looking that way wherein I fee a little light, 
peace and comfort to my poor foul ; and in turning 
any other, fear, pain, and darknefs, meet me. 

Thus, my friend, have I given thee a fhort but 
true account of the dealings of the Lord with my 
foul J which has been the caufe of my filence till 
this -day, for the forepart of this letter was wrote 
more than three weeks ago, but could not find 
ftrength to finifli it till now; yet in all that trying 
feafon had no doubt of thy concern being right. 
Ah ! what dates and difpenfiitions muft we pafs 
through, who are fitting to fpeak of the Lord's 
wonders which are feen in thee deeps! 

If it be my lot to go, the way which now feems 
pointed to me is, to fpend fome time in Dublin; to 
go from thence with Friends to the yearly meeting 
at London; and, when clear of that city, to take 
fiiipping from thence : this I hope wHl be accept- 
able to thee, but if thou haft any call to Ireland 
before thou goes, let not this prevent thee. 



After the receipt of this letter I continued to 
make preparation for the journey, my way being 
open both in the minds of my relations and friends j 
though it was a trial to both to part with me. 

» 4 CHAP. 



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CHAP. IV. 

Some Minutes of Travels, Labours ^ and Sufferings 
in America, 8cc» 



^N the 4th of the Sixth month, 1753, I took 
an affecting and affectionate farewel of my 
dear mother and relations, leaving her and them 
to the prote(Stion of Providence; and went, accom- 
panied with my filler Ann, to Worceffer. I was 
at a monthly meeting there the next day, which 
was laborious and exercifmg, fome Friends being 
funk into a ftate of indolence, and, though fome- 
times favoured with a feeling fenfe of divine good, 
not quickened thereby to a£lion in the affairs 
of the church : and fo the vifitation of heaven is 
rendered fruitlefs, while the things of this world 
are purfued with induffry and ardency. Againft this 
fpirit, I, with fome others, had to teftify, in clofe 
do£lrine and advice; and, although the meeting was 
dull and painful in the beginning, it ended in a 
fweet living ftream of fupplication and praife : in 
which the living prcfent, committed each other 
into the hands of the Almighty for prefervaiion. 

In 



57 

In the women's meeting, I endeavoured for a 
regulation, thjit our Chriftian diicipline might be 
revived, for which a concern had refted upon my 
niind for fome years : and fome women Friends of 
this city being under a hke exercife, it afforded a 
comfortable hope, that the Lord would qualify 
inflruments for this fervice. In the evening, the vi- 
fitation of infinite goodnefs was renewed to us, and 
to a few friends who came to vifit us at my dear 
friend Afliby's, in the fenfe of which we parted.. 
The 6th we went to Evcfham, where we were 
met by my brother James, and feveral friends from 
Ireland, who were going to the yearly meeting at 
London. We (laid over the monthly meeting there 
the next day, and fo proceeding on our journey 
(Ann Afliby going forward with usj, reached 
London the 9th ;' where I met with my dear 
friend and companion, Mary Peilley. 

The yearly meeting was large, and attended by 
many weighty Friends ; who were divinely affifted 
to labour for the promotion of Truth, and the 
ordering of the affairs of the church. 

My brother and fifler left me in London ; and, 
my companion Mary Peifley having a concern to 
attend the meetings at Colchefter, Woodbridge, 
and Norwich, I fpent a little time at Chelmsford, 
at the houfe of John Griffith (the flate of my 
health and fpirits being fuch as feemed to call for 
reft and quiet), and returned to London in about 
two weeks ^. but being flill poorly in health, I 

went 



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«^cnt to the couiitry-houfe of my worthy friend 
John Hay ward, accompanied by Ann Foihergill; 
where I was indifpofed, and confined to my bed 
and the houfc, for about a week. Recover- 
iiig a httle flrength, I returned to London; where 
the diforder returned, and continued for nine or 
ten days; and, being fucceeded by the jaundice, 
it brought me very low ; but through the kindnefs 
of Providence, I was prefcrvcd patient and re* 
figned under this difpenfati'on. In this time my 
companion returned to London, but did not £nd 
her way open to leave England ; fo that my trials 
were increafed with the profpe£t of being longer 
detained, and at a diftance from my dear relations. 
But infinite Wifdom knows bed how to plan out 
the way for his people, the fecrec workings of 
whofe Providence I thought I clearly difcovered, in 
this fuccelTion of probations being permitted to 
attend me where they did. Had it been at home 
it would have been much more affli(fl:ing both to 
niy relations and myfelf; as it would have rendered 
their parting with me in fuch a weakftate of health 
the more painful, and my leaving home the more 
difficult : nay, I have queftioned, if I had not left 
it as I did, whether, confidering the difcourage- 
mcnt, I fliould have gone the journey. Nor was 
my indifpofition without a fingular fervice : for 
my health had languiflied under the opprefiion of 
the remains of the fever which I had at Edin- 
burgh J which by this diforder were, in a good 

meafurc. 



59 

meafure, carried off, and ray body tlic better pre- 
pared to fullaiii the fatigues and trials of the 
enfuing journey, arifing from the difference of cli- 
mate, Sec. So that in this painful allotment, I had 
renewed caufe to blefs and praife the name of my 
God, and to acknowledge, that whatever he doe'; 
is befl. 

Almoft as foon as I recovered ftrength to get 
abroad, the cloud difperfcd ; and we found our 
fpirits at liberty to talce our paffage on board the 
Alexander, Captain Curling, bound from London 
to Charleflown, in South Carolina; which failed in 
about a week after we agreed to go in her. The 
hift Firft-day we were in London, wc were fiivouret^ 
to take a comfortable farewel of many of our 
friends, in the feeling fcnfe of divine goodnefs j 
wherein alfo, we were enabled to refipn and com- 
mit each other into the hands of the Almighty for 
prefervation. 

We left Loudon the 21 ft of the Eighth month, 
1753; and, as our veffel was to ftop at Portfmouth 
to take in fome of her paffengers, our friends 
thought it beft for us to go thither by land : which 
we did, and fcveral of them freely accompanied us. 

We came to Portfmouth the 24th, and went on 
board our veffel the 25th, where we took leave of 
our friends with affection. 

Being fettled in our veffel, a fweet compofure 
came over my fpirit ; which ftrengthened my faith 
that I was movin^j by divine dire£lion. 

The 



60 

The next day the wind turned againft us, and 
v,'e came to an anclior in Yarmouth Road, Ifle 
oi Wight. Being Firfi: day, we were a httic 
thoughtful about having a meeting with tlie paf- 
fengers; but one of our company being a clergy- 
man, and the fliip's crew bufy in fettling the veflel, 
we concluded it would not be very eafily ob- 
tained, and M'cre content in fitting together in our 
own apartment ; during which time the parfon got 
fome of our people together in the great cabin, and 
read prayers to them. 

I had purpofely left our room door open, in 
order that, if any duty prefented, I might have an 
opportunity of performing it ; and after they had 
done-, I found a concern to call upon the Lord in 
humble fupplication, to which I gave up ; but a 
part of the company went on deck, being I fup- 
pofed exampled by their teacher ; however I was 
favoured with a pretty fatisfaftory opportunity, and 
the ftrengthening evidence of peace in the con^ 
dufion. 

The 27th, we fet fail, and paffed the Needles 
the 2 8ih. The 29th, the wind came againfl us, 
and blowing hard we anchored in the evening in 
Portland Bay, where we lay till the 3d of the 
Ninth month; when we fet fail, and got clear of 
the land the 5th; from which time we were moflly 
favoured with gentle favourable winds, till we 
came near the coafl: of South Carolina. 

Thf 



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The i8th of the Tenth month, wc got mto 
foundings ; but the uind blowing very hard, and 
the fea running high, our captain durft not attempt 
to go over Charlcrtown bar, fo flood off, in hopes 
the wind might fall; but inflead of that it turned 
againfl: us, and continued to blow very hard till 
the 2 2d : all whicli time we lay with our helm 
iaflied, driving with the wind. The 2 2d, the fea 
and wind fell very much, the weather (which in 
this time had been very foul) cleared up, and the 
wind became favourable, and we got within fight 
of the land; but it being to the fouthward of our 
defigned port, the captain tacked about to the 
northward, hoping thereby to gain fo much in the 
night as to be able to run in with the tide in the 
morning; but we were again beat back to fea by 
a contrary flormy wind. 

Thus were we toiTcd to and fro, almoft within 
fight of our harbour; but through prevailing grace 
our minds were wonderfully preftrved above either 
fear or complaint, enjoying a calm w^ithin, in the 
midll: of a florin without ; being happily refigned 
to fuffer in this way, if it were the Lord's will fo 
to appoint : which blcfl'ed difpofition, attending us 
through the voyage, helped to alleviate our bodily 
hardfliips, which would otherwife have appeared 
confiderable. 

We were fea-fick, though not fo extremely 
as we expcfted; and we fuffered much from the 
cxcefTive heat of the weather, fleering within one 

degree, 



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clegrec, as far foiuh as the tropic of Cancer; in 
which latitude I believe we continv.ed near three 
weeks, being becalmed ; and, neither I nor my com- 
panion being very ftrong, nature had a confiderabic 
ftrngglc, to furmount the expence of fpirits llie 
fuftained. 

But we had caufe to be thankful that we efcaped 
a violent fever, which frequently feizcs thofe who 
pafs through this climate, and have been ufed to 
one much colder. 

During the ftorm, the fcams of our veflel, being 
opened on the fide v/here we lay, let in the wet, 
and our apartment was in a manner flooded. My 
bed was fo wet that I could not lie therein, fo I threw 
myfelf down for feveral nights upon fome blankets 
in a birth in the great cabin, and flept better than 
I could have expected ; but the fpray of the fea 
drove fo upon it, even there, that my linen was 
fo damp, that I cfleemed it a fmgular mercy I wa!^ 
not exceeding ill. 

Indeed we were both of us brought very low, 
but recruited again as the weather cleared up; 
which it did the 24th, and we fet fail in the even- 
ing, and the 25th got our pilot on board, wlio in- 
tended that night to run as near the bar as prudent, 
and wait for anotlier t'de to carry us into port. But 
here we apprehended ourfelves to be in imminent 
danger; for, the man who founded miflaking the 
length oF the line which he let go, the velTel ran 
too far before they dropped anchor : fo that wr 

lay 



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lay all night In very fliallow water, fo near, if not 
upon the breakers, that had the wind fprung up 
frefh, it feemed queftionable our having room to 
turn the veffel from them, when the anchors were 
weighed: but the Lord preferved us, and we landed 
at Charlejflown the 26th in the morning, under a 
grateful fenfe of his merciful Providence having 
attended us through .the voyage. We were up- 
wards of nine weeks on fhip-board* 

. We had feveral meetings while on ihip-board 
with the failors and paiTengers, who were of dif- 
ferent countries. There was a South Carolina wo- 
man and her negro maid, a man and his wife, the 
one a German and the other a Swifs ; a Scotch 
fchoolmafter, our captain and his brother of French 
cxtraftion, if not born in France. 

Our firil meeting was with the failors and fteer- 
age paiTengers, on the afternoon of the Firft-day, 
wherein we lay at anchor in Portland Bay. The 
prieft in the morning, read prayers to the cabin paf- 
fengers, but took no care for the others on board. 
The captain offered us the cabin to meet in, but 
we rather chofe to go to them in the fteerage; 
from which the pHeft would have diffuaded us, by 
telling us, they would be likely to infult us; but, on 
©ur fending a melTage to the failors that we in- 
tended them a vifit, they returned for anfwer, that 
though they had not had college education, they 
(hould be glad to hear the word of God, and would 
readily admit us. The meeting was attended with 

a good 



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a good degree of folemnity, and aflorded fatlsfac- 
tion to oiirfclves. My companion was favoured in 
teftimony fuired to the flates of the people, and 
I was gracioully admitted to fupplicate the Lord for 
them. 

Our other meetings were held in the cabin, 
which we had the ufe of for that purpofc on the 
afternoons of the Firft-days, as the parfon hadv- 
in the mornings. They were generally attended' 
by moll of the paffengers and fome of the failors ^ 
but there being but little entrance for the word, 
made it hard labouring among them. We were, 
however, favoured with peace, in endeavouring 
to promote their good ; and blelTed with the in- 
comes of divine life in our own fouls, not only 
on thofe occafions, but at many other times : fo 
that it was a feafon to be had in lading re- 
membrance, with thankfgiving to the Lord, whofe 
good prefcnce accompanied us when on the mighty 
ocean, and rendered our feparation from our dear 
relations and friends eafy. 

The parfon, obfcrving that in our miniflry, wc 
fpoke extempore, told me that he could preach ex- 
tempore, and we fhould hear him if we pleafed the 
next Sunday. Accordingly when the day came, 
we were all feated in the great cabin, and he 
preached without notes. His fubjecfl was the tranf- 
figuration of Clirilt, which he found a wonder, — 
expatiated upon it as a wonder, — and left it a 

wonder ; 



65 ■ ... 

^vonder ; without entering into the fpirimality of 
the text: indeed I doubt he did not underftand it. 

From this time he read prayers and preached 
on the Firll-da'y mornings, when the weather per- 
mitted, and fometimes we hi in the cabin with 
them J aiid aUhough the inconfiftency of their 
prayers and profelTions with their own dates, as 
well as of the manner of their offeiing them with 
the nature of the folemn duty of calling upon the 
Lord, joined to the prieft's laboured, dry dil- 
courfcs, could not but painfully affe^l us ; yet in 
the time of their worihip, the Almighty by his 
power broke in upon our fpiriis, and bowed them 
in contrition before himfelf: fo that, in the enjoy- 
ment of his goodnefs, we had a filent teflimony to 
bear to that living worfliip which he infpires, and 
accepts. 

And although both by word and condu£l: we 
differed from the prieft, we heard that when he 
came on Ihore he fpoke well of us, acknowledging 
that we had been inltruments of good to him; 
and particularly that ray companion had. convinced 
him of the evil of gaming ; which he appeared to 
like whilfl on the voyage, but which we alfo 
heard:, he afterwards preached zealouily againiV, as 
well as other vanities. Indeed he bec;une much 
changed, and w^hilrt in Garolina appeared cOn*- 
fcientioufly concerned for the people's welfai"^. 
Some time after we left America he returned to 

£ England, 



66 

England, and I think I heard that the people did 
not hke his clofc doftrine. 

We lodged in Charleftown at John Sinclair's, 
who was educated amongft Friends, but had mar- 
ried one not of our Society. Both he and his wife 
received us kindly, and treated us while with them 
with great hofpitality and generofity. 

The meeting of Friends here was very fmall j 
and mofl of thofe who attended it were rather 
ftumbling-blocks, than way-marks, to other pro- 
feflbrs of religion ; yet we found a few to whom 
we were meafurably united, and who I believe 
were thankful for our yifit. During our flay in this 
place, we were treated with great civility and kind- 
nefs, by the inhabitants thereof who did not pro- 
fefs \yith us; but we faw it neceffary to be flri^lly 
guarded in our converfation with themj left their 
very refpeftful behaviour fliould betray us into a 
familiarity injurious to ourfelves. Many of them 
are ready to hear the teftimony of Truth, but there 
is a certain lightnefs of difpofition which greatly 
cbftrufls its progrefs amongft them; and if not 
carefully watched agaiuft, will infeft the minds of 
perfons who converfe with them. 

Many of them attended our meetings, and moftly 
behaved foberly in them; but what with ignorance 
of the fpirituality of religion, a high profcffing 
fpirit in fome, and libertinifm both in principle and 
practice in others, it was very hard to labour 

among (I 



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amongfl them : hov/ever, the Almighty was pleafed 
fo to favour us, that we were not without hope, 
that the teflimony given us to bear affected forac 
minds, and, in the general, commanded their afTcnr. 

We had two fcleft meetings for Friends, and 
paid a religious vific to mod of their families ; in 
which fervice wc were owned by the power of 
Truth, though in fome places we were very clofcly 
cxercifed; infomuch, that one man abfcnted himfelf 
from meeting, not liking any longer to Ht under 
our doctrine; but we found we had rather caufe to 
rejoice than to be uneafy, in being inflrumental of 
feparating him from the Society (if fo it fliould 
prove), his conduct being a fcandal to his profef- 
fion, though he pretended, to join it by convince- 
ment. 

Wg took a little turn to the foutb of Charlef- 
town, and had meetings at James's Illand, John's 
Ifland, an4 Stones. The firfl was the moft fatis- 
faftory. 

At Stones, we had a clofe exercifmg time in the 
family of a young man, whofe father had formerly 
made profclTion of Truth ; but he was quite gone 
from Friends, and I fear was tinftured with liber- 
tine principles; but he entertained us freely, and did 
not feem to take olTcnce at what we had to deliver. 
I heard he died foon after. We had alio a fatisfac- 
tory opportunity with a family not profciliiig with 
us, in Charleftown, but whofe anccftors by the 
father's fide were Friends. 

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68 

It feemcJ as though the Ahnighty had feiit us 
peculiarly to feck the loft fhecp of the houfe of 
Ifrael: that his merciful vifitation may be accepted 
by them, is the fincere defire of my foul. 

I was engaged to return to James's Ifland, but, 
my companion having no concern to accompany 
me, I, went alone, and had a much larger meeting 
than when there before : and I hope it was well that 
I went back, as, through Divine favour, many gof- 
pcl truths were opened to the people, in a degree 
of life and authority. 

My friend John Witter, of the Ifland, fent 
with me over the Sound a negro man, who was to 
attend me to my lodgings. He was well-drefled, 
and looked well-fed. I entered a little into con- 
verfation with him refpefting his fituation as aflave. 
He appeared eafy in it, and faid that he had a good 
mafler, but that many negroes were treated no 
better than dogs. Indeed we could not but lar 
ment over thofe poor people, as we pafTed through 
the colonies. Divers of our friends were then in 
pofl'eillon of fome negroes, either by inheritance 
or purchafe ; and the negroes who had them for 
mailers rejoiced in their lot. But about this time 
concern arofe amongft Friends, to abolilh flave- 
keeping in our Society ; which concern has fmce 
prevailed in the American Colonies ; and many 
friends have given up large poflfellions in negroes, 
but employed many of them as hired fervants after 
they had given them their hberty. 

We 



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We left Charleflown the 26tli of the Eleventh 
month, accompanied by James Verree, a young 
man, a frlcndj refiding there; and went towards 
a fmall fcttlemcnt of Friends on the Wateree 
River, which is on the north iide of the Province. 
They were lately come over from Ireland. 

In our way \vc had meetings in the families of 
Ifaac Perinocs, and John Lloyd where we lodged, 
who were neither of them of our Society, but 
they readily gave us an opportunity with them, 
and Truth favoured us. 

Several difficulties attended us in this journey. 
We had appointed a friend to meet us with horfes, 
about a hundred and twenty miles from Charlef- 
lown ; and being fet to a time, we durfl not flay 
to difcharge our minds of that duty of love, which 
feemed to point towards the people, as we went 
along. Secondly, we had poor accommodation, 
cfpecially as to lodging; fomc of the houfes being 
fo open to the air, that I could attribute our pre- 
fervation from great indifpofition, to nothing fhort 
of the mediate interpofition of Providence ; but as 
the people behaved very civilly toward us, and 
we enjoyed fome liberty of fpirit among them, it 
was rendered the indre ejlfy. When we came to 
the place where we had appointed to be met, 
we found neither the friend nor the horfes; and 
thofe which we brought from Charleflown, being 
borrowed, and the friend who came with us 
» 3 being 



70 

being carneft to return, we difcharged him from 
any further care of us, fent the horfes back with 
him, and concluded to flay at the houfe of the 
before -mentioned John Lloyd; who was a fub- 
(lantial planter, and very freely gave us an invita- 
tion thereto, till our friends from the Wateree, 
could meet us with horfes; unto whom we had 
an opportunity of fending an account of the (Irait 
we were in, by a neighbour of theirs, whom we met 
at the houfe of this planter, and who was then go- 
ing home. 

However, kind Providence foon opened a way 
for our releafe. A poor friend who lived between 
this place and the Wateree, and was going to 
Charleftown with goods for the market, (lopped at 
John Lloyd's; and, feeing the circumjflances wc 
were in, left his load in John Lloyd's warehoufe, 
and returned back with us to his own houfe; 
where we got a very poor lodging, but received it 
thankfully, as the bell he could provide us with ; 
and the next day he accompanied us to the Wa- 
teree, through a wildernefs country, wherein it was 
dangerous for women to travel, by reafon of the 
fwamps and deep creeks, which are difficult and 
very frightful to pafs : but we were mercifully 
preferved from hurt. 

We croffed one creek upon the trunk of a tree 
laid from bank to bank, and the water was fo 
deep, that if the trunk had broken, we had pro- 
bably been drowned. When we got on the other 

fide 



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fide wc faw It was decayed; and when our friends 
came over it with our faddles upon their backs, 
we obferved it bend wiih their weight. Our horfes 
were driven through a part of the creek where the 
water was (liallowcr, yet perhaps there it was ou£ 
of their depths. Providentially, before we crolTed 
this creek, we were met by our friend Robert 
Millhoufc : had it not been fo, I know not how 
the poor friend would have got us over. 

Robert Millhoufe had brought horfes for us, 
and gladly took us to his houfe with him. My 
companion's former acquaintance with him in Ire- 
land, rendered their meeting very agreeable. We 
found his not meeting us according to appoint- 
ment, was occafioned by our letters not reaching 
him timely ; which had we known, our fpirita 
might have been more at liberty to have attended 
the before mentioned pointings of love towards the 
people; but inafmuch as we had not wilfully omit- 
ted our duty, Divine mercy was extended, and our 
minds foon became eafy on that account. 

We came to the Wateree River the id of the 
Twelfth month, and ftaid there till the 12th; in 
which time we attended Friends* meetings as they 
came in courfe, both on the Firfl:, and other days 
of the week, and paid a religious vifit to every fa- 
mily of Friends in the fettlement; in which fervice 
we were evidently owned by cur Mafler; or at 
lead my companion was fo, who had moft of the 
fcrvice in ihi> place. The ftate of the friends 
■E 4 fettlrfl 



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fettled here was moftly low, as to religious ex- 
perience ; but fome of the youth were under a 
divine vifitation, which afforded us fome comfort. 
Some people not profeffmg with us attended our 
meetings, and behaved foberlyj but in general, the 
people in this part of the country were lament- 
ably ignorant and wicked : indeed, they had very 
few opportunities of religious in{lru6^ion, no place 
of worfliip being near ; perhaps not nearer than 
twenty miles. Seldom, if ever, any clergyman 
came amongft thein oftener than once a year, to 
fprinkle their children. Alas ! what will thefe 
j3retended a.nd hireling fliephcrds have to anfwer 
for ^ of whom it may well be faid, " they feed 
*' themfelves but not the flock." 

Indeed, none can feed the flock, who have not 
themfelves been fed by the heavenly Shepherd. 

Part of the time we fpent here, was to me a 
feafon of deep inward trials ; the enemy being 
fuffered fo to befet me, that my foul was diftrelTed 
both night and day; and though fometimes a ray 
of hope of deliverance and prefervation would 
break in upon it, and I was favoured with a tafle 
of divine love ; yet when that was withdra-\vn, I 
\\^s left as weak and unable to refifl him as before j 
fo that my fplrit was in inexpreflible bitternefs. 

1 had very little {hare in the miniflerial fervice ; 
fometimes perhaps a few fimple expreffions. But 
before we left the Wateree, the load was in 
part removed, and my fpirit bteuglu into a greater 

calm. 



V3 

calm, in which I defircd to Wait the Lord's t^tn^ td 
he put forth to fervice. He had clothed me, and 
he had a right to ftrip me at his pleafnre ; and 
I could fay with Job, " The Lord gave, and taketh 
'* away, bleflcd be his name." The incomes of 
his love and peace in rrty heart, were more to md. 
than to be honoured before the people. And 
here I cannot but again obferve the various bap-- 
tifms which the minifters of Chrifl have to paft 
through, in order to their being renewcdiy fitted 
to minifter to the different ftates of the people. 
What deep poverty and diftrefs, doubts, fears, and 
temptations ! I was fometimes however in mercy 
admitted to tafte of the cup of heavenly confola- 
tion. All is confident with the wifdora of God, 
and tends to bend the mind more effcflually to* 
Wards Him, and to mortify the flefli with its cor- 
rupt affeftions: fo that the fpiritual life is often 
flrengthened by thefe afflifting difpertfations. 

We bought horfes at the Wateree, and, ac^ 
companied by Robert Millhoufe and Samuel Kelly, 
fct forwards towards the River Peedee, where wt 
had heard there was a fettlement of Friends. We 
travelled through a wildernefs country for feveral 
days, carrying provifions for ourfelves and horfes. 
In the d;iy we took ourrepafl: in the woods, and at 
night got lodging at fome planters'; who, though 
not of our Societyj readily gave us admittance into 
thdr houfes, and freely entertained us according 
to their maimer of living : and although it was 

very 



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very different from what we had been accuRomed 
to, and the lodging in fome places very cold and 
poor; we were content, and thankful to the Al- 
mighty for it, as well as for his providential care, 
varionfly manifefled in preferving us from the 
dangers which attended us, in palling fwamps, 
deep creeks, kc. And akhough v/e lived low, 
our fpirits were preferved pretty cheerful, and our 
health tolerable. 

One particular inftance of Divine protection, I 
think woi'thy of commemoration. The 14th in 
the evening we came to a fwamp, which appeared 
very dangerous to crofs; but a frieiidly man on 
the other fide direfted us where to turn our horfes 
over, and came himfelf and aflifted us over fomc 
trees which lay acrofs it. Having got over, wc 
afked him how far it was to the place where we 
intended to lodge, and whether the way was eafy 
to find. He told us it was twelve miles, and that 
the latter part of the way was intricate j and, after 
walking by our fide a little time, he offered to 
conduft us, which offer we readily accepted. If he 
had not accompanied us, I know not but that wc 
muff have been all night in the woods ; for the way 
being fo difficult to find, and night coming upon 
us, we Ihould probably have miffed it ; and the 
weather being frofly, and we unprovided either 
with materials to flrike fire, or blankets to cover 
us, we fliould have fuffered much, if we had 
cfcapcd with our lives. 

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Our kind guide brought us to tlie houfe of 
James Gillefpy, iipou Pcedee River ; who was a 
fubdantial planter, and a hofpitable man, I think 
by profeiTion a Prefbyterian. His heart feemed 
opened towards us. Of him we inquired after the 
fettlement of Friends which we had heard of, but 
could get no intelligence of it ; yet were our 
minds mercifully preferved pretty eafy aiid quiet, 
although we knew not which way we fhould (leer 
our courfe from this place, being all of us Grangers 
in the country. In a fliort time, I found freedom 
to propofe to my companion, our having a meet- 
ing in the neighbourhood ; with which flie con- 
curring, we a/lvcd our kind hoft, before we went to 
bed, whether he thought we might have a religious 
opportunity with forae of his neighbours. He 
made but little reply then, but m the morning 
told Robert Mlllhoufe, that if we would flay till 
Firlf-day, we fliould be welcome both to what en- 
tertainment he could give us and our horfes, and 
alfo to have a meeting in his houfe ; and he would 
fend his , fervant to acquaint his neighbours. To 
this we affented, and fpent the next day peaceably 
there. On the Firfl-day we had a meeting, which 
was not large, and, by reafon of the ignorance of 
the people in divine truths, was exercifing to our 
minds. A young man, who came from the fettle- 
ment of Friends which we were in quefl of, being 
in this neighbourhood on bulincfs, and hearing of 

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the meeting, flaid to attend it. After it was over, 
he informed Robert Mlllhoiife, that feveral families 
of Friends were fettled about twenty miles up the 
river, to whom he w-as going the next day, and 
fliould be glad of our company. To this we 
readily aflented, and, being thus providentially 
inflrufted in our way, we next morning took leave 
of our kind friend James Gillefpy, who had gene- 
roufly entertained us while at his houfc. We called 
at the houfe where we had appointed to meet our 
expected guide ; but it being a very wet morning, 
he concluded we fliould not move, and was gone ; 
however, we had got fuch intelligence from him 
of the way, that, with a little more wh'ich we 
obtained as we went along, we found the friend's 
houfe to which we intended to go. He was a poor 
man lately convinced, but he gladly received us, and 
freely gave us fuch entertainment as his circum- 
ftances would afford ; which though very mean, 
was made eafy and pleafant to us, being fweetened 
by the gentle Sowings of divine peace in our 
hearts. 

We fouiid here a few newly convinced friends, 
and fome others under convincement ; with whom 
we had two meetings to good fatisfjjition, many 
things fuitable to their flates being opened both by 
way of dodlrine and encouragement ; and we were 
glad that we were thus direfled to find them in this 
defolate fpot ; which was very diflant from any 
Friends j but they were under the Divine regard. 

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They had not fettled a meeting; but as our guides 
from the Wateree were returning home, they 
found them bufy in building a mecting-houfe ; and 
we afterwards heard that a meeting was fettled 
amongft them. 

The 2otli, we left Peedee River, accompanied 
by John and Charles Moreman, and the two 
friends who came with us from the Wateree, and 
fet our faces towards a fettkment of Friends oa 
the Waters of Haw River. The morning was wet 
when we fct out, and I was very poorly ; but in 
a little time the weather cleared up, and I grew 
better. We rode that day about forty miles 
through the woods, without feeing any houfe ; 
and at night took up our lodging in the woods, 
by the fide of a branch or Iwamp, which aftbrdtd 
plenty of canes for our horfcs. Our friends made 
us a liitle flied of the branches of pine-trees, on a 
rifmg fandy ground, \thich abounded with lofty 
pines. We made a large fire, and it being a calm, 
fair, moon- light night, wc fpent it cheerfully, 
diough we flept but little. Our faddles were our 
pillows ; and we had in company a man, who came 
from Peedee and was going a part of our next 
day's journey, whofe wife liad fent a blanket ; 
which, with one our friends had brought, bein^ 
thrown at our backs upon our flicd llicltered U5 
much; fo that wc Hill faw kind Providence cared 
for us. In the morning wc purfued our journey, 
and went that day about forty-five miles ; and at 
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nJght took up onr lodging again in the wood?, 
but did not meet with io advantageous a fpot a^ 
the night before, for the ground was wet, and the 
fhdtcr bad, and poor wood for firing. The weather 
alfo being very cold, and my companion ill with a 
pain in her face, and myfelf but poorly, we fpent 
the night very uncomfortably as to the body, but 
through divine favour were preferved quiet, and 
refigned in fpirit. 

We fet out next morning in hopes of reaching 
a fcttlement of Friends at Nen.v Garden that 
day; but the pain in my companion's face con- 
tinuing, we thought it bell to flop at William 
Rinalds's at Polecat, w-ho was under the profeinon 
of Truth; and the next day, being the Firil of the 
week, w-e had a meeting there with a few friends, 
and fome of the neighbours ; which was exercifmg, 
yet ended in a fenfe of Divine fweetnefs. 

The 24th, we went to New Garden, and (laid 
amongfl friends in that fcttlement till the 28th. 
This was a new fcttlement of Friends, and we were 
the firft from Europe that had vifited them, or tra- 
velled in thefe parts in the fervice of Truth. 

We had pretty clofe fervice among them, and 
laboured for the eilabliihment of a meeting for 
minifters and elders in their monthly meetings ; 
which we found was much v/anting : and we had 
reafon to hope that the proportion would be 
adopted; divers Friends being convinced of its ufc* 
fulnefs, and feemed glad that it became our concern 

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to recommend It. We found a fmcerc -hearted 
remnant in this meeting, unto whom the Lord 
united us ; but there was alfo a dead, formal, pro- 
fefling fpirit, under which the hving were forely 
opprefled ; as well as under a flailiy wordy miniflry. 

The 29th, we got to Cane Creek, another new 
fettlemcnt of Friends ; with whom we had a meet- 
ing the 30th, wherein we were rather low, yet 
favoured with peace in our fpirits. 

The 31ft, we went about 30 miles to a very 
fmall meeting on the river Eno, which was very 
exercifing ; for though their number was fmall, 
their ftates were various, and fome of them widely 
dillant from that pure, humble, living, fenfible 
difpofition which Truth produces. And as it was 
the will of the Almighty, meafurably to baptife us 
into the ftates of the people, we could not but 
fuffer in fpirit with his pure feed ; and it feemed 
as though a drawn fword was delivered to us in 
this the beginning of our journey, which we were 
to ufe againft fpiritual wickedncfs; and not to fpare, 
though it were exalted in high places. Here we la- 
boured for the eftablifhment of a Week-day meeting. 

The 2d of the Firft month, 1754, my companion 
returned to Cane Creek, in order to be at their 
Week-day meeting ; and I went about {ix miles up 
the River, being engaged to have a meeting 
amongft a people not profeffing with us. Many 
came to it, and behaved foberly, but moft of 
them feemed very ignorant of fpiritual things ; and 

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fome were h^avy laden with divers fins ; but kind 
Providence fo favoured me, tbiit I left them pretty 
cafy, and returned to my companion at Cane 
Creek, the 4th. The fame day we had a meeting 
at Rocky River, which was fatisfa^lory, and we 
returned to Cane Creek, and were at the Firft-day 
meeting there. 

The 7th, we fet out for Carver's Creek, a jour- 
ney of about 160 miles, through an almoft unin- 
]^abite<i country. We were accompanied by John 
Wright and J. Figot, friends. The accommo- 
dation we met with was very mean, but rendered 
cafy, under a fenfe of our being in the way of 
our duty. At one place where we lodged, the 
room wherein we lay was expofed to the weather 
on almoll every fide, and it being a wet night, the 
rain beat in uppn us in bed ; but my mind was 
prefcrved in f.yect peace, and under fome degree 
of a fenfe of Divine favour. The woman of the 
houfe was of a tender fpirit, and appeared to be 
feeking after fubflantial good. I had confiderabk 
freedom to fpeak to her on religious fubje^s ; 
which flic took well, and I was thankful that our 
lots were cafl under that roof. 

Another night, we lay in the woods, with 
tolerable comfort, though the weather was cold, 
and the groimd damp. About tv;o hours before 
we flopped, as I was attempting to crofs a fwamp 
on fome loofe pieces of wood, one of them, rolled, 
and threw me backward into it. One of our. friends 



was 



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was leading me, and the other, feeing me in danger 
of falling, flepped behind me into the fwamp, and 
caught me, fo that I was wet but on one fide, 
except my feet: and, although I mounted my horfe 
immediately after putting on a dry pair of flock- 
ings, rode in my wet clothes, and lay down in 
them, I was preferved from taking cold. In the 
night two of our horfes* flrayed away from us, 
and our guides were obliged to leave us and go in 
queft of them; fo that we were feveral hours 
ourfelves in this wildernefs, furrounded, for aught 
we knew, by bears, wolves, and panthers. Before 
we pitched our tent, I had been intimidated by an 
account which had been given me refpe£ting the 
panthers infefling that quarter ; one of which it 
was fiid had killed a perfon not very far diftant 
from this fpot ; but when we were thus left, all fear 
was removed, and we fpent the time of our friend's 
abfence cheerfully. I went without the fhelter of 
our flied, and renewed our fire with fome wood 
our friends had gathered. The fire, under Provi- 
dence, was probably our prefervation from thofe 
ferocious animals. 

It was a fine moon -light night, our friends 
tracked our horfes* footfleps in the fand for about 
three miles in the way we had come, and found 

* When travellers who lodge in the woods turn their horfes 
to graze, they fallen a bell about each of their necks, and if 
they mifs the found of any of them, they go to fee whethtr 
they are not Ilrayed far from the fhed, 

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them feeding on feme luxuriant canes. The fa- 
gacious animals probably obfervcd them as they 
came to the fpot where we pitched our tent, and 
having but poor feeding there, went back to fill 
their bellies. As we proceeded on our journey, 
fome of our company difcovered the track of a wild 
bead in the fand, which gave room to fufpe£l that 
they had been near our tents in the night; but we 
were preferved both from their fury, and from 
being affrighted by their hideous howl. However, 
as we rode through the woods in the morning, we 
heard the barking of wolves at a fmall diftance from 
us, but a rifmg ground prevented us from feeing 
them. 

We breakfafled at a miferable inn, about eight 
or ten miles on our way; where we met fuch ii 
wicked fet of company, who had fpent the night 
there, that we concluded it providential that wc 
did not prefs forward to lodge there ; refpefling 
which we were confidering before we pitched our 
tent. It appeared much more comfortable to be 
under the open canopy of heaven, and the protec- 
tion of Providence, though among the wild beads, 
than among thofe of the human race, whofe natures 
were fo depraved as to render them more terrible 
and dangerous : the firft only for at lead generally), 
alTauking mankind of neceflity, or by provocation; 
but the lad from the incitements of their depraved 
pafllons. 

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We went forward to Dunn's Creek, and had a 
fmall meeting, with a few under the profeiTion of 
Truth; and from thence to Carver's Creek the 
fame night, being the 12th. -The I3th5 we had a 
meeting there, and the 14th, w^nt to Wilmington, 
on Cape Fear River, where we had two meetings 
the 15th. There are none in this place who can 
properly be called members of our fociety, but 
many people came to the meetings, and behaved 
civilly; and the teftimony of Truth ran pretty freely 
towards them in do(5lrine, reproof, and counfel ; 
though I believe many of them were of very loofe 
converfation. The i6th, we returned to Carver's 
Creek, (o to Brompton, Dunn's Creek, and Cape 
Fear. 

The 2cth, we proceeded towards Perquimons 
River, being accompanied by our friends William 
Hall and B. Cooper. We calculated our journey 
to Perquimons at 273 miles; going acrofs the 
country to vifit feveral fmall meetings of Friends j 
amongft whom, and the people of other focieties, 
we had feme fatisfuflory fervice. No women- 
minifters had vifited part of this country before 
us, fo that the people were probably excited by 
curiofity to attend fome of the meetings we ap- 
pointed. We found a few feeking people in thefe 
back fettlements, who had very little, even of what 
they efleem, inftrumental help, in this wildernefs 
country; which appears too poor for prieftcraft to 
thrive in ; but 1 hoped the Lord would gather 
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84 

ibme of tlicm to faith in his own immediate in- 
ftruftion. In this journey we met with conriderable 
hardfliips, the people araongfl whom we were be- 
ing very poor, their houfes cold, and provifions 
mean. One night we lodged in a void houfe on 
the River Neice. A man who kept a ftore on the 
other fide of the river, gave us the liberty of it, 
fent his negroes to make us a fire, and lent us a 
bed, and coverings for it. We were content, al- 
though our provifions were fo near fpent that we 
had very little to refrefli ourfelves with, after a 
hard day's journey; and we could get neither 
bread for ourfelves, nor corn for our horfes, for 
our money ; as the man who lent us the houfe 
and bed, would let us have none, though we fent 
to requefl: it. Our friends William Hall and B. 
Cooper accompanied us more than loo miles in 
this journey. 

On the 6th of the Second month, -we reached 
Perquimons River, on which, and the River Pafqua- 
tank, the main body of Friends in the province of 
North Carolina was fettled. 

Our firfl meeting among them was at the Piney 
Woods meeting-houfe, which was pretty large con- 
fidering the (hortnefs of the time allowed to give 
notice of it; and the Lord was pleafed to favour 
us with a good opportunity: the fpirits of fenfible 
friends prcfent were in a good degree fettled, and 
I hope refreflied. We vifited two other meetings 
in this quarter, in one of \Yhich neither of us had 

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85 

mncli publick fervlcc. There Is a number of va- 
luable friends in this county, who were under fuf- 
fering from the prevalence of a fpirit of carnal eafe, 
and alfo from the minlftry of fome who will not be 
retrained by wholefome counfel; wherewith a num- 
ber are amufed rather than profitably fed j and 
inftead of being folidly fettled in a filent exercife 
of fpirit, they are in continual expectation of 
words, and remain in forrowful ignorance of the 
operation of Truth in themfelves. 

Here it feems necefTary to go back a little, and 
give fome account of an exercife which attended 
my mind, when about Carver's Creek. It was, 
to part from my companion, and go the lower way 
through BnthTown, to the county of Perquimons; 
but the difficulty of getting guides fuitable for us 
both, and an unwillingnefs to part from my com- 
panion, confidering the ddblate journey (lie would 
have to go, and not being quite well in her health, 
determined me to accompany her ; neverthelefs, I 
ftood open to be turned back when I had a fuitable 
evidence of its being required. Here, an exercife 
refpe£ling thofe places being again revived, and 
being fearful of omitting my duty, I mentioned the 
going back to them to my companion, who, al- 
though (lie was not free to accompany me, was eafy 
with my going, and rather difpofcd to encourage 
me. Her health feemed to require a little reft, which 
flie purpofed to take at the houfe of our friend 
Thomas Nicholfon of Little River, who had not long 
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86 

fince paid a religious vifit to Friends in England. I 
then propofed it to Friends to fet forward the nth, 
and, if Providence permitted, to return to their 
quarterly meeting in Pafquatank county ; to which 
they only objected, that they feared the notice was 
fo fliort, that they could not procure fuitable com- 
panions for me. How^ever, they refolved to men- 
tion it after the meeting on the loth, and fee if 
any friend would offer to go with me, to which I 
agreed ; but told one of the mofl fenfible amongfl: 
them, that if the way did not. pretty readily open, 
I durft not pufti much for it ; which, confidering 
the event, I was glad I had faid. 

After meeting, I W'as informed that two young 
men, and Rebecca Tombs, a valuable friend, and an 
acceptable minifter, were willing to accompany me. 
I did not find any objection in my mind to accepting 
her company, though I had not requefted it ; but 
an uncommon fenfe of forrow feized my fpirit ; 
though I did not fee that I ought to omit the 
journey, nor yet comprehend the caufe of the 
exercife. Next morning I took leave of my com- 
panion Mary Peifley, in pretty much the fame flate 
of mind ; and, after crolfing Perquimons River, we 
rode that day to Eden Town. On the road my mind 
became quiet, yet was low. The names of the 
young men who accompanied us were Nathaniel 
Newley and John White. 

The 1 2ih we had a meeting at Eden Town, which 
on account of the exctffive coldncfs of the weather, 

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87 

was not large, and it was much diflurbed by a 
wicked drunken man, while I was fpeaking; with 
whom, being a litigious lawyer, the town's people 
were afraid to meddle, left he fliould have an 
aftion againft them : fo I was obliged to bear it, 
and the meeting concluded with lefs folemnity than 
I could have wiflied. I obferved a ferious looking 
woman in the meeting, and thought if (he afked 
me to her houfe I fliould go; which flie did, and 
in the evening I went, accompanied by my com- 
panion. We found both herfelf and her hufband 
under a religious exercife; and feveral things were 
opened in me to fpeak to them, which were well 
received, and I left them in a good degree of 
peace; believing that the feafoning virtue of Truth 
had been felt in our converfation. There was 
no meeting of Friends in this town, and we lodged 
at an inn. 

The 13th, in the morning, we crofTed a ferry, 
eight miles over. The weather was extremely cold, 
which afFe(5lcd Rebecca Tombs much. The frofl 
was fo hard, that the water in the found we had 
crofTed was frozen fome diflance from the ftiore on 
each fide, but we got through it fafe. Wc rode 
about twcnty.five miles, lodged at a mean inn ; 
and next morning early we fet out for Bath Town. 
When we had rode about feven miles, I had a fall 
from my horfc, occafioned by the horfe*s ftarting 
at a bird flying out of a tree. I fell over the faddle, 
on my right arm, and the ground being very hard 
F 4 from 



S8 

from the froft, It was much hurt ; but I efteemed it 
a great favour that the bone was not broken. 
When we came to the next inn, my companion 
procured fome wormwood with vinegar, and bound 
it round my arm ; and we proceeded to Bath 
Town, though my arm gave me much pain. 

I had fome thoughts of crolTmg the ferry here, 
which is four miles over, and fo proceeding to 
Newbern ; but having received this hurt, and the 
wmd being contrary, I became inchned to have a 
meeting here the next day. Jufl as we alighted at 
the inn, a refpe£table looking man, who I after- 
wards found was an attorney, and lived about two 
miles out of town, came in; to whom I found 
freedom to impart our defire of having a meeting, 
and to confult him about a proper place to hold 
it in. He appeared well pleafed with the propo- 
fition, and we concluded to hold it in the morning 
in the court-houfe, if the weather were warm 
enough to admit of the people's fitting there ; if 
not, our landlord gave us the liberty of a room in 
his houfe. I had much pain from my arm this 
afternoon ; but fomenting it as before, it became 
cafier towards evening. Our meeting was attended 
next day by a pretty many people, moft of whom 
behaved with fobriety ; but the life of religion was 
fcarcely fo much as known by many of them ; yet 
the Lord was pleafed to open many gofpel truths to 
them ; which were delivered under a feeling fenfe of 
their low ignorant flate, and I trufl had their fer- 

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89 

vice. After this meeting, as I was returning to my 
inn, my mind feemed drawn to return back to my 
companion Mary Peifley; and when I came to the 
inn, I found Rebecca Tombs, who had got thither 
before me, feized with an aguej which brought a 
heavy weight of exercife on my fpirit, and I foon 
became apprehenfive of her being removed by 
death. The fame evening alfo one of the young 
men who came with us, was taken ill in the fame 
way, and I was myfelf very poorly with a cold, 
which affefted my head and throat. Next day 
Rebecca Tombs*s indifpofition increafed, and I be- 
came very thoughtful whether I had beft endeavour 
to remove her homewards, or continue her at Bath 
Town. There appeared to me danger of my incur- 
ring cenfure from her relations, in afting either way. 
I therefore concluded it bell to refer it to Provi- 
dence, and fee what turn it would take in her own 
mind. In the afternoon flie difcovered a defire to 
be removed, and I found moft eafe of mind in 
a(n:ing accordingly. 

I met in this town, to my furprife, with a young 
woman who was daughter to a principal tradefman 
of the neighbourhood of Dudley. She had been 
my fchool'fellow. Her hufband, whom flie married 
in Ejigland, kept a (lore in this place. They feeing 
our afflifted fituation, readily furniilied us with a 
chaife for our return ; fo we prepared for going, and 
the attorney before -mentioned generoufly lent us 
a horfe, and a n<?gro-man to bring it back. He 

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90 

tv'as at our inn In the evening. I went to him, and 
acknowledged his civility and kindnefs to us ; and 
before we parted, we fell into a religious converfa- 
tion, which I hoped might have its fervice. Several 
perfons were prefent, one of them the flieriff of the 
county, who had fome Ihare in the difcourfe and 
offered his houfe to have a meeting in. The attor- 
ney fpoke with great moderation, and made con- 
fiderable conceflions refpefting the ceremonial part 
of religion, and feemed pleafed with the informa- 
tion I gave him of the principles and difciplinc 
of Friends; which I was remarkably opened to 
give fome account of, and we parted friendly. 

After he got home, he fent me fome wine to 
aflifl the friend in our journey (which neceffity 
made an acceptable prefent, as we could buy none 
that was good in town), with a letter to requefl: 
that, if I ftaid longer in the country than I ex- 
pelled, I would come to his houfe; which I took 
kindly, and fuitably acknowledged his civility. I 
jufl add refpefting Bath Town, that the man of the 
inn, though he behaved civilly to us, appeared to 
be of a dark ferocious difpofition. One night a 
poor negro girl fell afleep at the top of the flairs, 
near our chamber door, and he feeing her there 
kicked her down them. The poor girl cried out, 
but I did not hear that fhe was wounded by the 
fall. Indeed darknefs feemed to furround us in this 
houfe. 

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The 17th, being the Firft-day of the week, v;e 
fet forward in the chaife, and got eighteen miles on 
our way and lodged at the fame houfe of entertain- 
ment as Ave did when we came down ; where we 
had very poor accommodation. My friend was 
greatly fatigued, (he grew much worfe that night, 
and next morning the young man that was unwell 
went to acquaint her hufband with her indifpofi- 
tion ; but the Almighty did not fee fit to continue 
her in pain till her hufband came to her. Her pain 
was indeed extreme, and foon effected the end for 
which it was defigned ; for the 20th in the morn- 
ing, file quietly expired. From near the firfl of 
her being taken ill, flie had a fenfe that it would 
end in death, ancf was enabled to refign herfelf and 
her near connexions into the hands of Providence. 
She defired me to pen fome memorandums of love 
and advice, to her hufband, children, and rela- 
tions; and then faid, flie had nothing to do but 
to die. She feveral times expreffed her fatisfaftion 
in having a clear confcience, and I was convinced 
of her fpirit's centering in everlafting blelTednefs. 
About twenty-four hours before ihe departed, I 
was concerned to fupplicate the Almighty on her 
behalf, that he might be pleafed to mitigate her 
pain, and grant her fpirit an eafy pafllige out of its 
afllifted tabernacle: for which flie expreffed thank- 
fulnefs ; and in a fliort time her pain gradually 
abated, and her death was remarkably eafy. Her 
difordcr appeared to be plcurctic. Wc got her 

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bled, and made ufe of fuch other mean? as our 
circumftances admitted; but flie was averfe to hav- 
ing a doftor, nor do I think that one would have 
been of any fervice to her. 

Through this uncommon trial, my fpirit was fln- 
gtilarly preferved in patience and (lability, though 
fometimes inexprefllbly loaded. My health being 
but poorly, the fatigue I fuftained bore hard upon 
me ; but I was enabled to difcharge my duty to 
my friend, and in the end witnefled the return of 
peace. My lodging was in the fame room with 
her. I lay down in my clothes upon a bench by 
the fire-fide, whereon the landlady laid fomething 
to render it the more eafy. The young man who 
continued with us behaved with "remarkable com- 
pofure, patience, and afFe£lion to the friend, who 
was his aunt, and I had reafon to hope that the 
journey would be of lading fervice to him. 

The day flie departed we got a coffin made, 
and put the corps into it. Whilil it was making, 
my neighbour Turton (brother to the young woman 
who kindly furniflied us with the chaife at Bath 
Town) came in, and was furprifed to meet me 
here. As we had not fent back the chaife, and he 
was going to his fifter's, he took charge of it. In 
the evening, I got a religious opportunity with 
the family at the inn; and the next morning fet off 
with the corps of my deceafed friend. We had 
procured the wheels of a cart to carry it on, and 
a man to drive it. 

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We got well to the Sound, over which we were 
to crofs to Eden Town; but before we got into the 
boat, we met the hufband of our deceafed friend, 
who bore the fhock full as well as I expefted; 
and it mufl: have been great, to meet in fo unex- 
pe£led a manner the corps of an endeared, af- 
feftionate wife. The fame evening we croffcd the 
ferry, and proceeded to the houfe of a planter, 
who had brought home the corps of his * mother 
about two hours before we came into it. 

The 22d, we croiTed Perquimons River, and got 
the corps home ; but the affefting forrowful fcene 
of meeting the poor motherlefs children (of which 
there were ftven), and other near relations and 
friends of the deceafed, is difficult to defcribe; 
nor iliall I attempt it, as the ideas it mud raife in 
a fenfible mind, will fufficiently reprefent it. 

That night I went to my companion Mary 
Pcifley, and through mercy found her well at 
Thomas Nicholfon's ; land next day we went to 
ihe quarterly meeting of Friends for the province 



• In this country the changes of the weather are fo fudden, 
and fo extreme from hot to cold, that when a hard froftlafts for 
a pretty many days, the people frequently drop off fuddenly, 
with pleuretic diforderi. I thought their manner of living 
might in many inftances contribute to their fudden death. 
They eat pork, or other flefti, at almoft every meal, not ex- 
cepting breakfaft, and fuch as can get it (too generally) drink 
neat rum. Frequently, they rather choofe to drink water alone, 
and take their drams, than mix them together, 

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of North Carolina, held at Old Neck in Pafqiia- 
tank county. The meeting was large but exer- 
cifing, weaknefs being fenfibly felt. I was favoured 
with a good opportunity amongfl Friends, where- 
with I had reafon to believe the fcnfible part of 
than had unity, and were thankful for it. 

The 25th, we attended the meeting for mini- 
fters and elders, and a large publick meeting, 
which, though very exercifmg in the beginning, 
ended well; for which fiivour we had renewed 
caufe to blefs the Almighty, who baptizes his 
minifters into the flates of the people, and enables 
them to miniiler thereto. 

The 25th, we attended the funeral of Rebecca 
Tombs; and the meeting was large and crowned 
with folemnity. After the meeting, a young man 
who kept the ferry at Perquimons River, defired to 
fpeak with me. When I came over the ferry with 
the corps of Rebecca Tombs, he was with us in 
the boat, and while we were upon the water, my 
mind was aiFe£led on his behalf, fo much, that 
when we landed I took him afide and fpoke clofely 
to him. What I faid had fuch an eifeft, that he 
told me, he could do no lefs than acknowledge 
the truth of it ; and withal, that his mind was fo 
awakened thereby, that he could take no rcil: iincc. 
I faid what then arofe in my heart to encourage 
him to endure the chaflifmg hand of the Lord, 
until his judgments had wrought their proper 
effect; and left him with thankfuluefs that 1 had 

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been made inflrumental to awaken a poor prodigal 
to a fenfe of his outgoings: for fuch I afterwards 
heard he was, though the fon of a friend in good 
efteera. 

Akhough I had been almofl miraculoufly fup- 
ported through the before recited trials, and had 
been enabled to minifter to many people as I paffed 
along in my journey to Bath Town, and my re- 
turn ; yet confidering all the circumftances at- 
tending it, much caufe for painful rumination was 
adminiftered. I might naturally query whether 
it were right for me to turn back, as the ends I 
had in view, viz. the vifiiing a few Friends in a 
defolate fituation, as well as having meetings at 
Eden Town and Bath Town, were in part fruf- 
trated ; and the aflli6led cafe of the deceafed 
friend's numerous family, who, perhaps might 
have been fpared a little longer with them, had 
ilie not gone with me, bore fo hard upon my mind, 
that, like Jonah, I wiihed to die ; but I quickly 
faw, that in fo doing I erred greatly ; for in that 
impatient flate of mind I was not lit to enter into 
the faint's reft. After fome time my mind fettled 
in a good degree of quiet, and it appeared that 
perhaps the defign of Infinite Wifdom, in engaging 
me to move, as before mentioned, might, in a good 
degree, be anfwered. And as to Rebecca Tombs, 
(he appeared to be in fo weak a ftate when flie 
left home, that had (lie ftaid there, her furviving 

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that pinching feafon of weather might well be 
doubted. 

The 26ih we left the province of North Carohna, 
and came into Virginia, and the Lord was pleafed 
to caufe his peace fo to reft upon our fpirits, that 
we were renewedly convinced, that we were moving 
in his counfel. We had travelled upwards of a 
thoufand miles in North Carolina, and been pre- 
ferved through various jeopardies and trials, to the 
praife of his adorable name. 

The 27th we had our firft meeting in Virginia, 
wherein the teftimony of truth was borne in a clofc 
manner by both of us, againft a dull inaftive fpirit, 
and appeared to have fome prefcnt eifeft. 

The sSth we went to Nanccmond River, and 
vifited feveral meetings on it, and adjacent to 
it J wherein we were flill exercifed to fpeak clofely 
to the members of them j which I believe tended 
to the relief of the fenfible part of Friends. In 
one of thefe meetings, having been clofely en- 
gaged in teftimony, I cautioned friends to beware 
of judging me for the liberty which I took amongft 
them, in laying open the ftate of the fociety, 
ahhough fome of other focieties were prefent ; 
remarking, that it was more hkely to convince 
confiderate people of the truth, than to hear them 
falved over in their fms. I concluded with fome 
ihort remarks and hints of advice to fuch as were 
not under our name, which I fuppofe had its effeft 
on a pretty high profcflbr of the church of England, 

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who accidentally came into the meeting ; for the 
next day he followed us feven miles to a meeting, 
wherein I was told he was much broken into tears; 
and the day following he came about twelve miles 
to another meeting ; I therefore hoped that the 
Truth had been at work in 'his heart. I record this 
paiTltge a«! an incitement to a faithful difcharge of 
duty in the hne the All-wife Dire»9:or of true 
miniflcrs points out. He can make effeiftual a few 
fimple expreflions to the gathering of thofe who 
are without; or even fanftify to them the doftrine 
which may be loll on the unfaithful profefibrs of 
his truth. 

Tlie 17th of the Third month, we had a meeting 
at Surry Black Water, which was large ; Friends 
from the neighbouring meetings, and many per- 
fons of other focietics, collecting at it. After the 
meeting, a pretty higli profcffbr of the church of 
England (his name Peter Worrel), but who for 
fome years had been difTatisfied therewith, and had 
been fceking the way of Truth, fought an oppor- 
tunity of converfation with us. He had followed 
us to ftvcral meetings, and being ferious in his 
inquiries, and free in expreffmg his fcntiments, he 
told my companion (who had had mod of the fer- 
vice in the meetings he had attended), that he 
could not difcover much difference between the 
ground of the doOrine he had heard from her, 
and the fundamental principles of the church of 
England. I faw his flate, that he heard with 
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his bodily cars, and judged by his natural under- 
(landing, of which he had a good fhare, and had 
read much. I therefore told him, that if he would 
attain the knowledge of the Truth, he mud not 
only underftand the words which were fpoken, but 
the power whereby they were given forth ; for 
that, according to the Apoflle's teftimony, " The 
*' kingdom of God ftands not in word, but in 
" power,*' which, with fomething elfe I faid, 
adapted to his cafe, was carried home beyond my 
expectation. He followed us to another meeting, 
and then fought an opportunity with me alone ; 
when he told me, that what I had dropped in con- 
vcrfation, and that day in my miniftry, had fo 
affeCled him, that he was now convinced that 
a Divine power accompanied true gofpel minif- 
try, and that he thought he fliould join with us in 
fociety; but that he was under fome difcouragemenr 
on account of the degeneracy of many of our mem- 
bers. I faid what then arofe in my heart, by 
way of exciting him to faithfulnefs ; and he parted 
from us in much love : indeed he was remarkably 
changed from the time we firfl faw him j his very 
countenance befpoke him to have been with Jefus. 
He was filent, folid, and weighty in fpirit, though 
before talkative and full of head- knowledge in re- 
ligion. I afterwards heard well of him, and J 
think he fettled amongfl Friends. 

I could not but remark on this occafion, how 
fccretly, and almoft unknown to ourfelves, the 

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Almighty fornctimes makes iifc of us to the effecting 
of his gracious purpofes: for in the meetings this 
man had attended, previoufly to our converfation 
with him, I was much fliut up as to miniftry ; and 
my companion was favoured in the exercife of her 
gift ; in one of them remarkably fo ; and yet it 
appeared that I was made the principal inftrument 
of good to this poor feeking foul. 

We then vifited feveral meetings upon Appo- 
matox River ; and the Lord was with us, blefl'ed 
be his name ; thence to the South-weft Moun- 
tains, where we were led in a very low track, 
myfelf efpeciaily. Thence we proceeded through 
many meetings to James River, and fo to the 
quarterly meeting at Wyanoak Swamp. By the 
time I came to James River, I was funk exceed- 
ingly low in mind ; but as I abode in the patience, 
the Lord, in his time, was pleafed to raifc me 
again to his own honour. From James River, we 
went through many meetings in Carolina County, 
up Sherrando River, and by Opeekan Creek to 
Fairfax, which was the laft meeting we -had in 
Virginia. 

In this Colony we had much fufFcring of fpirit, 
for, although in many inftances we were favoured 
with a good degree of ftrength and wifdom, to 
fpeak to the ftates of the i>eople ; yet could we not 
but fympathize with the feed of life, which in many 
of their fouls was opprefled by a dark carnal fpirit : 
wherein the difcipline is too much conduced, or 
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100 

rather in fome places fo perverted, that this de- 
figned wall of defence, is rather a ftumbling block 
to fober inquirers. There are a number of truly 
valuable friends among them ; but in fome parti- 
culars, who, had they kept to the fnnplicity of 
Truth, might have been ferviccablc in the miniftry; 
found and flight are grievoufly mixed therein, which 
will never convince the judgment, or fettle the mind 
in the (lability of Truth, although they may plcafc 
the ear, and affeft the paihons. After leaving the 
province, we fent them an epiflle, which was prin- 
cipally penned by my companion. 

I think a providential prefervation which we ex- 
perienced in this province worthy recording, but, 
not having retained it in the memorandums I 
have preferved, I cannot afcertain the name of the 
river at which it happened. After a long day's 
journey, wherein we had dined in the woods on a 
fcanty meal, we came in the evening to the ford 
of a broad, rapid river, which, from the appearance 
of the waves, we might fuppofehad aflony bottom. 
Neither of our guides were acquainted with the 
ford, and we were afraid to attempt to crofs it 
until it was tried by one of them : fo the youngeft 
of them, about ig, went rather beyond the middle 
of the ftream ; and not finding it very deep, called 
to us to follow, which we with the other guide 
did, when each of them took charge of one of us. 

My companion followed him who went firil, 
and they kept a pretty ftraight courfe acrofs the 

river -, 



101 

river ; but my horfe, and that of the other friend, 
bended down the flream, which I concluded was 
occafioned by its force and rapidity. When we 
got over, we learned that the bed of the river, 
which was of hirge pebbles, was fo uneven as to 
render it dangerous. To ford it fafely, the 
horfes (liould have gone a httle way down the 
dream, and turned up again to the landing place j 
for by going flraight acrofs, the edge of a pit in 
the bottom muft be gone over, which was accounted 
thirty feet deep, fo that my companion was in 
confiderable danger. Surely much caution is ne- 
ceflary for travellers in crofTmg unknown waters. 

The 25th of the Fourth month we had a meet- 
ing at Monoccafy in Maryland, wherein Truth 
meafurably favoured; from which we proceeded 
to Wefl River, taking the meetings in our way. 
We came to Weft River the 29th, and could not 
get a releafe from thence till the 8th of the Fifth 
month. The profeflbrs of Truth in this fettle- 
ment are principally of the offspring of faithful 
anceftors ; but divers of them have taken their 
flight on the wings of vanity and earthly riches, 
and flighted the truly valuable eternal inheritance ; 
and, I fear, fome even defpife that precious faith 
which was once delivered to the fliints. We had 
fix meetings with them, in four of which I was filent ; 
and my companion had not much liberty of fpirii 
until the laft meeting ; wherein the teftimony of 
Truth was raifed in its own dominion. The yearly 

« 3 meeting 



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102 

meeting for this part of Maryland was held during" 
our flay ; which, as ufual, was attended by people 
of other focieties, and, I heard there was a great 
defire to hear me fpeak in this place; but the Lord 
was pleafed very much to difappoint their expec- 
tation. 

The 8th we went to Gerrard Hopkins's, upon 
South River : in the way I had a dangerous fall 
from my horfe, whereby my left arm Vv-as much 
hurt, but, through Divine favour, no bone was 
broken or diflocated. 

The 9th, we proceeded on our journey, al- 
though my arm was fo weak and painful that 
I was obliged to carry it in a fling. We pafled 
through feveral meetings in Baltimore county, to 
Duck Creek and Bulh River, and in many places 
my companion had good fervice ; but great were 
my trials of fpirit about this time, under which 
the Divine arm fecretly fuftained me. Oh ! what 
need is there to Hand ftill in thcfe Gripping, dip- 
ping feafons, and wait low to difccrn the way 
whereby we may efcape the temptations of the 
fubtil enemy. As I was favoured to abide here, 
a little light and flrength was afforded ; whereby 
I was encouraged to trufl: in that arm of Al- 
mighty fufEciency which had hitherto preferved 
me -, and was refigned to travel forward, although 
I might be led in a low defpifed track. 

The 1 8th, we came to Sufquehannah River, and 
the 19th, to Eaft Nottingham in Pennfylvania, to 

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the houfe of my dear and worthy friend John 
Churchman, who was not yet returned from a vifit 
to Friends in England ; but his wife and fon gladly 
received us. The 2 2d we reached Philadelphia, 
and took up our lodging with our worthy and 
ancient friend Rachel Pemberton. 

Here my dear companion met with a trial very 
affcifling to nature, an account of the death of 
her father; which however flie was the better pre- 
pared to receive, from a remarkable fenfe having 
for fome time reded upon her mind that it was 
fo : and fhe was afTifled to bear it with Chriltian 
refignation and fortitude, being favoured with the 
cheering hope that he went well. 

We ftaid in Philadelphia till the 29th, attend- 
ing the meetings of Friends as they came in courfe, 
wherein I had fome fervice, and was favoured 
with peace in the difcharge of my duty, though 
led in a low track, very contrary to the expecta- 
tions of the people, which were to be difappointed. 
My companion was moflly filent during our flay 
in this city. 

The 29th we left Philadelphia, and fet our 
faces towards the eaftern colonies. We appointed 
but one meeting between Philadelphia and New 
York ; where we had two large publick meetings, 
which were attended by many people of other fo- 
cietics ; who behaved well, and the teftimony of 
Truth was borne to them by us both. In the 
cveiiing my corupaniou had an inclinaUyn to have 

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104 

a fcleft opportunity w'nh Friends in that city; 
which, I believe, was memorable to fome prefent, 
for flic was much favoured amongft them. 

On the 3d of the Sixth month, we crofTcd the 
mer to Long Ifland ; and the 5th, had a fniall 
meeting with a few who profefled the truth at 
Setoket, and fo proceeded to the eaft end of the 
ifland, intending to go from thence to the yearly 
meeting in Rhode Illand. We were accompanied 
by two Friends from Philadelphia, John Aimil 
and Thomas Lightfoot, and one from Setoket. 
Here v>e were detained near two days by contrary 
wmds, and lodged at the houfe of a friendly 
man, a Prefbyterian, but more generous in his 
way of thinking than are many of that profef- 
fion in this Ifland. I had a concern to have a 
meeting with the neighbours, and a young man 
kindly offered his houfe j which we accepted, and a 
pretty many people came, and bcliavcd well while 
I was fpeaking ; but very foon after I had done, 
mod of them went away, although the meeting 
was not yet concluded. The Almighty ^yas pleafed 
to c'aufe many gofpel truths to be opened to them, 
and although it feemed to take too little effefV, I 
had peace in the difcharge of my duty. 

On the 8th, we fet fail in a floop, but the wind 
not favouring, we dropt anchor that night, and 
lie.xt day, "being the Firft of tlie week, went on 
fliore at a place about two miles diflant from 
whence we embarked, Here ive were received by 

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105 

a^Miher PrcflDyterian, and that day were favoured 
with a comfortable religious opportunity together. 
The wind continued contrary to the 12th, iu which 
interval we had a meeting with fome of the neigh- 
bours ; which, although cxercifmg by reafon of 
the hardnefs of their hearts, was favoured by 
Divine condefcenfion ; many gofpel truths being 
tcftilied to therein, which 1 hope had admittance 
in fome minds. 

The 1 2th, early in the morning we failed, ac- 
companied by the before-mentioned friends, and 
landed on Rhode Ifland in the afternoon. 

The 13th, we attended a large meeting at 
Portfmouth. The 14th, the yearly meeting be- 
gan, which was held at Newport, and continued 
till the 17th. It was attended by a large number 
of Friends and others ; and the Lord was pleafed 
to manifeft his ancient love and power among us, 
whereby our fpirits were fet at liberty in the ex- 
ercifc of our gifts. I had particularly, at divers 
times, to oppofe that dark principle of uncondi- 
tional ele(5lion and reprobation, and had caufc 
to hope the teftimony againft it had weiglit with 
fome of its profciTors. We were exercifcd for the 
refloration of difcipline, which had been much 
ncglcfted in this quarter; and our endeavours for 
its eftablifliment were meafurably crowned with 
fucccfs ; fo that, upon the whole, at this yearly 
meeting abundant caufe was admirtiftered for 
thankfulnefs to the bounteous Author of all good. 

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106 

We vifited the prifon ; we alfo vlfited fevcral 
friends who were confined through indifpofition; 
in which charitable fervice we had peace and com- 
fort. 

The 19th, we went to Tiverton, and fo, through 
feveral meetings in that quarter, to the monthly 
meeting at Poniganfct, wherein we were exceed- 
ing clolely exercifed ; the teilimony principally di- 
refted to Friends. 

After we left Newport, my mind was much 
diftrelTed, and drawn back to that place, but my 
companion not encouraging me, and I being fear- 
ful, did not return, which I had afterwards reafon 
to believe I ought to have done ; for after our 
leaving it, a young man whom we had vifited in his 
illnefs died. He was of confiderable account in 
the world, and juft upon the point of marriage 
with an agreeable young woman of the fame 
meeting. Had I moved in faith, I might have got 
to his funeral. 

It is worthy remarking, that while I was under 
the exercife for returning back, two friends came 
to vifit us, and my companion being engaged 
above ftairs, I was with them alone a Ihort time. 
We fat a few minutes in filence, when one of them 
faid, " Go down to the camp and fee," without 
any comment upon the expreffion. I had doubtlefs 
been ruminating why my mind fliouid be drawn 
back •, and had I. attended to this intimation^ and 
fet off immediately, I might, with clofe riding, 

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107 

have reached the before-mentioned funeral, and 
have returned in feafon to the monthly meeting 
at Poniganfet ; whereto, as Friends of the parti- 
cular meetings reforted, all the fcrvice required of 
mc might have beea anfwered. 

The 28th, we went on board a floop, and 
failed for the liland of Nantucket. We intended, 
by Divine permilhon, to have attended the yearly 
meeting there, but the wind proving contrary, v/e 
did not get there till the 30th, when the meeting 
was in part over. We went on fliore for a few 
hours on Elizabeth Ifland, where we faw no inha- 
bitant; but it being a fme fun-Urine day, and the 
ground rifmg from the fea, we laid ourfelves down 
upon the turf, and got a httle Ileep ; for the floop 
was fo crouded, being fmall, that we could get 
very little on board. At Nantucket we met our 
friends Daniel Stanton, Ifrael Pemberton, &c. 
from Philadelphia, who had all been with us at 
the yearly meeting at Rhode liland. We were mu- 
tually refreflied together, and the Lord favoured 
us in his fervice, both in the work of the miniflry 
and in difcipline ; to the fatisfadion and relief of 
the fenfible body of Friends, and I hope to the 
tdincation of fome others. 

The inhabitants of this Ifland were favoured 
with wonderful viiitations from on high, at the 
time when our valuable friends John Richardfon 
and others viflted America ; by whofe labours as 
miniflers, a large meeting was gathered to the 

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108 

praife of the Lord's ndmc ; vrhich wrought power- 
fully to the turning the people from " darknefs 
" to light:" and many worthy profeiTors of Truth 
then belonged to it, men and women zealous 
for the honour of it, who walked in that true 
light wherein they had believed. But moft of 
thefe being removed to their eternal manfions, and 
their offspring not generally walking by the fame 
rule, our fociety was in a ftate of weaknefs, 
although the meeting was yet large, and there 
remained a living remnant in it. Some of the 
youth, efpecially of our own fex, appeared hope- 
ful ; but having been left much to themfelves, and 
the work of the difcipline having been neglefted, 
fhey were unprepared for it, and ignorant of its 
weight and neceffity ; fo that the meeting feemed 
in a dwindling condition, as to the life of Truth. 
We laboured for an amendment in thefe refpefls ; 
and in order thereto, recommended their bringing 
the young people of orderly converfations to their 
meetings for bufmcfs (which had been too much 
neglected); with which Friends concurred, and alfo 
with the proportion for their holding two meet- 
ings for worfliip on the Firft-day; whereby the 
time, which was too frequently fquandered away 
unprofitably, by at leaft many of the younger 
fort, might be better employed. Some of the 
members of the meeting living diflant from it, had 
probably prevented their holding two meetings 

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heretofore on tlie Firfl-day ; but that was tio cx- 
cufe for thofe who dwch in the town. 

We left the Ifland in peace, in the afternoon of 
the ifl of the Seventh month, in company with 
our aforefaid friends from Philadelphia, and 
landed at Woodfliold the fame evening; whence 
Daniel Stanton and iTi-ael Pemberton returned 
homewards, but the other friend, not being quite 
eafy to leave us, concluded, with our permif- 
fion, to accompany us a little further. He was 
one of thofe who came with us from Philadelphia 
as gnide, and had accompanied us to Rhode 
Ifland, and while with us, had been remarkably 
under the baptizing power of Truth; which raifed 
a tender regard in our minds towards him, and we 
were not eafy to refufe his company, although 
he was in a iingle ftation. Our Friends alfo of 
Philadelphia, who left us here, concurred in his 
flay, and that the more freely, as fome afliftance 
might be wanted in fome places we were about to- 
pafs through. 

Here I fugged fome cautions necefTary to be 
obferved by 'yOung women in a fmgle flate, who 
travel in the fervice of the miniftry, towards thofe 
of the other fex, who are alfo unmarried. 

Firft, to gudrd their own minds, lefl: they admit 
of any pleafing imagination, and ftamp it with the 
awful name of revelation ; and fo Aide into a fa- 
miliarity and ft-eedom of converfation and beha- 
viour, which might tend to engage the afFe6lions 

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no 

of young men. Secondly, to endeavour to retain 
a feeling fcnfe of the ilate of the fpirits of thofc 
with whom they are intimate, and flri£tly to ob- 
ferve their conduct and behaviour towards them : 
fo will they be the better able to judge of 
their motives for accompanying them, or of any 
other a^t of kindncfs ; and may wifely check any 
forward thought which looks beyond fricndihip; 
which may ealily be done by fome prudent re- 
marks (yet obliquely) in converfation. Thirdly, 
to beware of hurting any of thefe lender plants 
by an aullere condu£l. When we are fingularly 
made inflruments of good, in the hand of Provi- 
dence, to any foul, there is a natural aptitude to 
lean a little to the inflrument, and to prefer it above 
others, which for a time may be allowable. The 
Lord, leading the mind by gradual fteps from the 
love of other objcfts to the entire love of himfelf, 
the one only pure, eternal, Excellency, may per- 
mit it for a fcafon to lean to an inftrument ; in 
which cafe a prudent referve is neceifary, as well 
as a tender regard to the growth of the party thus 
vifited, I confefs, it is fometimes a nice point, to 
be ready to be of fervice to fuch, and prefervc 
the unity of the fpirit, free from a mixture of na- 
tural affection ; a diflinftion which I fear has been 
overlooked by fome to their great hurt, but 
which Truth, if adhered to, will make ; and will 
alfo direcl to (leer fafely betwixt thefe dangerous 
extremes. 

From 



in 

From Woodfliold we went to Falmouth, and 
fo to the quarterly meeting at Sandwich, which 
began the 5th of the Seventh month. It was 
linall and exercifmg, but we were favoured with 
Divine afliftance, through which the teftimony of 
Truth was fet over the heads of the gainfayers. 

From hence we went to Yarmouth, where wc 
had a good meeting with a few Friends, and a 
pretty many of the neighbours, and returned back 
ro Sandwich. 

The loth, we had a meeting at Pembroke, 
which was attended by many people of other fo- 
cities, who were much difpleafed becaufe we were 
fil^Ht. In the evening we had a meeting with a 
few friends ; the principal fervice whereof was to 
Arengthen their hands in the difcipline. 

The I iih, we went to Bofton, and had a meeting 
there with Friends and fome others the fame 
evening, which ended comfortably. 

The 1 2th, our friend of Philadelphia left us to 
return home, and we purfued our journey towards 
the quarterly meeting, to be held at Hampton the 
J 3th and 14th, and with hard travelling we 
reached it in due time. But fuch a fcene of con- 
fufion and diftraclion I never was in before ; occa- 
fioned by a company of Ranters, who had gone 
out from Friends in a fpirit of feparation ; but 
who, in reality, were never properly of us, having 
been injudicioufly taken into memberQiip, before 
Friends knew on what foundation they were; and 

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"being high-minded, heady, and exceedingly wild 
in their imagmations (which they accounted revela- 
tions), would not fubmit to the fenfe of Friends in 
the difcipline, and were therefore difowned. Thefe 
frequently made it their practice to diilurb the 
meetings of Friends, with their wild diforderly 
appearances; and many of them came to this 
<}uarterly meeting, againft whom we had to tef- 
<\fy, being in the courfe of the meetings exceed- 
ingly burdened with their fpirits and publicic ap- 
pearances under pretence of preaching; but we 
were obliged to fuiFer imder their fpirits, until 
our concluding meeting, whereto many of them 
came. After a time of filence therein, my com- 
panion flood up, and one of their company began 
haranguing the people in the grave-yard, and 
others were difturbing Friends in the meeting 
liQufe; W'herein I think a form broke down, where- 
by the diflurbance became fo great, that flie fat 
down in difcouragement, and the meeting conti- 
nued in diforder. In a fliort time I flood up 
with a view to inform the people prefent who did 
not profefs with us (who were numerous), of the 
•f eafon of our conduft towards thefe Ranters. I had 
faid but little before I was fenfible of the fpring 
of Divine life being opened ; from whence I was 
enabled to minifter, though I had no view of what 
was given me to fpeak before I flood up ; but I 
was immediately and mercifully clothed with fuch a 
degree of authority, that it might indeed be fajd, 

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the Truth was over all, and the meeting ended in 
awful folemnity : for which my foul was humbly 
thankful to the Lord, who gave us victory over 
thcfe deluded fpirits. 

The 1 6th, we went to Dover, and had two meet- 
ings with Friends in that quarter, in both of which I 
was fliut up. We attended the funeral of a friend 
whofe relations were Prefbyterians, and had a fea- 
fonable opportunity among the people, wherein the 
teftimony of Truth was exalted. 

The 2oth, we had a meeting with Friends at 
Thomas Henfon's ; and thence went to Berwick 
and Winter Harbour, whence we crolTed part 
of Cafco Bay in a canoe, to vifit a few 
friends on fome iflands therein. Several friends 
from Dover, &c. accompanied us in this journey ; 
wherein had human fears prevailed, we might 
have apprehended ourfelves in danger from the 
Indians, who fometimes annoy the inhabitants, 
killing fome, and carrying others captive to 
Canada : but our fpirits were mercifully pre- 
ferved above fear, and comforted with the 
hope of Truth's profperity among the few 
friends in that quarter ; feveral of whom were 
under its humbling vifitation, and therefore were 
near to our fpirits; from whom we departed in 
gofpel love, and returned to Dover the 30th. 

The ift of the Eighth month, we went to New 
Town, had a meeting at Nathan IIoeg*s, wherein 
much inflruflive doftrine flowed to feveral ftates, 

li particularly 



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particularly to that of the before mentioned Ran- 
ters; and we found that there were prefent two young 
women who fometimes went among them, with 
whom, after meeting, we had fome difcourfe. They 
behaved civilly to us, and told us they had heard 
many lies of us ; and one of them was confiderably 
tendered in fpirit, but the other was high in ima- 
gination. 

From hence \vc proceeded to Almfbury and 
Newbury, where a concern reded upon my dear 
companion to go back, and pay a vifit in the love of 
tlie gofpel to thefe Ranters, for whom fhe had for 
fome time been exercifed, and particularly for their 
leader James Bean ; a man of great cunning and a 
ftrong will, who had heretofore been fuffered to mi- 
nifter amongfl: Friends. She laid this concern before 
Friends, wherewith they concurring, we went on 
the 5th to Brintwood, the place where they held 
their meeting. Many friends accompanied us, 
who I believe were earneflly defirous that we 
might be rightly conduced among thefe dark, 
crafty fpirits ; who readily gave us an oppor- 
tunity with them at their own meeting -houfe. la 
the forepart of the meeting feveral of them fpokc 
fomething, but at length my companion got li- 
berty, and was favoured with the openings and 
power of Truth, direftly pointed to the confufed 
deluded flate wherein they were. I was alfo 
exercifed in the like manner, and we had good 
tidings for fome of them, viz. that there was 

a way 



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) way open for them to return, If they would fufFcr 
their wills and works to be tried, judged, and con- 
demned ; which I believe a few of them received 
well J for there appeared to be fome fmiple- 
hearted deluded fouls among them; who, being 
taken with the more than ordinary fliew of righ- 
teoufnefs, and high pretenfions to enjoyments, vi« 
fions, and revelations ; and not having their fpi- 
ritual faculties fufficiaotly ftrong to difcern betwixt 
the reality and the image of Truth ; had been in- 
advertently catched by them. We had reafon to 
hope that our labours and fuiFerings among thefe 
ranting fpirits had its fervice ; for after we left 
them, we heard that from that time they had been 
lefs troublefome to Friends in their meetings. 

The 7th, we had meetings at Lynn and Salem. 
The firft was large, and greatly mixed with people 
of other focieties, wherein the Lord was pleafed 
to favour me in the exercife of my gift : the laft 
was of Friends feleft, and the fervice principally 
fell upon my companion, whofe concern chiefly 
pointed to Friends. 

The 8 th, we went to Boflon, and attended the 
monthly meeting there the fame day, to which came 
many people of other focieties, but we were wholly 
filent. We (laid over the Firft-day meetings, 
which were attended by abundance of people not 
profelling with us ; but neither of us had much 
to impart to them, which was matter of wonder 
both to them and to fome who profefled with us j 

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116 

there being now a xvillingnefs in the people of this 
city, to hear the teflimony of Truth. We were 
engaged to pay a religious vifit to mod of the fa- 
milies of Friends there, wherein we were favoured 
with the fatisfaftory evidence of being in the way 
of our duty; and from which we hoped fome good 
would enfue, for It fcemed to have confiderable 
cffe^l upon fome, efpecially of the youth. 

The 14th, we went to Mendon, and after hav- 
ing vifited a few little meetings to the north-wefl: ; 
we pafled, through feveral, to Rhode Ifland. 
We were painfully cxercifed in this quarter, 
being engaged for the eftablifhing of a right 
difcipline ; and in the difcouragement of a mi- 
niflry in words, which was not accompanied with 
the power of Truth ; wherewith fome of the people 
were amufed, but not profitably fed, and the truly 
fenfible were diflrclTed. In divers places we 
were moflly or wholly filent, in large mixed 
meetings, perhaps for examples to thefe forward 
fpirits. It raifed the difpleafure of fome againfl 
us ; but we were mercifully preferved patient and 
refigned, and I hope ready to do good for evil. 

The 27th, we came to Newport on Rhode 
Ifland, and were affectionately received by our 
friends Thomas and Mary Richardfon and their 
children, with whom we lodged both now and 
when there before. 

The 28th, we were at their week-day meeting, 
ifV'hich was pretty much mixed with people of other 

focietics j 



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focietles ; but our concern at this time being prin- 
cipally to Friends, their coming rendered it diffi- 
cult for us to difcharge our duties. We therefore 
requefted a meeting of Friends feleft, which we 
obtained, and I believe it ended to the general fa- 
tisfaftion of the fenfible minds prefent ; the Lord** 
power being exalted therein, under the tendering 
eile^ls whereof fome of the youth were bowed. 

From Newport we went through feveral meet- 
ings on the ifland of Poniganfet to Greenwich, 
wherein I had but little fliare in the miniflry ; 
but my companion had good fervice in this quar- 
ter. Here we parted from many Friends who had 
been made near to us in the Truth ; and on the 
8th of the Ninth month, fet our faces towards 
New York government ; but my companion, not 
finding her fpirit releafed from Greenwich, we re- 
turned back the next morning, and had a meeting 
with Friends there the (lime day; and the loth, 
had one at Machanticut. We had fome painful 
labour in both thefe meetings, the caufe of which 
I forbear to mention, but in the end had to point 
out one of the parties that had occafioned it. 

The I ith, we proceeded on our journey through 
Connecticut Province, to Oblong in New York 
government, about 150 miles, having no meetings 
by the way but at New Milford, where there is 
a few under the profeflion of Truth, 

From thence we went to Salifbury, and the Nine 

Partners ; where my companion was confined by 

indifpofition, and I was obliged to attend the 

Ji 3 meetings 



118 

meetings in this quarter alone ; wherein I was fa- 
voured with a degree of Divine help. 

The 23d, we returned to Oblong, and were at 
the meetings there on the Firfl-day, which were 
large, and I hope ferviceable. 

From hence we had thoughts of paffing through 
the other meetings of Friends on the maia land in 
this quarter, and fo of proceeding to Long Ifland ; 
but foon after we left Oblong, a cloud came over 
our fpirits ; and being divefted of a capacity for 
fervice, we concluded to go direftly to Long 
Ifland, and there to reft until the caufe or end of 
this difpenfation fliould be manifefled to us j which 
proved to be a feparation from each other. I had 
long feen it would be fo, and fome of our friends 
before we left Europe expefted, and rather preffed 
it ; fearing that our fervice would be lefs to 
the church by our keeping together, than if we 
feparated. We had now travelled together as 
companions in the moft difficult parts of the coun- 
try ; had Ihared fo many trials, fufferings, and 
dangers, and had been favoured with great unity of 
fpirit therein, that it appeared hard for us to 
part ; but when we were convinced of the pro- 
priety of it, we fubmitted, in hope that it might 
tend to the benefit of that glorious caufe, for 
which we left our native land. After patiently 
waiting fome days, my companion's way opened to 
Philadelphia ; but I not being quite clear that the 
time for my leaving this quarter was fully come, 

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concluded to flay behind her ; which fhe, as wcU 
as myfelf, being mofl eafy with, we imparted our 
exercife to Friends at their monthly meeting, and 
had their approbation in our fcparation. 

The 3d of the Tenth month, we took an affec- 
tionate leave of each other at the honfe of our 
friend John Bowne of Flufhing ; and fhe, accom- 
panied by fome men friends, proceeded towards 
Philadelphia. My view was to turn back to the 
few meetings we had not vifited on the main land, 
and J. Bowne's wife being willing to accompany 
mc, we, with two men friends, left her houfe the 
fame afternoon. We had a pretty broad ferry to 
crofs, and the tide not ferving until evening, it was 
near night when we got over. We did not go in 
the fame boat with the horfes, but one of the 
men friends (laid with them, and we could not expeft 
them over for a confiderable time. The ferry houfe 
fccmed a poor place to lodge at, and it appeared 
proper we fliould that night get to the houfe of a 
friend, who was member of the meeting I wifhed 
to attend next day, that notice might be given of 
it ; and if we flaid for our horfes the family might 
probably be gone to bed. We therefore inquired 
for horfes to proceed forward, but could procure 
only one, upon which I determined to go with a 
man to ride before me, who was to bring tlie horfe 
back. My friends who were with me knew the 
people of the ferry, fo I fet out without fear, al- 
though I had no pillion. We had but about two 

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or three miles to ride, and it was a fine, clear, 
moon-light night, and mofl: of the way on an even 
fand. I foon found the horfe was a ftumbler (in- 
deed the poor beaft had no Ihoes on, a common 
.cafe on Long Ifland, and other even, fandy, parts 
of the country), and when we had gone perhaps 
half way, down he came, and threw us both ; but 
we were thrown far enough from the horfe to re- 
ceive no hurt from him. The horfe rolled upon 
his back, and when he arofe I found the faddlc 
had no girth to it, and I knew before that it had 
no crupper, fo it was unlikely that its rider 
fhould have any command of him when he fell. 
We had a kind of a wafli-way to pafs before we 
got to the friend's houfe, fo I could not well walk 
it ; therefore I mounted again at fome high rails, 
and we reached the houfe before the family was in 
bed ; and my friends came fafe the fame night. I 
vifited the meetings on the Main, which I had a 
view of, and returned to Flufliing the 5th. 

I wifli'^d to vifit the meetings on Long Ifland, 
that I might be excufed from returning back 
thereto-; but not having eafe of mind in the 
profpe£t:, I concluded to follow my companion to 
Philadelphia ; in which I believe I was right, as it 
tended to convince Friends in general that our fe- 
paration was not occafioned by any difference be- 
twixt us, ©r other improper caufe or motive : fo I 
proceeded accordingly, accompanied by one man 
friend. 

On 



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On the 7th, we flopped to refrcfli ourfelves at 
New York, and my affectionate friend Margaret 
Bowne, at whofe houfe we had lodged before, 
concluded to take me in her chaife to Philadel- 
phia: a feafonable relief from riding on horfeback. 
We crofTed the Sound that afternoon, and 
reached Philadelphia the loth, a journey of about 
100 miles from New York. My companion had 
gone a little round, in her way from Long 
Ifland to vifit a general meeting, and came to 
Philadelphia the (lime day ; and after having 
converfcd with each other, we were mutually fa- 
tisficd with meeting, although we could not fee 
that we fliould unite again in the fervice through 
the provinces of Pennfylvania and the Jerfeys. 

We {laid in Philadelphia more than a week, 
and our Friends were unanimous that it was bed 
for us to feparate. My way opened to go to the 
yearly meeting to be held at Shrewfbury. In the 
way thereto, I fell in with feveral week-day 
meetings, and with one appointed by Jofliua Dixon, 
a friend on a religious vifit from England. I had 
alfo forae fervice in the families of Friends, for 
which I had my reward. The meeting at Shrewf- 
bury began the 28ih, and was attended by divers 
valuable minifters j and indeed I thought there was 
need of weight to counteraft the light frothy 
fpirit which appeared in the people, both in fome 
of thofe who made profeffion of Truth, as well as 
many of other focicties j whofc njotive in attend- 
ing 



122 

ing that meeting being more to plcafe the natural 
mind, by getting into the company and converfation 
of each other, than for the honour of Truth, 
they added no weight to it. However, the Lord 
was pleafed fo to favour, that the teftimony of 
Truth was feveral times fet over them in good au- 
thority. . I was particularly engaged for the wel- 
fare of my fellow members in fociety, and defired 
an opportunity with the heads of families ; which 
Was procured, and I had good fatisfa^lion in it. 

The 30th, I left Shrewfbury, and the ifl of the 
Eleventh month, returned to Philadelphia, a jour- 
ney of near 90 miles. I met my companion here 
Well, and alfo my dear friends John Churchman, 
who was returned from his vifit to Friends in 
England, and Samuel Fothergill, who was enter- 
ing upon one to Friends in America. We were 
mutually refrefhed in beholding the faces one 
of another, our union in the Truth being 
ftrong, which was now renewed in the frefti fpring- 
ing up of its life. We all attended the quar- 
terly meeting at Philadelphia, which was large, 
and eminently crowned with the Divine prefencc ; 
wherein my companion and felf rejoiced, though 
We had but little (hare in the public fervice. 

As we found it right to part, for the gofpel*s fake, 
on the 8th, we took leave of each other in a degree 
of cheerfulnefs, and in the unity of the fpirit; com- 
mitting each other to the Divine proteftion, under 
a feeling fenfe of his humbling goodnefs. My 

views 



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views pointed to Weft Jerfey, fo I croffed the 
River Delaware at Philadelphia, being accompa- 
nied by Sarah Barney, a religious young woman 
of the Ifland of Nantucket, who had come to 
Philadelphia to fpcnd fome time amongfl: Friends 
there, and found freedom to go with me for a 
while, as I did to accept of her company. She was 
not in the miniftry. 

I palTed through a train of meetings to the 
quarterly meeting at Salem, and ray concern prin- 
cipally bending to the members of our own fo- 
ciety in that quarter, I was pleafed that the meet- 
ings were not mixed with others ; and was fome- 
times favoured with a degree of enlargement in 
the heavenly gift, though at others poor and low. 
. The guarterly meeting at Salem began the i6th 
and ended the 1 9th, wherein I had clofe hard ex- 
ercife in fpirit, as well as in minifterial fervice, ia 
which I was not much enlarged. 

The 20th, I had a meeting at Greenwich, 
where there is a promifing profpe£l among the 
youth, on feveral of whom the folidity of Truth 
is deeply impreffed. My fpirit was clofely united 
to them, but could minifter but little. It appeared 
to me, that the Almighty would more perfeft his 
work in them, by the immediate operation of his 
own Spirit, than by the help of inftruments. 

The 2 1 ft, we rode between 50 and 60 miles to 
Cape May, vifited the few Friends there, and To 
proceeded to Great Egg Harbour, vifited the fe- 
veral 



124 

veral meetings there, and the 28th, went to Little 
Egg Harbour. We went a confiderable way be- 
twixt thefe two harbours in a canoe jufl wide 
enough for one perfon to fit in : there was ice in 
the bottom of it, which being broken, fomc 
ftraw was laid for me to fit on. 

Hence we proceeded, througli Upper Spring- 
field, to New York. In our way we lodged 
at Amboy, at the houfe of a widow, who was 
under the profelTion of Truth. Here we met 
with a young woman, to whofe perfon and cha- 
ra^er I was an entire llranger, on whofe account 
I became concerned, fufpe^ting that all was not 
right with her: and in the morning after breakfajfl, 
I fpoke to her in a very clofe manner, and gave 
her fuch advice, as in the openings of Truth 
arofe in my heart. I thought I could partly have 
pointed out her crime, had not delicacy and fear 
kept me back. She wept much, and haftily re- 
tired in great confufion and agitation of mind ; and 
I afterwards heard that flie had had a child by 
her filler's hufband, and was come here to be. 
fheltered from publick notice ; but the Lord fol- 
lowed her, and I had reafon to hope that the ex- 
tendings of his grace were towards her, although 
flie had been fo great an oifender. After fome 
more clofe and very particular fervice with the 
woman of the houfe, I left it in peace and thank- 
fulnefs to the Almighty, who Imd enabled me to 
difcharge this hard piece of fervice j for fo indeed 

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125 

It was, to fpeak thus to individuals and ftrangcrs: 
but in the day of his power his people are made 
willing to execute his commands. 

I went to Raway and Rywood's meetings, and 
got to New York the 5th of the Twelfth month ; 
and after a meeting there went on Long Ifland, 
where I vifited all the fettled meetings of Friends, 
fave one, which I had been at before. My con- 
cern here at this time principally bended to- 
wards the members of our own focicty ; and 
fometimes when meetings were much mixed with 
others, I had nothing to fay to them ; which gave 
offence, not only to them, but to fome carnal pro- 
feffbrs of Truth ; but I endeavoured to reft fatisfied 
in the Divine will, well knowing, Inlinits Wifdom 
knew bed what to adminifter for their good. At 
Flufliing, the people not proftjQing with us, had a 
great curiofity to hear me preach. Many of them 
had been with me at two meetings when I was be- 
fore on the Ifland, at both of which I was filent, 
and now came again, and were a third time difap- 
pointed, I believe in wifdom ; for they being ftill 
diflatisfied, a number of young people came in the 
evening to my lodgings, I fuppofe with an intent 
to know whether I had any private meeting in the 
family, with whom I fat down in retirement ; and 
others of the neighbourhood hearing of it (by 
means of fome of the family whom they had de- 
fired to give them intelligence if there were fuch 
an opportunity), came in, and I had a remarkable 

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126 

teflimony amongfl; them, direfted to their ftates-, 
the force of which fome of them could not evade, 
as the opportunity was fo feleft. 1 found after- 
wards that divers of them were Deifts, againft 
whofe principles I had to ftrikc with much flrength 
and clearnefs. Friends prefent were comforted in 
the feeling of Divine goodnefs ; for the power of 
Truth was exalted, blefled for ever be the name of 
the Lord ; who in his own time, will honour fuch 
as honour him by manifefting that they are no- 
thing, nor can do any thing, but through his Di- 
vine affiftance. 

The 1 8th of the Twelfth month, we left Long 
Ifland, in a thankful fenfe of the providential care 
of our heavenly Father, in preferving and fuftain- 
Ing us through the many dangers and difficulties 
attendant on this journey in the winter feafon ; 
when the roads in many places were bad, and wc 
had many broad, wild ferries to crofs, which are 
fometimes rendered very dangerous through the 
froft and ftrong gales of wind ; but the weather was 
always favourable when we crofTed them. 

The 1 9th, I attended a monthly meeting at 
Woodbridge, which was fmall and exercifmg, 
wherein I had little fervice, except to flrengtheu 
the hands of Friends in the difciphne, the line 
whereof fliould have been farther ftretched over 
fome tranfgrefTors. We refled a day or two at 
Raway, at the houfe of our kind friends Jof. and 
Sarah Shotwell, and the 2 2d, went to Plainfield, 

and 



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and thence, through feveral fmall meetings, to. 
SI number of meetings about Burlington, which 
were moflly large, and fome of them fatisfa£lory, 
being attended by the power of Truth; but 
the doftrine was moflly clofe, for which there was 
forrowfully a caufe. The 13th of the Firft month, 
1755, we croffed the River Delaware, and were 
at a meeting at Briftol, in Bucks County, Penn- 
fylvania ; which was not large, but attended with 
a degree of the Divine prefence. The 15th, wc 
were at the Falls meeting, in which I was filent, 
and which was a comfortable feafon to mc. 
The 1 6th, I parted from my companion Sarah 
Barney, who having received a hurt upon her 
arm by a fall from her horfe, was prevented from 
accompanying me further. She was a tender af- 
fectionate companion, and very exemplary in her 
converfation ; which, together W'ith that fmcerc 
love to Truth which dwelt in her, united her to 
my fpirit. 

Grace Fiflier, a friend in the miniftry from 

Philadelphia, accompanied me through the reft of 

the meetings in Bucks County, which were five. 

In fome feafons of filence the people appeared to 

be too generally in a dull, fluggifh ftate. In fome 

©f thefe meetings the Almighty was pleafcd to 

open the fpring of the miniftry, which I believe 

flowed in a manner not quite agreeable to fome, 

who wanted fmooth things, although they were 

not their portion : and may I never miiiifter fo dc- 

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128 

ccitfully, as to cry Peace, when his holy fpirit Is 
grieved. There is in this county a weighty, liv- 
ing number of friends, unto whom my fpirit was 
clofely united in the covenant of life, but there 
are many dwellers at eafe. Some of the youth 
appear promifmg, and the Divine vifitation was 
largely extended to many. Oh! that they may 
embrace and dwell under it, fo as to become par- 
takers of the glorious privileges of the gofpel 
difpenfation. 

The 2 1 ft, I again croffed the River Delaware, 
accompanied by Grace Crofdale, a Friend of 
Bucks County, who had a gift in the miniflry, 
and went to Bethlem, and thence to vifit a few 
families about twenty miles back in the woods ; 
with fome of whom we had a meeting which was 
attended by feveral of their neighbours; to whom 
I was drawn to minifter freely in the love of the 
gofpel, and believe it had its effefi: amongft them. 

The 23d, we again croffed the River Delaware, 
which was pretty full of ice, and our men friends 
were a little doubtful that if they went over with 
us they could not return the next day, Ihould the 
froft continue ; as the ice might be united, though 
not ftrong enough to bear them ; and I being un- 
willing they fliould be detained, concluded to go 
with two men (ftrangers to me, but one of them 
known to friends in general) who were waiting for 
a paffige over the river j they accompanied us to a 
friend's houfe about five miles on the other fide ; 

where 



129 

where the next day we had a fmall meeting with 
a few Dutch people, and then proceeded to the 
upper part of Philadelphia County and Berks 
County, in which part the meetings are moflly 
fmall. I had fome painful labour of fpirit in this 
quarter, and alfo a comfortable profpeft ; for the 
Lord has amongfl: Friends here, a remnant of the 
ancient flock, who have, in a good degree, kept 
their habitations in the Truth ; and a few of tl^ 
youth are brought under its humbling baptifm ; 
and I thought the extendings of his Divine vi- 
^iitation were to the carelefs. 

The 3ifl:,'We crolTed the River Schuylkill la 
a canoe, and our horfes were fwum over. Wc 
attended a meeting at Nantmill in Chefter County, 
the ift of the Second month ; and paffed throngh 
feveral meetings to the quarterly meeting for Chef- 
ter County, held at Concord. 

About this time I was under a very heavy exer- 
cife of fpirit, being environed with darknefs, and 
made to (land as in the ilate of fuch as defpife 
religion, and call in queilion Divine juftice and 
mercy. Under this painful baptifm I continued 
many days, whereby all the bleffings of kind Pro- 
vidence were imbittered, and my life feemed a 
burthen 5 yet fometimes a glimpfe of light would 
dart through the cloud, and I conceived a hope 
of deliverance thereby, and that this difpenfation 
was allotted rencwedly to fit me to minlfler to 
fome in this flate, as well as to fympathize with the 
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afHi<fted and tempted. It appeared to me remark- 
able that although I was thus exercifed when out 
of meetings, both by day and by night, and per- 
haps for a confiderable part of the time 1 was in 
them ; yet was I not entirely difablcd for fervice j 
the cloud would break as in an inilant, and I had 
jufl light and Hrength afforded to fee and difchargc 
my duty; and after a while it would clofe up 
again as before. My foul hath abundant caufe 
to blefs the name of my God in this and fuch like 
painful feafons, which I defure to retain in lafling 
remembrance ; for had it not been for the fupport 
of his powerful merciful hand, I had been as one 
who goes down into the pit ; being as it were en- 
tered, in thought, into the dark avenues which 
lead to deftru^ion ; yet faintly (as I thought) ad- 
hering to that faith which was once delivered to 
the faints. Thefe are the feafons of the " trial 
** of our faith, which is more precious than that 
" of gold which perifheth." 

The quarterly meeting at Concord began the 
7th of the Second month, where I met my dear 
companion Mary Peifley. Our meeting was at- 
tended with Divine confolation, under a fenfe of 
the protection of Providence having been over us in 
our abfence from each other ; and our union in the 
Truth was renewed and ftrengthened. The quar- 
terly meeting was large, and Divinely favoured, 
and the tcflimony of Truth therein exalted in 
ftrengtli and clearnefs. 

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The minds of fome members of our fociety 
were at this time much unfcttled through govern- 
ment afTiiirs. A war with the French feemed hkely 
to break out ; and fome were for deviating from 
our Chriftian teftimony, which is againfl: defenfive, 
as well as offenfive war; confidently with that pure 
charity which " bearcth all things, and feeketh 
" not its own'* by means contrary to the tendency 
of the peaceable gofpel difpenfation. Againfl 
this fpirit we had to teilify, I hope to good purpofe, 
for the power of Truth was over the meetings in 
an eminent degree, whereby the doftrinc preached 
was enforced : glory be to the Lord for ever ! He 
bringeth down and raifeth up, for the honour of 
his own name, and the eftablifhment of his fer- 
vants in righteoufnefs and truth. The fcripture 
given me to comment upon in this meeting was 
Joel 2d, verfe the 15th, and fome following, 
whereon I was opened to my own humbling admi- 
ration and that of fome of my friends. Here we 
met our friends John Churchman, Jofhua Dixon, 
and many more, with whom our fpirits were com- 
forted in the Divine prefence. 

The 1 2th, we came to Philadelphia, where we 
fpent a few days, and were principally engaged in 
vifiting fome friends* families, and the girls* fchool 
for Friends* children. We alfo vifited the prifon, 
wherein were confined feveral who had made 
feme profefllon of Truth, viz. one for debt, and 
three boys for theft, who, with the fourth, their 

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accomplice, were much broken in fpirit. This was 
to me one of the mofl afFe^cing fervices I had 
ever been engaged in, from the confideration of 
their deplorable circumftances ; for although their 
lives miglin be fpared, a lading ftain might remain 
upon their reputation ; but we were comforted in 
the hope of their being brought to repentance, 
fts Divine mercy was extended unto them. Oh ! 
how careful ought young people to be of the 
company they keep ; for if they arc familiar with 
the children of darknefs, they too often, by almofl 
imperceptible degrees, contraft their vicious in- 
clinations, and are led into a£ts of wickednefs, 
from which they would once, perhaps, have flirunk 
back with horror. 

The i8th, we went in company to Frankfort, 
where we had a good meeting, and parted in the 
comfortable fcnfe of the Divine prefence; my 
companion going to fome meetings in Bucks 
County, and myfelf to Abington, Horfliam, and 
Plymouth, accompanied by Sarah Morris of Phi- 
ladelphia, and Anna Logan. 

The 23d, I again met my companion at Bur- 
lington, where wc attended the quarterly meeting 
for the upper part of Weft Jerfey ; which was a 
folemn feafon, and the fpring of the miaiftry was 
opened to edification and comfort. 

The 26th and 27th, we attended the quarterly 
meeting in Bucks County, Pennfylvania; which 
'was large and latisfa<flory. Divine help being ex- 
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tended to the encouragement of us and of the 
faithful prcfent. Here my companion and I again 
fcparatcd in a fenfe of our heavenly Father's love; 
and myfelf with Sarah Morris proceeded to vifit 
fome meetings in Bucks and Philadelphia Counties, 
and came to Philadelphia the 8th of the Third 
month. I flaid in and about the city till the 
24th, vifiting fome of the families of friends, 
as my ftrength, which was now but low, would 
permit ; but I had folid peace in fpending a few 
days in this fervice. 

On the 24th, I went to Newtown in Well 
Jerfey, fo to Evefham and Haddonfield to the 
quarterly meeting for that province ; wherein I 
was low both in body and mind, and had not 
much public fervice. 

The 28th, the half-year's meeting at Philadel- 
phia began. Here I again met my dear com.panion 
Mary Peifley. The meeting was large and folemn, 
there was much filence in it, which was perhaps 
not lefs profitable to many, though lefs pleafmg, 
than preaching. 

The 3d of the Fourth month we again fepa- 
rated, and I went towards the eaftern fhore of 
Maryland, having for a companion Hannah Fofler 
of Weft Jcrfcy, alfo Jofliua Fiflier of Philadel- 
phia, who went to aflift us, it being a quarter 
wherein it might have been difficult always to 
procure guides. We were obliged to travel hard, 
and I having alfo hard fervice amongfl: a few 

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unfaithful profcflbrs of Truth who were fcattered 
about in this quarter, and my heahh being poor, 
it was painful for me to purfue the journey; but 
Divine goodnefs fecretly fuftained my foul, and 
alliiled to difcharge my duty according to know- 
ledge ; and in the end afforded a comfortable 
hope that my labour was not entirely fruitlefs. 
We attended a half-year's meeting at Chefter in 
Maryland, and another at Duck Creek : at the 
lad we met John Churchman, We had labo- 
rious travail of fpirit, the life of Truth being 
low in that quarter, but through Infinite good- 
nefs, the teftimony of it was raifed in a good 
degree of authority. We had comfortable hope 
refpeiTting fome young people hereaway, and 
parted from the living araongfl: them under a 
fenfe of Divine favour. We proceeded through 
feveral fmall meetings of Friends (wherein I had 
painful labour of fpirit, yet I hope fomc folid fer- 
vice) to Lewifton. There is no meeting of Friends 
eftabliilied here, but we had a large one in the 
court-houfe, wherein the power and teflimony of 
Truth was raifed in dominion to the praife of 
the great Name. 

The 29th, we returned to Duck Creek, my- 
felf in a very low ftate both of body and mind ; 
but as 1 endeavoured to keep my mind to the 
Lord, he was pleafed as in an inftant to difpel the 
thick cloud of darknefs which for fome days had 
cncompalTcd me; and fo to lift up the light of his 

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135 

countenance upon me, that I rejoiced exceedingly 
in the hope of his falvation. 

The 4th of the Fifth month my companion 
Hannah Fofler left me at Eaft Nottingham, and 
my valuable friend Margaret Churchman (wife of 
John Churchman) accompanied me to fome meet- 
ings in Lancafter and York Counties; and fo to the 
yearly meeting held at Weft River, for the weftern 
fliore of Maryland, at which I had been with my 
companion M. Peifley, in 1754, but had then but 
little public fervice amongft the people. I met 
with fome oppofition in my endeavours for the re<- 
vival of difcipline, from apoftate and libertine fpi- 
rits ; but the Lord fupported me above it. 

The yearly meeting was large, and Divinely 
favoured. Several friends came o?er the bay 
to it, and I was favoured to fee a little fruit 
of my painful labour when on the other fide, by 
the change which was apparently wrought in a 
young perfon, who was then of a light converfa- 
tion. William Brown, from Philadelphia, at- 
tended this meeting, and had good fervice therein. 
Love feemed to fpread amongft Friends at this time, 
and we left them in peace, and returned the 26th 
to Eaft Nottingham ; where I met Sarah Morris, 
from Philadelphia, who propofcd to accompany 
me through Chefter and Lancafter Counties, &:c. 
She was a truly exemplary woman, and fomeiimes 
highly favoured in the miniftry. 

We left Nottingham the 29th, and paflcd 
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136 

through the reft of the meetings in Lancafter 
County, wherein I had much clofe fervice. We 
vifited Cheftcr County pretty thoroughly, wherein 
is a very large body of profefTors of Truth, but 
many of them are deficient in regard to its fanfti- 
fying operation upon the fpirit. Many noble pillars 
have been removed from amongft them, and fome 
of the elders who then remained had unhappily 
loft their ftations in the Truth, and yet nominally 
retained their offices in the church. Thefe were 
ftumbling blocks to the youth, who were too apt 
to look at the example of fuch, and to plead their 
inconfiftent practices as an excufe for their own tak-!- 
ing liberties in other refpefls. Againft thefe, and 
fuch like deceitful watchers and pretended labour- 
ers, who had not kept the vineyard of their own 
hearts, and yet dared to ftretch forth their hands 
to the Lord's fervice, I had fliarply to teftify : and 
I fometimes was made an example of filence in the 
folemn aflemblies. There was alfo in this county 
a folid living number of friends, who were 
preachers of righteoufnefs in their refpe£live fta- 
tions, both by example and precept ; with whofe 
unity the Lord was pleafed to favour me, and 
who I truft will ever be near to my life in that 
holy bond, which neither time nor death can dif- 
folve. 

After vifiting Chefter County, I became much 
indifpofed, and retired to the houfe of my kind 
friend John Morris, in Philadelphia County j where 

(as 



137 

(as at feveral times before had been the cafe) I 
was affecflionately received, and the necefTary en- 
deavours were ufed for my recovery ; which the 
Lord was pleafed fo to blefs, that I was enabled 
in about two weeks, to purfue my journey, though 
in confiderable weaknefs of body. In this feafon 
of confinement and releafe from pubHc labour, 
the good phyfician fo favoured, that although my 
body fuflained confiderable pain and weaknefs, 
my mind rather gathered ftrength, and was greatly 
encouraged in the hope of future prefervation. 
My dear companion M. Peifiey came to me from 
Philadelphia, who having vifited almoft all the 
meetings of Friends on the conthient of America, 
entertained hope of our foon embarking for our 
native lands ; but we had much more both to do 
and to fuffer, before that hour came. We met in 
wonted afieftion, and therein again parted the 2d 
of the Seventh month ; when I proceeded to vifit 
fome meetings in Philadelphia and Berks County, 
where there feemed a promifing profpeft araongfl 
the youth, fome of whom appeared to be advan- 
cing in reftitude of fpirit and condu<^; at which my 
foul rejoiced ; it being part of the fruits of that 
labour of love, the Lord of the harvefl: had caufed 
us to beftow upon them. I had confiderable free- 
dom in the exercife of my gift in this renewed vifit 
to thefe places, and again met my companion the 
16th, at Stenton near Philadelphia ; from which 
};lace wc went in company to Philadelphia the 

17th, 



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17th, and thence to the quarterly meeting at 
Concord, in Cheder County ; after which I pro- 
ceeded to fome other meetings in that county, and 
returned to my companion at Philadelphia the 
19th of the Eighth month. 

From this time wc were moflly together while 
in the country, which was much longer than was 
agreeable to our natural inclinations ; for we were 
detained the winter ; being engaged in vifiting the 
families of Friends in Philadelphia, in conjun£lion 
with the Friends who were under appointment for 
that fervice ; in which important work, we were fre- 
quently favoured by the Wife Head of the church, 
who directs, that even " Jerufalem (hall be fearched 
'' with lighted candles ;'* and for that purpofe illu- 
minates the fpirits of his fervants, and furnifhes 
with do£lrine fuited to the flates of thofe vifited. 
We took divers turns in the country, to vifit quar- 
terly, monthly, and particular meetings, and had 
good fervice for the Lord therein ; but in the 
meetings in Philadelphia were frequently bound in 
fpirit, being made to preach filence by example ; 
which I believe had its ufe, by inflrufling the 
people not to depend on inflrumental miniilry. 

Towards the latter end of the winter, my dear 
companion became very much indifpofed, and con- 
tinued fo for feveral months ; in which time flie 
was frequently prevented from attending meetings, 
and fometimcs confined to her room. I gave 
her the flriflcfl attendance I was capable, info- 
much 



139 

much that with other exerclfes attending, my 
health was greatly affe^led, and my fpirits funk to 
a degree of deje<flion I had never before known : 
neverthelefs I was fo favoured as to be alive, and 
to be at times ftrong, in my minifterial fervice, to 
the very couclufion of our (lay in the country. 

And now, as it was our lots in the wife direc- 
tion of Providence, to be in the province of 
Pennfylvania, at a time when the minds of Friends 
were more than commonly exercifed, on account 
of publick or political affairs; by reafon of the 
French making incroachments on fome of the 
Britifli colonies ; and fome of the Indian tribes 
having committed great outrages on their frontiers, 
and murdered many of the back inhabitants ; the 
condufl of us who were concerned to labour for the 
fupport of our peaceable Chriftian teftimony, was 
hardily cenfured by the unthinking multitude; and 
by fuch of our own fociety as were one with thera 
in fplrit ; who infmuated that we intruded into mat, 
ters foreign to our proper bufmefs, and were in 
part the caufe of the continuation of the calamities 
which attended the provinces, through our teflify- 
ing againfl the fpirit of war, and advifing Friends 
to fupport our Chriftian teftimony faithfully, I 
think it not improper briefly to give fome account 
of the (hare I had in concerns of this nature. 

On my coming to Philadelphia in tlie Third 
montli, 1755, I undcrftood the afiembly was about 
to fit ; and the major part of its members being 

then 



140 

then under the profcfllon of Truth, on confiderhig 
how difficult it would be for fuch, to maintain our 
Chriftian tcflimony, and to a£l confidently with 
what the people at large thought was for the good 
of the province ; I was induced to propofe, a few 
weighty friends having a religious opportunity 
with fuch members of the aiTembly, as made pro- 
feflion with us ; wherein, perhaps. Truth might 
open counfels fuitable to the occafion, and our 
fympathy with fuch as were concerned to maintain 
its teflimony might be manifefled. 

This meeting with the concurrence of Friends, 
fuch an opportunity was obtained, and I had the pri- 
vilege of being at it ; and therein was concerned to 
teftify, againfl that fpirit, which from human confi- 
derations was for war, and to ftrengthen the minds 
of Friends againfl leaning thereto. Divers times 
during thofe troubles, I was concerned publickly 
to affert the confiftency of our peaceable principle 
with the gofpel difpenfation ; and once, if not of- 
tener, to point out the confequence of Friends 
deviating therefrom, which was remarkably ful- 
filled before I left the country. This was no more 
than confiftent with my office as a minifler, and my 
commiflion to that country, which was to preach 
Truth and Righteoufncfs, and to ftrengthen the 
hands of my brethren, againft their oppofcrs. Both 
myfelf and companion were fo clear of Improperly 
intermeddling with the affairs of government, that 
we fometimes checked the torrent of convcrfation 

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141 

on that fubjeft, either by filent or verbal reproof j 
and but feldom fo much as read their newfpapers. 
During the time of the people's being in fo 
great confufion and diflrefs, on account of the 
Indian war, my mind was much exercifed ; but for 
feveral months, I know not that I could at all, 
even fecretly, petition the Almighty for their relief, 
with any evidence of fuch a petition arifing from 
the fpring of Divine life. But a little before a flop 
was put to their depredations, my fpirit was almoft 
continually clothed with interceiTion, that the Lord 
might be pleafcd to flay the fword ; and in two 
publick meetings I was concerned in like manner; 
and I did not hear that any mifchief was done 
after that time, by any Indians who had occafioned 
that diflurbance, and a cefTation of arms enfued. 
I record this as an inflance of Divine wifdom in- 
{Iruding his fervants to afk what it is pleafmg to 
him to grant j as well as retraining them from 
petitioning for what might be exceeding defirable 
to themfclves, before the proper time : and I be- 
lieve that if miniflers thus kept under the govern- 
ment of that fpirit of wifdom, wliich giveth liberty 
in the appointed feafon acceptably to approach the 
throne of divine Grace, it would be more felf- 
cvident that they aflced in the name and fpirit of 
Jcfus, by their prayer being anfwered. 

I think it worth remarking, that the termina- 
tion of this Indian war, was at lafl cileftcd by the 
peaceable interpofuion of Friesds. An Indian 

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chief, with other Indians in friendfliip with Pcnn- 
fylvania, being occafionally in Philadelphia, Friends 
obtained leave of the governor to have a con- 
ference with them; in order to endeavour, through 
their interference, to bring about an accommoda- 
tion with the Indians now at war with the Britifh 
colonies. As we were admitted to attend this con- 
ference, I mention it. It evinces the veneration the 
Indians retained for the memory of William Penn, 
and for his pacific principles; and their great regard 
to Friends, whom they ftiled his children. Several 
of their women Hit in this conference, who, for 
fixed folidity, appeared to me like Roman matrons. 
They fcarcely moved, much lefs fpoke, during the 
time it was held ; and there was a dignity in the 
behaviour and countenance of one of them, that 
I cannot forget. I was informed that they admit 
their mofl refpe£led women into their counfels. 

And here I remark, that we were in Philadelphia 
at the time when the firfl: foldiers that had come 
there commillioned from the Englifli government, 
arrived at that city ; under the command of Ge- 
neral Braddock. I faid a cloud of darknefs 
came with them. The Lord had fettled this co- 
lony by peaceable means, he had hitherto pro- 
tected it by his own Almighty arm and it prof- 
pered greatly; but henceforward difunion and dif- 
turbance prevailed and increafed In it. Our friend 
Samuel Fothcrgill, as well as we, was flrongly and 
affcftionately engaged to promote peace, and guard 

them 



143 

them againft the event, which he feared would 
cnfue, and which in time followed. 

Our flay in this country was confiderably longer 
than ufual for friends who vifit it from Europe ; 
which was much in the crofs to our natural inclin- 
ation, but quite in the unity of the fcnfible body of 
Friends ; who faw that we were induftrioufly en- 
gaged in the fervice to which Truth had called us : 
and whatever fome loofe fpirits might fuggefl: re- 
fpefting our long abfcnce from home, I have this 
leftimony in my confcience, that fmce I have been 
engaged in the folemn fervice of the mlniftry, I 
have ever endeavoured to accomplifli the duties 
aifigned me, in as fliort time as I could; being 
defirous that I might not afford occafion of cen- 
fure to fuch, as being unacquainted with the 
humbling weight of this fervice, may conclude that 
we travel for pleafure, or to gratify a roving or 
curious difpofition ; as well as that I might fpend 
the fpare time afforded mc in the exercife of my 
duty in my own family ; and examining the flate of 
my mind; which, after returning from journies of 
this kind, as well as in going along, fliould be ne- 
cefTarily attended to : and may I never be a fcrvant 
whom Divine wifdom has made a keeper of his 
vineyard, but who negle£ls the culture of his own 
heart. 

My companion's fervice through the continent 
principally bended towards Friends, yet wxs fhe at 
times clearly and livingly opened v^ others ; but 

my 



144 

my concern was moRly more general ; although In 
the provinces of Pennfylvania and the Jerfeys^ 
wherein our Chriftian principles were pretty much 
tnown, it was more particularly dire£led to my 
fellow members in focietyj who had perhaps been 
the lefs laboured with by minifters vifiting them, 
on account of meetings often being much mixed 
with other profeflbrs. As we fpent fo much time 
in Philadelphia before we left the continent, I had 
many times been much enlarged in the fervice ap- 
pointed me, both to Friends and others ; and my 
companion, whom as a minifter I preferred to ,my- 
felf, had extraordinary fervice j but as is before 
hinted, her bodily weaknefs prevented her attend- 
ing meetings fome of the latter part of the time 
we fpent in it. I may fay without boafting, that 
we were endeared to the weighty body of Friends 
in that city, as well as in the other parts of the con- 
tinent, and they were fo to us. And after having 
laboured among them more than two years and 
feven months, we took a folemn leave in the love 
of the gofpel, of thofe prefent in a large quarterly 
meeting held at Philadelphia, and left the city on 
the 5th of the Sixth month, 1756. We were ac- 
companied by many Friends to Chefler, and were 
there Divinely favoured together the next day, 
when we went on board a fuow bound for Dublin, 
in company with our dear friend Samuel Fothergill, 
who was returning from his religious vifit to Friends 

in 



145 

in America, and Abnihiim Farrlngton, who \va3 
going- on one to Friends in Kurope. 

There were p-aiTengers in the Hime velTel with us, 
Siimuel Emicn, ii friend oF Philadelphia, and two 
other young men friends, who were going to. 
England by way of Ireland. We had a very 
quick but llormy pafllige; being on board only 
thirty-four days, and l)ut twenty-fix of them out of 
light of land. The failors accounted it a very fine 
palTage, but we futTcred very much in it, through 
the boillerous winds, and their confequences. The 
wind being right aft, the water frequently daflicd 
over into our cabin, although our * dead-lights 
were moftly kept up ; and it run much under my 
bed, {o as render my lodging very uncomfortable; 
and, being fea-fick and otherwife indifpofed, I was 
at times funk very low, yet the hand of the Lord 
was near to fuftain and comfort me. Notwith- 
flanding the llormy weather, we liad fevcral blelTcd 
meetings on the voyage, at fome of which the 
mafter and failors were prcfent, unto whom Divine 
goodnefs was pleafed to open fuitable inflruclion. 
England was now at war with France, and by the 
account of fome fifliermcn wlio came on board u3 
in the Irifli Channel, we narrowly cfcaped being 
taken prifoners, as two privateers were feen in the 
Channel, at the very time we fliould probably have 
met them, had we not for fome hours been ibrccd 

• Boaids put to defend the cabin -windows ui ftormj. 

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146 

back by a flrong contrary wind, the only one wc 
had during the voyage, which appeared fignally 
providential for us. 

We lodged in Dublin at the houfe of" our friend 
•Samuel judd (who was uncle to my companion), 
which was formerly the habitation of my very 
worthy aunt, Sarah Baker, whofe fervices in the 
miniflry, when refident in this city, had endeared 
her to Friends, and her name was precious to 
thofe of the prefcnt day. 

The loth of the Seventh month, we landed at 
Dublin ; and the 25th, after taking an affectionate 
'leave of my dear companion and friends, Samuel 
'Fothergill and I took fliipping for England, and 
landed at Holyhead in Wales the 27th. Here we 
bought horfes, and reached Chefter the 29th, 
where my friend Samuel Fothergill left me, and 
whence, accompanied by a young man, a friend, 
I got home the 31ft. I was affeftionately re- 
ceived by my dear mothef, brother, and filter, who 
united in thankful acknowledgments of the Lord's 
mercy, in reftoring me to them and my native land. 
I travelled 155 miles from Holyhead in four days ; 
and had been abfent from my mother's houfe three 
■years, and upwards of one month. 
' I had noted having travelled upon the continent 
and iilands, upwards of 8750 miles (my companion 
not fo much). When I compare- the fatigues, and 
the various inconveniences and hardfliips I fuflained, 
\iixh my natural conftitution, I cannot but admire, 

that 



147 

that I did not entirely fink under them: and, on con- 
fidering the dangers attending the journey, which 
were too numerous for me to particularize in the 
foregoing account of it, I mufl thankfully acknow- 
ledge that the preferving fuftaining hand of my 
heavenly Father, was fignally extended for my 
help and falvation. May the humbling fenfe of his 
mercies and tender care, by me unmerited, reft 
weightily antl laftingly upon my fpirit. 



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C II A P. V. 

THROUGH my late long and great bodily 
fatigues, my conflitiition was fo fliiiken, that 
a fcalou of reft appeared dcfirable, and I rather 
eX(pe<fled it fome time before I returned home ; but 
the Lord was pleafed to order it otherwife, I hope 
to his own honour and my prefervation : for be- 
fore and quickly after my arrival in England, di- 
vers profpedts of duty opened, which appeared 
likely to engage me for more than a year ; and 
which 1 was favoured to accomplifh in the follow- 
ing order. 

In about two weeks after my return, I attended 
our quarterly meeting, where I was met by many 
of my dear friends, who rejoiced to fee me, and 
we were meafurably favoured together in the Di- 
vine prefence. Qiiickly after this I went to the 
circular yearly meeting for the feven weftern coun- 
ties, which was held this year at Warwick : it wa? 
large, and attended with holy folemnity. My dear 
friend Samuel Fothergill and myfelf, had the prin- 
cipal fliare in the publick fervice, wherein the 
Lord favoured us 5 to w horn be the praife of all 

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his works now and for ever. This being the ufual 
time of harvefl:, with a profpcft of the plentiful 
crops of grain being much injured by the heavy 
rains, Samuel Fothergill in one of his teflimonics 
noted it, as a threatened judgment from Him who 
openeth the flood-gates of heaven or llayeth them, 
to the effc^^ing of his own righteous purpofes. 
The rains continuing long, fo much grain was 
fpoiled or damaged, as to occaiion an extreme 
fcarciiy before the next harveft. 

A few weeks after my return from this meet- 
ing, I went into Herefordfliire, to vifit my fifter 
Young and her family. I there found my mind en- 
gaged to vifit the meetings of Friends in that county, 
which I did, except one of them, and returned 
home by way of Worcefler. Here it appeared 
right for me to get an opportunity with fome of 
the mod experienced friends of that city; that w« 
might together confider about fetting forward the 
good work of vifiting the families of Friends in 
this county: of which I had a view before I reached 
home, from Ireland ; and when I came there, I 
found that a general vifit to Friends* families 
throughout the nation had been recommended by 
the lad yearly meeting at London. I therefore 
found freedom to offer myfelf to icflifl in that 
fervice, provided the fame could be accompliflied 
fo as not to interfere with my other profpe6ls of 
duty. I alfo recommended to the friends prefent, 
the eflabliihment of a meeting for minifters and 
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150 

elders in the quarterly meeting of this county. Wc 
were eminently favoured in this opportunity, and 
I left the city in peace, and with a hope of feme 
conclufion being come to at our next quarterly 
meeting. 

I flaid at home a few weeks, being clofely en- 
gaged in writing. The 2 2d of the Eleventh 
month, I went to Worcefter to attend our quar- 
terly meeting, under a weighty exercife of fpirit, 
having an intention, if Friends fhould accede to 
the aforefaid propofition of vifiting families, to flay 
and join them therein. Our quarterly meeting 
was attended, in a good degree, with the Divine 
prefence, yet the fervice of it was hard and labo- 
rious. Friends were backward in regard to giving 
in their names to enter upon the vifit to families, 
concluding themfelves unfit for fo weighty a work; 
however fome were nominated, with whom I 
united, and concluded to flay, and fee how Pro- 
vidence might favour the undertaking. I had 
fome flruggle betwixt alTeftion to my natural pa^ 
rent, and the purfuit of the fervice before me ; my 
dear and aged mother being likely to be left with- 
out either of her daughters ; my fifler Ann being 
with my filler Young, whofe children had the fmall- 
pox ; but I was enabled to purfue my duty, and 
to commit her to the care of gracious Providence ; 
whofe regard I found by account from herfelf, fhe 
fignally experienced in my abfence, and encouraged 
mc to continue in the fervice, I began in great 

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felf-diffidence, and went through the families of 
Friends in 'the city ; but the Lord was with me; 
and frequently clothed me with flrcngth and wif- 
dom fuited to the occafion. I was confiderably 
favoured whilft- in the city in the excrcife of my 
gift in the publick meetings of Friends, took leave 
of them in much love, and left it in peace and 
thankfulnefs. 

The 19th of the Twelfth month, being accom- 
panied by Mary Oldbury, a young woman of 
Worceftcr, who had an acceptable gift in the 
miniftry, I went to Perfliore, a town wherein no 
member of our fociety refided ; but Friends, hav- 
ing a meeting-houfe there, held a meeting quar- 
terly, which was this day. It was large, but 
moftly compofed of people of other focieties. I 
fat about an hour and an half filent, in which fea- 
fon my fpirit was fweetly compofed, and refiraed 
to wait tlie Lord's time to be put forth in fervice; 
wherein I was afterwards much favoured, the 
teftimony of Truth being exalted in its own autho- 
rity. The people were very folid and attentive, and 
I left the town in peace, accompanied by the be- 
fore-mentioned friend Mary Oldbury, to vifit the 
families of Friends in Evefliam and Shipflon, 
which we were favoured to accomplifh to a good 
degree of fatisfaftion. We fat with Friends in a 
few of the meetings in Warwickfliire, and fo 
came to my own monthly meeting of Chadwick, 
having vifited almofl all the families of Friends 

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in the fcveral towns which coiiriiturc it, which 
were four. I rfturncd home in peace and th'dnk- 
fuhiefs for the gnicious afliftance voiichfafed by 
Divine goodncfs, through tliis laborious fcrvicc, 
the 24th of the Firft month 17 J?/. 

I flaid about liome until the latter end of the 
Third month, in which interval I was clofely enr 
gaged in attending to ferviccs as they opened in that 
quarter, and preparing for tliofe diftant ones, which 
had been imprefled upon my mind to be executed 
this fummer; viz. the attending the yearly meeting 
for the four northern counties, and from that to 
the national meeting at Dublin; fo to the yearly 
meeting at London, and the fucceeding quarterly 
meetings in Effex, Suffolk, and Norfolk; which 
are (tiled yearly meetings, becaufe at that quarter 
in the year, there are fome additional meetings 
for woriliip held, which are generally large both 
of Friends and others ; and after thefe meetings 
to vifit the few friends remaining in Holland. 

My dear friend Lucy Bradley, being engaged 
to vifit Friends in Ireland, concluded to accompany 
me to Dublin. I met her at Stonrbridge on the 
23d of the Third month, and left her there for a 
few days with her relations, with an expeftation 
that (lie woiild meet me the 27th. I took an 
affeftionate leave of my dear mother and brother, 
and went, accompanied by my filler Ann, to Wcd- 
nc(buryi a town at which a meeting was held 

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quarterly, wliicli liappcncd to be on that day. 
llcrc I expected Lucy Bradley to meet me, and 
that we fliould from thence have purfued our jour- 
ney together, but, being prevented from coming, 
through indifpofition, flie informed me that Hic 
hoped to be able to meet me, in a few days. The 
meeting was large both of Friends and others, and 
divinely favoured ; and after it I took leave of 
my iiller and divers friends, and went that niglit to 
'Rugeley in Stailbrdiliirc, and as I had for fome 
time had a view of vifiting the families of Friends 
in that county, who are not numerous, I entered 
upon that fervice tlie 28th, and vifitcd fudi as 
were in that place wiili fome fatisfaflion. 

The 29th, 1 went to Stafford, at which place 
the quarterly meeting for the county was that 
day held, and I laid before Friends my concern for 
vifiting the families, and had their concurrence 
therewith. 

Here I met with my friend Samuel Emicn, who 
came paiTenger with me in the fame (hip from 
America to Ireland; in which nation he had tra- 
velled as companion to his aged countryman 
Al aham Farrington, and had himfelf appeared in 
the minillry in that nation, to the fatisfaftion of 
Friends. As he was in a weak, low flate of mind, 
I was inclined to take him with me for a few days. 
Accordingly we left Stafford in company, and, 
having vilited feveral Friends' families in the 
country, went to Uttoxeter j where we proceeded 

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in the fame fervicc. My companion Lucy Bradley 
came to me here, to our mutual comfort. We 
■\vere favoured together with a blefl'ed opportunity 
in the friend's family where wc lodged ; and after 
committing each other to the protection of Provi- 
dence, we parted from Samuel Emlen and went to 
Leek ; where we alfo vifited the families of Friends, 
which we were favoured to finifli the 8th of the 
Fourth month, I hope to the mutual fatisfa£lion 
of ourfelves, and of the friends of the county who 
accompanied us in that fervice. 

During my engagement in this weighty work, I 
was furprifed with the intelligence that my endeared 
friend and companion Mary Peifley was removed 
from mutability. She had been married but three 
days to Samuel Neale, a Friend of Ireland, and 
went off with a few hours indifpofition ; being 
doubtlefs removed from the profpeft of a fcttle- 
ment on earth, to a glorious eternal inheritance; 
for which flie appeared more vifibly prepared than 
many others of the Lord's fervants. We had 
been companions together in many probations, and 
our union in the Truth was ftrong, fo that her 
death affefted me deeply, the more fo from being 
attended with fo Angular a circumftance j yet was 
my fpirit thankful that {he was taken at an hour 
when her crown flione brightly. She had been 
a great example to me in divers refpe^fls, and I 
begged to be affifled to follow her, as fhe had 
followed Chrift. 

The 



1.55 

The 9th, we went to Warrington, where a re- 
newed occafion of thankfulncfs to gracious Pro- 
vidence was adminiilcrcd, by the probabihty of the 
recovery of our dear friend Samuel Fothergill, 
from an indifpcfition wherein his life had been 
defpaired of. This had much affeiSled my mind, 
from the confideration of the great lofs the church 
would fuftain by his removal, and myfelf as an in- 
dividual member thereof ; yet durfl I not afk his 
longer continuance, in this ftate of trials and dan- 
gers, knowing that if Divine wifdom called him 
out of it now, it would certainly be in the beft 
lime. 

From Warrington we went, through divers 
meetings in Lancaftiire, to the quarterly meeting 
at Lancafter, which was fignally favoured with 
the manifeftation of Divine regard through the 
miniftry. I remember, before the publick meeting, 
I was funk fo low, that I fcarcely expected ever 
more to be fet at liberty in the exercife of my 
gift as heretofore ; yet could not fee what I had 
done to occafion a lofs therein ; but in the meeting 
I was as remarkably raifed. Thus are the poor in- 
flruments abafed and honoured for their own pre- 
fervation, and the good of the church; the one 
difpenfation being as a ballad for the other. 

The 26th, we went, in company with feveral 
friends, towards Penrith, where the yearly meet- 
ing for the four northern counties was to be held. 
In cur way we called upon that truly honourable 

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motlier In Ifracl, Grace Chiun])tr>, ■v\lio was very 
ancient and had been long indifpofed, with whom 
wc were favoured with a rcfrcfliing opportunity. 
How encouraging is it to young travellers to be- 
liold and conilder fuch examples of perfeverance! 
It bailies the eilorts of the adverfary to perfuadc 
that it is impolliblc to hold out to the end ; and 
raifes this language in the foul, Lord, let my 
life and latter end be like theirs. At Penrith we 
met my beloved friend Abraham Farrington, ano- 
ther of thefe ancient worthies, and we mutually 
rejoiced to fee each other. 

The yearly meeting was large both of Friends 
and people of other focicties. My fpirit was bowed 
before the Almighty, that I might be preferved 
a61ing in my proper place in the courfe of my fer« 
vice therein, and that my conduft might be un- 
blamable ; and, through mercy, I had humbling 
caufe of thankfulnefs adminiflered ill the clofe 
thereof, to Him wlio had exalted his own name and 
teftimony through fo weak an inllrument, unto 
whom be the praife now and for ever, faith my 
foul ! Although this meeting was attended by fe- 
veral able minifters of the male fex, it pleafed the 
wife Mafler of the folcmniry to employ them but 
little, and to lay the weight of the fervice upon 
the females J who, though the weaker veflels by 
nature, are at times rendered llrong through his 
Divine power : and our brethren rejoiced that it 

was 



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was apparently fo, through the courfc of thclc 
mectinG[s. 

The exercife of my mind while at Penrith, \v<i> 
added to by the profpeft of my concern for viht- 
injT fomc purts of Holland ; for although before 
I left home I was refigncd thereto, and had im- 
parted it to my relations, as well as to Friends oi 
the monthly meeting, tliat they might conlider re- 
fpe^ling granting me a certificate ; yet now on iu 
near approach, my want of the language, the va- 
rious notions in religion which I knew prevailed 
amongft that people, my fex, and, for ought I 
knew, the being cxpofed to much hardfliip, re- 
volved in my mind ; and, being oppofed to my 
little ftrength, deprefled my fpirits, yet not lb as 
to caufe mc to turn from the {)iofpctt, or prevent 
my wrelliing with the Almighty for -.vifdom and 
Arength, to know and do his will. 

Aiter the yearly meeting at Penrith, vre we.*: to 
Cockermouth, iind there attended a large gCiiCraJ 
iBeetmg. My concern for Holland continuing, and 
not expecting to be at home in time to attend om 
monthly meeting, I wrote to ray brother to pro* 
cure a certificate for the accompliihmen: thereof. 

The 3d, wc went on board a veflel boimd from 
Whitehaven to Dublin, and arrived at that city 
the 5th, having been favoured with fine weather 
on Okur paiTiigc; but my fpirit was much flrippcd 
of a fcnfc of divide good, and as I drew near the 
city ii became dcprcRed j in whicli flate I landed:, 

and 



158 

and proceeded to my lodgings, which was at Sa- 
muel Judd's. At my entering his houfe, the re- 
membrance of dear Mary Pcifley affedingly oc- 
cured. It was in this houfe that we feparated in 
our return from America ; and therein we had 
fpent many precious hours, in fwect union of 
fpirit. The national meeting began the 7th and 
continued till the 1 2th. It was a feafon of clofe 
engagement and hard labour, both in the meet- 
ings for worfliip and difcipline ; but I was fa- 
voured in it with the unity of the living members 
of the Society, and the helping hand of the Al- 
mighty ; and in the clofe, was humbly bowed be- 
fore him under a fenfe of his goodnefs, varioufly 
manifefted in fuftaining my weak body under fuch 
laborious exercifes, and ftrengthening me fpiritu- 
ally to tcflify boldly againfl: the fms of the people : 
which, although it might expofe me to their cen- 
fure, yielded to my foul the peaceable fruits of 
righteoufnefs. 

After the conclufion of the national meeting, 
I requefled a friend to go and take my paffage, 
faying, I mufl get to our quarterly meeting ; on 
which a friend prefent faid, I fpoke as if I had the 
wind at command. I replied, that, if the Lord 
appointed my being there, he would difpofe the 
wind to favour it, which happened accordingly. 

The 14th, I parted from my dear companion L. 
Bradley in much affeftion, and quietly went on 
board a vcflel bound for Parkgate, accompanied 

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159 

by my friends Abraham Shackclton, Thomas 
Greer, and Jofeph Inman, who were going to the 
yearly meeting at London. We hinded at our de- 
figned port the 15th, and reached Stourbridge on 
the 17th, where the quarterly meeting for Wor- 
ccflerfliire was to be held ; and the meeting for 
miniders and elders began foon after wc came 
there. 

Here I was met by my dear mother and brother, 
to our mutual rejoicing; and my heart was deeply 
aft'c(5lcd with love and gratitude, under the con- 
fideration of the many mercies extended to me; and 
flrong defires were"raifed to be enabled fo to per- 
fevere, as to be favoured with the continuance 
thereof. 

We had a good meeting, and many Friends who 
attended it rejoiced to fee me returned in fafetv, 
and, after taking an afi'eftionate leave of them, 
I went home.- 



CHAP. VI. 



j^^0 



C H A P. VI. 



I STAID but a ft;\v days with my relations, but 
fct forward, with my dear brother and the be- 
fore-mentioned Friends from Irchind, for the yearly 
meeting at London. In our way thereto we met 
onr friends Samuel Fothcrgill and Abraham Far- 
rington, unto whom I imparted my view of vifiting 
Friends in Holland, wherein they fympathizcd 
■with mc. At London I laid my concern before 
the meeting for miniftcrs and elders ; and it met 
the approbation of my fi:iends5 and a fuitable com- 
pauion was prepared |br me by my good Mailer, 
namely, Sophia Hume, of London. 

It is worthy remarking, that when this journey 
was firft prefented to my mind, this friend was 
pointed out as a companion therein ; yet had I not 
freedom to write, or fay any thing to her there- 
upon unuj I had thus propofcd it, for the con- 
fidcration of Friends ; when I found that kind Pro- 
vidence had cared for me, as flie had for fome 
time found her mind ciigaged to hold herfcif in 
rcadinefs to accompany fome friend on a journey, 

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161 

though flie knew not whom nor whereto, but on 
my mentioning my concern, faw both. John Ken- 
dal, a Friend of Colchefter, who could fpeak 
Dutch, was engaged in lore to accompany us. 
Thus does the Lord mercifully provide all things 
necefTary, for fuch of his fervants as are freely 
given up to run on his errands, and move fimply 
by his dire6lions. 

The yearly meeting at London was overflia- 
dowed with the wing of Divine love. I had fome 
fatisfa6lory fervice therein ; and on the 7th of the 
Sixth month, I went to Plaiftow to vifit my dear 
and ancient friend John HayM^ard ; and here I 
parted in much affeflion with my dear brother, 
and with Samuel and Ann Fothergill, 

The 9th, I went to Chelmsford, where I (laid 
until the 1 2th, being in want of a little reft. Here 
my companion Sophia Hume came to me, and wc 
went together, with Abraham Farrington, to the 
before-mentioned quarterly meetings held at Col- 
chefter, Woodbridge, and Norwich ; in all of which 
I was laborioully exercifed, and the hand of mj 
heavenly Father was with me; through which I 
was made ftrong in his caufe, and I hope the meet- 
ings ended to the honour of his worthy name. 
Under a fenfe thereof, my fpirit bowed in thank- 
fulnefs to him who clothes with ftrength for the 
battle, and by his own right arm gets himfelf the 
viftory : unto whofe fervice may my foul be bound 
for ever ! 

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162 

We ftaid about three weeks in Norwich, in 
which city there is a large body of Friends, unto 
whom a powerful vifitation of Divine love had 
latterly been extended ; through the prevalence 
whereof divers natural members, or branches of 
our own fociety, had in a good degree fubmitted 
to the funplicity of the crofs ; and others had been 
gathered to the immediate teachings of the Shep- 
herd of Ifrael from other religious focieties. Seve- 
ral had appeared in publick teftimony, for whom in 
an efpecial manner our fpirits were exercifed, that 
they might honour God in thei. refpeftive callings, 
by an exemplary converfation and a living miniftry. 
I bad much fervice amongfl them in the openings 
of Divine wifdom and love, wherein fome of the 
dangers which attended them were pointed out. I 
was alfo concerned clofely to reprove fuch as had 
fuftained lofs in the Truth, by letting out their 
minds after terreflrial enjoyments, and were feck- 
ing great things to themfelves, whereby the Lord's 
work in them was marred. 

From Norwich we went to Harwich, and on 
the 2ifl of the Seventh month, 1757, accompanied 
by John Kendal, went on board the packet bound 
for Helvoetfluys, where we landed the next day. 
There we took a carriage and went to the Briel, 
a pretty large town j but I did not find that ever 
any of our fociety refided therein, and the people 
feemed very ignorant refpe<fHng us : for as wc 
walked the ftreets, offence was taken at our 

friend 



165 

friend John Kendal for not returning the cuflom- 
ary falutatioii of putting off the hat in the fame 
manner. 

My fpirit was very low on my arrival in this 
country, on account of the difficulty I laboured 
under for want of knowing the language. Could 
cither myfelf or my companion have fpoken Dutch, 
we might have explained to the man, who was an 
officer in the army, our reafons for not returning 
his civility, for fuch it appeared to be ; and he was 
very much irritated at John Kendal's not noting it 
as fuch. 

From the Brlcl we went in a boat to Rotter- 
dam, which is a large city, wherein there was 
formerly a meeting of Friends, and where ftill 
remains a meeting-houfe, and there are a few 
who were educated among us ; but they had fo 
little regard to the teftimony of Truth and the 
welfiire of iheir fouls, as entirely to neglect af- 
fembling to worfhip the Almighty; yet were not 
content to profefs with any other people. We 
had no inclination to call upon any of thefe j 
but having information that the meeting-houfc 
was under the care of perfons who were the de- 
fcendents of friends, we called at their houfe, 
and dclired that the meeting-houfe might be got 
in readinefs for us to have a meeting there at 
our return, which one of ihem promifed it fliould 
be. He behaved civilly, but appeared very diflant 
from the profcflion of his anceflors. Thefe per- 
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164 

fons were great tradefmen, had become rich, and 
much in the grandeur of this world, and were 
now of the fociety of the Menifts or Baptifts. 

The next day we went in the irackfcuyts, by 
way of Delft and Leyden (in neither of which 
cities are any under our name), to Harlem, where 
lived the perfon who ufed to interpret for Friends 
from England : upon whom we called, but found 
him fo enfeebled, as to be entirely unfit for that 
fervice. Here we were met by Sophia Vander 
Werf and her fon John, from Amfterdara. She 
was a woman of a fweet natural difpofition, came 
amongft Friends by convincement, and had received 
a gift in the miniflry, in the exercife of which I be- 
lieve {he was acceptable to Friends. The young 
man had relided a confiderable time in England ; 
he fpokc Englifii well for a Dutchman, and I 
looked towards him for an interpreter ; but al- 
though he appeared to have a fenfe of Truth, I 
feared his being deep enough in the experimental 
work of it for that fervice: fo I faid nothing to him, 
and proceeded to Amfterdam under fome difcourage- 
ment. In this city a lodging was provided for us 
by Friends, at the houfe of Abraham Herman, 
which appeared the moft fuitable place for our 
reception of any belonging to them. He with his 
wife received us kindly, and treated us fo whilfl 
we flaid with them. It was Seventh-day even- 
ing when we came to Amfterdam, and before 
John Vander Werf left us, I afked him whether he 

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165 

was willing to aflifl U5 as an interpreter; but he 
modeftly declined, pleading his unfitnefs for the 
fervice. John Kendal alfo refufed, on account of 
his deficiency in the language to interpret in a 
publick meeting, although he could fpeak Dutch in 
the common courfe of converfation. Under thefe 
difcouraging circumftances I went to bed, befeech- 
ing the Almighty to lay a concern upon fome one 
to ailill me. When I rofe in the morning, my fpi- 
rit was low, yet not doubtful of my being right 
in coming into this country. In this ftate I went 
to meeting without any expeftation of an interpre- 
ter being provided for me at that meeting; and 
therefore rather expefted to be filent therein. 
The meeting was pretty large, but we were told, 
lefs than at fome other times : for although there 
are but few profelTmg the Truth in this city, it is 
cuflomary for people of all religious focieties, 
nations, and qualities, who come there on ac- 
count of bufinefs or pleafure, to go to our meet- 
ings, moft of them doubtlefs from the motive of 
curiofity ; but the folidity of the countenance and 
demeanour of fome now prefent, and the know- 
ledge I afterwards had of them, convinced me 
that they were actuated by a better motive. 

In the fore part of the meeting, my fpirit was 
much exercifed and broken under the confidcra- 
tion of having no interpreter ; yet fupported in 
hope of the provifion of Providence : for it ap- 
peared to me incoufiflent with Divine wildom and 

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166 

mercy to bring me hither, and not to open the way 
for me to convey his will to the people. After 
fome time a Dutch friend bore a fhort teftimony j 
and foon after he fat down, fomething arofe in my 
mind, by way of information to the people re- 
fpe<fting our motives for coming amongd them ; 
and I was quickly favoured with flrength to ftand 
up, intending to fay that I had fomething to com- 
municate to them, which if any one prefent would 
interpret, I would impart, but I was not obliged 
to proceed thus far, for upon feeing me rife, John 
Vander Werf rofe alfo, came and flood by rae in 
the gallery, and interpreted what I faid to the 
prefent rehef of my fpirit, and the fatisfaflion of 
fuch friends prefent as underflood both Dutch 
and Englifh. 

I found it fo difficult to convey the doftrlnes of 
Truth in this way to the people, that it appeared 
almofl impoffible to get relief of mind, or liberty 
of exprefTion, to that degree I had fometimes been 
favoured in my own tongue. I fpoke a fentence, 
and flopped for the interpreter to fpeak it after 
me ; and I was thankful that kind Providence had 
fo far anfwered my belief of his providing for me ; 
and was comforted in the hope that his blelTmg, 
which alone maketh fruitful, might be dropt upon 
my weak endeavours for the exaltation of his 
Truth. The meeting ended in folemn fupplication, 
in which exercife I had no interpreter, John Van- 
der Wcrf being unwilling to undertake that awful 

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167 

fervlce. Some prefent might underftand Englifli 
well enough to comprehend what I faid; and 
others, I beHeve, were fenfible of the Divine 
power which overfhadowed the meeting. 

The afternoon meeting was neither fo large, 
nor yet fo fatisfa£lory, as that of the morning; 
which I thought might be occafioned by a fellow- 
minifler withholding what Divine wifdom required 
to diftribute ; whereby my fervice to the people 
appeared to be impeded, and, the life of Truth 
being low, I faid but little. I left the meeting 
under fome difcouragement, yet not without hope 
of being more at liberty before I left the city. 

We ftaid in and about Amfterdam till the 5th 
of the Eighth month, in all which time we had 
no meeting but in the city ; nor did it appear 
likely we fhould have many elfewhere in the 
country, by reafon of my interpreter being clerk • 
to a merchant, whofe bufmefs did not admit 
of his being much abfent, fave on Firft-days. In 
this time we had feveral pretty good opportunities 
with Friends and the people j yet I feemed as an 
ambaflador in bonds, but laboured to be content 
in the prefent difpenfation. We were vifited by 
feveral religious people, with fome of whom I felt 
a degree of union in the Truth ; but faw their lofs 
in running after notions, and not fettling in the 
ground of true filence, wherein the mind becomes 
cflablifhed in reftitude : and it appeared proper 
to fet them an example therein j and to be cau- 

k 4 tious 



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tious of running into religious difcourfe (to which 
they are much addifted), without feeling liberty 
for it in the Truth. We vifited a religious Me- 
niil, and had fome fatisfaftory fervice in his fa- 
mily. There are a number among that people 
who are near to Chrifl's kingdom, though not 
fully redeemed from inefficacious ceremonies, and 
a dependance on inftruracntal miniilry, or at leafl 
a fondnefs for it. 

The 5th of the Eighth month, we went in the 
trackfcuyts, as far as Horn, "towards Twilk, our 
friend Sophia Vander Werf accompanying us. At 
Horn we called on two religious Menifls ; the one 
a preacher amongfl: them, who feemed more ga- 
thered into flillnefs than mofl of that perfuafion, 
and his wife near the Truth; the other much in- 
clined to difcourfe on religious matters, in whofc 
family I found an engagement to leave a fhort tef- 
timony to the benefit of filence, which they ap- 
peared to receive well. As we pafTed through the 
towns, we fcattered fome books fetting forth our 
principles. A friend from Twiik met us here 
with a waggon, wherein we went home whh him 
that evening. 

At Twiik there is a fmall meeting of profefTors 
of Truth, but we found them much in the mixture, 
and fome of them fo exalted in notion, that it was 
hard faftening any folid do6lrine upon them. We 
were at two meetings with them, and feveral of the 
Menifls ; both of which were exercifuig, that in 



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the morning particularly (o j but I was comforted 
with an evidence that my fervice, weak and im- 
perfeft as it appeared to me, was accepted of Him 
who employed me. The afternoon-meeting was 
more fatisfaftory, although laborious. The Menill 
preacher before-mentioned, with his wife and fon, 
were with us, in whofe company we had a degree 
of fatisfaftion. The next morning we procured a 
{e\e£t opportunity with mofl of the friends belong- 
ing to the meeting, at the houfe of a valuable wo- 
man friend, whofe circumftances demanded our 
fympathy ; (he dwelling folitarily, and having been 
many years confined through extreme weaknefs. 
She was fuch a pattern of refignation and cheerful 
innocence, as I had rarely feen. Her very coun- 
tenance befpoke acquiefcence with the allotment 
of Providence, and not one complaining word dropt 
from her. This meeting tended to the relief of 
our fpirits, and we took leave of the faid friend 
and others in love, and returned to Amfterdam, 
again difperfmg fome books in our way; which 
was all we could do, as our interpreter could not 
ftay with us ta have meetings in the towns. 

On our return to Amflerdam, we vifited almofl 
all who could be accounted members of our fo- 
ciety, in their families, and attended the meetings 
on Firfl: and week-days, as they came in courfe, 
until the 21ft : in which time I had feveral good 
opportunities with the people of that city, and 

ihc 



170 

the Grangers who attended the meetings, and left 
it in peace. 

One vifit we paid in Amflierdam was fo remark- 
able in its confequcnce, that I note it, viz. A man 
who was convinced of Truth, had a turbulent-fpi- 
rited wife ; who had violently oppofed his going 
amongft Friends ; and after one meeting which he 
attended with us, railed much ; neverthelefs, {he 
fent us an invitation to fup with her, and it ap- 
peared befl for us to accept it. She provided 
handfomely for us, but feemed to be in a wrang- 
ling fpirit. She talked about drefs being an in- 
different matter; upon which I told her, that the 
adorning of Chriflian women, fliould be that, of 
a ' meek and quiet fpirit, which in the fight of 
* God was of preat price.* This ftruck and fi- 
lenced her, and flie afterwards behaved obligingly 
to us. After we had paid this vifit, her hufband 
told us, that fome time before, as they were going 
to bed, fhe, being in a very bad temper, would 
not let him reft j and, although he was in bed be- 
fore her, I think he arofe again. She took up the 
Bible, I fuppofc, to convince him of his errors, 
and opened it upon this very text; which then fo 
affc£led her, that {he condemned herfelf, kneeled 
down to pray for forgivcnefs, and promifed that 
fhe would never more treat him fo improperly; 
but Ihe had not kept her promife, and the text 
being now revived in her remembrance, it again 

affeftcd 



171 

affefted her. Wc were quite ignorant of the cir- 
cuniHance. 

The 2 1 ft, we had a meeting at Harlem to good 
fatisfa£Uon. We lodged at Ifaac Van Weftercap- 
pePs, who furniihed us with a room to hold a 
meeting in, and gave notice of it to the people. 
He was defcended from friends by the mother's 
fide, but he himfelf never made profeflion with 
us. He was exceedingly kind to us, and, with 
his family, appeared to be feeking after the beft 
things. In the evening we had the company of 
fome feeking people, mofi: of them of the offspring 
of friends, with whom we had converfation upon 
religious fubje£ls. 

In our publick meeting at this place, I was 
more at liberty in the exercife of my gift, than 
had been ufual with me in Holland; at which I 
afterwards admired, being told that my interpre- 
ter was uncommonly defective in rendering what 
I faid into Dutch. This circumftance fometimea 
revolved in my remembrance, accompanied with 
fome kind of doubt refpe£ting my being fo much 
at liberty to fpeak, when what I delivered was not 
well interpreted to the people ; but after fome years, 
a friend of Norwich told me, that there was at 
that meeting a fenfible man, a Jew, who underftood 
the Englifh tongue well, who told him that he had 
attended the meeting, and that my interpreter 
did not do me jufticc ; but, continued he, * It was 
' no matter, as all ihe faid was dire(fted to me :* and 

my 



172 

my friend added, that it fo affe^^ed him, that he 
believed he would freely interpret for me, fliould 
I ever want his afTiftance. This relation removed 
my before-mentioned doubt, for the word preached 
found its way to one mind, for which in Divine wif- 
dom it was appointed. 

The 2 2d, we parted with my interpreter John 
Vander Werf, for whom I was concerned, and fym- 
pathifed with him, as he was left almoft alone (in 
regard to Friends), and much expofed in the courfc 
of his bufmefs; and from the affability and fpright- 
linefs of his difpofition, he appeared to be in much 
danger: but I conceived hope in the fcnfe of the 
cxtendings of divine goodnefs being fingularly to- 
wards him. We alfo took leave of our kind holl: 
J. Van Weftcrcappel and feveral of his family 
and friends in love and tendernefs, and went to 
Rotterdam, whither his daughter Sufanna Van 
Weflercappel, a ferious agreeable young woman, 
and our friend Sophia Vander Werf accompanied 
us. In our way, we diflributed books to fomc 
people in the irackfcuyts, and the fame evening 
had a meeting at Rotterdam with fome people who 
underftood Englifh, of which there are many in 
that place. 

The 23d, our kind friends Sophia Vander Werf 
and Sufanna Van Weflercappel left us, and wc 
went to the Briel, and thence, the 24th, to Hclvoet- 
fluys. In our way from Rotterdam to this place 
wc met with feveral perfons who were going to 

England, 



173 

England, with whom we had much difcourfe con- 
cerning our religious principles, I believe meafura- 
bly to our mutual fatisftiftion. One of them was 
a Swede, a Lutheran by profeiHon ; he was fa- 
voured with a good underflanding, and had a mind 
fufceptible of religious impreflions j although his 
converfation was not fo uniformly exemplary as 
could have been defired. 

On coming to Helvoetfluys, we found that the 
wind WMS againfl our failing for England, and 
that the inn was full of company, many of whom 
were waiting for their pafTage to England : fo the 
landlord put us in a houfe which was ready fur- 
niflied, and we became a family to ourfelves, being 
furniflied with provifions from the inn. The wind 
continuing contrary until the Firft-day of the week, 
and there being in the place many people of divers 
nations and ftaiions who could fpeak Englifti; 
with the concurrence and afTiftance of our land- 
lord and company, we got our dining-room well 
fcated; and on the Firfl-day morning held a meet- 
rag in it, whereto the ftrangers pretty generally 
came. I was favoured to declare the Truth 
amongft them, to the relief of my own fpirit, and 
I believe to the comfort and fatisfaiftion of my 
companions-, but the labour was hard, through the 
unpreparednefs of the hearts of fome to receive, 
and perhaps the want of a fufficient knowledge of 
the language in others, to underftand, the doftrines 
delivered. 

The 



174 

The 29th In the evening, the wind turned in our 
favour, and continued fo, until about the middle 
of the next day; but our captain would not put to 
fea without a pretty fteady wind, becaufe of the 
French privateers : however, we went on board that 
day and fet fail, and the wind being very boifter- 
ous our jib-fail was foon rent; and another packet 
boat going out with us, flruck upon the Pales, 
broke a hole in her fide, and, as the paflengcrs 
faid, was in danger of being lofl. The wind con- 
tinuing to blow hard and contrary, we foon came 
to an anchor, and the next morning returned back 
to Helvoetfluys; and the following day, the ifl of 
the Ninth month, we were favoured with a fair 
wind, and arrived at Harwich the 2d, in peace 
and thankfulnefs to the Almighty. I had to ad- 
mire his goodnefs, in thus preferving and fupport- 
ing my body and mind by fea and land, and 
through all the exercifes attendant on this journey, 
amongll a people of a flrange language. 

Even our detention at Helvoetfluys appeared to 
be in the ordering of Divine wifdom and mercy 10 
the people there vifited; and in our fele£l com- 
pany we had frequent opportunities of converfmg 
upon edifying fubjefts ; fome of our companions 
feeming willing to gain information rcfpe^ling 
Friends and their principles. Once the fubje£l of 
felf-defence was ftarted, which they might pro- 
bably think we could not invalidate ; but we were 
enabled to give a reafon for diflenting from them 

ia 



175 

in fentiment, and on its being queried wlmt w« 
would do if attacked, and mufl either be killed, or 
kill. I faid I could not fay how I fhould aft at fuch 
a junfture, wherein nature might be improperly 
raifed ; but that now being favoured with the 
hope of my immortal fpirit's centering fafe, and 
knowing that a perfon who fought my life mufl be 
in an unfit ftate to enter Chrifl*s holy kingdom, I 
ftiould rather choofe to die, than plunge that foul 
into everlafting mifery; and Ihould have greatly the 
advantage in being releafed from this ftate of trials. 
They heard with attention, and the Swede with 
tears in his eyes, replied, ' Thcfe are indeed fub- 
• lime fentiments.' 

We had been fo long detained at Helvoetfluys, 
that our money grew fliort, but the captain faid wc 
fiiould have what we wanted from him ; however, 
we had enough to pay our palTage, and bear our 
cxpenfes (excepting the hire of our chaife) to Col- 
chefter : which we reached almofl: pennylefs the 
3d, and were affeftionately received by John Ken- 
dal's mother, and other friends. PIcre I drew a 
bill, and obtained money, and my companion, 
Sophia Hume, got enough to carry her to Lon- 
don. 

After a fliort flay at Colchefler, I went with my 
companion Sophia Hume to Kelvedon, where we 
were favoured with a comfortable meeting with 
Friends, and parting in much love, Ihe went for 
London. She had been to me a fleady, affeftion- 

ate, 



176 

ate, fympathlfing companion ; and although in this 
journey, not much engaged in publick miniflry, 
file was very helpful in meetings, through a deep 
fpiritual exercife; and being endowed with a good 
nnderftanding, both naturally and fpiritually, flic 
was qualified to give an anfwer of ** her faith and 
*' the hope that was in her :'* and I was often 
thankful to the bounteous Author of all my mer- 
cies, for furnifliing me with fo fuitable a companion. 

From Kelvedon, I went without any companion, 
through feveral meetings, to Norwich, where I was 
favoured in the fervice appointed me, but flaid 
there only a few days ; proceeding thence, through 
fome meetings in Lincolnfhire, to the quarterly 
meeting at York ; where I again met with Abra- 
ham Farrington, who, w^ith many more of my 
friends, rejoiced at my being returned to my na- 
tive land in peace and fafety. 

From York, I paffed through feveral meetings^ 
in that county, wherein the Lord was pleafed t© 
vary the difpenfations of his wifdom, by dipping 
me into a ftate of great fuffering ; which I could 
not get above, but which I faw to be good, near 
the clofe of a journey wherein I had been fo emi- 
nently favoured ; as it tended to preferve me from 
clothing myfelf with the Lord's jewels, and hum- 
bled my fpirit to the very dufl:. From Yorkfhire 
I went to Manchefter and Warrington, where I 
regained a little liberty in the Truth, and fo pro- 
ceeded to fome meetings in Chcfliirej in one of 

which 



177 

which 1 thought I was raiied higher, m the Divine 
hk', in the exercifc of my gift, than I liad beca 
througlioiu the journey. Thus does Divine wif- 
ilom abafe and cxah at his pleafure, unto whom 
be glory, honour, and praife afcribed, now and 
fur ever. 

The i5ih of the Tenth month, I got home, to 
tlic mutual fatisfadion of myfelf and relations; and, 
iiotuJLhftanding my great fatigue, in a rather better 
ilate of heahh than when I left it ; and found my 
dear and aged mother well : and here I alfo met 
my dear friend Lucy Bradley, who was returning 
home from her vifit to Friends in Ireland, and our 
rejoicing one in another was mutual. 

The i7ih, we went together to our monthly 
meeting, wherein I gave to Friends fome account 
of my fcrvice and fatisfaciion in this journey ; and 
my fpirit was much humbled in a fcnfe of the pro- 
vidential care and abundant loving-kindnefs of a 
merciful God, variouOy difplayed to this period of 
my life. 

This winter I fpent much about home, and 
amongd my relations : not in idlenefs, for I was 
very clofely engaged either in attending monthly 
or quarterly meeting^;, or other fcrvices. 



M CHAP. vir. 



178 



CHAP. VII. 



THE 6th of the Fourth month, 1758, I left 
home, to attend the yearly meetings of 
Wales, Briflol, and London ; in all which, efpe- 
cially the two firfi:, I was Divinely favoured ; and 
returned home, in peace and thankfulnefs, in the 
Fifth month. 

Towards the fall of the year, I attended our cir- 
cular yearly meeting held at Kidderminfler, which 
was large and very fatisfa^lory. After this meeting, 
being inclined to vifit fome provincial meetings, &c. 
in Ireland, I went with my dear friend Samuel 
Fothergill to Warrington, and thence proceeded 
to Liverpool, in order to take lliippingfor Dublin; 
but finding no vefTel there ready to fail, I fent to 
inquire whether any one was going from Parkgate j 
and the melTenger returning, faid there was one, 
but that llie would fail the next tide, and that it 
was then too late to reach her. I was pretty ear- 
refl: to try, but fome friends, who I thought were 
acquainted with the time of the tide's turning, 
diffuaded me from attempting it. So I gave it 

up 



179 

up reluftantly, fearing I fliould lofc the opportu- 
nity of getting my pafllige in time for the meetings ; 
and I afterwards heard that the tide did not turn 
till an liour after the time they faid it would ; fo 
had I gone, I might probably have reached the 
veflel in time. 

I waited at Liverpool more than a week, mofl 
of that time in almod conflant expectation of fail- 
ing, a veflel being foon ready to fail, but the wind 
was contrary. At length I went on board, and we 
fet fail with a fair wind, but it quickly turned 
againfl us, and we lay all night at anchor in a 
fmall harbour called Hoylake. The wind blew 
hard, and I efteemed it a fmgular favour that our 
captain was perfuaded to lay at anchor ; for we 
might have been in imminent danger of periihing 
among the fand-banks, had he ftood out to Tea ; 
which I had fome reafon to believe he would have 
done, had I not been on board ; for I being fet to 
a day in getting to Dublin, in order to attend the 
province-meetings, had requefted him, if there were 
not a probability of our making our paflage in time, 
to fet me on fliore fomewhere in Great Britain; 
which he promifed to do if he could. The veflel 
being fmall and very full of paflfengers, who in the 
night crowded into the cabin, it was fo extremely 
clofe, that I was much aflli(^ed both in body 
and mind : under which I fought for Divine di- 
rection refpeCting proceeding forward in the veflTel 
fliould the wind prove favourable in the morning. 
M 2 I thought 



180 

I thought I fek my mind turned to the (horc, 
and releafed from the weight of the journey, at 
leaft for the prefent ; therefore when it was light, 
I defired the captain to endeavour to put me on 
fliore, and he accordingly hung out a flag for a 
boat to come and take me ; but none came, and as 
the "wind was again ihiftcd in their favour, and it 
appeared hazardous to fend the fliip's boat with 
me, left ftie Ihould not return time enough for her 
failing, I feared I muft ftay with them ; but unex- 
peftedly the captain offered the boat and men, pro- 
vided I would be left on the beach with my faddle 
and clothes, and let the men return to the veflcl 
immediately ; to which I agreed, and left the vef- 
icl, under the probability of her making her paf- 
fage. A poor woman of Ireland who had no 
mind to proceed in her, went on fliore with me, 
who, with her little girl, carried my faddle. Sec. 
about half a mile, to a publick houfe, where I 
breakfafted, and got a man and horfes to take 
me to Liverpool. I proceeded penfively, left 1 
ftiould have miffed my way in leaving the vcffcl ; 
yet I could commit my cafe to the Lord, who knew 
I had afted in fimplicity. In our w'ay we faw the 
veffel under fail, juft turning out of the harbour 
on her courfe. When we reached Liverpool I 
was much fatigued, and low both in body and 
mind, having flept little in the night ; but after 
fome reft I attended the funeral of a child the 
fame evening, and in the meeting the Lord fo fa- 
voured. 



181 

voured, that my fears about leaving the veflcl In 
a great degree vaniftied. After meeting I found 
that the wind -was turned againfl her, and conti- 
nued to blow very hard all that night ; and the 
next morning the veffcl came back to Liverpool. 
I ftaid there the next day, and then returned to 
Warrington, and was at the meetings at Penkcth 
and Warrington, the next day, and fo proceeded 
home, taking m my way thither a meeting at Nant- 
wich. Although I had been thus difappointed, I 
had reafon to hope that my leaving home was 
not without fome fruit to others as well as to my- 
felf ; fo that my foul had caufe to blefs the facred 
name of Him, who fan6>ifies every trial to his 
children. 

The day I flaid at Liverpool, I penned the 
rough draught of an Epiftle to Friends in Ireland, 
and after my return home tranfcribed and fent it. 

My mind fettled in quiet after this difappoint- 
ment, but my body had fuffered fo much, that a 
little reft feemed neceflary to repair my health ; 
and I entertained a hope of being at and about 
home this winter ; but Divine wifdom pointed out 
work for me elfewhcre, and my mind was refigned 
to follow his directions. I left home in the Twelfth 
month, and went to the quarterly meeting at War- 
wick, where, through, much painful labour of fpi- 
rit, I was favoured to difcharge the duty required 
of me, to the rchef of my own fpirit and the fa- 
tisfa<fkion of experienced friends. From that place I 

M 3 went, 



182 

went, through feveral meetings in Oxfordihlre and 
Northamptonfliire, to the quarterly meeting at 
Northampton ; and, turning back to the monthly 
meeting at Banbury, vifited fome other meetings 
in Oxfordfhire, and attended the quarterly meet- 
ing held at Oxford. In all thefe fervices the 
fupporting protefting arm of Divine goodnefs was 
near, whereby I was conduced in fafety ; though 
not without confiderable danger, from the badnefs 
of the roads. I had one very dangerous fall from 
my horfe, but was mercifully preferved from any 
frafture. 

The quarterly meeting at Oxford was attended 
by many of the (Indents, who moflly behaved well, 
although the doftrine of Truth ran very clofe and 
pointed to them. That Divine power with which 
they were too much unacquainted, bound down 
their fpirits. May it be praifed for ever. 

From Oxford, I palTed, through feveral meet- 
ings wherein Truth favoured, pretty direftly for 
London ; where I flaid about five weeks vifiting 
the meetings of Friends, and attending other fer- 
vices as I was favoured with flrength. Sometimes, 
through a fear of exceeding, I apprehended I fell 
ihort of my commiffion, and a degree of fuffcring 
followed ; which was however lefs painful to me, 
than what would have arifen from errors on the 
other hand. I laboured and fufFered much in this 
city, and the ftatc of my health was poor during 
my ftay in it j but through infinite mercy I left it in 

the 



183 

the enjoyment of a good degree of peace, and re- 
turned home in the Second month, 1759, to the 
mutual rejoicing of myfelf and friends. My friend 
Ann Fothcrgill and feveral others accompanied me 
to fome meetings in my way home, and took me 
in their carriages ; whofe affeftionate care in my 
weak flate of health, I commemorate with thank- 
fuhiefs to the ever-bounteous Author of all ray 
mercies. 

The day after I got home, my dear mother was 
taken ill, as was my brother a few days after, and 
the flate of my own health was weak, and fom« 
peculiar exercifes attended me. Some libertine 
fpirits endeavoured to invalidate my character and 
fcrvice, for no other caufe than what appeared to 
me to be my duty. This was an extremely try- 
ing feafon, but I hope in the end it was profit- 
able, and tended to eftablifli my mind in a pa- 
tient fuffering of reproach, and to guard me with 
caution that I might not adminifler occafion for it 
to the adverfaries of Truth. 

I attended to fervices about home, as liberty 
and flrength were afforded, and became better in 
my health : my mother alfo recovered bravely, but 
my brother continued in a very weak flate. In 
the Fourth month I was obliged to leave him, and 
my dear mother, being drawn to attend the circular 
yearly meeting for the four northern counties, which 
was this year held at Stockport in Chefhire. It 
was very large, and fignally attended with the hum- 
M 4 bling 



184 

bling power of Truth ; and the Lord was pleafcJ 
to make ufe of me and feveral other of his fer- 
vants : for which my foul worfliipped before Hira 
who hiimbleth and exaketh, and, in his unfearrh- 
able vvifdom, doth all things well. I returned home, 
and found my dear mother and brother much in 
the fame (late as I left them. 

In the Fifth month I again left home, intending 
to attend our quarterly meeting at Evefliam, and 
fo proceed to the yearly meeting at London. My 
brother was fo much recovered as to accompany 
me to the quarterly meeting, from whence he in- 
tended to return home ; but on our fnfi: day's 
journey he was taken very ill. This brought a 
frefli exercife upon me, under which I petitioned 
the Almighty that he would be pleafed to direct: 
me how to a£l for the relief of my own mind, and 
the difcharge of that duty which I owed to an af- 
fectionate brother ; on whofe account I intreated, 
that if he might be relieved, the way for it might 
be pointed out. Under this exercife I proceeded 
to Eveiham, my brother (till accompanying me, 
though very weak. After the fervice of the 
quarterly meeting was over, my way opened to 
Worcefter ; whereto my brother was perfuaded 
to accompany me, and to take the advice of -jl 
phyfician, who ftrongly prefTcd his going to Bath. 
Upon confidering the urgency of his cafe, fome of 
my friends with myfelf judged it bell for him to pro- 
ceed there dirci^ly, as returning home full would 

but 



185 

but weaken him the more : fo I wrote an account 
of our determination to my dear mother and fifler, 
who acquiefccd therein. I alfo informed my bro- 
ther and fifter Young of my afHicling lituiition, 
and requeflcd that one of them would accompany 
him; and Providence fo ordered it, that my filler 
came prepared for the journey the day after I fent 
for her. The next day, being the Firfl: of the 
week, we were favoured together by Divine good- 
nefs ; and the following morning wc parted in 
much affection, and they proceeded to Bath, and I 
was at liberty to purfue my journey. This had 
been to me an extremely exercifmg feafon, from 
the great fear I was under of erring on either 
hand ; but I record it to the praife of infinite 
gocdnefs, who, in this critical jun<^ure, direfted 
me to a«St for the help of my dear brother ; unto 
\yhom my endeavours were fignally bleffed with 
fucccfs, the Bath waters being rendered fervice- 
able to him. 

From Worcefter I went to Coventry ; and in the 
way had a meeting at Henly in Arden, Warwick- 
(hire, in which place Friends have a meeting-houfe, 
but none of our fociety remained. At Coventry, I 
met my friend Samuel Fothergill, who having been 
long indifpofed, I was rejoiced to fee that it ap- 
peared likely he would be again reftored to the 
fervice of Truth. We went, together with many 
friends from the North of England, direift to Lon- 
don : where I was favoured with llrength to at- 
tend 



186 

tend pretty clofcly to the fervlce of the yearly 
meeting, and had full fatisfaftion that I was there 
in the direction of Divine wifdom. 

From London I went to the quarterly meeting 
at Colchefter, and in my way there attended the 
Firfl-day meeting at Coggefliall, which was large, 
and favoured with the Divine prefence. 

I left Colchefter before the concluding meeting, 
being preffed in my mind to reach the quarterly 
meeting at Banbury in Oxfordfliire, which, with 
very hard travelling, I accompliftied. I had fomc 
meetings in the way, and was comforted in admi- 
niftering a little relief to fome poor fouls who ap- 
peared ready to faint under their exercifes. After 
the quarterly meeting at Banbury, I went to that 
at Northampton, much in the crofs to my own will, 
being very defirous to get home, confidering the 
ftate of our family, and that my own health was 
affedled with very hard travelling, minifterial la- 
bour, and exercife of mind. But I did not lofe my 
reward, for I was favoured with ftrength fufficient 
for the fervice required, went from Northamp- 
ton in much peace and thankfulnefs, and reached 
home in two days after : where I was gladly re- 
ceived by my dear aged mother and my fifter, 
but my brother was not yet returned from Bath. 
In the laft fifteen days before I got home, I at- 
tended twenty-three meetings, befidc other fer- 
vices, and travelled on horfeback. 

The concern I had for Ireland reviving, I left 

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home ill the Eighth month, and with very hard 
travelling was favoured to vifit mod of the meet- 
ings in that nation this fall, and returned to Eng- 
land foon after the half-year's meeting in the 
Eleventh month. A religious young woman, Sarah 
Chriflie, not in the miniflry, accompanied me 
through the greateft: part of the journey in Ire- 
land. I landed from Ireland at Whitehaven, and 
v»'ent through the meetings in fome part of Cum- 
berland, the Biflioprick of Durham, and the eaft 
fide of Yorkfliire ; and turned to the quarterly- 
meeting for Weflmoreland in the Firfi: month 
1760. The weather being extremely fliarp this 
winter, and my health but poor through hard 
travelling, and taking cold, I fuffered much in 
body ; but gracious Providence fupported and car- 
ried me through the fervice required, to the admi- 
ration of myfclf and others. The weaknefs of 
my conflitution appeared inadequate to fo great a 
fatigue ; but I experienced that hand which era- 
ployed me, to be ftrength in weaknefs : falvation 
and power be afcribed thereto for ever! 

In the beginning of the Fourth month my filler 
Ann was married to Thomas Summerfield, of Blox- 
ham, Oxford fliire ; and my brother, who accom- 
panied her to her new habitation, returned home 
very ill ; yet I could not be eafy to omit the at- 
tendance of the Welch yearly meeting held this 
year at Ofweflry and my filler Young kindly (laid 
with him and my mother in my abfence. The 

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meeting was very large ; and I had good reafon 
to believe I was there in the counfel of the Al- 
mighty. I returned home in little more than a 
week, where I found my brother yet unwell ; 
neverthclcfs I thought it right to leave him again 
in a few days, being engaged to attend the yearly 
meetings of Briflol and London : which I did, 
taking fome meetings in my way. 

The yearly meeting at London was large an4 
very fatisf^iflory, except from fome diflurbance 
\vhich was given to Friends meetings by fome dif- 
orderly perfons not in unity with them. My 
ftrength in the difcharge of my duty was merci- 
fully renewed, and an enlargednefs of heart ex- 
perienced towards my brethren. I had left home 
through much difficulty, but was thankful that I 
had prelTed through it ; and on my return I had 
reafon to believe that kind Providence had made 
up the lofs of my company to my mother and bro- 
ther ; for I found her cheerful, and him in better 
health. 

I came home in the Sixth month, and flaid at or 
near it until the latter end of the Eighth, labouring 
as I found ability in the fervice of Truth, and en- 
deavouring to difcharge my duty in domeflick cares: 
a greater weight whereof than heretofore refted 
upon me fmce my filler's marriage ; through which, 
and my brother's continued indifpofition, my way 
in leaving home was ftraitened; yet I know not 
that any clear manifeflation of duty was omitted^ 

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although fomctimes it was difcharged with dif- 
ficulty. 

My brother being fomewhat better, I left home 
in order to vifit Friends meetings in Dcrbyfliirc, 
forae of the dales of Yorklliire, and part of Lan- 
caihire. I was favoured to accompli fli this jour- 
ney in forty-eight days, travelling in that time 
about 700 miles, and attending fifty-two meetings, 
bcfides other fervices, often in friends families j 
by which hard labour my fpirits were much ex- 
haufled, yet was not my health fo impaired, but 
that 1 hoped with red it might be reilored. 

In this journey I had fome fatisfaftory fervice 
among people not profelling with us ; and fome in 
towns where no meetings were held. At Bradford 
in Lancafliire, fome unthinking people and children 
dillurbcd our meeting almofl through the whole 
:iine of our holding it j but fome fober inquiring 
people attended it, with whom we had reafon to 
hope the teflimony of Truth had place. After the 
meeting we had a fatisfadlory opportunity w-ith 
fome of them at the houfe of one that had lately 
joined Friends in that place. Some friends ac- 
companied me in tliis fervice, viz. Jonathan Raine 
and his wife, of Crawfhay Booth meeting, Matthew 
Mellcr of Manchefler, and feveral others ; from 
whom I parted in gofpel love. 

On my return home the i6th of the Tenth 
month, I had the fatisfLuTtion to find my dear mo- 
ther well, and my brother better than he had 

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been. The night before I came there, I had a 
fall from my horfe, but through mercy received 
no hurt. 

The 17th of the Eleventh month, I fet out to 
attend our quarterly meeting at Worcefler, which 
was large and mercifully favoured with the Divine 
prefence. From thence I went to Leominfler to 
vilit my fifter Young and her family ; and fpent a 
few days with them and friends there profitably. 
In my way home, accompanied with feveral friends 
from Leominfler, I had a large meeting at Lud- 
low, in which town there was only one that pro- 
fefTed with us. Several fober people were a- 
mongfl thofe who attended this meeting ; and 
Divine goodnefs was pleafed to favour with open- 
ing the Truths of the gofpel unto them. I left 
the town that night, at which I was not quite 
eafy, not knowing but if I had {laid, fome in- 
quiring people might have fought an opportunity 
of converfation. I returned home the 27th, and 
found my mother tolerably well, on whofe ac- 
count, in this abfence from her, I had been con- 
cerned, confidering her advanced age. 

Li the Twelfth month, I went to the quarterly 
meeting at Warwick, and thence to vifit my filler 
in Oxfordfliire ; w^ith whom I fpent a few days, 
vifited fome meetings in the neighbourhood, and 
proceeded to Oxford. Many of the fludents and 
others not profeiTmg with us, came to the meet- 
ing ; towards whom Divine Wifdom was pleafed 

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10 manifefl: his regard, and fome of them behaved 
foberly. It was the time of the quarterly meeting. 
In my return home, I attended at Isiong Compton 
the funeral of a religious young woman, with 
whom I had been acquainted. It proved a ftrength- 
ening feafon in Divine love, which freely flowed 
towards the people. 

From Long Compton I went to Chipping-Nor- 
lon, Evefliam, and Worcefter, (laid a few days 
amongft Friends there, and returned home through 
Evefliam and Alceftcr. 

I ftaid about home until the 21 ft of the Third 
month, 1761, when I went to the quarterly meet- 
ing at Birmingham ; which was comfortable in a 
fenfe of the continued regard of heaven ; but for- 
rowful in the apparent declenfion of fome profef« 
fing with us from the life of Truth. 

From Birmingham I proceeded to the quarterly 
meeting for Nottinghamlliire, held at Mansfield, 
which was fraall, few friends refiding in that 
county. I laboured among them in love, and with 
flrong defires for their help ; and left them in a 
degree of peace, though not without a doubt of 
having been rather fliort in difcharging my duty. 

From Mansfield, I went to Chefterfield, and 
had a meeting there, to which came fevcral from 
other meetings, and we were favoured together 
in the Divine prefcnce. I then proceeded through 
fome meetings in Yorkftiire, wherein I was ftrength- 
en»d to minifler, I hope to the faiisfa^tion and com- 
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fort of honefl -hearted friends, and to the relief of 
my own fpirit. I came to Luncafter the 9th of the 
Fourth month, in order to attend the quarterly 
meeting there. Thus far on the journey I had tra- 
velled very hard, and the day before I came to 
Lancaflcr, having met with a very dangerous fall 
from my liorfe, whereby I hurt one of my arms, fo 
that I was unable to help myfclf, and was othcr- 
vife hurt, it was hard for me to travel ; yet I was 
enabled to proceed forward the next afternoon in 
a chaife to Kendal ; and, having attended the quar- 
terly meeting there, proceeded to Appleby, to the 
yearly meeting for the four northern counties, 
wiiiili began the 12th. I carried my arm in a 
fling, but in this time of weaknefs kind Providence 
furniihed me -with a fuitable companion to ailill 
mc, viz. Chrilliana Hird of Yorkihire, of whofe 
tender care, and affeftionate fervices, I retain a 
grateful fenfe. 

The yearly meeting at Appleby was attended by 
many fober people from the adjacent country, a«5 
well as by a large number of the inhabitants of 
the town ; and many of them were confiderabiy 
aiTefted by the teflimony of Truth ; whereto 
they had been ftrangers, and many of them had 
imbibed difagrecablc fentiments refpefting Friend^; 
and their principles; but the Lord was pleafed 
fo to manifeft his power amongft them, that 
their prejudices were removed, and a confef- 
fiou obuiiucd to the truths which wer^ freely 

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preached among them ; and Friends left the town 
rejoicing in the heavenly Father's love and good- 
nefs, in thus favouring us, and exalting the tefti- 
mony of Truth, in a place wherein fome of our 
worthy friends in the beginning of our being a 
people had fuffered fo deeply. [See Friends Suf- 
ferings by Jofeph Befle.] The 15th, Samuel Fo- 
thergill-and myfelf had a meeting at Kirby Steven, 
which was large and folid, many feeking people 
around the country attending it; and the Lord 
was pleafed to caufe the gofpel trumpet to be 
founded clearly and powerfully among them : 
glory be to his Name for ever ! 

I went, accompanied by Chrifliana Hird, with 
the friends from Wenflydale into that quarter ; had 
a meeting at Haws, and the enfuing Firfl-day at- 
tended the general meeting at Ayfgarth, which was 
very large. A light fet of people frequently attend- 
ing on that time of the year: but the power of Truth 
was meafurably over their fpirlts, and I left the 
place in a good degree of peace. I proceeded in 
vifiting the meetings in this part of Yorklliire, and 
having a view of going almofl: dire£lly from that 
county, to the yearly meeting at London, and 
being defirous of getting clear of as many meet- 
ings therein as I could ; I continued to travel 
hard among the dales. But, my ftrength being 
much exhaufled, and fome painful effects of my 
late fall continuing, \Yhen I came to the houfe of 

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my friend William Hird, at Woodhoufe (father to 
my kind companion), I reded for a few days, and 
\va§ treated with that tendernefs which the (late of 
my health required. From hence, I went to Gil- 
derfome meeting, where I parted from Chriftiana 
Hird, in love and fympathy; and went, through fe- 
veral meetings in Yorkftiire, to Nottingham. I 
{laid at Nottingham over Firft-day, and attended 
two meetings there. I was weak and much aife^ed 
with a hoarfenefs, yet had fome fervice amongft 
Friends there, though not fully to the rehef of my 
mind. 

I left Nottingham on the 2d day, and reached 
London the 7th of the Fifth month. I was fa- 
voured with a good degree of peace, and thank- 
fulnefs to that good Hand, which had hitherto 
conduced, and fupported me in weaknefs. 

The yearly meeting was large, and I hope pro- 
fitable J although I did not think, in the general, 
that inftrumental miniflry rofe fo high, as it had 
done in fome of thofe annual foleranities : but 
friends were comforted in the immediate fenfe of 
the continuance of Divine favour, under which 
they feparated; fome perhaps, to meet no more in 
time. Our friend Jofeph White, from America, 
having paid a religious vifit to Friends in this na- 
tion, and being about to return home, had a 
certificate fr^m Friends at this meeting of their 
unity with his fervices whilfl: here; and John 
Siephenfon and Robert Proud being under an en- 
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gagement of mind to vifit Friends on the continent 
of America, had certificates for that end. 

My fpirit rejoiced that I was enabled to attend 
this meeting; and indeed I have feidom or ever at- 
tended the yearly meetings in London, without 
peculiar edification, although fometimes fufferings 
from various caufes have fallen to my lot: and I 
am perfuaded that if Friends more generally gave 
themfelves up to attend that folemnity; and when 
there, abode under the feafoning virtue of Truth, 
they would be better qualified to labour in their 
feveral ftations and places of refidence : the weight 
of fervice devolving upon them there, would be 
brought home with them, and a more fervent 
care would remain for maintaining our Chriftian 
teftimony in its various branches, and ftretching 
the line of difcipline over fuch among us who 
walk diforderly. 

The week after the yearly meeting I went to 
Plaiftow, and refled a few days with my friend 
John Hayward; and, being a little recruited, I pro- 
ceeded, though in diffidence and fear (being oftea 
low in body, as well as prefled with the weight of 
the fervice appointed me), to the yearly meetings 
of Colchefter, Woodbridge, and Norwich : in all 
of which, through the flrengihening hand of Di- 
vine mercy, I had good fervice. 

From Norwich I pafTcd, through fome meetings 
in Lincolnfliire and Yorkfhire, to the quarterly 
meeting at York, which was at this time attended 

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by many friends from the feveral quarters of it ; and 
fomc friends under appointment from the yearly 
meeting at London, to vifit the monthly and quar- 
terly meetings of Friends, were there; and, I hope, 
were ferviceable, in inquiring into the general ftate 
of Friends, exciting them to various duties, and en- 
deavouring to ftrengthen the hedge of difcipline. 

From this meeting I proceeded, accompanied 
by Rachel Wilfon and Margarst Raine, to Leeds 
and Bradford, and fo to a large general meeting 
held annually in a barn at Bingley. It was in 
a good degree fatisfaftory, many gofpel Truths be- 
ing opened to the people ; who behaved foberly, 
and many of them feemed well affedled to"w^rds 
Friends. After this meeting I proceeded towards 
the quarterly meeting at Lancafler, and from that 
place, accompanied by my friends Jonathan Raine 
and wife and Alexander Parkinfon, I went to 
Turton near Bolton, where feveral young men 
and others were under convincement. Several 
friends met us here, and we had a favoured meet- 
ing with them and many of their neighbours ; re- 
joicing in the hope, that the Shepherd of Ifrael 
would gather to himfelf a people in that country. 
There are none under our name near them, which 
rendered the breaking forth of Truth amongft 
them a more fignal inftance of the immediate effi- 
cacy of its Divine power. May they be preferved 
humble, and dependent on that Hand, which alone 

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can build up, and " eflablifli on the mod holy 
" faith." 

From Turton I went with my friend Jonathan 
Raine and wife to their houfe near RofTendale, and 
attended a large general meeting there the next 
day ; and proceeded to Manchefler on Second-day, 
and had a meeting there that evening. On Third- 
day, accompanied by two men friends, I travelled 
hard; and in the evening we miffed our way over a 
moor, which rendered it late in the night when we 
came to John Draycoat's in Derbyfliire. I had a 
fall from my mare, through her miffing her flep 
upon a narrow caufeway, but through mercy was 
preferved from hurt. Next day I had a meeting 
at Furnace, and afterwards rode to Burton upon 
Trent, and the enfuing day to Polefworth, in order 
to attend the marriage of my coufms John Wilkins 
and Elizabeth Lythall, which was folemnized at 
Badfley the next day, and we were favoured to- 
gether with the Lord's prefence : bleffed be his 
holy name ! The next day, being the 20th of the 
Seventh month I reached home, where I found my 
dear mother as well as could be expelled for her 
age, but my brother yet poorly. I had now at 
feveral times vifited Friends in Yorkfhire pretty 
generally; and had confiderable fervice amongft 
people not profeffing with them. After this jour- 
ney my mind fettled in peace and thankfulnefs, 
having to look back upon it with deep gratitude 
to the Divine hand, whereby I had been conduced, 

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fupponed, and encouraged to prefs forward, al- 
though under confiderable bodily weaknefs, and 
fome fears on account of the fituation of my dear 
mother. Sec. But as my eye was preferved fmgle to 
the Lord's fervice, he cared for thofe I had left 
for his name's f^ike, and brought me home in a 
better flate of health than I had left it, notwiih- 
flanding I had travelled and laboured exceedingly 
hard J having in fifteen weeks attended 117 meet- 
ings, and travelled about 1230 miles ; nearly the 
whole on horfeback. 

The beginning of the Eighth month, I attended 
the Circular yearly meeting, which was held at 
Bromyard in Herefordfhire. It was not fo large, 
cither of Friends or people of other focieties, as of 
late years had been ufual, nor did the life of Truth 
in the miniflry rife to the height I have known it j 
yet, upon the whole. Friends had caufe to be 
thankful for the opportunity. 

From this meeting I went to fpend a day or two 
with my dear fifler Young at Leominfler, which I 
efteemed a great favour, as it was the lafi: time we 
fpent together, except near her lafl moments. She 
was feized in the Tenth month following with an 
indifpofition, which terminated in a violent inflam- 
matory fever. Her hufband was then in the weft of 
England, in company with fome friends, on a re- 
ligious vifit to the monthly and quarterly meetings 
of Friends in that part of the nation. A melTen- 
ger being fcnt to inform us of her illuefs, I went to 

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her; and was favoured to find her fo fenfiblc as 
to inform me that (he was very eafy in mind : 
foon after which (he grew delirious, and her fenfcs 
were never more quite clear ; yet flie once inti- 
mated that flie was quiet, and hoped ftie had «i 
quiet habitation. 

She was a truly valuable woman, and doubtlefs 
her fpirit entered into reft. She died at the age of 
forty-five, after a life attended with various trials. 
The lofs to her family, her other relations, friends, 
and neighbours, was great ; and the forrow for it 
amongft all who were acquainted with her was ge- 
neral : yet under a fenfe that our lofs was her 
great gain, it was mixed with joy in the hearts of 
her neareft relations and friends. 

She left three children, and her forrowful and very 
affeftionate hufband; who, after he had information 
of her dangerous ftate, travelled hard to get home, 
but did not reach it until after her corps was 
interred. My brother ftaid at Leominfter until he 
came thither, and I returned home to my dear mo- 
ther, and my fifter's eldeft daughter, who was then 
at Dudley, a thoughtful child of about eleven 
years of age, who had a very great afFe(5lion for 
her mother. I found them full as well as I ex- 
pelled, confidering ray mother's great love for 
my fifter, who had been an extraordinary child to 
her ; fteadily fympathizing with, and aififting her 
in her affli<^ions, when Ihe hai no other child 
that was fo capable of doing it. But fhe was fa- 

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vourcd with fignal rcfignation to the Divine will, 
which is doubtlefs right in taking away, as well as 
in giving. 

My fpiriis liad been fapportcd beyond my ex- 
peftation through this trial, although my health 
appeared fliaken by the fatigue attending it ; yet 
in lefs than two weeks, I fet out for Bloxham to 
attend my filler Summerfield, who was now my 
only furviving fifler. I attended Warwick meet- 
ing in my way; and in the evening appointed one 
for the neighbours, which was large, and crowned 
with Divine life and power, for which I was truly 
thankful. After about two weeks ftay I went for 
London, having before I left home a certificate to 
vifit Friends in that city. I had feveral meeting* 
in my way thither amongfl people not profefling 
with us, to fatisfaftion. 

I {laid rather more than a month in London, 
and through diligent labour, and confiderable tra- 
vail of fpirit, left it eafy in mind, and returned 
home by my filler's. 

The day I left her houfe the wind was very high. 
I rode double, and when we came to the high un- 
inclofed field-lands, nearly upon a level with the 
fummit of Edge hill, it was fo extremely boiflerous, 
that myfelf and the man who rode before me, con- 
cluded it fafefl to alight; which we did, under 
flieltcr of a fhort thorn -hedge, probably planted 
to afford Ihelter to fheep. We faw a village, but 
had to crofs the field to it. The man held the 

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Iiorfc by one hand, and I held by his other arm; but 
the wind was fo violently ftrong, that he rather 
dragged than led me, for I ftooped very low, being 
unable to ftand againfl it. I think it rained alfo 
while we crofled the field. We got to a poor 
houfe of entertainment, the covering of a building 
belonging to which was dripped off a little before 
we came; and we flaid in it, not without fear, until 
the violence of the wmd abated ; which it did in 
tlie afternoon, and we reached Eatington the fame 
night. I think this was the wind of which it was 
faid, that none had been fo high fmce Eddyftone 
light - houfe was blown down ; and our getting 
through it without hurt appeared providential. It 
was a hurricane in the morning, yet it was tolera- 
bly calm in the evening. 

I got home the 15th of the Firfl month, 1762, 
in a better ftate of health than I left it, and was 
comforted to find our family tolerably well ; and I 
had great caufe for thankfulnefs, for the many mer- 
cies and prefervations vouchfafed in this journey. 

In the fpring of this year I attended the northern 
and Welch yearly meetings ; the firft held at 
Bolton in Lancafliire, and that for Wales at Bala 
in Merionethfhire. That at Bolton was very large, 
and attended by many valuable minifters and friends, 
and a great number of fober inquiring people of 
other focieties ; amongft whom the gofpel-trumpet 
was founded In Divine authority, to the comfort 
of faithful friends, and, I hope, to the inflru6tion 

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and awakening of many fouls. In my way from 
Bolton to Bala, in company with my friend Sa- 
muel Fothergill, I attended the meeting at Cheder 
on the Firft-day morning ; whereto many foberly 
behaved people of the town came, and we were 
favoured with a comfortable tendering opportunity 
together. From Cheder we proceeded to Bala, 
in company with Ifabella Middleton, a miniftering 
friend from Ireland, and overtook Rachel Wil- 
fon and Chrifliana Hird, before we got thither. 

The meeting at Bala was large, confidering the 
part of the country it was held in: the people be- 
haved foberly, and many of them were aifefted by 
the heart-tendering power of Truth. We had a 
comfortable opportunity with a few that came in 
love to bid us farewel ; and left the place, in full 
affurance of the extendings of Divine love to the 
inhabitants of this poor part of the nation, and 
thankfulnefs that we were accounted worthy to 
preach the gofpel to them, I returned home by 
Coalbrookdale, and on the Fird-day was at a very 
large meeting at the New Dale, wherein the Lord's 
power was exalted : blefled be his name for ever! 

I reached home the 4th of the Fifth month, and 
found my mother and brother well as ufual, but 
my brother Henry (my father's fon by a former 
wife) unwell, with a diforder in his right leg; 
which terminated in a mortification, and in fome- 
thing more than eight weeks his leg was taken off. 
Onr affliction through this circumdance was confi- 

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derable; for befides the care for his natural life, 
which was imminently in danger, our concern for 
his immortal foul was great. For having addi£ted 
himfelf to pleafure and to the gratification of his na- 
tural appetites, he had loft the fimplicity of his edu- 
cation ; and, becaufe he would indulge himfelf in li- 
berties which he knew were inconfiftent with the 
profeffion of Truth, he threw it oif ; faying, he 
would not retain the name and be a reproach to 
the people. lie fometimes went to the church of 
England, not, as he fiiid, frOm principle, but be- 
caufe he would go fomewhere. When a youth, he 
was much humbled under the vifitation of Divine 
love; but when he arrived to mature age, he was 
drawn afide by vain company. 

In this affliftion he was favoured with a renewed 
vifitation of heavenly favour ; under which he la- 
mented his lofs and fall, and remarked * that it 
* had been through keeping company, and not 
' that which is accounted the word of company 
' neither.* He had a long time allowed him 
to repent, and in the fore part of his illnefs was pe- 
nitent and much exercifed in mind ; but being 
flattered with the hopes of life after his leg was 
cut off, his thoughts appeared then to be too much 
occupied with its profpe^ls, although not without 
feme propofiiion of a reformation of conduil, if 
his health fliould be reflored. 

In this fituation I was obliged to leave him, 
being engaged to attend the Circular yearly meet- 
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ing, which was held this year at Exeter. My fifter 
iupplied my place in the family, and I went pretty 
dire(5Hy to it, attending the quarterly meeting at 
Gloucefler, and two other meetings, in my way, 
the Lord's power accompanying me. 

The meeting at Exeter was much lefs than fomc 
of the like kind had been; but was attended by 
fome fober people, and by fome high profefTors of 
religion, whofe foundations W'ere flruck at in the 
power of Truth, the teftimony whereof was mea- 
furably exalted. The (late of the members of 
our own fociety was miniflered to ; in fome in- 
flances it was lamentable, and tended greatly to 
leflen the weight of the teitimony of Truth, which 
had been at this time borne in the demonflration 
of its own fpirit. 

I proceeded from Exeter to the quarterly meet- 
ing in Somerfetfhire, which was eminently crowned 
with Divine favour ; and I parted from Friends 
there in the comfortable fenfe of gofpel fellow- 
fliip, and returned to Briftol, having feveral large 
and fatisfa£lory meetings in the way thither. 

I fpent a few days in Briftol, I hope profitably, 
having a renewed caufe to believe that the Divine 
life was revived in fome in that city, although too 
many had fallen afleep as in the lap of this world. 

From Briftol I went to the quarterly meeting 
for Hereford ftiire, held at Rofs, and fo to Leo- 
minfter-, where I fpent more than a week in my 
brother Young's family, not idly, but caring for 

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it ; and returned home to the mutual fatisfa£tion of 
myfelf and my rehitions there. 

I found my dear mother and brother tolerably 
well, and my poor brother Henry appeared in 
fome refpe£ls better, yet at times fo languid, that 
I doubted his continuing long in time. My fears 
proved well founded, for his deplorable diforder 
feized his other foot, raid on the 15th of the 
Twelfth month, 1762, he died; having endured 
a long fcene of inexpreffible pain and affli(5i:ion. 
Agreeably to his own defire, his corps was interred 
in Friends* burying ground. He was endowed 
with a good underflanding and an engaging natu- 
ral difpofition, and his perfon and manners were 
fuperior to many. He was in his fifty-feventh 
year. 

I think it worthy commemoration, that fome 
time before he was feized with the diforder which 
terminated his life, I had been earneflly folicitous 
that the Lord would bring him to a fenfe of his 
apoftatized (late before he was taken out of time ; 
and* conftrain him to condemn that libertine fpirit 
wherein he had fo long indulged; that his aflbciates 
might not have caufe fo to triumph as to invalidate 
the Chriflian teftimonies. Thefe my defires were 
fignaliy anfwered. 



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CHAP. VIII. 

FROM the occurrences related in the clofc of 
the foregoing Chapter, until after I entered 
iuto a marriage Hate, I made no minutes of my 
religious labours, although I was as conflantly 
engaged as heretofore, in attending yearly and 
quarterly meetings, &:c. in divers parts of the 
nation, vifiting particular meetings of Friends, as 
well as appointing fome for people of other focie- 
lies ; and in the winters, I moflly fpent fome time 
in London. Yet fo few remarkable incidents oc- 
curred, that, my movements appeared fcarcely 
worth noting ; except that the Lord's hand was 
revealed for my help and prefervation, through 
which I was enabled to fuftain almofl uninter- 
rupted, though varied, fatigue and exercife, both 
of body and mind. After my fifter Ann's mar- 
riage, a load of domeftick concerns devolved upon 
me. Through my mother's very great age, and 
my brother's frequent indifpofition, my times of 
refpite from travelling and gofpel-labours were far 
from being feafons of reft. A fliort time before 
I married, my left elbow was diflocated by a fall 

do'WTl 



207 

down (lairs, and reduced with confiderable dif- 
ficulty. As that joint from my infiincy had been 
weak, and had feveral times been hurt by falls 
from n>y horfe, as is before related, it became 
from this time fo weak, as to render my riding 
fmgle improper, and riding double was rather 
dangerous, as I could not help myfelf on horfe- 
back without my arm ; I had therefore caufe to 
be thankful that my expelled new ftation would 
furnifli me with a chaife. 

For the fulfilling of every purpofe of Divine wif- 
dom there is a particular feafon ; and although I 
married rather late in life, the connexion from its 
beginning was attended with fuch fmgular circum- 
flances, as marked its being fuperior to nature, 
although nature had its fliare in it ; and the re- 
ftri^lions laid upon my mind, and that of my be- 
loved hufband, were too remarkable to be omitted 
in the memoirs of the fignally providential occur- 
currences of my hfe. 

I have already noted the meeting with William 
Phillips in 1749, at Swanfea, (fee page 22). Be- 
fore that time we were entire Grangers to each other, 
I do not recollcO: that I had ever heard of him. My 
mind had been, and was under flrong reftrlftions ia 
regard to entering infv» the marriage flate, Ihould 
I be follcited thereto ; for as it appeared that for 
a feries of years I ihould be much engaged in tra- 
velling for the fervice of Truth, I feared to indulge 
thoughts of forming a conne(5tion, which, from its 

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incumbrances, miglit tend to fruflrate the intention 
of Divine wifdom rcfpc^ing me. This caution 
tended to keep me rcferved in my conduct, towards 
fuch as might be Ukely to entertain views be- 
yond friendship, in their acquaintance with me ; 
and my mind, to the time of our meeting, had been 
fo preferved, as never to admit the leaft impref- 
fion of affeflion beyond that hne, with any one. 

William Phillips was then a widower, and had 
two young children. His worldly circumftances I was 
unacquainted with, further than that I then learned 
the place of his refidence, and fomewhat of his bu- 
fmefs, which was, in part, that of an agent to a 
copper-company. He was confiderably older than 
myfelf. So that none of thefe circumftances could 
of themfelves make a connexion with him dc- 
firable. For as to his employ, which might feem 
the leafl exceptionable, it was lefs pleafmg to me 
than would have been his being his own free man. 
It was therefore improbable that temporal confi- 
derations fliould bias my mind in his favour; and 
as to his religious experience, it appeared to be 
but in its infancy. He had indeed, a frank and 
open difpofition, which, joined to a good under- 
ftanding, rendered his converfation agreeable ; 
but I had but little opportunity to judge of this, 
before it appeared that perhaps we might one day 
unite in the marriage covenant. 

Upon obferving him ftri^lly, I had the fatisfac- 
tion to fee that his mind was fufceptiblc of the 

bed 



209 

befl impreilions, and bending out of the worlJ, 
wherein, in fome parts of liis conduft, he had 
taken too great a part. His behaviour to me was 
prudently rcfhrifted, though he afterwards confefled 
that his mind was aft'e^ionately difpofed towards 
me. Wc were favomed together, efpecially in 
one meeting, with the uniting influence of Divine 
love, but parted merely as common friends. Very 
foon after, a circumftauce happened, which, with- 
out the lead dcfign on either fide, neceffarily in- 
troduced a correfpondence by letters between us ; 
and we exchanged feveral in reftrifted terms, fuited 
to our fituations. 

In my next journey to the wefliern counties, I 
had meetings in fome towns where none were efta- 
blifhed, particularly at Redruth and Truro in 
Cornwall, at both of which William Phillips was 
very ferviceable ; and his fpirit being dipped into 
fympathy with me in my fervice, and mine, with 
him under his religious exercifes, it tended to 
flrengthen the regard we had for each other ; yec 
fuch was the reftriftion we were preferved under, 
that no fentiment tranfpired, nor was there any, 
the leaft part of his condu£i:, more than was con- 
fiftent with a diflinguiflied frieadfliip : and thus wc 
again pjirted, and continued our religious cor- 
refpondence. But my mind becoming doubtful 
whether I had fuch an evidence that our intimacy 
would ever rife higher than fi-iendfliip, as to war- 
rant my retaining the profpeft of it; and ruminating 

o upon 



210 

upon the injurious confequcnccs which might enfue 
to us both, fhould our affections be engaged con- 
trary to the Divine will ; and that, perhaps, the 
continuing an intimacy with me might prevent his 
mind from fettling upon fome other perfon, who 
might be a fuitable companion for him through 
hfe; and feeing clearly, that my religious profpe£ls 
would not for a long time admit of my changing 
my fituation ; I concluded it fafeft to relinquifh 
our correfpondence, and to leave the event of the 
foundation of affe<flion which was laid, to future 
time : hoping, that if Divine wifdom defigned a 
nearer union betwixt us, he would prepare my 
friend to be a fuitable helpm.ate for me. My fear 
of erring on this occafion was proportioned to that 
fuperior love, which bound me to the fervice ap- 
pointed me ; in the purfuit whereof, I was defirous 
to relinquilli every profpecl and conneftion which 
might retard my fulfilling it : and I continued 
clofely engaged in it for many years, and kept an 
entire diftance from my friend. 

In this time our minds became fo releafed from 
each other, as to be at liberty to entertain other pro- 
fpefts of marriage j and, but for the interpofition of 
a watchful Providence, we might each of us have 
been engaged to our hurt. But however promifmg 
the profpeft might be to my mind, I never was fa- 
voured with true peace, in looking to a marriage 
connection with any other ; and as to my friend, 
although he had entirely lofl the hope of a nearer 

union 



211 

union with me, however thoughtful he mlglit be 
refpe^ing its being convenient for him to change 
his fituation, he did not find freedom to propofe it 
to any other woman. Thus we continued fepa- 
rated, and feparately exercifed ; I in clofe applica- 
tion to publick fervice ; and he in his worldly en- 
gagements, and under various temptations and con- 
ilifts, inwardly and outwardly, which called for the 
fympathy of a friend ; when none was afforded, 
fave that of the never- failing Helper, by whofe 
liand his head was fuftained, and he witneffed 
prefervation even as from the " paw of the lion 
" and bear." 

In the year 1766, I attended the Circular meet- 
ing, and vifited mod of the meetings of Friends in 
Cornwall. Previouily to my taking that journey, 
I had an intimation in my mind, which feemed to 
point towards a revival of our intimacy. This 
happened at a time when I was quite free from 
impreflions of natural affection towards W. Phil- 
lips ; for I was deeply engaged in thoughtfulncfs 
refpe£ling another friend, and humbly and earheflly 
defirous to be informed whether I might fafcly 
remove to the place of his rcfidence. 

Under this exercife, my mind was turned with 
uncommon force to Cornwall; and the name of 
the place where W. Phillips refided was revived 
with fuch flrength, that it was as if vocally fpokcn 
in my foul. At the fame time I was favoured with 
the fweet fcufation of Divine love and life. And 

o 2 although 



212 

although the removing to this poor county afforded 
no pleafmg view, I was willing to fubmit, if Divine 
wifdom appointed it ; but as to W. Phillips, I 
doubted his having advanced in religion, (o as to 
render a nearer union with him fafe ; but I could 
only judge fuperficially, the exercifed flate of his 
mind being hid from me. 

Hannah Shipley, of Uttoxeter in Staffordihlre, 
was my companion in this journey, whofe affec- 
tionate attention to me, I remember with grati- 
tude: her fervice alfo in the miniflry was accept- 
able to friends. 

When we came into Cornwall, I was cautious 
of giving heed to the before-mentioned intimation ; 
and when I met W. Phillips, was defirous to be 
favoured with a fenfe of the flate of his fpirit ; and 
was thankful to find it bending towards the fpring 
of Divine life, beyond my expeftation. We were 
frequently together while I was in the county ; 
but never alone, fo as at all to enter into conver- 
fation on the fubjeft of our former correfpond- 
ence, except when riding on the high road ; 
when, one day, he mentioned the trial it was 
to him that I ftiould fo abruptly drop it ; and faid 
he had cautioufly avoided a conduft which might 
give me umbrage ; and added, that he had never 
admitted a fentiment of difpleafure at me on the 
occafion, as he concluded that I had fome reafon 
for fo doing, which was of fufficient weight to my- 
fclf ; but if my being in a fmgle ftatioa were the 

caufe. 



213 

caufe, I needed not to have feared him, for al- 
though he loved me, hitherto his mind had been 
under a reflri^ion from endeavouring to pafs the 
bounds of fricndfhip. This was foying more than 
he had ever done before ; but during his being 
with me in this journey, his behaviour was ftriftly 
confiftent with friendftiip only. 

One circumflance I think worthy of relating, as 
it difcovered both his fympathy with my religious 
engagements, and how Divine wifdom works to 
the effefting his own purpofes. After I left Ply- 
mouth, in my way into Cornwall, it appeared that 
I fhould have a meeting at Plymouth Dock in 
my return. This I intimated to a friend of Ply- 
mouth then with me, and defired him to inquire 
whether a proper place could be procured. This 
friend, and another from Plymouth, met me at 
the Circular yearly meeting, which was held at 
Bodmin, at which alfo was W. Phillips. 

They gave me no encouragement of getting a 
meeting at Dock ; indeed it was looked upon im- 
probable that a place large enough for the people 
could be procured there ; fo they propofed that a 
meeting fliould be appointed at Friends meeting- 
houfe at Plymouth, and that the people of Dock 
fhould be invited thereto. This did not feem to 
promif^i relief to my mind ; for bcfides the Dock's 
being three miles diftant, the houfe might probably 
have been wo fmall for the Plymouth people and 
them. My concern fou the Dock continued, but I 

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214 

faid little about it, except hinting it to my brother, 
who, with divers friends out of Worcefterfhire was 
at Bodmin. In the night before I left that place it 
prcifcd weightily upon my mind ; but I could fee 
no way to obtain a meeting, unlefs W. Phillips 
would accompany me ; who I knew had refolution 
enough to aflift in tlie undertaking. He defigned 
going homeward ilie next day, and I was reluftant 
to propofe his going with us to Plymouth ; but de- 
fired, if my exercife for Dock was from the Lord, 
and it was right for him to aiTift me therein, that 
it might be imprefled on his mind to go. After 
this, my fplrit was relieved, and in the m.orning I 
heard W. Phillips fay to the friends, I mull go to 
Plymouth, giving as a reafon, that he had an uncle 
there who was unwell. Pie afterwards told me, this 
was the only reafon he could alTign for his mind 
being forcibly drawn to Plymouth, which it was 
before he arofe ; and when at breakfafl he heard 
me inquiring whether a place could be procured at 
Dock to hold a meeting, he faw the caufe of his 
being drawn to Plymouth ; and immediately re- 
plied. There is no doubt of it. In our way to 
Plymouth, we had a large fatisfaftory meeting in 
the market-houfe at Lilkeard. At Dock, my bro- 
ther, friends from Worccflerfliire, and W. Phil- 
lips, obtained a large fchool-room ; which opened 
into a fquare. A window was taken out, and I 
flood in that, fo as to fpeak to the people with- 
out ; and the houfe being full wiihln, I beUeve 

all 



215 

all might hear, though there was a great concourfe 
of people. It was a favoured opportunity, at which 
the friends who accompanied me for the promoting 
of it were very ferviceable ; but had not W. Phil- 
lips aiTifted them, it did not appear probable that 
fo large a meeting would have been procured, and 
held fo quietly : he was peculiarly fitted for fuch 
fervices. 

After my return home, our correfpondence by 
letter revived ; but although it foon paiTed the 
bounds of mere friendQiip, our minds were clothed 
with awful caution of flepping forward without 
Divine direftion. For fome years we faw each 
other but feldom, and that only as we met in 
the courfe of my fervice ; and notwitliflanding a 
nearer union was from time to time pointed out, 
yet our way not opening clearly to the accom- 
plifliment of it, we did not marry until the 15th 
of Seventh month, 1772 ; when, in a large and 
folemn meeting held at Bewdley, we took each 
other in the real fear of the Lord, and therein 
had a flrong evidence of his favour. Many of my 
friends from the adjacent meetings met us 'upon 
the occafion; unto whom my fpirit was drawn forth 
m the bed love; wherein, after we had taken each 
other in marriage, I was led to advife, caution, 
and encourage them. 

The parting from my dear mother had been an 

affe6ling circumftance, but it was a great fatisfadlion 

to me, that, although her faculties were breaking, 

o 4 flie 



216 

{he was fenfiblc I was removed from her in Divine 
wifdom. The morning I left her, fhe took a quiet 
fleady farewel of me, and told me fhe was fatisfied 
Providence had provided for me, unto whofe will 
file was refigned. As my brother propofed accom- 
panying mc home, my fifler Sommerfield ftaid with 
our mother in his abfence. 

After our marriage at Bewdley, wc proceeded 
on our way to my brother Young's at Leomlnfter, 
where we (laid fome days, and then went to 
Swanfea, my brother, and niece A. Young, ac- 
companying us. In our way to Swanfea, we 
had a meeting at Hereford, and another near 
Talgarth in Wales, where the Countefs of Him- 
tingdon had eftabhfhed a college for the educa- 
tion of young men for the miniilry. Some of 
them came to the meeting, and feveral behaved 
rather lightly ; but one fought an opportunity widi 
us afterwards, and freely expreffed his uneafmefs 
in his prefent fituation, and defired to get amongfl 
Friends. He requefted my hufband's aiTiflance to 
procure him a fuitable place ; but though one 
pretty foon offered, and he was informed of it, 
be declined accepting it. Many are Ihaken by the 
power of Truth, but few are fleadily concerned to 
build upon its foundation : and therefore it may 
with forrow be faid, " I^Iany are called, but few 
^' chofen." We had alfo a meeting at Llandilo, 
which, though not very large, was fatisfaifVory. 

Wc ftaid at Swanfea fome weeks, the wind be- 
ing 



217 

ing contrary for our going down the Channel. 
During our flay there, the Firfl: and week-day 
meetings were moftly large and favoured. A par- 
ticular vifitation of Truth was extended to fome 
who had gone out from Friends by marriage and 
otherwife, who were aife(ftionately entreated, and 
warned of their danger in trifling with the day 
of their vifitation, which was haflening fafl to a 
conclufion. Several of thefe were much affefted, 
and two of them foon finiflied their courfe. I 
have admired the mercy of God, even to the 
backfliders and revolters from us ; from few of 
whom the witnefs of Truth is fo withdrawn, 
but that they will confefs to it ; and many to 
the latter flage of life are followed with clofc 
conviftions, and tender calls to return to the 
heavenly Father's houfe, and yet continue in a 
country far remote from it : having fo connefted 
themfelves with thofe who are in the fpirit of this 
world, as to conclude it impoflible to break loofe 
from them. But, although through inattention to 
the holy principle of light and grace, they may 
have rendered their way very difficult, and mingled 
■ for themfelves a bitter cup ; yet if they would at- 
tend to that Divine love which draws them, they 
would experience its power to releafe their fpirits 
from the power of Satan, and bring into '* the 
'* glorious liberty of the children of God.** 

I vifitcd the families of thofe profeffing Truth 
in Swanfea ; but the time for holding the Circular 

meeting 



218 

meeting for the weflcrn counties approaching, and 
it being to be held this year in Cornwall, my 
huihand was earncfl: to get home. Another meet- 
ing, alfo, which was ufually very large, held an- 
nually near his habitation, engaged our attention; 
therefore, the wind not ferving for us to go to 
Cornwall, \vc crofled the Channel to Ilfracomb in 
Devonfliire, and through Divine favour landed 
fafe, though not without fome danger ; and pro- 
ceeded directly home to Redruth. The Firil-day 
after we reached it, we attended the before-men- 
tioned meeting at Key, at which it was fuppofed 
there were 1500 people: it was held without 
doors, and was a favoured opportunity. The next 
week came on the Circular yearly meeting, which 
was held at Hellion, was extremely large, and well 
attended by friends ; and in divers meetings the 
teftimony of Truth was exalted through feveral 
of the Lord's chofen fervants. I was largely and 
livingly opened in his fervice, by him who alone 
can qualify for it : to whom I ever defire to afcribe 
the praife. 

For fome time after I came home, a pretty many 
ferious people attended our meetings, and doctrine 
fuitable to their dates was opened ; but mofl of 
them were too much under the influence of human 
teachers to receive the Truth in its fimplicity, and 
walk by its light. I quickly found a concern to 
appoint a meeting at the place called St. Agnes, a 
town on the north fea coalf. Near this place the 

people 



219 

people Vv'cre addi£led to the barbarous cuftora oir 
plundering veflels wrecked upon the coafl. Abun- 
dance oF people collected, fo that we were obliged 
to hold the meeting in the ftreet, which was a 
remarkably quiet folemn opportunity. Many of 
the wreckers were fuppofed to be prefent, and I 
had to reprove the praftice very clofely ; which 
might be fuppofed to have prefent ei^c£i, for the 
people exerted thcmfelves to fave the cargo of the 
next velTcl that was wrecked. 

In a few weeks after the Circular meeting, I 
went to the quarterly meeting for Devonfliire, 
held at Kingfbridge, and thence took a turn into 
the north of the county, accompanied by Wil- 
liam Cookworthy and fcveral other friends. We 
appointed meetings in feveral places where none 
were fettled, in all of which, except at Great Tor- 
rington, we had good fatlsfiiftion ; and there we had 
reafon to conclude that we appointed the meeting 
at too late an hour, through condefcenfion to forae 
who expreiTed a defirc to attend it, and could not 
come fooner. It was Firft-day, and the evening 
coming on, a crowd of diforderly people impeded 
the fervice j and my mind was the more pained, 
becaufe an earlier hour had been pointed to me 
for holding the meeting. We had a good meeting in 
the town-hall at Launceflon, after which William 
Cookworthy went homewards, and I to Wade- 
bridge. I had a meeting there to iiuisfa6tion, and 
returned home, under the perfLiafion of having 

been 



220 

been engaged in the difcharge of my duty, and 
alfifted by Divine grace in the performance there- 
of. 

I f!aid at and about home until near the time 
of the yearly meeting at Briftol, 1773, which I 
attended ; and thence, accompanied by my dear 
friend Lydia Hawkfworth, went to that in London. 
We vifited the meeting of Friends in Hamplhire 
in our way, and I returned into Cornwall to our 
quarterly meeting held at Looe in the Seventh 
month ; where my hufband met me, and we 
went together to that for Devonfhire, held at Ply- 
mouth. 

The annual meeting at Key was this year large 
and fatisfafiory ; after which I went to vifit my 
aged parent and other relations, and attend the 
Circular yearly meeting at Gloucefler. I vifited 
the meetings of Friends, as I went along, who were 
truly glad to fee me, and we were favoured to- 
gether with the fweet influence of Divine love and 
life. The Circular yearly meeting was very large 
both of Friends and other profeffors of religion, 
and was much favoured through the miniflry. The 
fele£l meeting for Friends was a memorable oppor- 
tunity. Plentiful are the (bowers of gofpel rain 
which often fall upon thefe occafions ; but in re- 
gard to many minds vifited, it is like water fpilled 
upon a (lone, which, though it wet its furface, doth 
not change its nature ; but in others, I hope it is 
like " Bread cafl upon the waters,'* a very un- 

ftable 



221 

liable element, yet it " may return after many 
" days !'* 

From this meeting I returned home with my 
friend Sarah Tregelles. In my way I had two 
large meetings at South Molton to good fatisfac- 
lion. There are none profeffing wuh us in that 
town ; but fomc friends from Exeter accompanied 
us, and others under convincement from the north 
of Devonfhire met us here. I returned home to 
our quarterly meeting at Penzance, and was thank- 
fully received by my dear hulband, whofe great 
affeftion rendered it hard for him to be fo fre- 
quently feparated from me, but in refignation to 
the Divine will he was favoured with peace. 

In the Firfl: month 1774, I had a facisfa<ftory 
meeting at Hellion, In the town-hall. The weather 
was wet, and the feat whereon I fat was very 
damp, but on the evening after the meeting I did 
not find I had taken any cold. Next morning I 
was well as ufual, but fuddenly, I found myfcif 
much indifpofed, and was fcized with convulfions 
in my head. This alarmed my hulband, who 
called upon an apothecary, and I quickly got 
better, and we went home, where the diforder 
returned. In a few days however I appeared to 
be much better, but I quickly rclapfcd ; and 
in a few weeks was reduced to a ftate of ex- 
treme weaknefs. My affli<^ion in this time of 
indifpofiiion was very great, but I was pre- 
fer ved 



222 

ferved in patience, and when I revived a little, 
wrote as follows. 

' I am now reviving from bodily weaknefs. 
O ! that it may be with renewed flrength to ferve 
the bounteous Author of my being and blefTmgs, 
who bringeth low and raifeth up in his wifdom and 
mercy. He knows when affliftions are needful to 
his fcrvants ; and in this feafon of weaknefs, my 
foul has thankfully acknowledged his tender care, 
to prevent my fpirit's fettling with too great atten- 
tion on " the things which are feen, and which are 
** temporal.'* We often want to be awakened to 
feek with greater earneftnefs thofe '* things which 
*' are eternal," viz. Righteoufnefs, and its confe- 
quence. Divine favour ; by being put in remem- 
brance, that the time of our departure hence may be 
at hand. " Blefled" indeed " is that fervantwho, 
" when his Lord cometh" and calleth from works to 
rewards " he fhall find watching :" and what great 
need is there to watch againft the encroaching fpi- 
rit of this world ; whereby many quickened, en- 
lightened minds have been benumbed and darkened ; 
and their defires after the food which nourilheth 
up the foul unto everlalling life, weakened ; until 
at length they have left the Lord's table, and fed 
with plcafure at the table of idols! The friendfltips 
of this world, which are enmity with God, have 
been delighted and gloried in, and its interefls 
principally fought. 

Thcfe, though they may appear orderly in the 

view 



223 

view of men, are In danger of becoming as " trees 
*' twice dead ;'* they having been dead in a ftate of 
nature, and quickened by Divine grace. If tliefe 
totally fall away from their fpiritual exercife, how 
fhall they be again renewed ? Alas ! the judgment 
is determined ; they mufl be plucked out of the 
Lord's plantation, wherein only living fruit-bearing 
trees can remain with acceptance.' 

' In this time of weaknefs my fpirit hath been 
rcnewcdly vifited, and my underftanding opened 
in Divine love and light : and therefore it refls 
with me to commemorate it, as a frefli indance of 
the love of my heavenly Father ; who, in all the 
difpenfations of his wifdom to his children, feeks 
their being perfected in righteoufnefs ; that he may 
more and more blefs them with his favour whilil 
here, and finally receive them into everlafting man- 
fions of bllfs.* 

But although I grew (o much better as to get 
about in the fpring, my conflitution ftill laboured 
under a heavy load, without hope of being en- 
tirely relieved j and I was therefore frequently led 
to pray for patience and refignation to fuifer in 
the way Divine wifdom might permit ; and, under 
great weaknefs, was enabled in a degree to come 
up in the fcrvice appointed me, in our little meet- 
ing and about home. I was reduced fo extremely 
low by this indifpofidon, as to be doubtful, whe- 
ther I could have furvived it, had I not been re- 
moved from my mother's family j as in that, 

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224 

confidcring her fituation, and my brother's, it 
was unlikely I fliould have been fo releafed from 
care, and fo tenderly and affeftionately attended 
to, as by my dear huiband, and the alllflance he 
procured for me. 

In the Seventh month I left home in order to 
attend the Circular yearly meeting, and once more 
vilit my aged and honourable parent, vt'ho had 
feveral times expreiTcd a defire to fee me. My 
hufband accompanied me to Torrington, where 
we had a meeting of friends fcattered round in 
that neighbourhood. From Torrington he went to 
Appledore, and croffed the Channel into Wales, 
and I proceeded to Briftol ; where, and in its 
neighbourhood, I (laid until my hufband's bufincfs 
admitted his coming to me ; and thence we pro- 
ceeded to Dudley, vifiting the meetings of Stour- 
bridge and Worcefter in our way. I found my 
dear mother extremely weak, and her faculties fo 
impaired that (he did not know me ; yet I thought 
flie was fenfible I was one for whom flie had a 
great affeftion ; and after feeing nve feveral times 
(he recollciSied me, and was much pleafed with 
my company. After I had taken my leave of her, 
(he faid, ' Now I fliall not be here long;' and fo it 
proved, for {he died in the following winter. [See 
a mere particular account of her in the former 
part of thefe memoirs.] 

From Dudley we proceeded to the Circular 
yearly meeting held at Kington, Herefordfliire, 

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which, confidcring the country not being (o popu- 
lous as fomc others, and but few friends in the 
neighbourhood, was large, and for the mod part 
fatisfaOory. I flill continued in a weak ftate, yet 
was enabled to take a fliare in the fervice. Di- 
vine mercy flrengthening beyond my expeftation. 
After this meeting we went to Bath, Dr. Fothcr- 
gill having advifed me to drink the waters. 

In the fpring of 1775 I vifited fome meetings in 
Devonfliire, Somerfetfliire, and Dorfetfhire, in my 
way to the yearly meeting at London. I.ydia 
Ilawkfworth accompanied me in fome part of the 
journey. Such was my (late of bodily weaknefs, 
that my getting along, and being enabled to go 
through with the fervice affigned, claimed my 
admiration and thankfulnefs. I attended the meet- 
ings in London with confiderable dihgence, though 
very unwell, got out of town as foon as I could, 
and, accompanied by Lydia Hawkfworth, went to 
her mother's, Deborah Waring, at Alton ; where 
I refted a few days, and then proceeded to the 
quarterly meetings for Hampfliire and Dorfetfliire 
held at Ringwood and Poole; and fo to our quar- 
terly meeting at Looe. Here I met my dear huf- 
band, to our mutual rejoicing, although my languid 
flate affected him painfully. From Looe we returned 
home, and through Divine favour I fo gathered 
flrength, as that in the Eighth Month I again left 
home, accompanied' by my hufband, intending to 
go through Wnlfs t » the Circular yearly meeting. 

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I had fevcral meetings in our own county and De- 
vonfliirc to good fatisfadion, and ^Ye croffed the 
Channel from Appledore to Swanfea. 

A circumflance happened at Appledore worthy 
of obfervation. Some fober people of that place 
were defirous of a meeting ; but I was reftraincd 
from having one fo publick as was wiftied, yet was 
quite free to fit down in a friendly woman's houfe, 
with fuch as (he might think proper to invite. The 
meeting was held in an upper room the window 
of which fronted the river. A number of ferious 
people came, and I had a favoured opportunity 
amongft them. Immediately as I fat down, one of 
the perfons prefent ftepped to me, and told me, 
the velTel we had wiflied to go in was getting under 
fail. This was unexpefted intelligence, as we were 
informed flie would not fail that tide, and had not 
taken our paflage in her. Had we held our meet- 
ing in another place, ftie had probably flipped 
away without our knowledge ; as her failing was 
perceived by the before-mentioned perfon in the 
meeting from the window. As I was now free 
to go, I took a glafs of wine, and immediately 
went out at the back-door, into a boat, and on 
board. My hufband went to the inn, and reached 
the fliip, with our clothes, in a boat, before fhe 
got over the bar. We had a good paiTage ; but 
had we mifled this opportunity, we fhould have fuf- 
fered much in coming in a floop the next day, as 
ihc weather changed to wet and flormy. This is 

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one of the many inftances of providential dire«^Ion 
I liave experienced. 

We (laid at and about Swanfea about two 
weeks; and thence proceeded to Leomlnflcr, Wor- 
cefler, and Dudley. From Dudley, after fpend- 
ing a fliort time with my brother, we went to the 
Circular yearly meeting held at Colcfhill, War- 
wiclvfliire ; which was large and Divinely favoured. 
From Colefiiill we went through Coventry to 
Warwick, fpent a little time with my fifter, 
who, with her hufband and fon, were now 
fettled there ; and thence we went through Eve- 
(liam, Painfwick, kc. home, where we arrived in 
liifety. 

In this winter a concern reftcd upon my mind 
once more to vifit Friends in Ireland ; and, in my 
way to that kingdom, to attend the quarterly meet- 
ings at York, Lancafter, and Weflmoreland, and 
the yearly meeting for the four northern counties 
to be held at Kefwick. My beloved friend Lydia 
Hawkfworth was given up to accompany me, and 
we accordingly prepared for the journey ; and in 
Firft month 1776 my hufband accompanied me to 
Briflol. 'ITie weather v/as extremely cold, and the 
fnow (o deep that the roads in Devonfliire, and 
thence to Briflol, had been impaifable, and were 
then dangerous; but through Divine favour we got 
along fafe, although the cold was fo extreme that 
it was hard to bear. The road in fome places was 
cut through the fuow, fo that it looked like palTmg 

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through a deep hollow way, which had a very 
ftriking appearance. At Briftol, my dear hufband 
left me, to go to Swanfca, where he arrived fafe, 
although the Severn at the New PalTage, where it 
is three miles over, was fo full of ice as to render 
crofling dangerous. 

Jud at this jun^ure, my companion's mother 
died, and file went to attend her funeral. I (laid 
over Firft-day at Briflol meetings, and proceeded, 
through fome meetings in Gloucefterftiire, &c. to 
Dudley, where my filler met me. We fpent fome 
time together with my brother, and I went to Bir- 
mingham, where I was met by my companion, and 
we proceeded on our journey. Our firfl: meeting was 
held in the town hall at Stafford, which was large, 
folemn, and fatisfa(f):ory. From thence we went 
to Leek, and pafTed, through feveral meetings 
in Chefliire and Lancafliire, to Sheffield, and fo, 
through many meetings in Yorkfhire, to the quar- 
terly meeting at York. After the meeting at 
York 1 was concerned to have one at Tadcafler, 
where there was no Friend's meeting-houfe ; and 
another near Harwood, which was very fatisfac- 
tory ; and another, on the Firfl-day, at Otley, 
which was large, and I hope ferviceable. Thence 
we went, through feveral meetings, to I.ancadcr, 
attended the quarterly meeting there, afterwards to 
Weftmoreland quarterly meeting held at Kendal, 
ihence to the yearly meeting at Kefwick, and fo 
to Cockermouth and Whitehaven. We had tra- 
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veiled from Birmingham In fixty-two days, 500 
miles, and attended fixty-fix meetings ; and as 
much of the fervice of meetings hiy upon me, my 
natufal ftrength was greatly exhaufled before I 
embarked for Ireland : but I had abundant caufe 
to acknowledge that Divine aid was from time to 
time difpenfed ; by which I was enabled to prefs 
forward, though under very painful feelings. 

We went on board a large vefTel at Whitehaven 
on the 21ft: of the Fourth month, and landed at 
Dublin the 25th. Our paflage was not without 
danger. One night a vcil'cl run fo near ours, that 
they became entangled in their rigging. The cap- 
tain and failors were much alarmed, but wc got 
clear. How imprudent it is for velTcls not to hang 
out their lights. As our prefervation was great, 
it claimed our deep thankfulnefs : a very little 
more, and probably one of the veiTels had funk, 
and the other might have been much damaged. 
Another night wc lay at anchor near the Ifle of 
Man, and had reafon to conclude ourfelves in flial- 
low water upon a fand-bank. Had the wind blown 
up frefli, it might probably have been of bad con- 
fequence. 

Our captain had not been accuflomed to navi- 
gate the Irifli Channel j and when we drew near 
Dublin Bar, appeared regardlcfs of the danger of 
crofling it, wldiing to get into port without a pilot, 
although the wind was rough. A pilot, however, 
cfpying us, came on board, and took the veflcl fafe 

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in ; but the tide was fo far fpent, that flic threw 
up the mud with her keel, as we pafTed the bank 
called the Great Bull. 

We arrived at Dublin a few days before the 
national half-year's meeting began. This allowed 
us time to attend feveral meetings with the friends 
of that city ; wherein the fpring of miniftry was liv- 
ingly opened to the flates of many profeffors 
amongft us : and although I had to lament the 
flript ftate of that city, through the removal of 
ufeful members, and the weaknefs of many who 
remained in the fociety ; yet was there caufe for 
thankfulnefs, in feeling the frefh extending of the 
Divine vifitation to tliem. The half-year's meeting 
was large, and fignally favoured with an awaken- 
hig fearching vifitation ; and I was fo helped 
therein, that many of my friends, who had been 
with me in former fervices in that nation, rejoiced 
that the heavenly Mafler had again fcnt me to fee 
how they fared. 

I write thefe remarks in reverence and thank- 
fulnefs to the Great putter forth, and qualifier for 
the fervices he appoints; who, to keep the minds 
of thofe whom he favours humble, permits them 
to be tried with hidden cxercifes. This was my 
cafe through the courfe of this journey, wherein 
the fpring of gofpel-miniflry was largely opened; 
and I often appeared to my friends as well 
clothed with a royal robe, though, underneath, I 
was girded as with fackck>th» 

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From Dublin, we proceeded to villt the meetings 
through the main body of Friends in Lcinfter pro- 
vince, to that of Ulfter j wherein we vifited all the 
meetings, except two or three very fmall ones, the 
friends belonging to which we defired to meet 
us at another meeting. 

We attended the quarterly meetings In both 
provinces, and returned back to Dublin the ad of 
the Seventh month, where we ftaid until the 12th : 
in which time we attended meetings either for 
worfliip or difcipline almoil every day; and Di- 
vine condefcenfion in opening frcfti matter, fuited 
to the feveral occaiions, was fo admirable, that it 
appeared as if every {late and office in the foclety 
were miniftered to. 

By this time my natural ftrength was much ex- 
haulled; yet we prefled on through the counties 
of Wicklow and Wexford, and were at a province 
meeting at Ennifcorihy, which was very large and 
crowned with folemnity. Here we took leave of 
friends of that province, and proceeded to that of 
Munfler, wherein there are but few meetings, but 
the diftances moftly long. My reduced (late ren- 
dered It hard getting along; yet I was enabled 
to vifit all the meetings, except a fmall one at 
Bandon, and favoured to difcharge my duty 
therein; although my voice was fomctimes fo 
weak, that it was with extreme difficulty I ex- 
erted it to fpeak fo as to be underflood. When 
wc came to Clonraell, and had attended the meet- 

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ing there, it feemed proper for us to retire to the 
hoiife of our friend John Grubb about two miles 
out of the town ; whither I went the 8th of the 
Eighth month, and flaid until the 14th, being 
much indifpofed. Here I was affc(^ionately received 
and attended, and the quarterly meeting for the pro- 
vince being held at Clonmell during my flay there, 
many friends came to fee me, and we were fa- 
voured together. I was enabled to fpeak beyond 
my expectation, to the comfort and encouragement 
of fome, and caution of others, and took a folemn 
farewel of them in the \o\*c of Truth. 

The 14th, we went to Waterford, but I con- 
tinued fo much indifpofed, that it appeared bed 
to go into the country; fo we retired to a village 
called Tramore, by the fea-fide. Here we flaid 
from the 15th of the Eighth month, till the 9th of 
the Ninth month. My indifpofition continued and 
reduced me very low; but, bleffed be the Lord, his 
hand fuflained me, and through all, my fpirit was 
at times fet at liberty in his fervice to the admira- 
tion of myfelf and friends ; many of whom from 
Waterford came to us there, and we had divers 
feafonable opportunities with them, as well as with 
fome who were at the place to bathe in the fea. 
My nerves being extremely weak, I was alfo advifcd 
to bathe, by the doftor who attended me, but 
I believe it had rather a bad effe£l. We had 
not flaid at Tramore fo long, had there been a 
fuitable veflel at Waterford, ready to fiiil for 

England. 



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England. On our return thither, we huJ two 
meetings with Friends in a large parlour, at the 
houfe of our friend Ifaac Jacobs, my voice not; 
being equal to a meeting in the meetiug-houfe. 
Thus we vifited Friends in that city pretty gene- 
rally, and the 1 2th embarked on board a veffcl 
bound for Minehead. Our friend Robert Grubb, 
of Clonmell, accompanied us, being, in fympathy 
with us, inclined thereto ; which we accepted as 
a favour from Providence. 

Our paflage was eafy as to wind ; but my great 
indifpofition, and my companion's extreme fea-fick* 
nefs feemed to render fuch an afTiflant neceflary, 
and he was very attentive and ferviceable to us. 
When we came near our defired port, the wind 
turned againll us and the weather became rough. 
However, the captain got over the bar jufl: in time, 
for had we been but one hour later, we mufl have 
been driven back to fea, if not to Waterford : wc 
landed at Minehead the 14th. There is only Ro- 
bert Davies's family of our fociety in that town. 
He was from home, but one of his children met us 
upon the beach, from whence it was a long walk 
to his houfe. When we came into the ftreet, we 
faw an empty cart going up it, and afkcd the carter 
to carry us to our friend's, which he readily did. 
My dear hulband met us here, to our mutual fatis- 
faftion ; though to receive me back in fo weak a 
{late was affedling to him. I'hc 1 5th was Firll- 
day, but I did not attend the meeting. at the meet- 
ing. 



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ing-houfe, but had an opportunity in the after- 
noon with the friends belonging to it, in our 
friend's parlour. 

The 1 6th, we left Minehead, and travelled 
homewards by eafy ftages, my dear companion 
accompanying me to the verge of our county, 
whence flie turned to the Circular yearly meet- 
ing held at Bridgewater. She was indeed a mod 
tender afFeftionate companion, and a deep tra- 
vailer in fpirit, both in meetings and private op- 
portunities : and although her publick fervicc in 
this journey was not large, it was very acceptable; 
and her private labours in many families were fig- 
nally under that heavenly anointing, from which 
ftie was concerned to minifter. I hoped to have 
been able to attend the Circular yearly meeting, 
and preiTed forward in Ireland, in the fore part of 
this journey, in order to get to England in time ; 
but after our return from the north to Dublin, it 
was much imprelTed upon my mind, that I fliould 
have but juft flrength to accomplifli the fervicc 
in that nation, and fo it proved. 

I had travelled in this journey in England and 
Ireland, about 2000 Englifli miles, and attended 
192 meetings, befides family opportunities, and vi- 
fiting the fick. Sometimes we had feveral private 
meetings of this kind in one day, and feldom were 
without one, at leafl. 

After my return home, I continued much in- 
difpofed, and my nerves fo irritable that I had 

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continual fpafms for a confiderablc time ; and my 
dear brother James Payton came to vifit me, and, 
becoming very unwell, was detained the winter. 
As I gathered flrength, I was enabled to attend 
upon little fervices about home ; and my friend 
Lydia Hawkfworth coming to fee me, we vifited 
the families of friends in Falmouth and Marazion 
monthly meetings, except one or two of each, 
whom I afterwards faw : in this fervice the Lord 
was with us of a truth. Soon after Lydia Hawkf- 
worth left me, Sarah Stevenfon came to vifit 
Friends in this county ; in company with whom, I 
vifited moft of the families belonging to Auflle 
monthly meeting, to our mutual fatisfadlion ; my 
dear huiband accompanying us in this fervice. 

Until the Seventh month in this year 1777, I 
had not been out of Cornwall fmce my return from 
Ireland in the Ninth month 1776, which was the 
longefl period I remember to have been confined 
within the limits of one county, fince my firfl jour- 
ney in the fervice of Truth into Wales, in the year 
1749. I do not mention this as thinking much of 
my fervices ; for although it has been my lot to be 
more conflantly employed than many others of my 
fellow-labourers, I can truly fay, I frequently look 
upon myfelf as an unprofitable fervant ; and when 
laid by a little, have to ruminate upon my many 
weakneffes ; under a fenfe whereof I feelingly ac- 
knowledge that what I am, that is acceptable to 
the Lord, or honourable in his houfe, I am through 

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235 

his grace ; and I often admire at his making choice 
of, and employing mc fo much in his fervice. 

In the Seventh month this year, in company 
with my dear hufband, I \vent to Swanfea, his bufi- 
ncfs, and to vifit his mother, calling him thither. 
In our way we had a meeting with Friends in the 
north of Devonfliire ; but being yet very weak, I 
was eafy to pafs along without engaging much in 
publick fervice. "We had a good meeting at Apple- 
dore with fome fcrious people, and crofled the 
Channel to Swanfea, where we (laid about two 
weeks, and proceeded to Briflol. 

In our way between Newport and the New Paf- 
fage (which we intended to crofs), we received in- 
formation that the Paffage-houfe was fo full of 
people that there was no probability of our getting 
a lodging there; fo my hufband intended going 
forward to Chepflow, though neither of us liked 
the profpeft of crolTmg at the Old Pafiage ; but our 
minds, efpecially mine, not being eafy to proceed 
thither, we flopped at a fmall inn about two miles 
from the New PafTage, and got a comfortable lodg- 
mg,and next morning proceeded to the New PafTage. 
We got fafe over the Channel, although the wind 
was fqually •, but the fame tide, the boat from the 
Old PafTage was loft, even while we were on the 
water, and feveral men, v.ith many oxen, drowned. 
Had we gone to Chepflow we fliould mofl pro- 
bably have been in her. Thus kind Providence 
fignally prcfcrved us. 

After 



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After about a week's flay at Briftol, and vHiting 
Frenchay meeting, we went to Worcefler, fo to 
Bromfgrove and Dudley. I was ftill in a very 
weak ftate, yet enabled to attend meetings, and 
labour in them to the comfort of my friends and my 
own peace ; although at times in great bodily pain. 
My fifter met me at Dudley, and we were glad 
to fee each other. From Dudley we proceeded 
to the Circular yearly meeting held this year at 
Bewdley ; and in our way we had a meeting with 
Friends at Stourbridge, wherein ray weaknefs was 
fuch, that I could hardly impart what prelTed upon 
ray mind fo as to be heard. I was difcouraged from 
looking towards the folemnity at Bewdley, with ex- 
pe^ation of being able to take much part in the pub- 
lick fervice ; but was defirous to be aflifted to labour 
in fpirit for the help of my brethren and fiflers en- 
gaged therein. On the Seventh-day evening, the 
meeting for minifters and elders was held, wherein 
I had fomething to impart, but in fo low a voice as 
painfully to afFeft my friends ; who might reafon- 
ably conclude it probable that my flrength was fo 
cxhaufted, as that I iliould not long be capable of 
publick labour in the church ; and indeed my own 
feelings of general weaknefs coincided with that 
apprehenfion ; but in the courfc of the publick 
meetings the Lord's power was wonderfully mani- 
fclled, in ftreng;hening me for fervice, to the ad- 
miration of all who faw my extreme weaknefs, and 
my own alfo. Indeed with humble gratitude I may 

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238 

acknowledge that it appeared miraculous ; for I do 
not know whether I was ever able to fpeak with 
gi'eater ftrength of voice and fentiment, than in the 
lafl meeting ; fo that ahhough the booth was very- 
large and crowded, I believe all might hear : and 
to the praife of the Great Name be it commemo- 
rated that his power was fignally over the meeting. 
This extraordinary manifeflation of favour 
tended to flrengthen my mind, which for a long 
time had been forely exercifed with many fears, 
infomuch that my fpirit was weary in the conflift, 
and ready ro hope for death rather than life. Yet 
was I fecretly fuflained fo as to prefs forward, and 
moftly to preferve a cheerful countenance, fo that 
nay friends could not perceive how my fpirit was ex- 
crcifed and abafed in the fenfe of infirmities, even 
when I was evidendy clothed for fcrvice. Thus it 
hath pleafed Divine wifdom to permit me to be 
tried in my pafling along from youth to advanced 
age : doubtlefs for fome good end, and I defire 
thankfully to commemorate his gracious and wife 
dealings with me, in humble hope that finally all 
will work together for good ; when, having filled 
up my meafure of fufFerings, I may be accepted in 
and through his beloved Son. It is not for us to 
query why thefe afflicting difpenfations are ap- 
pointed, but patiently to endeavour to wade 
through them. We jjiay be certain they will tend 
to humble our fpirits and prepare for fervice, as 
my foul hath many times experienced ; and there- 
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fore can pray, that I may be paflive in regard to the 
JeaHngs of the Lord with me, who befl knows 
what is neceffary to effeft the glorious purpofe he 
has in view, viz. the thorough fanftification of my 
fpirit, and reducing it into " the obedience of 
"Chrilt:" concerning whom it is written "Akhough 
*' he was a fon, yet learned he obedience by the 
" things which he fuffered j" and if fo, his fervants 
can expert no other. 

I have fometimes confidered what that fuffering 
of Chrift was, whereby he learned obedience ; 
feeing that he could not fufFer for difobedience, 
being in all things fubjeft to the will of his Father. 
But as man he was made like unto us, and had 
the fame feelings as have the members of his 
myflical body ; and although he was never over- 
come of the enemy, was liable to be afTauIted by 
him. He had to bear the contradi<5lion of fmners 
againft himfelf ; and, no doubt, in the courfe of 
his miniftry felt the opprellive weight of contrary 
and wicked fpirits, as the members of his church 
now do in their meafure. 

As man, we may fuppofe that he had the fame 
relutftance to pain and infult as we have ; but in 
fubmiiTion to his Father's will, did and fuffered what 
he in wifdom and mercy to mankind appointed 
him. His followers alfo mufl: thus " be made con- 
" formable to his death," if they have part with 
him in his refurreftion unto glory. And although 
fome of them may be left in feafons of extreme con- 

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240 

fii(ft, as he was,tlie moft extreme, without the fenfibic 
feeling of the Divine prefence; yet that power which 
appoints their fuifering, fecretly fullains under it; 
and when they have filled up their " meafure of fuf- 
" fering for his body's fake, which is his Church," 
V'ith all other afflictions attendant on this proba- 
tionary flate, they will with him be able to fay, 
" It is liiiiflied;" and as " good and faithful fer- 
" vants enter into the joy of ilieir Lord." 
■ After the before-mentioned memorable meeting 
at Bewdley, I recruited in health, though yet at- 
tended with very painful feelings. We returned 
home pretty directly, taking the quarterly meeting 
for Somerfetfliire, and fome other meetings in our 
way; and the remainder of this year I fpent at 
home, and attending fervices in our own county 
as they opened. 

The 2oth of the Fourth month 1778, I again 
left it in company with my dear hu{band intending 
for Wales, he having bufmefs there, and I had an 
engagement to attend the yearly meeting for that 
principality. We proceeded to llfracomb, and, in 
our way, had a meeting with Friends in the north 
of Devon at Newtown. At llfracomb we had a 
large fatisfaCtory meeting, amongft a people very 
ignorant of our principles. We were detained 
here by contrary winds until Firfl-day, and as wc 
fat together in the morning, I eariieftly dcfired to 
icnow whether any further fervice was required ; 
as it did not appear probable we fliould be releafed 

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that day ; and afterwards as I fat quietly in my 
chamber, our Lord's words to his difciples ;4rofc 
in my mind, *' Arife, let us go hence,'* and foon 
after, the captain of the vefTel came and told us 
he intended to fail. We went on board in the 
afternoon, and before midnight landed at the 
Mumbles, and the next morning proceeded to 
Swanfea. My hufband's mother was lately dead ; 
concerning whom I may fay, that flie was an ex- 
ercifed woman, and I believe finiftied her courfc 
with joy, about the ninety-feventh year of her 
age ; and except her hearing, fhe retained her fa- 
culties to admiration. As her furniture, with her 
fcrvants, remained in her houfe, we fettled there. 

The 2d of the Fifth month we went for the 
Welch yearly meeting, and were at a meeting by 
the way at New Inn meeting-houfe, which was 
large and very fatisfaftory. Samuel Spavold of 
Hitchin in Hertfordfhire, John Lewis of Haver- 
fordwefl, and Thomas Carrington, from North 
America, were there alfo ; and we went in company 
that afternoon to a meeting which was appointed 
by John Lewis, at a friend's houfe, not far out of 
the way to Llandovery, and to Llandovery the fame 
night. Here the yearly meeting was held, and be- 
gan the next day ; and through the various fittings, 
was a favoured feafon both to Friends and others. 
The weather being very wet, it was not fo large as 
was expe<Sted, but many fober people attended, un- 
to whom the gofpel flowed freely. In the courfe of 

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242 

my travels before my marriage, I had two very 
fatisfa£lory meetings at this place, where none hve 
who profefs with us. 

My fpirit, in the courfe of the yearly meeting, 
was dipped into fympathy with the few friends 
fcattered about Wales ; and unto thofe who were 
there affembled, encouragement and inftruftion 
were afforded. In our return to Swanfea, we had 
a large and much favoured meeting at Llandilo ; 
the before-mentioned Friends and John Townfend 
of London attending it. They went back to a meet- 
ing at the New Inn meeting-houfe, and next day 
we all met again at Swanfea. The afternoon 
meeting there was large, folemn, and inftruclive. 

We ftaid at Swanfea until the 14th, then went 
to Cardiff, and on the next morning had a fmall 
meeting there with a few who met together on the 
Firft-day ; fcveral of whom were not in memberfliip 
with us. I was very unwell, but was helped to fpeak 
to their flates, and was well fatisfied with the op- 
portunity. We reached the New PalTage that 
night, and next day we got to Briftol to attend the 
yearly meeting there, which was large and divinely 
favoured. Samuel Spavold, John Townfend, Tho- 
mas Carrington, and other friends in the miniflry 
attended it. 

On the 2 1 ft I was at a meeting at Frenchay, 
with Thomas Waring of Leomiufter j and after the 
meeting, my friend Lydia Hawkfworth and I had a 
good opportunity with a young woman, who was 

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likely to marry out of the fociety. She was much 
affe^led, yet held her refolution to engage in the 
connexion. Her intended liufband was a man of 
property, and had long refided In America, where- 
to he took her, and there flie died. Her death was 
Dccafioned through a fmgular circumftance. In 
the time of the American war, her hufband's eftate 
was taken from him, but was recovered after its 
termination. When intelligence was brought her of 
its being reftored, fhe lay in, I think of her fecond 
thild ; and the pleafmg news fo affected her then 
weak fpirlts, that flie died. 

In the afternoon we had a much favoured fea- 
fon at Jofeph Beck's, with many young people, 
and returned that night to Briftol. The 24th 
(Firfl-day), we were at Claverham meeting, the 
i25th and 26th at Briftol ; myfelf unwell. 

The 27th, I was at Bath meeting, which was 
not large but favoured, returned to Briflol, and 
the 30th, we went to Pont-y-pool. The 31 ft (Firft- 
day), we attended two meetings at Friend's meet- 
ing-houfe at Pont-y-moil, near Pont-y-pool. That 
in the morning was principally for Friends, that 
in the afternoon was large, and both opportunities 
were crowned with the Divine prefence. 

Sixth month ifl:, we had a meeting at Cardiff 
with a few fober people. In our way back to 
Swanfea we called upon a convinced woman, who 
lived alone near Cowbridge, who was comforted by 
our vifit. We ftaid at Swanfea until the I2ch, at- 

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tending the meetings there in their courfc, fomc of 
which were feafons of Divine favour. My mind 
being drawn to vifit the few Friends at Haverford- 
weft, my hufband accompanied me tlicre. The 
way was long, and my (Ircngth much exhaufled 
by the before-mentioned fcrvices ; but I was fa- 
voured with ability to difcharge my duty. We 
had a large meeting at Carmarthen the evening 
we left Swanfea, and next day got to liaverford- 
wed, attended two publick meetings there on the 
14th, it being Firft-day, and in the evening had a 
private opportunity with Friends. We had con- 
fiderable fatisfa£l:ion in this journey, and returned 
to Swanfea, accompanied by our friend John 
Lewis, the i6th. 

The 18th was the quarterly meeting at Swanfea, 
which although very fmall was a folemn opportunity; 
Divine mercy favouring the few affembled from the 
feveral meetings, with counfel and encouragement. 
The 19th, J. Lewis and myfelf had a meeting in the 
town-hall at Neath, which was not fo large as we 
cxpe^ed, but, I believe it was a profitable feafon 
unto fome prefent'. The 20th, we went to Llan- 
trilfent, and the aid attended two large meetings 
at Tref-y-Ryhg, a meeting-houfe in the country. 

The morning-meeting was much favoured. The 
few from Cardiff, and the poor lonely woman near 
Cowbridge, met us, and we had an opportunity 
with them and a few other friends at a friend's 
houfe. In our return to Swanfea, we had a meet- 
ing 



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ing at Bridgend, in a bowling-green, wherein was 
an arbour, under which I flood. The people were 
very ftill, and, I hope fome were benefited. I was 
extremely fiiiigued with this journey, having per- 
formed it moftly on horfeback, double ; which ap- 
peared the beft method of travelling in fome part 
of the journey, but I found my ftrength was not 
equal to that excrcife in fuch long flages. 

The 28th (Firfl-day) I attended a fmall meeting 
held at Neath, in a friend's houfe, in the morning; 
and in the evening had a very large meeting at 
White Rock, amongfl the workmen of the Copper 
Houfe and others. This was the lafl meeting I 
appointed in Wales, and left Swanfea with peace 
and thankfulnefs the 27th of the Sixth month, 
and returned to it no more. We reached Briflol 
the 29th, and got to Wellington the ifl of the 
Seventh month, attending the Firfl-day meetings 
there: that in the afternoon was very large, and 
both were good meetings. The 5th, we had a liv- 
ing' meeting at Camelford in Cornwall, amongfl a 
people not profefTing with us ; but fome of whom 
appeared to me to be near the kingdom. The 
6th, we got home. 

The 3 1 ft of this month I had a meeting at the 
houfe of a man lately convinced, in the parlfh of 
Breaguc; where fome hundreds of people gathered, 
that we were obliged to hold it without doors. 
They generally behaved well, and fome were rnuch 
affe^led. It was a favoured opportunity, and I was 
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truly thankful for Divine aid to difcharge my duty 
therein. 

The 13th of the Ninth month, the Circular yearly 
meeting for the wellern counties began. It was held 
at Launceflon, and was a large and favoured folem- 
nity; and, although I did not think the miniftry 
rofe fo high as I have known it in fome of thofe 
general meetings, it appeared to be a ferviceable 
opportiinity, and the people feemed well fatisfied 
therewith. I fpent the remaining part of this 
year about home, and was favoured in occafional 
fervices there amongft Friends and others. Upon 
confidering the fervice wherein I have been en- 
gaged fmce I fettled in Cornwall, I fee caufe for 
true thankfulnefs, having therein been owned by 
the heavenly Mailer : and although in regard to 
uniting with us as a people, much fruit has not 
appeared ; the teftimony of Truth fcems to gain 
ground araongft the inhabitants, and fome of our 
own fociety and others, are awakened and flrength- 
cned thereby ; fo that I truft I have not run nor 
laboured in vain, altogether. May the Lord pre- 
ferve me humble and dependent upon himfclf, that 
whatfoever I am or do, it may be by his grace. 

In the Firft month, 1779, our quarterly meet- 
ing at Auftle was a memorable feafon of Divine 
love, wherein many dates were miniftered to, and 
many hearts tendered. The, rebellious were warned, 
and I believe fome of them faw the imminent dan- 
ger of their ftatesj but alas! the prophet's com- 
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247 

plaint refpe£llng Ephraim, &c. too well befits many 
vifited minds. " Their righteoufnefs is as a moru- 
" ing cloud, and as the early dew which foon 
*' pafleth away;** yet I truft the favour of love 
and life witnefled in this meeting relied fweetly 
upon fome minds. 

For fome time after this meeting, my exercife 
for fome of the members of our own fociety was 
heavy, and I was livingly opened in feveral meet- 
ings, and private opportunities, agreeably to their 
dates; fo that whether the labour beflowed hath 
its defired effeft, or be as water fpilt upon a flone, 
I hope to be clear refpeding them : and great is 
the mercy of God in vifiting and revifiting them. 

The I ft of the Third month, I had a large 
good meeting at Helfton, which many ferious and 
religious people attended, and I believe were in- 
ftrufted and refreflied, 



0^4 CHAP. IX. 



o^ 



48 



CHAP. IX. 



FO R fome time I had entertained a profpcft of 
vifiting fome meetings in Somerfetfliire and 
Gloucefterfliire, and paying a particular vii'it to 
the families of friends in Herefordiliire. I left 
home to accomplifti this fervice, accompanied by 
my dear hufband ; and on the 13th of the Third 
month 1779, we met our friend Lydia Hawkf- 
ivorth, who was concerned to accompany me 
therein, at Wellington. The 14th, being the 
firfl of the week, we attended Friends' meeting at 
Spice-land ; and in the evening had a fele^t op- 
portunity with Friends at Wellington. My huf- 
band then proceeding to Briflol on bufmefs, wc 
induftrioufly purfued our concern, vifiting many 
meetings in that week ; and on the 2 1 ft (Firft- 
day) were met by my hufband, and my brother 
James Pay ton, at Puddimore meeting. We went 
the fame evening to Compton in Dorfctfliire, to 
vifit our valuable friends Jonah Thompfon and 
his fon ; fpent the next day with them ; and in 
the evening had a meeting with their fcholars and 

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ethers of the fiimily, and many of the neighbours, 
in tlie fchool-room, which was a faroured feafon ; 
and we proceeded to Sherborn meeting on the 
24ih. Here my hufband and brother left us, 
and next morning we proceeded to Hollowtrow, 
had a meeting there in the afternoon, went the 
fame night to Pensford, next day to a meeting at 
Bolton, thence to Chew Magna, and were at the 
Firfl-day meeting held there on the 28th. 

The 30th we had a meeting at Portfhead, and 
crolhng the Avon at Pill, were at King's Weflon 
meeting on the 31ft; thence went to thofe at 
Olveflon and Thornbury, and thence to Worcefter. 
In ihefe meetings in the counties of Somerfet and 
Gloucefter, I was enabled to difcharge my duty to 
my own humbling admiration, and the edification 
of many who attended them. 

The quarterly meeting for the county of Wor- 
cefler being held at Worceftcr, we attended it, 
and alfo two meetings with friends of that city ; 
and on the 7th of the Fourth month, went to 
Bramyard in Herefordfhire, where we were met 
by my brother Young and Thomas "Waring of 
Leominfter ; who united with us in the intended 
vifit to the families of friends in that county, 
which we began at this place. In this laborious 
and important fcrvice we were Divinely aflifted. 
My dear companion had a confiderable and very ac- 
ceptable iliare therein ; which was generally the cafe 
m family vifits, and private opportunities, althou.;;h 

flie 



250 

flic was frequently filent in publick meetings. She 
■v^as* peculiarly gifted for thefe private fervices, and 
when flie did appear in publick rainillry, her fer- 
vice therein was very edifying, and acceptable 
to Friends. Having an intention to return to 
Briftol before the yearly meeting was held there, 
we purfued this fervice with diligence, and on 
the 24th of the Fourth month, we paid our laft 
vifit. 

My brother Young had accompanied us through 
the vifit, but Thomas Waring left us at Almelly 
on the i8ih, their company was acceptable and 
iirengthening to us. 

On the 25th (being Firfh-day) we had a meet- 
ing at Shire Newton in Monmouthfhire, which 
was attended by many of the Welch people, and 
the few friends in the neighbourhood, and, I be- 
lieve was an acceptable opportunity to them. In 
the evening we had a meeting with Mary Powel 
of Chepftow and fome others. She was the only 
member of our fociety refidiug in that town ; where 
a meeting of Friends was never fettled. Next 
morning, we proceeded to the New PaiTage, but 
the boat being gone a few minutes before we 
reached it, we were detained until the evening tide ; 
but, through Divine mercy, we got fafe over, and 
reached Briltol about ten o'clock the fame night. 

My hufband flaid with me at Briflol until the 
yearly meeting there was ended, which was large 
iiad attended by many miniftering friends of this 

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251 

nation and America ; yet a large fliare of the pub- 
lick labour in the miniltry fell to my lot, at which 
I believe my brethren and fillers rejoiced ; for I 
was afhfted to minifter in the demonflration of the 
fpirit and with power ; and returned the praifes 
due to Him who exalts and abafes his fervants, 
as he knows is moft: conducive to his honour, and 
to their prefervation. I (laid at Briftol to attend 
the marriage of two friends with whom I wa* 
acquainted J and then, accompanied by my hulband, 
fet out for London. We attended a few meetings 
in our way, and reached London about a week be- 
fore the yearly meeting, myfclf much fpent with 
hard labour and exercife. I was enabled to attend 
the meetings in courfe, during the fitting of the 
yearly meeting ; and after its conclufion, with my 
hulband and friend Lydia Hawkfworth, proceeded 
to Calne in Wikfliire, attended the meeting of 
Friends there in the morning of the Firil-day, and 
had a publick meeting at Chippenham, appointed 
to begin at fix in the evening. The meeting was 
large, and was a favoured opportunity ; the 
people not profeffing with us behaved with becom- 
ing ferioufnefs, and fomc of them were vifibly 
affe^led. It was long in gathering, which might 
occafion its being late before it concluded; yet my 
inclination being flrong to go to MelkQiam that 
night, we proceeded thither. Before we reached 
it, the family where we were to lodge were in bed, 
but the mailer of it, my relation Thomas Fowler, 

came 



25^ 

came down and received us with great kindncfs. 
Next day my dear hufband left us and went to Brif- 
tol and Swanfea. I had a view of vifiting fome places 
in the neighbourhood ; but my flrength was ex- 
hauftcd too much to fuffer me to engage immediately 
upon fervice. In the next night I was much indif- 
pofed, and in the morning fent for an apothecary, 
• who thought my diforder was the effects of a cold; 
but it proved a feyer, which, with the weaknefs 
attendant thereon, confined me for fome weeks with 
thefe my affefHonate relations ; whofe tender care 
and generous treatment of me, both now and at all 
times, when my lot was cafl under their hofpitable 
rocf, demands my grateful acknowledgement, both 
of their kindnefs, and that of my heavenly Father : 
whofe mercy was at this time fignally difcovered 
in upholding my enfeebled frame until I came to 
friends by whom I was fo well nurfed, and with 
whom my mind was fo eafy. My affe^lionate com- 
panion continued alfo with me, and tenderly ailifled 
me until my fever went off. My hufband returned 
to me; but, his bufinefs calling him home, and my 
flrength not being equal to fo long a journey, he 
left me to the care of my friends. As my (Irength 
returned, my profpe£t of fome fervice in the neigh- 
bourhood returned alfo, and I ventured to the meet- 
ing at Bradford upon a Firft-day ; but my principal 
concern was to hold a publick meeting at Trow- 
bridge, in which town no one refided who pro- 
fcfled with Friends. I went, in weaknefs, accom- 
panied 



253 

panied by feveral friends, and appeared to a 
friend of London who cafually met me there fo ema- 
ciated, that when (lie returned home, flie reported 
amongft friends there, that it appeared to her my 
labours were near accompHflied. We held a 
meeting in a large dining-room at the inn, which 
was attended by many attentive well-behaved 
people; and the teflimony of Truth was exalted 
amongft them, to the praife of Him who ftrengihens 
for every fervice in which he engages his fervants. 
I was that day made ftrong to declare of his wif- 
dom and mercy, and preach the doctrines of his Son 
Jefus Chrifl ; and returned to Melkfham in peace, 
and with thank fulnefs for the alTiftance aflbrded 
in that memorable day's labour. After this meet- 
ing, I was eafy to return home ; fo, accompanied 
by my companion and a friend of Melklham, I left 
that place ; and with her got to a country meeting 
held at Grcnton in Somerfctfnire on the Firft-day, 
which was attended by many of the country people, 
both of that place and its neighbourhood, and was 
a favoured opportunity. There being a funeral 
at the publick burying-ground on the preceding 
evening, our friends Beaven, with whom we lodged, 
gave notice (at my requeft) of the meeting to the 
people who attended it, which occalioned it to be 
the larger. 

In the afternoon, we had a private opportunity 
•with the Friends, and next day proceeded to Wel- 
lington, and from thence towards Oakhampton; 

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254 

where we met my dear hufbatidj to our mutual re- 
joicing and thankfulncfs, with whom we proceeded 
to our quarterly meeting held at Looe, and thence 
home, where we came in the early part of the 
Seventh month. As I had not preferved any mi- 
nutes of my movements fmce the yearly meeting at 
London, I could not infert dates. 

The ftate of my health required reft, and I was 
favoured with it ; and having the company of my 
dear friend Hawkfworth, her attention was turned 
to aflift in reftoring my ftrength ; and as flie alfo was 
in need of reft, I hope flie gained fome advantage 
by accompanying me home ; although our quiet 
was difturbed in the Eighth month, by an alarm 
of the French and Spanifli Fleets being oft" Fal- 
mouth Harbour. What their defign was could 
not be known, but there they lay for fome daySj 
the wind not permitting them to go up the Chan- 
nel ; and as they did not attempt to land, it was 
conjectured that their hoftile views were toward 
Plymouth, and the King's dock near that place. 
Soon after they had failed up the Channel, being 
in our week-day meeting, with my mind retired 
to the Lord, under an exercife on account of the 
intended mifchief, it run tlirough it, " He fent 
" forth lightnings and fcattered them.'* I think, 
as we returned home from meeting, the wind was 
rifmg ; the fky foon loured, and a terrible ftorm 
gathered and difcharged itfelf, with fierce lightning, 
tremendous thunder, and violent rain j which con- 
tinued 



255 

tlnued more or lefs through great part of the 
night, and indeed the thunder until the next even- 
ing. The fleets were, by the time the florm began, 
got near Plymouth; and we heard that the com- 
manders had deliberated about the bufmefs they 
had in view; but die Lord, who holdeth " the 
*' winds in his fids,'* difcharged againfl them his 
terrible artillery fo powerfully, as to prevent their 
defigns, and obliged them to fheer ofF from our 
coafts in a fliattcred flate. O ! what frequent 
occafions have Britons to " praife the Lord for his 
** mercy," and wonderful interference in their fa- 
vour! but alas ! though in words they acknowledge 
it, the generality of them are not concerned to 
make thofe returns which he is calling for; but con- 
tinue in a courfe of conduct, and difpofition of mind, 
which dares his righteous judgments : which will 
one day be poured forth upon the inhabitants of 
this highly favoured but ungrateful nation, unlefs 
they repent and turn from their manifold iniquity. 

I choofe here to mention a remark of a fcnliblc 
inhabitant of the town of Helflon, upon this fignal 
and memorable ftorm, fo favourable to this nation. 
He told me, that feeing it gathering, and having 
people at work on his harvefl, he haftened to di- 
rcft their labours. As he went, he made his obfer- 
vation on the wind, &c. and I think he faid that fuch 
was the confufion of the elements, that he could not 
fay from what point the wind blew ; and he faid 
in his mind, ' This is no natural ftorm :* aiid indeed 

it 



256 

it proved to be fignally providential, and as fuch 
worthy of commemoration j as is alfo a circum- 
ftance which happened in the town of Falmouth. 
As foon as government had intelligence of the 
enemies lying in great force off that port, ammu- 
nition was haftened, for the garrifon there. The 
waggons halted in the market place, to which the 
fea comes up, whence the inhabitants fetch fca-water 
for fome ufes. A woman coming up with a bucket 
of water at the inftant the ammunition waggons 
flopped, obferved that the axletree of one of 
them was on fire, and daflied her water upon it* 
As the fire was on the fide next the fea, if fhe 
had not difcovered it, it might have increafed 
until it had blown up its dangerous loading ; and 
there being alfo a quantity of gun-powder in 
that part of the town, the houfes might have been 
much damaged, and fome lives lofl. 

My dear friend Hawkfworth left me in the latter 
end of this month, or early in the next ; and I was 
allowed to (lay at and about home for the remainder 
of this year. 

In the early part of the year 1780, I attended 
feveral large meetings in Cornwall, held on ac- 
count of marriages or funerals, which were fig- 
nally honoured with the Divine prefeuce. I alf6 
was at our quarterly meeting at Falmouih ; and 
on the 3d of the Fifth month my hufband and I left 
home to attend our annual folemnity in London. 
In our way we had meetings at feveral places, and 

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257 

called at Compton to pay eur laft vlfit to our 
beloved friend Jonah Thomfon, who was near the 
clofe of an honourable life. We found his mind 
awfully colle(fted, and waiting for his releafe from 
a pained body, in certain hope of his fpirit's 
being admitted into the faints reft, after having 
laboured many years in the work of the miniftry. 
In the younger part of my life, he had conducted 
himfelf towards me as a tender father; and in my 
more advanced years, as an afFcdtionate friend. He 
had alfo a fmcere regard to my hufband, and as 
our affection was mutual, our interview and fare- 
wel was afre(5ling. 

The yearly meeting at London was large and 
favoured by the heavenly Mafter of the aflemblies 
of his fervants. From London, we went, accom- 
panied by our friend L. Hawkfworth, to a general 
meeting held annually at.Weflon in Buckingham- 
fliire, and fo to High Wycombe. My hufband re- 
turned to London, and Lydia Hawkfworth and 
myfelf proceeded to Reading, where we met a 
committee, who, by appointment of the yearly 
meetiiag, were going to vifit the meeting for dif- 
cipline in Briftol. We attended feveral meetings 
with them in our way to that city, where we ar- 
rived on the ill of the Sixth month. 

Before I left Cornwall, I had informed friends 
of our monthly meeting, that I was under an en- 
gagement of duty to attend the quarterly meeting 
for Oxfordlliire to be held at Banbury, and to vifit 

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258 

fomc meetings in Warwickftiire, Worceflcrfliire, 
Shropfliire, and Glouceflerlliire, alfo to attend the 
Circular yearly meeting to be held at Hereford ; 
wherewith they concurred. And my friend Lydia 
Hawkfworth being given up to accompany me, I 
flaid at and in the neighbourhood of Briftol, until 
the Seventh month, to afford her time to prepare 
for the journey. We went to Worcefter, and at- 
tended the meetings held there on the ift and 3d 
days : and thence proceeded to Evefham and Al- 
cefter. Several of the town's people, came to the 
meetings at Alcefler, and I was favoured to preach 
the everlafling gofpel to them. The fame even- 
ing, we reached Eatington, were at the meeting 
there on the Firfl-day, whereto many friends from 
an adjacent meeting came, at my requeft, and I 
hope it was a profitable opportunity : we proceeded 
that evening to Banbury, and to the houfe of Ed- 
ward Stone, whofe wife was nearly related to me, 
and with her hufband received and entertained us 
with affe£lionate kindncfs. 

The quarterly meeting held at this place was a 
Jarge and favoured folemnity ; and many people 
not profcffing with us attended the meetings, unto 
w^hom the gofpcl of life and falvation was preached 
in the demonflration of the Divine fpirit. In the 
courfe of the meetings, a dangerous accident be- 
fel me. In the womens' meeting-room was a gal- 
lery for rainiflering friends, wherein my compa- 
nion, myfelf, and other friends were feated. Upoo 

my 




259 

my rlfmg to flep further, to make room for more, 
the floor gave way, and I funk with it ; but I re- 
ceived but little hurt, which might be efleemed a 
fingular mercy, confidering how I was fituated in 
the fi\ll. Friends ought to be careful in examining 
thefc elevated feats in old meeting-houfes. This 
was not the only time I have been in danger 
through the neglect of it. 

From Banbury we went to a meeting at Red- 
way, and to Warwick the 28 th. We (laid here 
with ray dear fifter Summerfield, until the 4th 
of the Eighth month, when we went to Shipfton, 
where the quarterly meeting for Worcefterfliire 
was held the next day, at which were many friends 
of that county, who rejoiced to fee me, and we 
were favoured together in the Divine prefence. 
On the 6th, we had a meeting at Long Compton, 
which, although fmall, was a favoured feafon. 
The lame evening we had a meeting at Treding- 
ton at the houfe of our friend William Lambly, 
whofe family was the only one of friends refiding 
in that village. His neighbours attended, but ap- 
peared fo low in the knowledge of Divine Truths, 
that it was difficult to minifter to them fo as to be 
underftood. 

On the 7th, we returned to Warwick, and the 
9th, being the firft of the week (accompanied by 
my fifter), attended a large meeting of friends and 
other profeffors of religion, held annually at Birkf- 
wellj and on the fame evening went to Coventry, 

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260 

We had a meeting there the nth, and In the 
remainder of the week had meetings at feveral 
places amongft friends of Warwickdiire ; and on 
Firft-day, the i6th, were at a large meeting 
which is held annually at Atherfton. There 
I met many friends from divers counties, amongfl 
whom I had laboured and been converfant before 
my fettHng in Cornwall ; and we were favoured 
together with the merciful vifitation of Divine love 
and life. The 1 7th, we attended a monthly meet- 
ing for difcipline held at Hartfliill. Here I left 
my fifler, who was fo much indifpofed as not to be 
able to accompany us to the before - mentioned 
meeting at Atherflon. 

On the 1 8th, we went to the neighbourhood of 
Birmingham. We attended the week-day meetings 
there in this week, and alfo thofe on the Firfh-day, 
I hope to the edification of many prefent, and vi- 
fited feveral of our friends j and on the 24th, 
were at a monthly meeting for difcipline at Dudley. 
The 25th, we had a large and good meeting at 
Wolverhampton ; and thence we went to Coal- 
trookdale, had a meeting there, and proceeding 
to the meetings of Shrewfbury, and the Bank, 
came back to Coalbrookdale meeting, Firfl-day, 
the 29th. The Lord's power and prefence were 
evidently with us in our fervices in this quarter j 
and after a folemn opportunity in our friend Abiah 
Darby's family, at which fome other friends were 
prefent, we left it and returned to Dudley j and I 

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261 

vifited friends in that quarter no more. We ftald 
with my dear brother until after tlic enfuing Firfl- 
day, when the meetings were Uirge ; as has been 
ufual, ^vhcn I have vifited that place, fmce my re- 
moval from it ; my old neighbours prelTmg to the 
meetings, more generally than when I refided 
amongfl them : and many times has the Divine 
power, and the teftimony of Truth, been exalted ; 
to the praife thereof, and the convincemcnt of 
many of the truth of the doctrine preached, al- 
though but few have fo " believed unto righteouf- 
" nefs," as to make a publick profefllon thereof. 
Leaving Dudley, we had meetings at Stourbridge, 
Bewdley, and Bromfgrove : that at Bewdley did 
not tend to relieve my mind, being attended by 
very few of the town's people, unto whom we fup- 
pofe proper notice had not been given. On the 
next Firfl-day we attended a large meeting which 
is held annually at Redditch ; and thence we went 
to Worccfler, flaid over the Third-day's meeting 
there, and proceeded to Camden to the fune- 
ral of a friend ; then to a meeting at Stow in 
the Would and to Cirencefter, and attended the 
meetings there on the Firfl-day, which was a 
day of memorable favour to fome fouls. We 
vifited the meetings of Nailfworth, and paid a vifit 
to my coufin M. Fowler, at Minchin Hampton ; 
whence we went to Sodbury, had a meeting there, 
and proceeded to Briftol, where my dear huf- 
baud was engaged in bufinefs : and although I faw 

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I mufl: return into Gloiiceftcrfliire, I was pleafcd 
to be permitted to fee him before his return into 
Cornwall. From Briftol we went to the meetings 
at Frenchay and Thornbury on the Firll-day, and 
fo to the quarterly meeting for Gloucefteriliire, 
held at Cheltenham. As it was the feafon for 
drinking the water of this place, many who were 
in it on that account, attended the publick meeting, 
unto whom the teflimony of Truth was declared. 
From Cheltenham we proceeded to Painfwick, at- 
tended a large meeting, held on account of the fu- 
neral of a fi'iend, which was a favoured opportu- 
nity, and had alfo a meeting felect with the friends 
of that place. I had a defire to have a meeting 
at Gloucefler with the people not profefling with 
us, of which notice was given ; and although it 
was not fo large as I wiflied, I had fome open 
fervice amongft thofe who attended and behaved 
ferioufly. We vifited friends at Tewkfbury, and oij 
the Firfl-day, had an appointed meeting at Stoke 
Orchard, where formerly there had been an eftab- 
liftied meeting of friends, returned to Tewkfbury, 
and next day went to Worcefter. Thence my 
companion returned to Briflol, being dcfnous 
to fpend a little time at home before the yearly 
meeting at Hereford. On the next Firft-day, being 
the loth of the Ninth month, I attended a large, 
and I hope a ferviceable, meeting at Stourpon j 
which was appointed and attended by John 
Townfend of London, and Thomas Wai-ing of 

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Leominfler ; and was the firfl: meeting which had* 
been held by Friends in that place. 

My mind not being eafy refpe£ling Bewdley, I 
propofed to the before-mentioned fi-iends, to ac- 
company me in a meeting there ; which they 
being willing to do, one was appointed to be held 
the next morning; and although it was not fo 
large as I expected, it was a favoured feafon, and 
tended to the relief of my mind. The 12th, John 
Townfend accompanied me to Droitwich, where 
I defired to have a meeting with the town's people, 
which proved a memorable feafon of Divine fa- 
vour. The 13th, I went to Bramyard, and the 
14th attended the monthly meeting at Leominfter, 
and ftaid with my relations there until the 23d. 
On the 21(1, the marriage of my niece Catharine 
Young, with George C. Fox of Falmouth, was 
folemni^ed ; and the meeting held upon the occa- 
fion was large, and the teftimony of Truth was 
exalted therein, to the Lord's praife. 

From Leominfter I proceeded to Hereford, 
Vfhere I was met by my companion L. Hawkf- 
worth, and many other miniftering friends and 
others, afTembled to attend the Circular yearly 
meeting, which was a large, folemn, and (to my- 
felf, and many other friends) humbling feafon, un- 
der the fcnfe of the frefti extendings of Divine love 
and power towards Friends, and the people of other 
religious focieiics. How frequently is the aflent 
pf the judgment given to the truths preached in 

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our meetings, by many who attend them, who do 
not profefs with us ! But how few of thefe walk 
anfwerably to what they have been convinced is 
confident with the holy difpenfation of Chrifl ! 
Alas ! the crofs appears too great to be taken up, 
even to gain an immortal crown. But be it con- 
fidered who it was that faid, " He that taketh not 
*' up his crofs, and followeth after me, is not wor- 
*' thy of me j** and alfo, " He that is afliamed 
*' of me, and of my doftrine, of him will I be 
*' afliamed before my Father and his holy angels." 
It is not only the unfaithfulnefs of many who have 
been born and educated amongfl: us, but that of 
very many, who have been convinced of the truth 
of our religious principles, which prevents the 
increafe of our numbers. There was a time 
when many people were weaiy of worfhipping in 
the outward courts of religion, and could not 
content themfelves with fhadows of it, and were 
willing to embrace the crofs, that they might ob- 
tain the fubflance; when many great and diftin- 
guifhed perfons and charafters, bore teftimony to 
the Truth as it is profeffed by us, as they were 
thereto called of God ; whofe light fhone brightly, 
and very confpicuoufly through their great and 
numerous fufferings, for their " teflimony of a 
*< good confclence towards Him and men.'* The 
prefent time is a feafon of eafe, and greater liberty 
to worfliip the Lord agreeably to the inftruflion of 
his pure Spirit j but wherein many of the people 

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are willing to hear, but few are awfully inquiring 
" What is Truth,** with an earned defire to know, 
and fincere intention to follow it. Pontius Pilate 
inquired, " What is Truth," but did not wait for 
an anfwer from the Light of Truth. He was in 
part convinced of his power and purity, yet he 
delivered him up to the Jews to be crucified, left 
his temporal interefts fhould fuffer, if he refcued 
him from their malice. And we read, " That the 
** fame day Pilate and Herod were made friends," 
who had before been at variance with each other. 
Thus it has been, and is, with many who have 
been partly convinced what is Truth. Temporal 
interefts and pleafures have been preferred to a 
poiTelTion in the Truth; and the joining with the 
world in perfecuting Chrifl, to the confefling of him 
before men. The teftimony of his fervant is ful- 
filled ill fuch ; " Whofoever will be a friend of 
" the world, is the enemy of God." Thefe will 
one day fee and lament their great lofs. May the 
Lord in his mercy roufe many of them to con- 
fider the things which will make for their peace 
with him, before they are for ever hid from 
their eyes. I believe there will come a fhaking 
time in thefe favoured nations, wherein the falfe 
reft of many will be difturbed, ^nd the judgments 
of the Lord being in the earth, the inhabitants 
thereof will learn righteoufnefs ; and many will 
be gathered from the barren mountains of an 
empty profellion of religion, and the defoiatc 

hills 



26e 

hills of formality, to fit under the teaching of 
Chrifl:, manifefled by his Spirit in their fouls, and 
delight in the extendings of the wing of his love 
and power ; whereby they will be folaced, and 
flickered in this flate of probation, and therefore 
fmg falvation and ftrength thereto. O ! that thofe 
remaining under our name may be concerned to 
keep their lamps burning ; that they may attract 
the notice of thofe who in that day will fmcercly 
feek the way to Zion, faying, " Let us be joined 
*' unto the Lord in an everlafling covenant;" that 
fuch may behold us, as a chofen people of 
God, abiding in our tents, under the direftion of 
our holy Captain, Chrift Jefus : who raifed us 
up to be a people, that fliould bear an uniform 
teflimony to his pure everlafling Truth. He 
cleanfed us from all the chaff and drofs, which 
under a religious fhew, remained amongft the 
profefTors of faith in him ; as well as from all the 
fragments of the legal difpenfation, which with its 
ordinances and ceremonies were appointed to pafs 
away, when his pure fpirltual difpenfation of grace 
and truth fhould be introduced and eftablifhed. 
He dripped us of that fragment of fuperftition 
wherewith the nominal Chriftian church was, and 
yet is in degree, clothed. He aboliflied the falfe 
faiths and falfe trulls whereon many had de- 
pended ; and he clothed us with that true faith, 
\fhich overcometh the world, and is produ6h've of 
fruits meet for his holy kingdem. And will he 

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fulTer us to become extinct as a peculiar family to 
himfelf ? Nay, verily. Although many of us arc 
as " degenerate plants of a grange vine unto 
" him;" he will return and vifit them, and fome 
of thefe will be ingrafted into him ; and others 
will be brought from far, to feck an inheritance 
amongft them ; and the Moft High will ac- 
knowledge them, as " the branches of his plant- 
" ing, the work of his hands, in whom he will be 
" glorified." 

After taking an alTeftionate farewel of my friends 
at Hereford, my companion and I went to Rofs, 
had a meeting there, and to Briftol, where I left 
lier ; and Ann Byrd accompanied me to Welling- 
ton. We ftald the moraing meeting there on the 
Firft-day, and went in the afternoon to Collump- 
ton ; had a religious opportunity with the friends 
living there in the evening, and early next morning 
went for Exeter ; in hope of getting there in time 
to go forward with the Friends from that place 
to the quarterly meeting at Kingfbridge; but they 
were gone, and we had to travel a lonely and long 
day's journey, which was not accompliflied with- 
out difficulty, and fome danger, it being late at 
night ere we got to Kingfbridge. And had not a 
young woman whom we met at Totncfs, taken us 
into the chaife which flie had hired, there was 
little probability of getting there that night ; as 
no other chaife was to be had in the town, and 
the fleet lying in Torbay, the olTicers were revel- 

hnn 



ling at the inn ; fo that we fliould have had but 
an uncomfortable time amongft them. 

From Kingfbridge, I went to Plymouth, where 
1 met my dear hufband ; and after a meeting 
there, we proceeded home, where we arrived the 
9th of the Tenth month. 

I have the more particularly noted my pro- 
ceedings in this journey, becaufe it was amongft 
my friends and others who had heretofore fo 
largely Ihared my labours ; and this being the 
laft vifit which I paid them fo generally, it ap- 
peared to me fmgular, that I (liould fall in with 
fo many quarterly and annual meetings ; which 
afforded us an opportunity of feeing each other 
more generally and repeatedly than we fliould 
have done, had it not fo happened : and be it 
commemorated with humble thankfulnefs to the 
merciful Fountain of bleflings, that it was a feafon 
of fignal favour to many of our fpirits. 

I had been laborioufly exercifed for more than 
five months in this journey, and except in at- 
tending our monthly and quarterly meeting, and 
occafional fervices about home, I was excufed 
from travelling more in this year. Indeed, I 
had for fome time, found my nature finking under 
the load of exercifes it had long fuftained ; fo 
that I did not go through fervices alTigned me 
without many painful feelings, but He who em- 
ployed, fupported me, to the praife of his ever 
worthy Name. 

In 



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In the fpring of the year 1781, I wrote my 
brother Young to the following import : — ' My 
mind is fo clofed in regard to future profpcfls of 
duty, that I am ready to conclude, that fome fa- 
mily afllifiion may prevent my moving far from 
home foon.* 

In this I was not miftaken ; for foon after I 
wrote that letter I was feized with a cold, the ef- 
fects whereof became alarming ; and after its load 
was removed from my lungs, it fell upon my joints, 
which have gradually fliffened, and baffled all me- 
dical application ; fo that I am become an entire 
cripple, and my fingers are fo contracted that my 
being able to ufe my pen is admirable to my 
friends. But although this is ultimately the con- 
fequence, yet I have been enabled to ftruggle on 
for feveral years. 

I was not fo recovered as to appear equal to the 
fatigue of attending the yearly meeting at London 
this year ; and my hufl3and alfo was eafy to abide 
at home, where he was fo dangeroufly attacked 
with a quinfey, that it appeared he very nar- 
rowly cfcaped death. His fon was from home, and 
the weight of his critical fituation, together with the 
attention which was due to him, bore heavily upon 
my weak body and fpirits, and but that our coufin 
Frances James, now Fox, was then with us, I know 
not how I fhould have fuflained my fatigues. She 
very tenderly and ailiduoufly attended upon my 
huiband, and ailiflcd me in this feafon of affli£hion ; 

which 



270 

which I note with thankfulnefs to that good Hand 
which furniflicd us with her help. My hufliand's 
firfl wife wa3 her mother's filler, and Ihe being 
left an infant orphan, my hufband, with other re- 
lations, had cared for her, and a mutual affeftion 
fubfifled ; fo that her fervices were the more will- 
ingly lent, and plcafingly accepted. 

When my hulband's diforder was turned, he re- 
covered ftrength but flowly, and I continued weak ; 
yet I could not be eafy to omit attending the Cir- 
cular yearly meeting, which was this year held a* 
South Molton in Devonfliire. My hulband's health 
not admitting of his accompanying me, my niece 
Fox was my only companion ; but being in our 
own chalfe we got along the more eafily and in 
fafety to South Molton, where we hoped to have 
met my brothers Payton and Young ; but in this 
we w^ere airliftingly difappointed. My brother's 
fervant brought us intelligence, that his mafter and 
my brother Young had come within one flage of 
Briftol, where my brother Young was laid up ex- 
tremely ill ; and of confequence my brother Payton 
was detained with him. This was affli<5ling intelli- 
gence to us both ; my niece his daughter was funk 
too low to proceed forward alone ; and until the 
meeting clofed, no friend could be expelled to ac- 
company her, when my friend Hawkfworth took her 
under her care. She found her father extremely 
ill, and his cafe appeared for forae time very dan- 
gerous, yet it pleafed Providence to reilore him ; 

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but he Avas confined fome weeks at the inn, he- 
fore it appeared fafe for him to move forwards. 

The people of South Mokon very kindly wel- 
comed friends amongfl them, and freely opened 
their houfes to receive fuch as could not be ac- 
commodated with lodgings at the inns. My friend 
Hawkfworth and myfelf prefercd lodging at a 
private houfe, as our inn was like'ly to be very 
full of company ; and as we went to fee a room at 
a confiderable diftancc, a young clergyman joined 
lis, and appeared to intereft himfclf in our being 
well accommodated. He told us the people of 
the town were generally moderate and civil, and 
feemed pleafed that the meeting was appointed 
there. We were kindly lodged near the inn. 

The meeting was very large, and the people 
behaved foberly : indeed many of them feemed 
prepared to receive, or at leaft hear, the teflimony 
of Truth ; and the power of it fo prevailed in the 
meeting as to bind down the fpirits of others, who 
might attend from no better motive than curiofity. 
The fpring of gofpel miniftry ran freely, and I, 
though fo weak, was enabled to take a large fhare 
in the labour. Friends were comforted together, 
and the faithful amongfl them rejoiced in per- 
ceiving the extendings of the love of God, both to- 
wards the members of our own fociety, and thofe 
of other religious profclhons ; many of whofe 
hearts were aifefted under the teftimonics deli- 
vered in the meetings. 

I returned 



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I returned dire£lly home, my friend A. Price 
accompanying me. Here, and in the county, 
I continued for the winter, in a weak (late of 
health, and my dear hufband tender, but moftly 
cheerful, which was his natural difpofition. I do 
not know that I have enjoyed one day's health 
fmce the fpring of this year, which, as I forefaw, 
was a year attended with much family afiliftion, 
"wherein our fon Richard Phillips had a Ihare be- 
fore it terminated. 

In the year 1782, I attended the Welch yearly 
meeting, which was held at Bridgenorth. My 
hufband accompanied me to Briflol, and Lydia 
Hawkfworth went with me to Bridgenorth. We 
went direft, only called and flaid a fliort time with 
my brother, and returned to the yearly meeting at 
BriHol, and thence to London. 

When I went from Briflol to Bridgenorth, my 
hufband went to Swanfea, and met me in London, 
to attend the yearly meeting there. A general epi- 
demic cold reigned during the fitting of the yearly 
meeting. Many friends were feized with it, but we 
were favoured to ]efcape it, until much of the fer- 
vice of the meetings was over. We were both 
much indifpofed, which detained us fome time in 
London ; and when we were able to travel, we 
returned with our friend Lydia Hawkfworth to 
Briftol, and thence home. We recovered ftrength 
to attend the Circular yearly meeting, which w-as 
held at Tamworth in the Ninth month. My weak- 

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nefs and contraction in my joints Increafing, my 
hiifband confulted Dr. Ludlow, a phyfician of note 
of Briftol, upon the cafe, who ordered mc medi- 
cine to take on the journey, which, being of an 
invigorating quahty, I thought helped to ftrengthen 
me to get through the fatigue of the journey, and 
the exercife of the meeting; althoiigh the principal 
help in the courfe of the labour afligned me therein 
mufl be attributed to the Lord's power, which is 
manifefted in the weaknefs of his fervants. The 
meeting was large, both of Friends and thofe of 
other focieties, and crowned with the Divine pre- 
fence. The teflimony of Truth was exalted, and 
faithful friends were comforted, in the fcnfe of 
the continued extendings of the heavenly Father's 
love to the various dates of the members of our 
own fociety, as well as to other profeflbrs of 
religion. Before the meeting was opened I had 
diilocated my left elbow, by a fall down a fleep 
and long flight of flairs, and was obliged to carry 
my arm in a fling ; although I had to take fo con- 
liderable a fliare of a6live labour through the 
courfe of the meetings. After their concluflon, 
we attended a meeting at Birmingham, then fpent 
a fliort time at Dudley with my brother, and re- 
turned to Brifliol, where we again confulted Dr. 
Ludlow ; who advifcd me to try the efi'e<fl of 
cleftricity on my contra<^ed joints. After I had 
continued fome time under that operation, he or- 
dered me to Bath, to try the elTcCl of pumping 

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274 

upon them, at the fame time continuing the medi- 
cines he had prefcribcd. But all was without the 
dcfned effecH: ; and indeed 1 believe the Do61:or had 
but little hope in my cafe, for he intimated that I 
might probably become an entire cripple, and live 
many years in that ftate: which has been my cafe. 

1783. — My hufband accompanied me to the 
yearly meeting at London. Before I left home, I 
had informed my friends that I was engaged to at- 
tend the yearly meetings of Colchefter, Wood- 
bridge, and Norwich, which fucceeded that at 
London; and had obtained a certificate of their 
unity with me therein ; and my friend Lydia 
Hawkfworth being under the like concern, we left 
Biiflol on the 28th of the Fifth month, accompa- 
nied by our friend Mary Were of Wellington. 
We proceeded to Melkfliam and Salifbury, wlicre 
we left Mary Were, and went to Poole, attended 
the meetings there on Firft-day, ifl: of Sixth month, 
and the 2d, met Mary Were at Ringwood, at- 
tended the monthly meeting there, and proceeded 
to Rumfey, thence to Alton, attended the week- 
day meeting there on the 4th, and went to Godal- 
ming, and the 5th to London. On this day we 
intended to have fallen in with the week-day 
meeting at Eflier ; but there being a funeral of 
a friend at Kingflon, mofl: of the friends of 
Eflier were gone to attend it; fo we prefled on, 
and got to the meeting a little after the time ap- 
pointed ; and 1 hope it was well we were there. 

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275 

We attended the quarterly meeting, and proceeded 
on our journey, taking meetings in our way to the 
before-mentioned yearly meetings. We alfo vifited 
almod all the meetings in Norfolk, then pafled into 
Cambridgefliire and the Illc of Ely, vifiting the 
meetings therein, thence into ElTex, and, vifiting di- 
vers meetings which I had not before attended in 
that county, turned back through Cambridgefliire 
to Huntingdon. In this journey I fuftained much 
labour both in body and fpirit, which was the more 
painful from my increafed and increafmg wcak- 
nefs; which rendered it probable, as indeed it 
proved, that this would be the laft: vifit I fliould 
pay to friends of thofe parts ; as it was aJfo the 
firfl I had paid to many of the meetings which 
we attended. I was however thankful that the 
good Shepherd influenced our minds to vifit {o 
many of his flieep in thofe counties, unto whom 
our fpirits were united in gofpel fympathy ; 
and we had alfo to bear the burden of the fpi- 
rits of formal profcflbrs, unto whom the alarm 
was founded, to awake out of fleep. I had fome 
publick meetings in this journey to my fatisfi^- 
tion, and I hope to the edification of many people 
attending them. One of them was held at Cam- 
bridge ; which I hope was ferviceable, although I 
was not favoured to rife in the exercife of the Di- 
vine gift bellowed upon me, to that height I did 
when in that town many years ago. 

That was indeed a fingular time, and anfwered 
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276 

a fingular end, viz. to convince a man who had 
contemned women's minifliy in Chrift's church, of 
its weight, efficacy, and confiftency with the gofpel 
difpenfation. The fame man. who did not Hve in 
the town, was invhed to attend this meeting, and 
he might therein hear gofpel truths pubhihcd, 
and treated upon in a more argumentative way, 
than it was common for me to be engaged in. 
The All-wife employer of true gofpel miniflers 
knows how to dire61 his fervants, both as to the 
matter, and the manner wherein he intends it 
fhould be communicated to the people. And I 
have admired his wifdom and condefcenfion there- 
in, when without forethought my fpeech has been 
accommodated to the capacities of thofe unto 
whom it was direfted. To fuch as were illiterate 
and ignorant, I have fpoken in very low terms ; 
and to thofe of more underftanding, in fuch as 
anfwered its level; while to the learned, and thofe 
of fuperior natural abilities, I might fay with the 
prophet, " The Lord God hath given me the 
" tongue of the learned j" although I had it not 
by education. I have not wanted eloquence of 
fpeech, or ftrength of argument, wherein to con- 
vey and enforce the doctrines given me to preach ; 
of which I could fay, as my Lord and Mafter did, 
" My doftrines are not mine, but his who fent 
*' me:" and his love, hfe, and power, hath ac- 
companied them, to the flopping of the mouths 
of gainfayers, and convincing of the underlland- 

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277 

ings of many, of the rcftlmde and efficacy of 
" the Truth as it is in Chiifl: Jefus.'* 

O the depth and excellency of true gofpel ml- 
niflry ! The Lord's prophet in the profpciH: of it 
might well exclaim, " How beautiful upon the 
" mountains are the feet of thofe who bring good 
*' tidings, who pnblifh peace, who publifh falvation, 
*' who fay unto Zion, Thy God reigneth !" Thefc 
are not made fo by human or literary acquirements ; 
but " the Spirit from on high being poured upon 
" them,'* under its holy humbling influence they 
are enabled to minifter, and " compare fpiritual 
" things with fpiritual," or elucidate them by 
natural things, as occafion may require, without 
forecaft or premeditation ; for they fpeak extem- 
pore, as the Spirit giveth utterance. When the 
miniflry in the general thus returns to its ori- 
ginal dignity and fimplicity, an education at col- 
leges will not be fought to qualify for it. No, 
thofe who are accoutred for the fervice of him 
" who fpoke as never man fpake,'* mufl be edu- 
cated in his fchool, and difciplincd by liis wifdom; 
whereby they arc made able minifters of the 
new tcflament, not of the letter but of the fpi- 
rit ; for the letter killeth but the fpirit giveth 
Jife. 

Thus have I, with many of my fellow-labourers, 

been affifted to minifter in the gofpel of Chrift ; 

and now in the clofe of a laborious day's work, I 

may commemorate the mercy, power, and wifllom 

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of Him who chufeth whom he pleafeth for the 
various offices in his church. He appoints, of 
both mule and female, " fome apoflles, fome pro- 
'* pliets, fome evangelifls, and fome pafhors and 
*' teachers ; for the perfecting of the faints, for 
*' the work of the miniftry, for the edifying of 
*' the body of Chrijfi: ; until his members come in 
" the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of 
" the Son of God, unto the meafure of the ila- 
" ture of the fullnefs of Chrift ; and may grow 
" up into him in all things who is the Head, 
*' from whom the whole body fitly joined toge- 
" iher and compacted by that which every joint 
*' fupplieth, according to its effeftual working in 
" the meafure of every part, maketh increafe of 
" the body, unto the edifying of itfelf in love.'* 
Then, there is the higheft rejoicing in him the 
heavenly Teacher, who fufils his gracious promife, 
both to thofe who minifler under him, and to 
ihofc who are not called to this awful fervice, 
*' Lo, I am with you always, even to the end of 
" the world !'* 

Unto him all true gofpel minifters direft the 
people, and endeavour to fettle them under the 
teaching of his pure Spirit. Thefe difclaim the 
lead degree of ability to labour avallingly in his 
fervice, except what flows from him, the fountain 
of Divine power, love, and life ; and, after they 
have done and fuffered what he afligns them, fit 
down in the acknowledgment, that " what they 

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279 

" are, they are through his grace." And thank- 
ing him that they have not received his grace in 
vain, humbly confefs they have done but their 
duty. Thus from early youth, have I travelled 
and laboured, that the faving knowledge of God 
may increafe, through experience of the preva- 
lence of the power of his Son ; whereby the 
true believers in him become crucified to the 
world and the v/orld unto them ; and being thus 
dead, are raifed by him in newnefs of life, to the 
praife and glory of God. Freely I have received 
the knowledge of falvaiion through the fanftify- 
ing operation of the fpirit of Chrift ; and freely 
I have teftified thereof, and of God's univerfal 
love through his Son to mankind : for he would 
have none to perifli, but that all fliould be faved, 
and attain to the knowledge of his Truth. 

My views, with thofe of others my fellow- la- 
bourers in the miniftry, have, in regard to our- 
felres, been fimply to obtain peace with God 
through an honeft difcharge of our duty ; and in 
refpc6t to thofe unto whom we have freely minif- 
tered, that they might be turned from darknefs to 
light, and from the power of Satan unto God ; 
and be favoured with the experience of the re- 
milTion of fms, and obtaining a fixed inheritance 
amongfl: all thofe Vvho are ran(ri:ified. And we are 
not afraid to fay, that the love of Chrift hath con- 
(traincd us to miniftcr, unmixed with any tempo- 
ral intercfled motive, or view of reward. Through 
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that love, we have been made willing to fpend our 
temporal fubftance, as well as our ftrength of body 
and of faculties, and to fufFer many hardfliips; yea, 
to leave what was dearefl: to us in nature, and 
be accounted fools by the wife and prudent of 
this world ; fome of whom have poured upon us 
contempt, but who profefTmg themfelves to be 
wife, have manifcfted their fooliihnefs ; and by 
fpeaking evil of what they knew not, have evi- 
dently been wife in their own conceits. 

As to us, however we may have been favoured 
by the Lord, who has accounted us worthy to 
have part in this miniftry, and has at feafons 
clothed us as with a royal robe, to the aftonifli- 
ment of even thofe who have had us in derifion ; 
all boafting is excluded, by the pure humbling 
law of faith in Chrift, " the wifdom and power of 
'* God,'* and we confefs with his primitive minif- 
ters, that we have nothing of our own to boaft 
of but infirmities, nor have we ought to glory 
in but his grace to help us ; through which we 
have been rendered equal to the arduous tafks af- 
figned us; and willing to turn from profpe<51:s the 
mod: plcafmg to the natural mind, and to endure 
crofles, tribulations, and the contempt of men, for 
his fake, who fo loved us as to die for U3 ; and 
hath mercifully called us by his grace, to become 
heirs with him in the kingdom of his Father : and 
having done all, we have nothing to truft in but the 
mercy of God, manifcfted in and through him; and, 

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under a feiife rhat all we can do to promote hrs 
honour is but little, and iluit little communicated 
by his ilrength, this is ultimately the language of 
our fplrlts. Not unto us, O Lord ! not unto us, 
but unto thy ever worthy name, or power, be 
glory for ever ! Amen. 

From Cambridge, one of the feats of learning, I 
wiih I could fay of piety, we proceeded to vifit 
fome other meetings in this quarter, and coming to 
Ives, attended the funeral of Samuel Abbot, an 
elder of good report. The meeting held upon the 
occafion was extremely crowded, and many of the 
principal inhabitants of the town and neighbour- 
hood attended it. It was a feafon of awful folem- 
nity, wherein the tide of gofpel miniftry rofc high, 
even to the overflowing the mounds of oppofition ; 
and I believe the people were fo humbied, that 
many of them could join us in fupplication and 
praife to the Lord, who " is glorious in holincfs, 
*' fearful in praifes, working wonders." Hence 
we went (as before hinted) to Huntingdon, our 
friend John Abbot (fon to the friend whofe fune- 
ral we had attended) accompanying us. From Hun- 
tingdon we proceeded to Ampthill in Bedford- 
fliire ; and in our way paffed through Potton, in- 
tending, if it was convenient, to lodge in that 
town, with one profefllng with us. But, alas! when 
we came there, we found the town^ which the day 
before, hud been, it was faid, one of the prettiLil 
in the county, in ruins. A terrible fire had raged 

all 



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all night, and was not then In fome pkiccs quite 
cxtinguilhed. Almofl: the whole of a principal flreet, 
through which wc walked (not without fear left 
the chimuies, or fome other parts of the brick or 
ftone-work left ftanding, fliould fall upon us), and 
mod of the houfes in the market-place were con- 
fumed. The fire flopped at the next houfe to 
that which our friend had inhabited. He had time 
to. get his goods out, but had left them, and with 
his wafe was gone to another town where they had 
relations, and through which we had to pafs, and 
where, at an inn, we lodged at night, our friend 
Abbot accompanying us. The view of Potton 
and its inhabitants was truly pitiable: the goods of 
the fufferers were fcattered about round the town 
m the fields, and fome were watching them. The 
countenances of fome w hom we faw in the (Ireets 
were deeply marked with grief ; and the principal 
ovens being deflroyed, bread was to be fetched from 
a town fome miles diflant. Our friend John Abbot 
was fo touched with the countenance of one poor 
woman, that after paffing her, he turned back, and 
•gave her fomething handfome ; but (lie probably 
knew not where to buy viftuals if (he wanted it. 
The principal inns being burned down or greatly 
injured, we flopped at the houfe of an acquaint- 
ance of his, in a part of the town which had ef- 
caped the fire, who readily gave us fome refrefli- 
mcnt ; and in return, we left with him, towards the 
prefent relief of the fufFerers,fo much as excited his 

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thankfulnefs. The next morning we vifited our 
friends who had fled from Potton, at then- rela- 
tion's ; and had a folemn religious opportunity 
with them and others prefent; and proceeding 
to Ampthill, attended the Firfl-day's meetings 
there. From Ampthill, John Abbot returned 
home, and we went pretty direftly to Melk- 
fliam, appointing fome meetings in our way thither. 
Before I came there my ftrength was extremely 
exhaufted, and having a concern to attend the 
Circular yearly meeting to be held at Frome in 
Somerfetfliire, it appeared neceffary for me pre- 
vioufly to take a little reft. We therefore ftaid at 
Melkfham with my affeftionate relations Elizabeth 
Fowler and her fon and daughter, her hufband 
being now dead. At Frome, I met with my dear 
brother James Payton, and many of my relations 
and friends, and the Lord favoured us together with 
his prefence. The meetings were large, folemn, 
and eminently crowned with divine life and power, 
wherein the gofpcl was preached by feveral mi- 
nifters. Nicholas Wain, from Pennfylvania, at- 
tended this meeting, and had acceptable fervice 
therein. I went directly home ; and in my way had 
a favoured meeting with friends, and many others 
of the inhabitants of Exeter. My niece Fox ac- 
companied me from Frome to Truro, where my 
dear hufband met me, to our mutual thankfulnefs. 
I do not recolleft any thing more worth remarking 
in the remainder of this year, wherein I continued 

weak, 



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weak, yet attended fervices about home as they 
occurred. 

In the rpring of the year 1784, my dear huf- 
band was much indifpofed, and from that time was 
frequently afllifted with a giddinefs in his head ; 
yet he recovered fo fur as to attend the yearly 
meeting at London, and I accompanied him in 
much weaknefs ; yet I had caufe to be luuTibly 
thankful for the Divine aid vouchfafed to labour, 
although I was unable to attend all the meetings 
which were held in the courfe of that folemnity. 

From London we went to Briftol, where my huf- 
band had bufinefs; and as I had no inclination to 
flay in that city, proceeded in company with M. 
and A. Moon, to Wellington. Thence I was ac- 
companied by my dear friend M. Were to Wil- 
liam Byrd's at Uifculm ; at whofe houfe we had a 
favoured meeting with the town's people, and re- 
turned to Wellington ; where I waited, until my 
hufband came to me. I was flrongly imprefled 
with a concern to pay a vifit once more to the 
few profefling Truth in the north fide of Devon- 
fliire, as well as to hold fome publick meetings in 
fome of the towns which I had heretofore vifited. 
My huiband knew of my having this profpeft, but 
when he came to me at Wellington, and faw how 
poorly I was, he almofl: feared for me, and would 
have been pleafed if I had been eafy to have ac- 
companied him dire^ly home. This however not 
being the cafe, we went on the Firft-day to Friends 

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285 

meeting at Splce-hmd, which was attended by a 
pretty many fober people, not proFciTing with us ; 
and the Mafler of our affemblics, favoured with 
fuitable doftrine and counfel, fo that the truly 
righteous rejoiced together ; and, under the fenfc 
of the arm of the Lord being extended to help 
in the feafons of weaknefs, we proceeded from 
this meeting to South Molton ; and our friends 
Nicholas and Mary Were, and William and Ann 
Byrd, accompanied us ; as did alfo Thomas Mcl- 
huifli of Taunton. We appointed a meeting to be 
held there the next morning ; but the weather 
proving very wet, there was fome doubt how it 
would be attended ; however it was pretty large, 
and a folemn indruftive feafon. No one profefling 
with us lived in this town, nor had any meeting 
been appointed there fmce the Circular meeting 
was held there in 1781. But the remembrance 
and favour of that folemnity might continue long 
upon the minds of religious perfons. 

We went that evening to Barnftaple (except T. 
Melhuifh, who returned home), and next day had 
a meeting there in the Aflembly-room, which was 
large, folemn, and highly favoured with the Di- 
vine power and prcfence. I was wonderfully af- 
filed to publifli gofpel truths, ** in the demon- 
" ftration of the fpirit, and with power ; " and it 
appeared that many who heard, underftood and 
were afFcfted, amongft whom were fome of the 
higher rank. O ! that fuch licavenly vifitations 



286 

might produce fruits of righteoufnefs anfwerabic 
to the labour beflowed ; but alas ! they are too 
frequently like water fpilled upon a ftone, which 
although it wets the furface, does not change the 
obdurate unfruitful nature of the ftone ; and the 
rain which has defcended upon it, is fo quickly 
dried up, that there remains no evidence of its 
having been watered. 

Indeed the flone is, agreeable to its nature, un- 
fruitful, and mufl remain fo. But what faid the 
apoftle unto thofe whofe hearts were like ground, 
which, although it was often watered, brought forth 
nothing more profitable than briers and thorns. " It 
'* is nigh unto curfing, whofe end is to be burned." 
It is extremely dangerous trifling with the Lord's 
merciful vifitation to the foul, as time is uncertain : 
therefore thofe who hear, have need to be con- 
cerned to obey the call of God to a renovation of 
mind and manners, that their fouls may live. 

From Barnftaple, we went to Great Torrington, 
and had a large and I hope ferviceable meeting 
there, although not fo diftinguifliedly favoured as 
that of Barnftaple had been. My dear friends A. 
Byrd and M. Were had acceptable fervice in the 
before-mentioned meetings; as well as in niiniftering 
to the few friends who were fcaitercd about the 
country, who met us at one place or other j and 
we had private religious opportunities with them, fo 
that they were generally vifited. I was favoured 
with much freedom to fpeak to them in the love 

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of ClirllT:, and therein to take my farewel of 
ihcm ; for this proved to be my laft vifit. There 
were never many friends fettled on the north fide 
of Devoniliire. I know not of a meeting-houfe 
having been built in any town I have vifited there; 
yet a few, fome of them having been gathered from 
other profeffions of religion, were fcattered about 
in this quarter, and held meetings at their lioufes. 

W. Byrd and his wife left us at Torrington ; 
but Nicholas Were and his wife concluded to ac- 
company us to Ilacheriy, twelve miles farther, 
where I had a defire to have a meeting; and their 
being fo difpofed proved very ferviceable to us. 

There having been a large fair for cattle the day 
before we came to Hatherly, and the fiirmers 
fcarcely all gone from the place, we found the inn 
In fuch diforder as to render it doubtful how we 
fliould lodge. However, the landlady got clean 
linen, and our friends Were and ourfelves got 
lodging ; but fome men friends who met us from 
Exon, were obliged to lliift for themfelves as well as 
they could ; and a young woman who accompanied 
them was provided for with us. The town was 
fmall, and in fuch a hurry, that it appeared a poor 
lime to get a meeting. The weather was alfo very 
wet on this and the next day ; but fome of the 
town's people being informed of our view in com- 
ing, interefted themfelves in procuring us a meet- 
ing place, and we were furniflied with one as com- 
modious as we could expecl. JVIany aflllled 

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to feat a part of it ; and the weather continuing 
wer, prevented fome of the inhabitants from going 
to their hibour, fo tliat I know not but our meet- 
ing was the larger through that circumftance. The 
people behaved well, many were content to ftand^ 
and we were favoured with a folemn meeting 
amongfl: them. No meeting had been held in thi? 
place for very many years ; fo that mofl of our 
auditors appeared ignorant of our religious prin- 
ciples and manner of worfliip ; but our vifit was 
deceived with expreffions of pleafure and gratitude 
by fome, and we left the place with thankful 
hearts, each of us felting our faces homeward the 
fame evening. My health continued declining, 
and my hufband*s complaint of giddinefs returned 
pretty frequently. We did not go far from home 
for the remainder of this year. 

In 1785 my hufband was inclined to attend the 
yearly meeting at London, and defirous of my ac- 
companying him. I was fo weighed down with 
painful fcnfations, and my joints fo much contraft- 
ed, and he fo fubjeft to the giddinefs in his head, 
that I fuggefled to him the propriety of our consi- 
dering whether it was fafe for us to venture upon 
fuch a journey : to which he replied, that his mind 
was ftrongly drawn to the yearly meeting, and faid, 
that it would be the lafl: he fliould attend. In our 
way thereto we were at the meeting of Bridport 
on the Firft-day ; and I appointed a meeting at 
Andover, which was large, and eminently favoured 

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289 

Vrlth the Divine power and prefence. Sahiuel Em- 
len and George Dillwyn, both of Philadelphia, at- 
tended this meeting ; but the principal (hare of 
of the miniftry reded upon me : indeed I had long 
had a view to a meeting in this town, and this 
proved to be the lad time I paffed through it. 
When we reached London, I was in a very weak 
date, but was enabled to attend the meetings in 
their courfe. At the yearly meeting in the preced- 
ing year, our men-friends had weightily confidered 
the date of our women's yearly meeting ; and it 
appearing that it might become of more general 
fervice, if the queries for women-friends, which 
are anfwered from their monthly to their quarterly 
meetings, were alfo anfwered from the quarterly 
to the yearly meeting of women, they fent a 
minute to the quarterly and monthly meetings to 
that import ; and this year anfwers were fent from 
fome quarterly meetings, and women - friends at- 
tended as reprefentatives. But it being a new 
thing, and the propriety or necelllty of it not fully 
underdood by all our women -friends, an epidlc 
was written, fetting forth the rife and ufe of the 
difcipline edabliftied amongd us, and encouraging 
women-friends to attend to their diare of it. As 
mothers of children and midrefles of families, 
they have an extenfive fervice to attend to, and 
ought to be concerned fo to difcipline their fami- 
lies, as to be able to anfwer the feveral queries re« 
lative to their fituation. 



290 

My mind being drawn to vlfit the quarterly 
meeting of Hertlbrdfliire, I intimated it to my 
friend Elizabeth Talwyn of Bromley, who kindly 
took me and my dear companion Lydia Hawkf- 
worth thereto in her coach ; and this was my farc- 
Wel vifit to Friends there. As I knew that my 
hufband as well as myfelf wilhed to leave London 
as foon as we could with eafe of mind, I requefted 
that notice might be fent to the fcveral meetings 
near to that of Chorlcy Wood, that I hoped to 
be there on the next Firft-day, and ftiould be 
pleafed to fee as many as could meet me there. 
The meeting-houfe was pretty full, it was a fa- 
voured feafon, and the lad meeting I had in that 
part of the kingdom. That night we lodged with 
our friend Robert Eeles near Amerfham, by whom 
and his kind wife I had feveral times been aflec- 
tionately entertained. Next day we reached Ban- 
bury, had a meeting with friends there, on the 
next morning, and after taking an affectionate 
leave of my near relation S. Stone, we pro- 
ceeded that night to "Warwick. My fifter re- 
ceived us affeftionately, though not without con- 
cern to fee me fo much enfeebled. My joints 
were fo contracted that it was become difficult 
for me to walk ; and throughout this journey I 
was afliiled in dreffing ; and my inward weaknefs 
was alfo very apparent, fo that it appeared probable 
that this might be our laft interview. I attended 
one meeting with friends at Warwick, wherein 

the 



291 

the Divine fpring of gofpel miniftry was opened 
to the refrefliment of religious minds ; and, after 
taking my iafl: perfonal farewel of ray dear fider, 
we went to Coventry, had an evening meeting 
there, which was pretty generally attended by 
friends and forae intelligent people not profefTmg 
with us ; and the Lord fiivoured us together in 
a memorable degree. The fubjefts given me to 
fpcak upon, were the awfulnefs and importance of 
pafling through time, confidering the confequences 
depending thereupon, and the folemnity of pafTmg 
out of it, even to the bed of men. For although 
fuch might be favoured with a well-grounded hope 
of participating in " the inheritance which is unde- 
" filed and fadeth not away;" and might rejoice at 
the approach of the hour of releafe from the pains 
and fohcitudes attendant in this probationary ftate ; 
it was a feafon, wherein, from the confideration of 
the purity of Chrift's kingdom, they might think it 
needful to examine whether their fpirits were fo 
clean, as to be meet for admittance thereinto. But 
to the wicked it was a terrible hour. Many flrik- 
ing remarks, directed to divers dates, were given 
me to make j and I was favoured to deliver them 
in concife, yet flrong terms, to the afFefting the 
minds of many preftnt : and thus, taklhg leave of 
that city, we proceeded next day to Birmingham, 
attended the Firft-day meeting there, and thence to 
Dudley. We ftaid a few days with my brother, 
attended one meeting there, and another at Stour- 

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292 

bridge, afterwards went to Worcefler, and were at 
the Firfl-day meetings there. 

As my cafe appeared alarming, and fome of my 
friends advifed my making trial of Buxton water, 
my hulband, when we were at Birmingham, took 
the advife of a phyfician of note, who did not 
choofe to prefcribe for me, nor encourage my going 
to Buxton; but advifed our calling at Bath, but 
cautioned me againft drinking the waters, or bath- 
ing, without taking further advice there : fo taking 
leave of our brother James Payton and friends at 
Worcefler, we proceeded directly to Bath. The 
advice I there had was to return home, drink the 
Bath water there, and purfue the courfe of medicine 
prefcribed. The weather was then too hot for 
me either to bathe, or drink the water there, but 
it was left to further confideration whether I fliould 
return there in the fall. 

Weak as I was, I had two meetings at Bathj in 
one of which I had a flrong and clear teftimony 
direfted to a flate which in youth had been Di- 
vinely vifited, and made fome advances in the path 
of felf-dcnial ; but in more advanced age, had 
fought after worldly wifdom and knowledge, and 
the friendfliip of thofe in that fpirit, and had loft 
the heavenly dew of youth. 

There was a pcrfon in the ftate defcribed, in the 
meeting, who was much alFe^fled, and died in a 
(hort time. How does Divine mercy follow the 

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backfllders from his holy commandment, with the 
gracious call of " Turn ye, why will you die ?" 

From Bath, we went to Briitol, where my huf- 
band had bufinefs, and where I left him, and 
went to John Hipfley's at Congerfbury, was at 
the meeting of Claverham on the Firft-day, and 
returning to Congerfbury, ftaid there until my 
hulhand's bufinefs permitted him to return home : 
to which we went direftly, myfelf in a feeble ftate, 
but my hulband appeared to be as well as when 
we left it. 

After our return from London my hufband's 
lime and attention were very much engrolTed by 
bufinefs relative to the mining intereits in this 
eounty. Some alteration in the courfe of the trade 
appeared neceJTary, and as he had from his youth 
been engaged in the copper trade, and was well 
acquainted with the flate of it, both in the paft 
and prefent times, much regard was paid to his 
judgment, by many who attended at the meetings 
held on the occafion: and his folicitude for its 
fettlement to the advantage of the labouring miners, 
as well as for allowing the adventurers, and others 
engaged in the trade, a profpeft of a reafonable 
profi-t, was fuch, that under the continued exertion 
of his faculties for feveral weeks, his ftrength evi» 
dently declined. 

The Circular yearly meeting falling this year In 
Cornwall, had been at our fpring quarterly meeting 
appointed to be held at Truro, the 7th, 8th, and 

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294 

9th of the Eighth month, which was fcveral weeks 
earlier than it was cuftomary to hold that meeting. 
This had occafioned fome demur in the minds of 
fome friends, who doubted whether thofc of the 
diftant counties might be fo generally at liberty to 
attend it, as if it fhould be held in its ufual courfe ; 
and fome friends gave a preference to another 
town for the meeting. But my hufband having 
attentively confidered when and where to fix this 
important folemnity, under a concern that the All- 
Tvife director would deign to influence the minds of 
Friends therein, was fteady in his judgment that 
both the time and place propofed were right : and 
the event fhewed that he was not miftaken. He 
with other friends were engaged in preparing ac- 
commodation for this meeting-, and tlie town's 
people were very ready to affiil. A large booth 
was erefted to hold it in, and other places were 
procured, if that fliould not be fufhcient to contain 
the people. 

I was yet in a feeble flate, and as it appeared to 
me improbable that the meeting would be attended 
by fo many minifters and friends of religious 
weight, from the diftant counties conftituting it, 
and other parts of the nation, as in fome pad 
years, my fpirit was weighed down under a fenfc 
of the great importance of the fervice, and the 
difproportion of my natural ftrength to the labour 
of fo large meetings. My faith was indeed ready 
to fail} but I cried unto the Lord, in the language 

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295 

of Samfon, If the teftimony of his Truth might 
but be exaked through me as an infbrument, " let 
" me die," if it be thy will, in this great effort to 
overcome the Philifline nature in tlie people : and 
this proved to be the lad of thofe general meet- 
ings which I attended. In the night before we 
went to Truro, my dear hufband was fo much 
indifpofed with the giddinefs in his head, that he 
propofed to me to go to Truro, and leave him to 
take an emetic, which he hoped might eafe his 
head, and to come to me the next morning. I was 
reluctant to leave him behind me, and it was well 
1 did not, as the {training to vomit would probably 
have produced inftant death. He grew better to- 
wards mid-day, and accompanied me to Truro, 
where we met with many of our friends, and he 
regained his wonted cheerfulnefs and a(SHvity, and 
was very ferviceable during the courfe of the 
meetings, in regulating the holding of them, 
fettling the people, and taking {hare in the car« 
that nothing might happen amongft our young 
people at the feveral inns, which might tend to 
fliade the teflimony of that pure Truth, which we 
met to propagate, from very di{l:ant parts of the 
nation. The concourfe of people, efpecially of thofe 
not profefhng with us, was very great, and not a 
few of them of the higher rank. Many came far t" 
attend the meetings, and behaved with becoming 
decency, confidently with fo foleran an occafion. 
The booth, though as large as a good voice could 
T 4 well 



29^ 

Well extend over to be diftinftly heard, would not 
near contain the people ; fo that friends were ob- 
liged to hold a meeting in the afternoons of the 7th 
and 8 th in another place. 

This confequently tended to divide the minifters 
to the feveral meetings, and, as 1 had forefcen, much 
of the fervice of the meetings in the booth devolved 
upon me; yet not fo, but that fome othei minifters 
had an acceptable ihare therein. The teftimony of 
Truth was largely and freely declared, and arofe in 
its native dignity, and clearnefsj fo that very 
many not profelTmg with us affented to the truths 
preached. The publick meetings concluded on the 
9th before dinner, under the overfhadowing wing 
of Divine love, life, and power. The minds of 
many friends were comfortably imprelTed with a 
fenfe of the continued extendings of the heavenly 
Shepherd's care over us as a religious Society; as 
well as of his condefcenfion in caufmg his gofpel 
call to go forth amongft others, and they turned 
their faces homeward in the afternoqn, in humble 
thankfulnefs. 

Here I may obferve, as It hath occurred to mc 
when attending thofe large general meetings, how 
different in their nature and tendency thefe meet- 
ings are, to thpfe which are appointed by profef- 
fing Chriftians for amufcment, wherein there is 
much noify mirth, and unchriftian jollity ; and if in 
fome of them, the entertainments, in one part of 
the day, have an outward and pompous {hew of 

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religion, under the vain and falfe pretence of 
praifmg God with the voice, accompanied with 
inftrumenis of mufick, in the repetition of fome of 
the mod fublime and inflruftive parts of Scripture ; 
in another part of it, the Chrifliian name is fhame- 
fully diflionoured, by the amufcments, which fuc- 
ceed what they call their facred oratorios. I have 
been lliocked" in the confideration, of the expref- 
fions of holy men of God, who penned them 
as the Holy Spirit di6lated them, and fome aw- 
ful inftruftive hiflorical parts of Scripture, be- 
coming proflituted to the purpofe of amufement; 
and furnifliing occafion for many nominal Chrif- 
tians to ail'emble, to gratify their inclinations to 
pride, vanity, and pompous appearances, as well 
as in fome inftances, the praftifmg of grofs wicked- 
nefs : infomuch, that it may be faid with truth, the 
Lord of Purity abhors their religious mockery, 
and their feemingly folemn meetings are iniquity ; 
and, as fuch, an abomination in his holy eyes, who 
cannot be impofcd upon by fpecious pretences, 
nor bribed by donations given for diflreifcd ob- 
jefts, to withhold his righteous judgments ; which 
will alTuredly be executed, in their appointed feafon, 
on " all the proud, and thofe who work wicked- 
^' nef^." How different to thefe (I fay again and 
without orientation), are the meetings, of which in 
the courfe of thefc memoirs i have fo frequently 
given an account! whereto many friends refort, from 
very diftaiit places and at a very confiderable ex- 

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peufe, with a view to the edifyhig of others by 
die pure doctrines which may be freely preach- 
ed in their pubhck afTembHcs, and by a con- 
d\i£t confiftcnt with Chriftian morality and recti- 
tude ; and with defires to be edified together in 
the prefeuce of the Lord, in whofe prefencc 
there is life, and at whofe right hand there are 
pleafures, fublime, and everlaflingly durable. 
My fpirit worfliips in the fenfe of the foretafte of 
them, which I have experienced in the prefent 
Hate ; and in the hope, which cheers in the pain- 
ful feafons and afflictive occurrences attendant 
thereon, that finally, the immortal fpirit will be 
folaced in the ineflimablc, and, by it unmerited, 
reward which is appointed for the righteous, and 
is unmixed with forrow.. 

From this, I hope not ill-timed, digrefilon, I re- 
turn to the I oth of the Eighth month ; when feve- 
ral of the rainiflers who had attended the meetings 
at Truro were at ours at Redruth : amongfl: whom 
was my friend Hawkfworth, who came with intent 
to fpend fome time with us, in hope that we 
might be favoured together with a little reif both 
of body and mind, which might tend to the re- 
cruiting our (Irength. But alas ! although this im- 
portant folemnity was fo well over, and my dear 
hufband's engagements in temporal concerns now 
fat comparatively light, and we were cheered for 
two days, the third evinced the inftability of all hu- 
man comforts. On the i ith, our friend T. Beving- 

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ton of Worcefler, came to pay us a fliort vifit. 
He expreflcd an inclination to have a meeting 
with the town's people ; and my hufband going, 
as he was accuflomed upon fuch occafions, to in- 
form forae of them that a meeting would be held 
that evening, was obferved to do it with rather 
more than common folcmnity and tendcrncfs of 
fpirit. I hope the meeting was ferviceable, and 
we fpent the evening agreeably with our friends. 

In the morning of the i2th, T. Bevington left 
his place pretty early, and my dear hufband arofe 
before me in feemingly ufual health, and ate forae 
bre;ikfaft, but was fuddcnly feized with an acute 
pain in his breaft. He came and found me drefling, 
and told me that the pain was extreme, but faid 
that he conceived it was only on the mufcles, and 
might be rheumatick, but that he could cover the 
fpot aftefted with his finger. He chofe to undrefs 
and go into bed, and complained of cold. I fent 
for an apothecary who apprehended no danger in 
his cafe, and gave him a fmall dofe of paregoric 
elixir, which operated to quiet him and ftupify his 
pain. I left a fervant with him, and got fome break- 
fad, and returning found him rather inclined to 
flecp, fo, having forae family concerns to attend 
to, 1 left hira again. The maiu who was left with 
him faid he complained of a return of his pain and 
(lie foon perceived fuch an alteration as occafioned 
her to ring the bell violently, on which my friend 
Lydia Hawkfworth and I haftened to the cham- 
ber. 



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her. She came foon enough to fee hhn draw his 
lull breath j but my huiicnefs not permitting me to 
make fo much fpeed, and the maid preventing 
me from immediately approaching his bed-fidc, I 
faw only a breathlefs corpfe. 

Thus ended the valuable life of my dearly be- 
loved William Phillips, in the manner he had re- 
peatedly exprell'ed a delire it might end, that is fud- 
denly; though not altogether unexpectedly by him- 
felf, as may have been noticed by what 1 have noted 
before we fet out on our late journey. He intimated 
to me, that his profpeCls in regard to fervice in the 
prefent Hate were much clofed \ and that in refpeCl 
to the future he had no cloud before him; and 
he would fpeak of the folcmn clofe with that eafe 
that difcovered he expelled no fting of confciencc 
in his death : but the reafon he gave for ^^ ifliing 
(in fubmiflion to the Divine will) that it might be 
fudden, was, that he had felt fo little pain in paff- 
ing through time, until he had attained the com- 
mon age of man, that he doubted whether if tried 
with it in the awful feafon of death, he fliould fup- 
port it with that calm, patient dignity, which graces 
the clofe of a Chriftian life. 

By appearances upon his body when it was cold, 
it was evident that a large blood veffel had broken 
in his bread ; although not the leafl: indication of 
fuch an event appeared by any difcharge from the 
mouth, whilll lie was alive. His delire of attend- 
ing the meeting at Truro was gratified, which had 

not 



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not been the cafe had it been held in its ufual 
courfe. Neither is it probable that I could have 
attended and laboured therein with that ftrength 
of mind I was favoured to do, had this important 
flroke been executed before that meetiiig : for al- 
though I was preferved from finking into a ftate of 
condemnable forrow ; the fhock attending it could 
not be fuflained without my already much enfeebled 
nature fuffering by it. We had lived in the ten- 
der endearing conne<flion of marriage fomewhat 
more than thirteen years, after a friendfliip of 
about three-and-twenty. The tie of natural affec- 
tion betwixt us was ftrong, arifing from a fimilarity 
of fentiments, which was flrcngthened by an infi- 
nitely higher connection. Indeed he was a man 
who commanded love, efteem, and refpec^, from his 
numerous relations, friends, and acquaintance, in 
their different ranks and (laiions. He was exten- 
fively ufeful without priding himfelf with it, and he 
commanded the affent of the judgment of ihofe, 
amongft whom he might be looked upon as a prin- 
cipal, in the tranfaftions of bufinefs, by found 
reafoning rather than by overbearing. Such 
was his publick character, drawn, as far as it goes, 
not beyond the life, thougli by his afHi^led affec- 
tionate widow. 

She alfo befl knew his private virtues, and en- 
gaging manners, exemplified in his family connec- 
tions, friendfliips, and the general tenor of his 
conduct J and therefore may fay, that he was a kind 

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maftcr, an affc<^ionatc father, and a \varm and 
fleady friend ; always ready to ferve his relations, 
friends, and neighbours, by advice, or as an exe- 
cutor, or referee in difputed cafes. An affec- 
tionately tender hufband — Ah, me ! how fliall I 
delineate this part of his character ! Bound to me 
by the endearing ties of love and friendfliip, height- 
ened by religious fympathy, his refpeft as well 
as affection, was apparent to our friends and ac- 
quaintance. His abilities to affifl me in my reli- 
gious engagements were confpicuous ; for although 
he had no fhare in the minifterial labour, he was 
ready to promote it. His natural temper, though 
quick, was foft and complaifant ; a man of exa£l: 
order in his bufinefs, and ftrift ceconomy, even to 
minute circumftances; yet prudently liberal in his 
expenfes, and charitable to the poor. 

In his religious character, he was firmly fixed in 
his principles agreeably to his profelfion, and con- 
cerned to aft confidently with them ; but, clothed 
with charity towards all men, he rejoiced if a 
reformation of mind and manners was wrought 
amongfl mankind, whoever were the inflruments 
of it. His experience in the fpirituality of religion 
was deeper than even fome of his friends might 
conceive ; as it was fometimes concealed under the 
veil of cheerfulnefs, which predominated in his 
conftitution ; or fecreted, through his averfion to 
make any oftentatious fliew of it ; but when called 
up to fome fervices in Chrift's church, it was evi- 
dent 



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dent that he had been inftrufted In his fchool. His 
faith and truft in the Divine power, wifJom, and 
providence, were ilrong ; which enabled him to 
luftain dillippointment and worldly loflls with firm- 
nefs. In this he was tried in Ibme inftances, to a 
degree which would have (liaken many minds ; 
but he would fay. If a part is gone, I have many 
mercies left to be thankful for ; and he therefore 
endeavoured to prefcrve his wonted calmnefs and 
checrfulnefs. 

And when Death's folemn fliaft with fwiftnefs flew, 
Prepar'd he flood, and no confufion knew ; 
Sudden the ftroke, but peaceful was his end ; 
Angels his conforts, and his Lord his IViend. 
Belov'd and honcur'd, fee, his fpirit foars 
To heavenly manfions, and his God adores. 

If any pcrufe what I have written, who had but 
partial knowledge of him, they may perhaps con- 
clude me too abundant in encomiums upon him. 
But there are who can fubfcribe to their truth, and 
who might add their teflimony to his worth and 
abilities as a man, and a ufeful member of the 
community at large, as w^ell as an honourable one 
of the religious fociety of Friends : and if his de- 
fcendants in the natural line, fucceed him in that 
of virtue and piety, they Vv-ill value this attempt to 
delineate his character. 

My dear brother was fafl declining in his health. 
He had lately received an alarm, by a flroke of the 
Palfy, to trim his lamp, unto which I hope he at- 
tended. 



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tended. He was now in part recovered, but in 
the fucceecfing iprlng was revifited by that diftrelT- 
ing difordcr, which quickly terminated his hfe ; 
in the clofe whereof he was favoured with the 
cheering profpeft of his immortal fpirit's centering 
in everlafling bleflednefs. He was endowed with 
a very good natural underflanding, which in the 
latter part of his life was fo much employed for the 
afliftance of his friends and neighbours, both of 
the town and country wherein he refided, that he 
had as much bufinefs in accommodating difputes 
about property, and other a£ls of kind aid as his 
flrength would well bear. He died beloved, and 
his lofs was regretted by both the rich and poor. 




A Testimonv 



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A Testimony from the monthly meeting of 

friends for the tVeJlern divifion of Corn" 

ivali^ held at Falmouth the 6th of tht 

Fourth Months ^795» concerning our late 

valued friend^ Catherine Phillips^ 

formerly Pay ton* 



IT appears, from accounts received, that {lie was 
born at Dudley in Worcefterfliire, the i6th 
of the Firfl: month, 1726-7, Old Stile. Her 
parents, Henry and Ann Payton were honour- 
able friends ; and he an approved minifter, who, 
when in health, was much from home in the 
difcharge of his religious duties ; but for many 
of the latter years of his life was confmed to his 
chamber by a paralytic diforder : fo that the care 
of a large young family devolved moflly upon his 
wife, a woman of eminent piety and prudence, 
whofe anxious folicitude for, and watchful atten- 
tion to, her children, they have often commemo- 
rated with filial tendernefs. Thus inflruiSled by 
example and precept, our beloved friend was early 
engaged " to feek the Lord for her portion, and 
u " to 



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*' to know the God of her fathers to be the lot 
** of her inheritimce." And being much the com- 
panion of her aflll£led father, flie ^\ as probably there- 
by preferved from many levities incident to youth, 
as well as edified by his innocent converfation and 
virtues. In this allotment flie had alfo opportunity 
to cultivate a difpofition for retirement, fo favour- 
able to the growth of that good feed which the 
heavenly hulbandman had fown in her heart. Ne- 
verthelefs, as {he advanced in years, flie found the 
propenfities of natural inclination and wifdom 
ftrongly oppofed to the manifeflation of Divine 
grace ; and through the converfation of fome whofe 
minds were not fufficiently guarded by that fear 
*' which preferveth from the fnares of death ;" 
together with the introduftion of books inconfiflent 
with the fmiphcity of Truth, her beft interefl: was 
greatly endangered. But it pleafed Him whofe 
gracious purpofe it was to feparate her to his fer- 
vice, about the fcventcenth year of her age, to 
renew the powerful vifitation of hrs love ; and, 
being favoured to fee the ftation defigned for her 
in the church militant, flie was made willing to 
endure the baptifms necelTary to that end. Under 
this trying difpenfation flie experienced the enemy 
of her foul to be a fubtil as well as an open enemy; 
and earnefl: were her petitions, that flie might be 
enabled to centre fo deep in the relignation of her 
own will, as clearly to diflinguifli his deceptive 

voice from that of the true Shepherd ; and thus 
•r: . 

be 



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be preferved from (lepping forth in her fervice, 
before the appointed time. And this petition was 
no donbt granted by Him who faw the integrity 
and dedication of her mind: for having, as -^e be- 
lieve, palled through this work of preparation, the 
fruit produced was corrcfpondently mature ; and 
her progrefs in religious experience and ufefulnefs 
diflinguiihably eminent. Her firft publick appear- 
ance was in fupplication at Dudley meeting, on the 
roth of the Second month, 1748, being then iii 
the twenty-fecond year of her age ; and in the fol- 
lowing year fhe entered upon her travels in the 
niiniftry, which continued with little intermifTion 
until within about nine years of her deceafe ; 
during which latter fpace (lie was moftly confined 
at home by indifpofition of body. Befides re- 
peatedly vifiting mofl of the counties in England 
and Wales, her travels extended to Ireland, Scot- 
land, Holland, and the continent of America : in 
the courfe of which, according to accounts re- 
ceived, her labours amongfl friends and others 
were bleflcd, to the convincement, edification, and 
comfort of many. In the year 1772, flie entered 
upon the marriage- liate with our late valued friend 
William Phillips, and removed into Cornwall; 
where flie was much engaged in religious labour, 
as- well' for the fpreading of the tedimonies of 
Truth among flrangcrs, as in repairing the wafte 
places in < the Society : being often zealoully con- 
cerned for the fupport of our Chriflian difciplmc, 
u 2 that 



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that irremediable cafes which have been too much 
neglcfted, and were as flumbling -blocks, might 
be removed out of the way of fober inquirers ; and 
particularly for the right eftablifliment of women's 
meetmgs, in which her fervice was confiderable. 

During her long confinement and illnefs, a little 
before which time her tenderly afle<5lionate huf- 
band was fuddenly removed from her by death, 
(he was often deeply tried ; yet had to teflify that 
the Lord's hand was flill at times revealed for her 
fupport and prefervation, and that his " wifdom 
*' is ftaraped on every difpenfation of his Provi- 
" dence." And although it was not permitted her 
to behold much fruits of her many arduous labours 
and fecret baptifms amongft us, we believe they 
have been blefTed to fome of us ; and with regard 
to others, we have a hope, as the Lord often fees 
meet lor wife ends, to veil from the view of his 
faithful labourers the extent of their ufefulnefs, that 
the good feed fown through the inflrumentality of 
this highly favoured fervant will not be lofl: ; but 
in due feafon produce the defired increafe to the 
praife of his own ever worthy Name. 

Some time before her deceafe, flie thus expreffed 
herfelf ; ' I am going where the wicked ceafe from 
' troubling, and the weary are at reft. Oh, thefe 

* fouls of ours! that we fliould be willing to run the 

* riik of lofing them for any of the enjoyments of 

* this life. I may fay to you, Follow me as I have 

* followed Chrifl. Beware of pride, and of the very 

* ground 



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' ground of pride.' When under prefTure of great 
bodily fullering, flie faid, * This is a trial ; Lord 

* God Almighty fanftify it to my foul.' To one pre- 
fent (lie faid, ' My dear child, the Lord God AI- 
' mighty blefs thee in every refpeft; all things may 

* be done, and all things may be borne, through 
' faith and faithfulnefs to the Author of all good.* 
A few days before her removal, being at dinner, one 
remarked how Htile fhe ate. She replied, ' it will 

.* do its office as long as necelTary ; and I am 
' thankful that I feel no cloud ;* and, making a 
fhort paufe, added, ' I have received a recompencc 

* at the Lord's hand for fm :' foon after which, 
the fits which attended her in this illnefs returned, 
and continued till about half an hour before fhe 
expired, during which fpace fhe lay very quiet, and 
drew her breath fhorter and fhorter to the lafl. 
She died the i6th of the Eighth month, 1794, in 
the fixty-eighth year of her age, and forty-fixth of 
her miniflry ; and, after a meeting of friends and 
others of the neighbourhood held on the occafion, 
was decently interred at Kea, 

Read and approved in faid Meeting, andftgned by 

Thomas W. Fox William Jenkin 

Benjamin Wilkey Richard Fox 

Richard Scajitlebury George Fox 

William James Samuel Trcgellcs, jun. 

James Hamilton John flamilton 

u 3 Samuel 



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Samuel Tregelles 
David Richards 
Silvanus James 
Jofeph Honeychurch 
Robert W. Fox 
Tabitha Fox 
Sarah Tregelles 
Eleanor Richards 
Catherine Fox 
Frances Fpx 
Mary Fox, jun. 
Grace Dennis 
Eliza C. Jennings 



Elizabeth Hingflon 
Hannah Fox 
Anna Fox 
Anna Price 
Sarah James 
Rebecca Tregelles 
Eliza R. Fox 
Mary Hingflon, jun. 
Mary J. Fox 
Catherine Richai\is 
Catharine Hamilton 
Cath. PhillipsTregclles 
Elizabeth Philp. 



Read and approved in our Quarterly Meeting for 
Cornwall, held at Falmouth the 7th of the 
Fourth month, 1793, and figned in and on 
behalf thereof, by 

George Fox, Clerk. 
Anna Fox, Clerk. 



APPENDIX. 



APPENDIX. 



EPISTLE I. 

Copy of a Letter to that truly great mlnj/ier^ my 
ancient friend, Abigail Watfon of Ireland, 

Dadley^ xSth of Eleventh Month, I7S'* 
My Dear Friend, 

IT was not becaufe I had not a due efteem for 
ihy letter, that I did not anfwer it from Dublin j 
for indeed I read it with pleafure, and am thankful 
thou counts me in any degree worthy of thy friend- 
lliip J but being pretty much hurried, could hardly 
get a quiet hour to write. I now make ufe of the 
firft convenient opportunity to inform thee, that, 
through Divine favour, I have fafcly reached my 
outward habitation, and was gladly received by 
my dear mother, Z:c. v/hom I found in as good a 
{late of health as I expelled. My mind, for the 

U 4 «o(t 



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jnofl part fincc I came home, has been quiet and 
cafy, relling under the enjoyment of peace in dif- 
charging my duty to your nation ; which fervice 
as thou hinted, was pot undertaken in my own 
will, nor performed in my own ftrength ; but He 
who fent me forth, vouchfafed to accompany me : 
jind though he many times faw meet that I ihould 
be deeply tried, he was with me in the deeps, as 
well as in the heights, preferving in danger and 
diflrefs. Unfeen he helped me, becaufe he knew 
my foul looked to him for afTiftance, defiring to be 
guided by his unerring counfel. I write not this 
boaftingly, for piy fpirit is humbled, under a fenfe 
of his goodnefs and unmerited love. What am I, 
^hat the Majefty of heaven fliould thus condefcend 
to vifit ine ? A poor, weak, unprofitable fervant, 
unto whom belongs fear and confufion of face. 
Ah! my dear friend, what are the befl of us all, 
without the Divine prefence or affiilance ? ^t is 
that is our ftrength, our crown, and rejoicing ; 
by that are we made beautiful ; and, diverted 
of that, become as nothing : O! may I ever 
live in a jufl fenfe of the neceffity of feeking after 
it. O ! my God, fooner cut the thread of my life, 
than fuffer me to fall from tailing thy goodnefs : 
let me not bring diflionour on thy great Name, 
which I now reverence and adore. Thefe, my 
dear friend, are the fecret defires of my foul, in 
joy and affliftion ; which in freedom and tendernefs; 
of fpirit, I at this time communicate. Whenever 

thou 



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ihou or thy hulband findeft freedom to write me a 
few lines, I hope, if health permit, you will not for- 
bear. My lot is cafl in a barren land, and I want 
all the help that can be afforded me : I am per- 
fuaded I need not requeft you to remember me, 
fmce I have good reafon to believe our fpirits arc 
united in gofpel-fellowlhip ; in which I at this time 
both falute and bid you farewel, and am thy 

affeftionate friend, 

Catherine Payton. 



EPISTLE 



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EPISTLE II. 

TTo ihefewt ivho have been convhiced of the reSlltude 
ofzuaiting upon the Lord in Silence, and accii/iomed 
to meet for that good end, in Cardiff, 

Friends, 

IN the love of my heavenly Father, jomed with 
a fcnfe of duty, am I engaged thus to falute 
you ; defiring your fledfaftnefs in the unchange- 
able Truth : that being grounded in right faith, 
you may not be carried away with every wind of 
doctrine, but, in (lability of mind, may be able to 
diftinguiila betwixt what proceeds pure from the 
Fountain of wifdom, and what is m.ixed with hu- 
man policy, and the traditions of men ; which tend 
to alienate the mind from the fimplicity of gofpel 
worfliip, and fix it in outward performances, 
arnufing it with bodily exercifes which profit but 
little. By this means, many times, that tender 
fpiritual fenfation, with which the foul in the in- 
fancy of religion is bleffed, in meafure is loft, and 
the unddrftanding clouded ; the mipd being either 
plunged in a labyrinth of thought, or exalted above 
that diffident childlike ftate, in which the humble 
follower^ of the Lamb delight to abide ; becaufe 

therein 



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therein they are capable of knowing his voice from 
that of a (Iranger ; and receive ftrength to follow 
hira through the feveral difpcnfations of probation 
he is pleafed to allot them. 

Many times fince I faw your faces have I looked 
towards you, and I wifli I could fay I have beheld 
all keeping their habitations in the Lord. But, 
alas ! inftead of that, has there not heetl a fwerving 
afidc, and building again tlrat which you had 
takpn foijie.good fleps toward.: abolifliing; which, 
whofoever does, makes hirafelf a tranfgreiTor ? 
May I not query. Why halt ye between two opi- 
nions ? I believe this to be one caufc of your 
weaknefs, and, I fear, if perfifted in, will prove 
your deftruftion. I believe it was the merciful 
defign of die Almighty to redeem you from a 
dijpendency on mortals, and to bring you to wait 
for the immediate teachings of his Spirit, and to 
confide in his power, from a lively fenfe of its fuf- 
ficiency : and had you fimply followed hira, his 
Almighty arm had been exalted to the bringing 
down of your enemies, and the enlarging of your 
underftandings ; fo that you would not only have 
feen that there was light, but the miraculous cure of 
blindnefs had been perfefted, and in the light you 
would have difcemed objcjfts clearly. Here you 
would have grown in Chriftian experience, and 
having received the holy unftion, you would have 
found as you abode under it, that you needed not 
thai any man {hould teach you, for that this an-' 

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nointing was fufficient to inftru^l in all things. 
And here you would have been able to diftinguifli 
betwixt words accompanied with, and thofe with- 
out, the power of God, by the different effects 
each had in the foul : the one tending to quicken 
unto God, and the other to bring death over the 
fpiritual life. According to the nature of things, 
a miniftry out of the life of the gofpcl can only 
beget its hkenefs: it may fill the head with notions, 
but can never replenifli the foul with grace. But, 
as it is the bufmefs of the enemy to delude the 
judgment with falfe appearances, he will endea- 
vour, by pufEng up the mind with vain conceits, 
to make a Hkenefs of the effefts of the Truth. 

The head being ftored with knowledge, and 
Chriflianity in part underflood in theory, by work- 
ing upon the imagination, the poor deluded crea- 
ture may boafl of vifions and enjoyments, and, 
foaring on the wings of deception, may abound in 
rapturous expreffions ; but though he may talk of 
Cod and Chriil from morning 'till evening, it is 
but warming himfclf at a fire of his own kind- 
ling, being deftitute of the efficacy of grace. 

Truth has a natural tendency to humble all the 
faculties of the foul, to make it " rejoice with 
*' trembling,** and to clothe it with meeknefs, re- 
fignation, and contrition ; in which (late it fceks 
to repofe itfelf in the breaft of the Beloved j or in 
filent adoration to bend before his throne, and in 
tenderncfs pour forth itfelf in mental prayer, or 

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317 

pralfes ; but to addrefs him verbally with awful 
reverence and felf-difEdence, knowing it is prc- 
fumption fo to do but from the movings of his 
fpirit. If it be long deprived of his prefence, it 
feeks him forrowing ; but as it advances in ex- 
perience, is cautious of difclofing its condition (as 
in the night) to the various reputed watchmen ; 
left they, either through uncharitablencfs or un- 
fkilfulnefs, wound inftead of heal ; by unveiling to 
the unregenerated the fecret conflifts it endures ; or 
direft it to other objects, inftead of informing it 
where to find him whom it feeks. 

Thefe obfervations occurring to my mind, I 
hope you will receive them in gofpel love, in 
which I think they are communicated. I now 
conclude, with defiring that if any inftability has 
appeared in your condu6l, you may for the future 
keep more clcfe to the Divine Guide ; that you 
may be clothed with wifdom and ftrength, andwit- 
nefs falvation and peace to attend you. 

I am your real friend, 

Cath. Payton. 
Dudley, t6th Third Month, 1 
(called March), 1752. j 

/ note upo?i this epi/ile, that, although for a time 
there appeared a degree of convincement of the Truth 
amo7igst thefe people, they zuere fo fcattered, that 
fcarcely one of themjleadily and unformly abode upon 
its foundation to the end, 

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EPISTLE III. 



To my brother Henry Payton, written on board the 
Alexander^ 6th of the Tenth months i753j ^^ 
Sea, Lai. ^5" North, 



Dear Brother, 

HERETOFORE when abfent, I have been 
eafy in remembering thee with fmcere defires for 
thy welfare; but now a defn-e. of writing thee 
taking place, I am unwilling to ftifle it, were it 
only for this reafon, that I would do all that is 
juftly in my power, to ftrengthen that aiFe£^ion : 
which ought to fubfifl betwixt perfons fo nearly- 
allied in nature. But, alas ! when I confider the dif- 
ference of our affeftiojis, purfoits, and fentiments, 
in right and wrong, I am fearful to fet pen to 
paper, left: I lliould not Ue read .with v candour areiv, 
undcrftanding ; yet am agaim encouraged to. thia\. 
r ti r conclufion. 



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conclufion, that thou wilt at lead receive It as the 
ctfc<rt of my regard for thee. Regard, did I fay ? 
1 will alter the term to aflectionj which I have felt 
gently to fpring in my foul towards theej not only 
as to a creatiire formed by the fame Almighty 
hand as myfclf, and for the fame noble end, vizn 
to glorify him who gave us being, and who has 
loaded us with a multitude of his favours (which 
loudly call for a grateful return); but, as to a bro- 
ther who has flrayed from the path of peace and^. 
fafety, and is feeking fatisfat^ion in the grafp of 
empty bubbles ; which h.ave affumed the form, in 
his fight, of fomcthing fiibllantial. But thy own 
experience, if impartially traced, will tell thee, they 
have broken when touched, and difperfed in air ; 
leaving nothing real bcliind them, but keen re- 
raorfe, and the painful remembrance that they are 
loft, with all the time, pains, and anxiety, be- 
ftowed in the purfuit of them. Yet in this idle 
foUcitude (O! aiTeifting but too juft charge!), has 
a great part of: thy life been fpent ; ardently tra- 
verfing the deflrudive mazes of delufiire pleafure, 
and induflrioufly avoiding the One only Good, in 
the poilcflion of which thy foul might have found 
fubllantial happinefs : a happinefs whicli would 
have afforded true contentment, in which is con- 
veyed that fulnefs of joy, whicli only can fatisfy the 
immortal part, being iifelf immortal in its nature. 

Thou wilt perhaps fay that thefe arc my fcntl- . 
■mcnt'?. But fuller mc to a/k thee, why they are notj 

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thine? Why do we differ in opinion and pra£licc, 
but becaufe the defire and purfuit of fenfual gratifi- 
cations have blinded thy judgment, and biaffed thy 
actions? I will venture to aflert that it was the 
kingdom or poffeflions of this world, its friend- 
fliips, vanities, and fenfual pleafures, fpread in the 
view of thy mind, that drew it from its early love 
and allegiance to Him who is truly worthy of 
love and obedience. Nature joined with the well 
adapted temptation (being fond of prefent enjoy- 
ment, though it be forbidden fruit), and renounced 
fubmilTion to the pure law of grace written in the 
heart; which, had it been obferved, would have 
rectified her impure and irregular appetites, and 
have placed thee in the true jflate of manhood ; as 
lord of, not Have to, the creation ; and governor 
of thyfelf, in happy fubjeftion to the Divine will : 
a will which invariably points out the everlafting 
felicity of mankind. But, rebel to her own intereft, 
nature, blinded by falfe affeftion, and fraught 
with pride, like our firft: parents, does not like a 
fuperior that fliall controul her perverfenefs, and 
prefcribe laws for her direction ; but rather chufes 
to take the reins of government into her own hand, 
and plan out a way for herfelf. 

Here reafon, blind fallen reafon, enthroned by 
the power of Satan, ufurps the fovereign feat, as 
fitting in the temple of God, being honoured as 
God ; power, wifdom, and difcretion to direft, 
being afcribed unto it. This falfe king (who, had 

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he occupied his proper place, had made a gopd 
fubject), joins in ftrict league with tlic paflions, 
and prefcribes rules dire6lcd by thefe his allies. 
' Shall man (fays he) be confined within the nar- 
' row rules of virtue and religion ? No, I proclaim 
' him liberty. Let him indulge himfelf in what is 
' delirable to him ; let him gratify the fight of 
' his eye, and the pride of his heart, in endeavour- 
' ing to make himfelf agreeable to and admired by 

* mankind ; witli whom let him join in full fociety, 
' and free communion, entertaining and being en- 

* tertained. Why may he not partake of the plea- 

* fures of fenfe, feeing he has appetites for them ; 

* and fatisfy his curiofity in knowing evil as well as 
« good ?' 

Thefe are the genuine fuggeflions of the reafon- 
ing faculty guided by the. paflions (though I confefs 
that I believe the fubile deceiver of mankind, 
fomctimes teaches this reafon to fpcak in a lan- 
guage more concealed than I have here fet down); 
but I think it will be no hard matter to prove, 
that this boafted liberty is real bondage, and that 
this acquifition of knowledge is no more than a 
fenfe of guilt, refuUing from the lofs of that inno- 
cence which gave man boldnefs to appear before 
the face of Almighty juflice and purity, void of 
diflraiSting fear. 

Let us examine th*e extent of virtue and reli- 
gion, and mark every paflion implanted by Provi- 
dence in the nature of m.an : and wc fhall find that 



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in them alone It is pofTible thcfe fiiould be rightly 
gratified, and that whenever man breaks from 
their bounds, he flies from the mark of his hap- 
pinefs. 

I have looked upon love to be the governing 
palTion in the foul, which, as it moves, draws the 
reft in its train, and, being ftrongly fixed on a 
worthy or unworthy objeft, is the caufe of our joy 
or mifery. This being granted, it is next to be 
confidered what objeft is worthy of our entire af- 
feftion: in which fearch let it be remembered, that 
this principle of love, or defire of enjoyment, is fo 
feated in the foul, as never to be ftruck from it ; 
and it will prefently be allowed, that the objecft 
that is worthy of its fpending its force upon, or 
being united to without limitation, mufl not be de- 
pendent on time, for that death deprives it of ; but 
durable as its own exiftence, and fo perfeft as fully 
to fatisfy an everlafting defire of poffeflion. This can 
be nothing elfe but the Eternal Excellency, from 
whom this fpark of affedlion was ftruck ; and if Di- 
vine order were not inverted, it would as naturally 
bend towards its original as a ftone to the centre, 
where only it can find a happy fettlement. In this 
love of God, ftands virtue ; it is this infpires it. If 
we truly love God, who is infinite in purity and wif- 
dom, we fliall naturally hate their contraries, impu- 
rity, and folly ; and fliall hate ourfelves becaufe of 
them : becaufe whatever defiles the foul, deftroys 
its likeuefs to the Divine Being, and renders it un- 
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acceptable in his fight. Hence, as it Is the nature 
of a true affeftion to endeavour after the love of 
the beloved objeft, proceeds an ardent defire of pu- 
rification, and a filial fear of oifending God; a fear, 
the molt rationally founded, viz. in a deep fenfe of 
gratitude, confidering him as the Author of all the 
good we poifcfs, or can rightly hope for, i. e. 
everlalling felicity; joined to the knowledge of his 
power and juftice, in punifliing tranfgrefTions, which 
fclf-prefcrvation would teach us to fhun: therefore, 
whatever would amufe the fenfes, fo as to draw the 
affection from this Fountain of goodnefs, is dreaded 
and renounced as forbidden fruit. 

In religion, the foul is enlarged, and fet at li- 
berty to exercife its moft noble faculty, in actions, 
or on an object, worthy the dignity of its nature ; 
when on the contrary, without it, it is in bondage, 
and debafed in the purfuit of what fcarccly de- 
fcrves the name of pleafure, being of no real 
worth or lafting duration. Religion teaches us 

%that we do not live for ourfclves only ; but that 
in order to obtain the great end of our being, we 
liiufl: feek the good of mankind and endeavour to be 

. ferviceable in fociety ; yet mix in familiar converfe 
with caution, left inftead of reftifying the errors 
(jf others, we tranfplant them into our own condu^. 
It inftruifls us to beware of vain glory, or of feeking 
the applaufe of men ; clothing the mind with hu- 
mility, under a fenfe that We have no good thing 
but what we have received from the bounteous 

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hand of our Creator ; and raifing a defire that all his 
gifts may be devoted to his fervice. In fliort, re- 
ligion places man in the fphcre the wife Author of 
nature defigned him; directing his affe6lions to af- 
cend towards the Creator, and to defcend towards 
the creation. If the afcent be but fufficicut, the 
defcent will be jull. The creatures will be loved as 
the work and gifts of the Creator ; yet poiTeiTed 
with due caution from this confideration, that they 
are allotted us but for an uncertain feafon; and that 
it is therefore our intereft to be able to furrcnder 
them when called for, with as little pain or anxiety 
as is confident with our flate. On the reverfe, the 
immoderate defcent of the afFe£^ions ties us down 
to the earth and earthly poffellions, fliackles us in 
fenfual gratifications, effeftually prevents the foul^s 
afcending towards God, and deftroys its deputed 
fovereignty over the creation, to which it is in 
bondage : fo true is that affertion of the apoftle, 
that while fome boaftcd of their liberty, or pror 
mifed it to others, themfelves were the fervant#^ 
of corruption. I have fomeiimes confidered how 
the excufe of thefe boafted libertines befpeaks 
their flavery. We cannot help fuch and fuch con- 
duft, fay they, or had not power to refift fuch 
temptations. If this were true, it were acknowledg- 
ing that they had loft that valuable blefling, the 
freedom of the will ; and are utterly deftitute of 
power to withitand evil; and of confequence are 
the devil's captives. Such indeed they are, though 

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not necclTarily, but voluntarily : for \\irdom and 
power, through the grace of God, is given unto 
man, to difcover and refift the temptiuions of his 
enemy ; and if he will renounce both, his blind- 
nefs and fubjcftion to the power of delufion is 
procured by himfelf, as is its mifcrable confe- 
quence, viz. an everlafling fep:irution from the 
Fountain of all good. 

Thou wilt eafily perceive, that the intent of the 
foregoing hints is to influence thy mind in favour 
of a more drift courfe of virtue than thou haft 
formerly purfued. I will add my earntft wilh that 
it may be anfwcred. What fliall I fay to perfuade 
thee to turn, and coolly and impartially look into 
tliyfclf ? Shall I plead thy advance in years ? Thou 
art now I conclude rather in the decline of life, 
* haftening towards the gate of the garden. O ! 
liften to the dicftates of virtue, ere flie withdraw her 

♦ An allufion to a dream which the party had, wherein 
(amongft other remarkable circumftances) he was met in a 
beautiful garden by two women, reprefenting (according to the 
interpretation which opened in his mind when he awoke) Vir- 
tue and Vanity, who each folicited his company for a walk: and 
though he flrongly inclined to the latter, the former infilled on 
his accompanying her, not only for a walk but for life ; which 
rather than comply with, he endeavoiued to efcape out of the 
garden (which he called the world); but coming to the gate, 
found it locked, and the key in her pofleflion. So being forced 
to a compliance, he accompanied her, and became gradually 
charmed with her converfation, by which, he was won to 4 
love of religion, and in the end much delightod with the prg- 
fpcdt of fuch a companion for life, 

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kind Invitations and profitable inflruftions. Shall 
I befeech thee by the mercies of God (a prevail- 
ing argument with a truly generous and grateful 
mind, and which may with great juflice be parti- 
cularly advanced to thyfelf), to return unto Him 
from whom thou haft deeply revolted, and feek 
reconciliation by unfeigned repentance, if thou can 
find room fo to do; which I have a lively hope 
ihou mayeft, though thuhaft fo lor=g, and dif- 
tantly, ftrayed from the fold of Chrift. 

I fhall plead no excufe for the freedom with 
which I have here treated thee, further than to 
fay, that I think a true freedom in communicating 
our fentiments, with a defign for each other's eter- 
nal well-being, is a part of that charity which 
ihould clothe the fpirits of the followers of Jet'ui- 
Chrift. 

The copioufnefs of my fubjeft may apologize, 
for my prolixity. Upon a review of what I have 
written it will readily be obferved, that the hints 
given are but like heads of chapters, which, if fully 
expatiated upon, might fill a volume inftead of a 
letter: and, that the everlafling minifter of the 
fanftuary may enlarge them in the view of thy un- 
derftanding, to lading benefit, is the fmcere and 
ardent defire of thy affectionate fifter, 

Catherine Payton. 



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EPISTLE IV. 

To a young man in Ireland^ who had been long under 
religious imprejfions* 

Amfterdam, i ft of Eighth Month, 1757. 

THINE of the 5 th ult. I received yefterday, and 
with a degree of fatisfa(5lion have obferved its con- 
tents ; although it feems to breathe the language of 
complaint, or at lead fear of falling fhort of the 
mark thou hafl: had in view, and I hope art prefTmg 
after. Although this is a ftate painful to nature, 
it is fometimes a flate of greater fafety, and more 
direftly pointing to perfection, than is that of eafe, 
or even of the aboundings of fenfible confolationa : 
whereby fome have been induced to conclude them- 
felves in a better and fafer ftate than they really 
were, and fo have grown lefs watchful and diffi- 
dent of their own judgment ; and fpiritual pride 
and vain-glory have entered, wherein they have 
boaded above their meafure of experience ; and 
at laft " turned the grace of God into wanton- 
** nefs," and their latter end has been far worfe 
than their beginning. But in the feafons of the 
withdrawings oi Divine goodncfs, the foul that is 

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carneflly bent to obtain the kingdom of God, 
which Hands "in rightcoufnefs" as well as "in 
" peace and joy in the Holy Ghofl,'* is fet upon 
fearching what is the caufe of its being thus de- 
ferted; and fo " digs deep" through the corruption 
of fallen nature, and " lays its foundation fure" in 
the experience of the purifying operation of the 
Spirit of Truth ; and againil fuch it is that " The 
" gates of hell fhall not prevail :" and that thou 
and I may be of this happy number, is the travail 
of my fpirit. 

It is moll certain that our journey through life 
is as through a vale of tears, wherein various will 
be our conflifts, and numerous our trials, both 
inwardly and outwardly ; but we have this en- 
couraging promife left us, that " All fliall work 
"^ together fOr the good of fuch as truly love and 
*^ fear God." And as our hopes and dehres are 
fixed on an infinitely better country, the joys 
whereof are pure and eternally permanent, let us 
not repine at the means ufed to fecure them to usj 
but with all poflible cheerfulnefs take the cup 
which Divine Providence hands forth to us, as 
<' The cup of his falvation;'* and ftcadily endeavour 
for that mind, wherewith the blelTed Jcfiis was 
clothed, which fays continually, " Thy will be 
*' done j" even in the bitter baptifm of crucifixion, 
xvhich every tnie-boni child of God mud be par- 
5;aker of -, and under the bitter pangs of death to 
llie fallen nature, ^ull have to cry out, " jMy God, 

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«* my God, why liafl: thou furf.iken me." O ! ir 
this was the hmguage of the Maftcr, the imma- 
culate Lamb of God, who knew no fin ; no won- 
der that it is the hinguage of the fervant, who has 
been defiled therewith ; and from which he mufl? 
be waflicd ere he can have part with the Son ia 
his inheritance. I have looked upon it as an in- 
finite mercy to be led deep enough in humiliation, 
to be dripped of all that has any appearance of 
what is good and excellent, and to have this the 
fecret language of the foul to him who fees in 
fecret, " I am a worm, and no man:" and although 
the confolatory portion of fuch as thcfe may be 
fometimcs hid, or withheld for a feafon ; yet they 
are fure, being in the hands of infinite Wifdom, 
Truth, and Mercy ; who, in the wife appointment 
of his providence, v/ill give to his own what they 
Hand in need of; and when the da5'-s of fiifting and 
humilation are accompliflicd, will afluredly " blefs 
" the provifion of Zioa, and fatisfy her poor with 
<« bread." 

I thought when I laft left Dublin, if I were in 
debt to any one in it, it was to thyfelf. Perhaps 
thy letter may open a way for me to pay it ; al- 
though I do not remember that any thing of the 
above was upon my mind for thee; but a hint of 
advice feemed to bend toward thee, to beware 
with whom thou entered into the covenant of 
fricndihip, led in the ftid thou dioulded be wounded 
by their backfiidings : and let me alfo add, beware 

of 



S30 

of looking out at the mifconduft of others, with a 
difcouraging eye ; for ahhough " thoufands may 
*' fall as by thy fide, and tens of thoufands as at 
** thy right hand," yet if thou *' make the Mod 
*' High thy refuge," by a fteady and faithful obe- 
dience to his will, he will prcfcrve thee. 

Through mercy I am favoured with a good de- 
gree of health and peace in my going forward, 
although the prefent concern wherein I am engaged 
is attended with fome difcouraging circumftances, 
yet I have faith that I am here in the appointment 
of heaven. 

If Lucy Bradley and companion have not left 
Dublin before this comes to hand, pleafe to prefent 
my dear love to them ; and tell Lucy that I wrote 
her fmce I came to this city, wherein I hinted my 
cxpedtation of feeing York in my return home. 

My love in that which is unchangeable flrongly 
attends thee, and the tried remnant of fpiritual 
Ifrael in your city and nation, who, although they 
are few, are too numerous for me to particularife ; 
Ihall therefore give thee a general commiiHon to 
prefent my love to fuch as thou haft freedom j and 
conclude myfelf 

Thy truly well-wifhing friend, 

Catherine Payton^ 



EPI5TL£ 



?>M 



EPISTLE V. 

JExtrad of a letter to another young man, tinder 
religious exercifcs, 

Efteemed Friend, 

THINE of yeflcrday I juft: now received j and 
am concerned to find by its contents, that indit' 
pofition prevents thy meeting us as propofed ; but 
as through faith and patience every alllidlion may 
be fan^tified, I cannot but hope the prefent may 
tend further to refine thy fpirit and enlarge thy 
underfianding in Divine truths; which are not 
always manifefted in the hours of confolatioH, but 
mufl be painfully felt in the depths of experience. 

That beautifully ftrong exprefiion in facred writ, 
that " The Lord makes the clouds his chariots," 
has of late often been revived in my remembrance; 
with this illuftration, that when a cloud is over us, 
who have known and rejoiced in the light, it is 
good to ftand (till, and hearken for that " fmall 
" flill voice'* proceeding from it, which alone can 
compofe and fettle the foul. 

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To be fure It is a neceflary duty to fearch our 
hearts, and not in fo doing to evade the judgment 
of Truth ; but it is alfo well to guard againft too 
hafty conclufions of the caufes and ends of exer- 
cifes ; cfpecially in an hour of weaknefs, wherein 
the old accufer is not wanting on his part, to 
fuggell the mod: painful apprehenfions, thereby to 
difpirit the mind that feeks to be freed from his 
infupportable yoke. 

The new difcovery thou makefl of the delufive- 
nefs of thy thoughts, affords me much fatIsfa£tion, 
as it gives good ground to hope, that the Lord 
defigns to lead thee to a (late of perfection, which 
few, very few, have feen into ; viz. an entire ab- 
dication of firif, even in its moft pleafmg and 
feeming lawful appearances. That of an ideal 
fatisfaclion in fomething feemingly good, yet fliort 
of tlie Divine perfe£lion, is an exercife which at- 
tends many, and has prevailed againft fomc, at 
leail to the diminution of that luftre which would 
have ilione around them. It is a favour fo quickly 
to fee into it, and, having feen, I hope thou wilt 
endeavour to avoid it, and the Lord will help thee. 
There is no happinefs here equal to pierfeCl 
redemption from the world, its fpirit, and ourti 
fclves. To have no hopes, no defires, but in the 
will of God, is fully giving ourfelves into his holy 
hand, and to be fwallowcd up of him (though of 
this, for want of Divine feufation, we may fome- 
limes be ignorant). Here mcthinks I almoft hear 

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thee hy, * This is the (late I long for, but it Is 
* diftant, very diftant, from me.* But is it not as 
of yefterday thon-inwd^imo it, and wouldft thou 
be perfeft at once, and enjoy' a viftory without a 
fight? This my friend is the fummit of the mount of 
perfection, which thouliiifl: lately begun to afcend, 
and in thy journey I fmcerely wiili thee good 
fpecd ; and from the quietude' wliich I at prefcnt 
feel about thee, I cannot but hope thou art in the 
beft of hands : may a fenfe thereof be coinmu- 
nicated in the mofl: needful time. 

Catherine Payton. 



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EPISTLE \^L 

To Friends in Ireland* 

Dear Friends, 

AS I am prevented by contrary winds from pay- 
ing a vifit this fall, to fome of your Province meet- 
ings ; &c. ("for which end I proceeded as far as 
Liverpool) in the ftrength of that unfeigned love 
of the brethren which drew me from my home, am 
I endeavouring to fakite you by a few lines : in 
hope the Divine wifdom and mercy may direft my 
pen, to the prefent relief of ray own fpirit, and 
your help. 

And firft, dear friendsj permit me to inform you, 
that the lamentable flate of our church, is almoft 
continually before me. This in your*s as well as 
other countries, has fuffcred greatly by the baneful 
prevalence of the fpirit of this world ; infomuch, 
that too few ha.ve their hands clean and flrong for 
the Lord's fervice ; or can fee to cxtraft ihe motes 
from the eyes of their brethren, becaufe of the 
beams which are in their own. May not fome of 
the inflru(n:ors, and fcemingly zealous in our So- 
ciety, be judly taxed with hypocrify j feeing while 

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they cry againft the reigning fms of others, they 
are inattentive to their own? unto whom I would 
direft the advice of Chrifl, viz. Pluck firft: the 
beams out of your own eyes, and then (hall ye 
fee clearly to take the moces out of thofe of 
your brethren. 

It is a forrowful truth, that even the garments 
of forae of the priefthood are fpotted with the 
world and the flefli ; and they are therefore rendered 
unfit to minifter before the Lord in that facred 
office. For whatever may have been their former 
experience of the fan(5lifying operation of his fpirit; 
or however clear may have been their call into 
his fervice ; yet if, like Judas, they have betrayed 
ihcir Mailer for' the pieces of filver, or, like 
Demas, may iii fpirit haveforfaken his family for 
the love of the world in fome of its alluring fliapes, 
theirs juftly is the judgment pafTed upon Judas j 
who, being fallen from his (lation in the holy body 
of Chrifl, was to lofe his biflioprick or part in the 
apofllelliip : fuch being rendered unfit to give tefli- 
mony to the life, fufFerings, death, and refurrec- 
tion of the holy Jefus, who do not retain it in 
their own experience. 

Obferve, brethren, the word retain. It is not 
enough that we have once known the Lord, but we 
mufl retain him in our knowledge, by the renewed 
baptifms of his holy Spirit : and of fome who did 
not chufe to do fo, it is recorded that *' God 
*' gave them up to a reprobate mind, to work 

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" thofe things which are not convenient." And 
I believe there are in our day, who, having deviated 
from the fimplicity of Truth for finifter ends, have 
gone wider and wider therefrom; until their hearts 
are become fo darkened that they call evil good, 
and good evil ; put darknefs for light, and light 
for darknefs ; and, in their purfuits after worldly 
intereds, are obvioufly worfliipping and ferving the 
creature more than the Creator : and yet thefe 
very perfons would keep thofe feats, and difcharge 
thofe offices in the church, which were afTigned 
them, when in the days of childhood they were 
willing to follow the Lamb whichcrfoever he led 
them. 

O ! for thefe blind guides, is my foul pained ; 
and that not only on their own accounts but that 
of others, who, apprehending the law to proceed 
from thfcir mouths (though they have in reality 
no right to take the word of the Lord there- 
into) and obferving their conduct, may be influ- 
enced by their example, and follow them as they 
follow the world. Is it needful, my beloved, to 
warn you, as our Lord did the people refpe£ling 
the Scribes and Pharifces, who, notwithllanding 
they fat in.Mofcs' feat, and adminillered the law, 
were not to be regarded as examples ; left, being 
led by the blind, ye perilli with them in the ditch 
of error and perdition ? 

When I fat down to write you, I had no view 
of beginning with thefe difagreeable remarks, but 

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fimply gave myfclf up to the direftlon of that "Wif- 
dom which befl: diiftates what to fay, and when to 
fay it: and, although fome may objcft to their being 
inferted in an Epiftle which points to a general 
exhortation, I am convinced by undoubted expe- 
rience, and the example of fome of the mod 
eminently fcrviceable in the Lord's hand, that Di- 
vine wifdom fometimes commands to reprove thofc 
that offend, let them be of what clafs they may, 
before all, that others may learn to fear. In the 
authority of Truth I dare alTcrt that the time is 
come in our church, when it is neceffary that judg- 
ment fliould begin as at the houfe of God, in the 
very highefl clalTes of the fociety ; and till that is 
laid to the line, and fome therein are either re- 
formed thereby or removed from thofe dignified 
ftations, there is little probability of the Lord's 
work, being carried on to his own honour (in the 
general) and the comfort of the faithful. O I 
faith my foul, that all who are concerned, or con- 
cern themfelves, therein, would fludy to be quiet 
and mind their own bufmefs, which is to take heed 
to thcmiclves ; for although the Holy Ghoft may 
have once made fome of them overfeers of the 
flock, they cannot properly take heed thereto, un- 
lefs this is the cafe ; for being themfelves loaded 
with a fecret confcioufnefs of guilt, for worfhip- 
ping of idols, fome obvioufly, and fome having 
them concealed under a precife, formal, outfide 
appearance and deportment, as in the fkirts of their 

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garments, they dare not, nay they cannot, fearch 
out the hidden things of Efau among the people, 
nor adminifter judgment in righteoufnefs, where it 
is obvioufly due. 

Let me therefore, in the fpirit of gofpel meek- 
nefs and charity, which breathes for your falva- 
tion and enlargement in all the gifts and fruits of 
the Holy Ghofl, exhort you who are of the fore- 
moll ranks, whether minifters, ciders, overfeers, or 
heads of families, that you would folemnly look 
into yourfelvcs ; and with an impartiality, which 
ever accompanies thofe who are really concerned 
for the ellabliiliment of the kingdom of Chrift in 
themfelves, afk yourfelves individually. In what am 
I lacking ? O ! my friends, was this the cafe with 
us all, and did we patiently wait for the anfwer of 
Truth, we ftiould individually be humbled into a 
fenfe of our Ihortnefs of that perfeftion, where- 
unto we have been called, and wherein many of us 
have believed ; and fome would be fo flruck with 
the view of their idolatrous revolting from the 
fimple worfliip of the true and Hving God, that 
they would go mourning many days in the bitter- 
nefs of their fouls ; and all would be animated to 
prefs after the mark for the prize of their high 
calling in Chrifl, which is redemption from the 
world, the flefli, and the devil. And the nearer 
we approach to this bleffed and happy experience, 
the more our hands will be flrengthened in the 
Lord's work, and the more we {hall be enabled 

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both by precept and example to build one an- 
other up in the mod holy faith, and in thofc 
things which edify; and our confidence in God 
who is the Perfefter of his faints will increafc, 
that, as he hath mercifully begun a good work in 
us, he will finilh it to the praife of his own name. 

It is impolhble that felf-exaraination by the light 
of Truth fliould hurt any of us, and it may help 
all. I therefore once more earneftly recommend it, 
as a means of our fulfilling this precept, " Purge 
" out the old leaven,'* and enabling us to keep 
the fcaft " not with the leaven of malice and 
" and wickednefs, but with the unleavened bread 
" of fmcerity and truth." I fliall conclude my 
exhortation to you of thefe claiTes, with faying. 
Be faithful, and then will you be comforted and of 
one mind, and the God of Peace will prefide 
amongfl you. Anicn. 

Now to you who, not being in any of the befoif; 
mentioned llations, may therefore think yourfelves 
more at liberty to gratify the defire of the carnal 
mind, is my concern dire^ed ; with fecret breath- 
ings to the Father of mercies, that he may enable 
me fo to point the word to your hearts, that 
being made fenfible of your own danger, you may 
flee for your lives, from thofe bewitching vanities, 
and falfe pleafures which have held your fouls in 
bondage to the God of this world ; who, by 
many fecret fnares, and more obvious allurements, 
fecks to entangle the minds of poor mortals, and 
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lead aftray their affe£lions fi'om that ineftimable 
Fountain of hght, hfe, and happinefs, wherein is 
centered all true joy, both in time and in eternity. 
Dearly beloved ! for fo in the bowels of gofpel 
compa/Tion I call you ; have you ever ferioully con- 
fidered that you have no continuing city here ; 
and that as your fouls are immortal, it is the pro- 
per, and ought to be the principal, bufmcfs of your 
lives, to feck for them a habitation, fuitable to their 
being and nature, wherein they may have a happy 
refidence for ever : v.hich is alone to be found in 
God, who is the fource and refource of his people ? 
Now in order that your fouls may at lafl centre 
with God, it is neceflary that they lliould be made 
habitations for Him through the fan^lifying opera- 
tion of the Spirit of his Son, which alone can ren- 
der us who have been defiled with fin (and there- 
fore unfitted for a refidence with Him), fit obje<5l3 
of his favour. Allow me therefore to afk you 
(and O 1 that you would aik yourfelves), what 
you have known of this work, in your experience ? 
Has the fpirit of judgment and of burning done its 
office in your hearts ? Have you pafied through tke 
firfl part of the work of fan«n:ification ? I mean tlie 
adminiftration of condemnation for fin. Have you 
been bowed under the teftimony of the righteous 
Witnefs of God in your confcience ? Or have you 
not rather deprcficd and contemned this heavenly 
mefienger ; not fufl"ering it to tell you the truth, 
or <it lead, difbelieving the dodrine it preached, 
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becaufe It did not countenance fomc of your 
actions ? Nay, have not fome gone fo far as to flay 
the " two witnefles for God,** the internal evidence 
of his Spirit, and the external teftimony of his fer- 
vants ; and are perhaps at this hour exulting la 
their viftory, and proclaiming to themfclves peace ; 
when alas ! a day of fearfulnefs, amazement, and 
unutterable anguifli, awaits them, and is nearj 
when, if not fooner, the curtains of mortality fhall 
be drawn, and they ftiall fee the Judge, tremen- 
dous in majefty, and that righteous witnefs, which 
in time they flew, raifcd in power, to teflify againfl 
them for their rebellion, and affert the juflice of 
their exclufion from the realms of light and blelTcd- 
nefs. 

What efFeft this faint defcriptlon of the day of 
judgment to the wicked, and thofe who forget 
God, may have upon the minds of fuch, I know 
not ; but my heart being imprelTcd with an awful 
fenfe of its certainty, is animated to endeavour to 
wreft them from its eternal confequences ; by per- 
fuading them to bow in the day of God's merciful 
vifitation to their fouls, and to kifs the Son left 
he be angry, and they perifli from the way of 
life and falvation, ere his wrath be kindled but 
a little. 

Do not vainly and proudly imagine, that you are 
able to ftem the force of Omnipotence. He is, and 
will be King, whether you are willing to allow him 
{he right of fovcrcignty or not : and his facrcd 

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laws of unchangeable truth, are as manifeft in the 
punifhment of tranfgrcfT^jrs, as in the reward of 
thofe that do well: and O! if it were poflible to 
convey to you a fenfe of that fwect pea.ce, glory, 
and ioy, which are, and fliall be revealed to thofe 
who love and ferve God, you would be convinced 
that no puniiliment could be too great for fuch as, 
by a contrary conduiR-, flight and cafl: away fo great 
falvation and happinefs. But as no eye can fee, 
nor heart conceive, the exceeding grace of God 
in Chrifl Jefus, but fuch as have happily witneffed 
its fan^ifying operation ; I cannot but invite you 
to " Come, tafte, and fee, that the Lord is good, 
*' and that his mercy endureth for ever." 

It is true, that in the way to this attainment you 
mufl: pafs through judgment ; for Zion mud be 
redeemed through judgment, and all the con- 
verts with righteoufnefs, and a portion of in- 
dignation and wrath, tribulation and anguifli, 
mufl: (confiflently with the law of Divine juflice), 
be adminiftered to every foul that finneth. 
But this judgment when received in the day of 
God's merciful vifitation, is fucceeded by fuch in- 
expreflible peace and afliirance of Divine favour, as 
abundantly compenfates for the pains it may have 
occafioned: for of a truth the carnal " eye hath 
" not feen, nor ear heard, nor heart conceived,'* 
what good is in ftore for thofe who manifeft their 
love to God by their obedience. Believe me, my 
I cloved friends, when I tell you that my heart is 

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ftrongly engaged for your welfare, as j'ou fland In 
your various clafles. I feel much more for you 
than I can write, and would befeech you by the 
mercies of God, as well as by his judgments, that 
you would prefent the whole bodies of your af- 
feftions unto him, which is no more than your 
reafonable fervice. 

Has he not dealt exceeding bountifully to fomc 
of you of the things of this life ? For what caufc 
think you has he entruftcd you with fuch abun- 
dance ? Is it to gratify the luft of the eye, and the 
pride of life ? Is it to make you haughty, and af- 
fume a fuperiority over fuch as, in this refpe<^ 
may be below yourfelves, but who perhaps may 
fome of them be higher in the Divine favour ? 
Nay, furely : but in order that you may improve 
this gift to his honour, the good of others, and 
your own eternal advantage ; and may be humbled 
in a fenfe of the difproportion of your deferts to 
his mercies. Has he not favoured fome of you 
with fuperior natural abilities ? And for what end, 
but that you might be in a fuperior degree fervice- 
able in his hand ? Has he not afforded to all a day 
of merciful vifitation, wherein he has by various 
means endeavoured to bring you into that fold of 
immortal reft, wherein he caufes his " Flocks to 
" feed and lie down befide the clear ftreams of 
*t falvation ?" 

O faith my foul ! that you may conilder his 
racrcics, and make a fuitablo return for them ; 

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that the Mofl High may delight in the prefent ge- 
neration, and dwell among the people as in days 
pafl. O! you of the rifmg generation, Open the 
doors of yours hearts to that Divine Vifitant, who 
has long flood thereat, and knocked for entrance. 
Let him prepare them, and he will affuredly fpread 
his table, and admit you to be the happy com- 
municants thereat. Think not that it is too early in 
life for you to look fteadily towards a future {late of 
exiftence ; but confider, that the fclemn meffage to 
fummon you from works to rewards, may be fent 
to you at an early and unexpecled hour : and tha<; 
it therefore behoves you, to be prepared to meet 
the great Judge. My heart is particularly en- 
gaged for your welfare, and pained in the con- 
fideration how widely fome o^ you have deviated 
from that path of primitive fmiplicity, wherein 
your w^orthy predeccflbrs trod. Let me therefore 
befeech you to fcek for the " Good old way" of 
holinefs, and walk therein ; that you may experi- 
mentally know the " God of your fathers, and 
*' ferve him with a perfe«n heart and willing 
*' mind:" fo will his blclling for ever rell upon 
you, which maketh truly rich, and adds no forrow 
therewith. 

Let the cloud of witneiTes to the power and un- 
utterable riches of pure religion, prevail with you 
to fubmit to its holy influence ; that you may 
rightly underfland, and diligently piirfue, the things 
that belong to your peace here and hereafter. Let 

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ilic examples of the righteous in all (generations, 
let their peaceful lives, let their happy conclufion, 
triumphing over death, hell, and the grave, in a 
lively and full affurance of faith ; let the folcmn 
importance of time and eternity, excite you v/hile 
it is yet day, and light is upon your tabernacles, 
to improve it: that you may be numbered amongft 
the wife, who fliall Ihine as the brightnefs of 
the firmament, and may be inflrumental to turn 
many to righteoufnefs, and be as ftars for ever 
and ever. 

The negligent and carelefs, the ftout-hearted, 
and they that are far from righteoufnefs, may re- 
ceive inllruftion from the event of the like- 
minded in all generations. Such have not efcaped 
the righteous judgments of the Almighty ; who 
has fealed it as a certain truth : " Verily there is a 
** reward for the righteous; verily, he is a God 
" who judgeth the earth.'* 

And now, dear Friends, as in plainnefs I have 
endeavoured to communicate what has freely opened 
to the feveral clafTes among you, I would warn all 
to beware of putting their proper portion far from 
ilicm ; but let each examine, " Is it I ; Is it I ?" 
And let not the iniquities of others, which fame may 
obferve to be flruck at, tend to fix any in a (late of 
fclf-fecurity ; for afiiiredly every one muft fufl'er for 
his own tranfgrcfhon. Nor let thofe clofe hint» 
which are pointed to fome of the foremofl rank, 
be made ufe of to invalidate the tcftimony of fuch, 

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v^hom the Lord has prefervcd as '' watchmen up- 
" on your walls.** I know and am thankful that 
lie has a remnant amongfl: you, of all ranks, whom 
he has preferved near unto himfelf ; unto whom 
my foul is united in the tribulations and rejoicings 
of the gofpel ; and unto whom a falutation reaches 
forth, and feems exprefled in my heart thus, Bre- 
thren and fillers, be of good cheer, *' be patient, 
*' and hope to the end:" for the hand of that 
God whom you ferve, is (Iretched out for your 
help; and if you abide faithful to him, in his own 
time he will crown your fufferings with rejoicing. 

Finally, dearly beloved, farewel ; and may the 
grace of our Lord Jefus Chrifl, the love of God, 
and the fellowfliip of the Holy Ghofl:, be with 
you all. Amen. 

I am your friend and fifler in the Truth, 

Dudley, loth of Tenth CATHERINE PaYTON. 

Month, 1758. 



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EPISTLE VII. 

Copy of an Epi/lle to the garter ly Mens Meeting of 
Friends of 

Dear Friends, 

IT having lately been my lot to pafs through 
your quarter, and with forrow to obferve the de- 
clining ftate of the church therein, I find my mind 
engaged to write a few lines to you who may be 
accounted its ruling members ; to advife, that you 
be careful to fill up the flation of governors in all 
humility and honefly, acquitting yourfelves like 
men concerned for the caiife of God. And in 
order that each may find his hands made flrong for 
the work, let firft a flri^l fcrutiny be made into 
your own condu^l, to fee how far you are purged 
from the abominations which are committed : for, 
except thofe who are rulers in Ifrael, fupport their 
teilimony by a clrcumfpe^l converfation ; it fcems 
to mc impofilblc they fliould rule well. For, not 
preferving a fenfe of the neceflity of an entire 
purity fubfilting in the church, they will be apt 
to admit of things inconfiflcnt with the nature of 
that holy principle wc profcfs j and wiuk at, in- 

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Head of reproving, the condu^ of backfliders. 
And, indeed, I fee no right that a man who breaks 
the law himfclf, has to fit in the feat of judgment. 
He may plead the example of the Scribes and Phari- 
fees, but no Chriftian precept countenances fuch 
a praflice : for " except our righteoufnefs exceeds 
" theirs, we fhall in no wife enter the kingdom." 
And I think it may not be amifs, in order to evince 
whether there be any refemblance betwixt us and 
them, to examine w^hat their righteoufnefs was. 
It was only a bare external righteoufnefs, put or 
kept on with a bafe hypocritical defign, to impofe 
upon the people. Spiritual pride was cloked 
under it. They loved the places of chief prefidency 
in the fynagogues, hz. and to be called of men, 
*' Rabbi ;" oppreiTed the diftreiTed, and neg' -fted 
the weightiefl matters of the law, viz. i\ 'ce, 
mercy, and truth (without w^hich no rig/: .0- 
vernment can ever be adminiflered). They were not 
pofleiTed of holinefs, though they made '' broad 
*' their phila£leries, and enlarged the "^ ' • ' . : of 
" their garments." How diiferent to ui's i^ the 
chara£ler of a bifiiop * given by the apofllc, viz.- 
" He muil be blamclefs as the fleward of God, 
*' not felf-willed, not foon angry, not given to 
*' wine, no flriker, not given to filthy lucre ; 
" but a lover of hofpitality, a lover of good men, 
" fobcr, juft, holy, temperate, holding forth the 

• Or, as it may be tranflated, ovir/eer, 

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** faithful word as he has been taught ; that he 
*' may be able by found doftriiie both to exhort 
" and convince the gainfayers." An excellent 
catalogue of necclTary qualifications ! May both 
you and I covet to obtain tliem. 

It feems ta me that a great regulation is wanting 
amongfl us, and judgment mud begin as at the 
fan^luary, before it can go on right. The camp is 
ihamefully defiled, and few fit to adminifler judg- 
ment in wifdom, to the tranfgrelTors ; which is 
very much wanting, for " weaknefs has reached 
" to the head and the heart,'* and infenfibility 
feized many of the members. Arife and lliakc 
yourfelves, left you perifli with the multitude j and 
being partakers of the fms of Babylon, ye be 
alfo partakers in her plagues : for I verily be- 
lieve, the Lord is on his way to try the founda- 
tions of the profelTors of his Truth, that their deeds 
may be made manifeft, whether they are wrought 
in God or not ; and the caufe of his fuffering feed 
will be efpoufed and pleaded, and their wrongs 
redrefTed. 

Alas ! my friends. It will not do for us to have 
been once called and animated of God. Except we 
dwell under the teachings of that anointing, and 
wait for renewed baptifm to fit us for further fcr- 
vice, we fliali become dwarfifli, dry, and formal ; 
and though to an injudicious eye, we may appear 
as flourifliing trees ; upon examination by a wife 
obfcrvcr, good fruit will not be found upon us, 

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fuch as that Its flavour will demonflrate, that the 
tree has its nourifhment from the Eternal Fountain 
of hfe and wifdom. 

Have a care, left the world caft a mift before 
your eyes, and hinder your keeping a fight of 
that tranfcendent excellency which is in the Truth ; 
which once engaged fome of you to follow it, with 
fuicere defires to know your fpirits leavened into 
its pure nature. Remember the day of your 
efpoufals, and alfo, that, as faith the apoftle, " If 
" any man draw back, my foul fliall have no plea- 
*' fure in him." 

Let none judge that thefe lines proceed from a 
fclf-fufficiency in me ; for I think that I retain a 
juft fenfe of my weaknefs, and unfitnefs as a wo- 
man for fuch a fervice ; but I truft fome of you 
know that the wind bloweth when and where it 
lifteth. 

I am, with the falutation of unfeigned love to 
the true feed of God amongft you, fincerely de- 
firing their prefervation, and that the unfaithful 
may be warned in time, and turn to the Lord in 
the day of his mercy, your friend and fifter in the 
Truth, 

27th of 8th Month, CATHERINE PaYTON. 

1761. 

N. B. This Epyile may appear clofc and JJoarp^ 
confidcring unto ivhom it was dirtcled ; but there zvas 
forroivful caufe for it, injme individuals, 

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EPISTLE VIII. 



To a Friend of Ireland^ luntten ajhort Time before 
I left it, in the Tear 1776. 

Eftcemed Friend, 

AS I have had feme caufc to doubt the recfti- 
lude of our determhiation of not fpending a night 
at thy houfe, I am inchned to eifay a few lines, as 
a friendly falutatlon, as well as to intimate what 
appeared to me proper to recommend to thy con- 
fideration and praftice. As a member of fociety, 
difengaged from the neceffity of being much era- 
ployed in worldly bufmefs, it behoves thee to attend 
(Icadily to the filling up that ftation in the church, 
for which Divine Wifdom dcfigned thee ; that, 
glorifying him with thy body, fpirlt, and fubflancc, 
thou maycH:, in the conclufion of time, receive the 
anfwerof " Well done good and faithful fervant^" 
which thofe arc not likely to be favoured with, 
who " dwell in their cieled houfes," and fettle 
down in the enjoyment of their temporal poireffions, 
while the Lord's houfe lies wade. 

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35^ 

There are (o few who are of clean hands, and 
are therefore fit to take part in the a£live fcrvices 
in the church ; that I cannot but regret the lofs of 
fome who are fceking concealment, contenting 
themfelves with preferving a fair charaflcr amongfl 
men, and attending on the external duties of reli- 
gion ; but who, had they devoted their faculties 
to the Lord's fervice, might have been girded for 
it, and flood as in the front of the battle. Thus, 
clothed with concern for the welfare of their fel- 
low members in fociety, their zeal for the promo- 
tion of Truth would, in an efpecial manner, be 
manifefled by an engagement to cleanfe the camp 
from thofe who bring a reproach on our holy pro- 
fcilion ; and for the prefervation of our youth from 
the fnares of the enemy. Well, my friend, it is 
with me to query whether thou haft taken thy 
proper fliare in this work, or haft been excufing 
thyfclf, and leaving it to others. 

I know nothing by outward information, but as 
fomething like a jealoufy rcftcd on my mind re- 
fpcfting thee, I am willing to intimate it ; at the 
fame time alluring thee of my efteem for thee, as 
one of the Lord's vifited diildren j who, I hope, 
haft been in a good degree preferved " from the 
'* corruptions that are in the v»'orld through luft;'* 
and haft received a portion of that precious faith, 
which in all ages has been delivered to the 
faints, through which fome in the prefent day 
have obtained a good report, and been ren- 
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dered very ferviceable : whether thou mighted 
not have ftood amongft thofe chofen, and (Ihall I 
'Hiy) dignified fervants, it behoves thee to inquire. 
Mufl the poor and the ilUterate, who are " rich 
" in faith" and good works, be brought to con- 
demn thofe amongfl: us Who have received much 
fpiritually, ilaturally, and temporally ? Yea, verily : 
fome of thefc have done (o little that the fins of 
omilTion mufl be chargeable upon them ; whilfi: 
others who have had to ftruggle under difficulties 
in regard to temporal things, and appeared com- 
paratively to be of but low underflandings, havb 
come up nobly in the Lord*s caufe, and flione as 
ftars in the firmament of his power. Well, my 
friend, look to thy part of the work, and folemnly 
attend to the filling up thy meafure in righteouf- 
nefs. " Let no man take thy crown." 

Something of this fort feemed to point towards 
thee ; and in that love v/hich feeketh thy in- 
creafmg in the increafes of God, do I communi- 
cate it ; and now add a few words in regard to 
thy wife, for whom thou art doubtlefs tenderly 
concerned, and, confidering her delicate conilitu- 
tion, mayeft juftly fear the confequenees of her 
nurfing unavailing forrow. I wifii (he would imi- 
tate David, who, when the child was dead, 
arofe and waflied himfelf and ate : for it is no 
doubt acceptable to kind Providence, that \then 
we are deprived of one temporal bleifing, we (hould 
humbly rejoice in ihofc which remain, and fay 

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with Job, The Lord gave and hath taken away, 
and blelled be his name. Hath he not a right 
to recal what he hath lent us ? But unpro- 
fitably to fink under fuch flrokes of his hand, 
appears to me to favour of the forrow of the 
world, Mhich worketh death, fometimes both to 
body and fpirit, if perfifted in. I therefore beg 
flie will look from the beloved objeft, now no 
more her's ; and confider how gracioufly the 
Father of mercies hath dealt with him, in re- 
moving him thus early from this flate of confllfts. 
When our attention is rightly turned to confider 
what is lacking in ourfelves, we are not fo fub- 
je«ft unprofitably to ruminate on circumftances like 
thefe ; but, being principally concerned to be pre- 
pared to participate in the happinefs of thofe 
*' who die in the Lord,*' fliall defire that all 
may finally " work together for our good." 
I now conclude in true love, 

Your Friend, 

Catherine Phillips. 

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EPISTLE IX. 

To a young man (an American), 

Refpc£led Friend, 

I CONCLUDE thi^ will meet thee preparing 
to return to thy native country ; and I wifli thy mind 
may be impreiTed with a dnc fenfe of the mercies: 
of God vouchfafed to thee in this land, and with 
an awful inquiry whether thou haft fo profited 
therein, as to return to thy own, wifcr and better 
than thou left it. I am affured that thou haft 
been favoured with a Divine vifitation, intended 
to fubdue thy natural will, regulate thy aifeftions, 
and bound rhy purfuits after the acquifition of ci- 
ther intereft, pleafures, or knowledge, merely tcr- 
reftrial ; and fo to reduce the whole man, that thy 
mind, being bent upon higher attainments than 
what would only gratify the natural will and de- 
fires, might become capable of enjoying the one 
only unmixed fuprcme good ; and, being devoted 
to the fervice of its bounteous Creator and Bene- 
faftor through time, might participate with hirrl 
in unchangeable happinefs when it terminates. I 

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intrcat tlice to inquire how far this glorious end 
has been accomphflied and do not flight that great 
falvation, which in infinite mercy has been offered 
thee. I fear thy views have been after that ho- 
nour which is of men, and that the wifdom which 
will one day be manifefted to be fooliflmefs, has 
been preferred to that which is pure, and which 
therefore fo recommends to the Lord's favour, as 
to make men his friends. He has favoured thee 
with natural gifts, which. If fan<Stified by his re- 
fining Spirit, might render thee ufeful in time. 
Confider how they have been employed, for be 
alTured, thou wilt one day fee that, where much 
is given, much will be required, and that, " mighty 
*' men,** if they counteract the dcfign of their cre- 
ation, will be " mightily tormented" with pun- 
gent and unavailing remorfe. Therefore prize the 
day of the Lord's vifitation to thy foul, and fo- 
lemnly attend to the " reproofs of inftruclion," as 
the alone way to true happinefs, both in time and 
eternity. 

As I intended configning the enclofed to thy 
care, an unexpe£led inclination arofe thus to ad- 
drefs thee, and exprefs my defire for thy preferva- 
tion and welfiire every way. If thou fliould be fa- 
voured to attain thy native iliore, thou mayefl per- 
haps have to remember my labour of love for thee: 
and O! faith my foul, may it, with that of others 
my fellow-labourer?, not be bellowed in vain. 

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357 

My love to the fcveral branches of thy family 
with whom I am acquainted. Thy father's kindnefs, 
in accompanying me and my dear companion Mary 
Pcifley when travelhng in America, is frcfti in my 
remembrance. Remember me alfo to fuch other 
friends of my acquaintance, as may inquire for me, 
who am 

Thy real Friend, 

Catherine Phillips, 



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EPISTLE X. 

To B.H.'-TorkJhirc. 

pear Friend, 

THY affefiionate falutation of the 7th ult. I 
received and read with a degree of fatisfaction, 
as it evinced I lived in the remembrance of an 
at>fent friend. When fpiritual fympathy is felt 
with each other, it flrengthens the hope of our 
being continued in th* holy memberfhip of the 
living body of Chrill. 

Sometime before the receipt of thine, I had 
been clofely tried, and, although I am favoured to 
know on whom to depend for fuccour and fup- 
port, encouragement from my fellow-travellers 
Sion-ward, is truly acceptable. There arc feafons, 
wherein I doubt not but it is a cordial to the mofl: 
advanced ; but as for me, I many times fear I am 
behind fome, who have not been called to ftand 
forth fo confpicuoufly in the front of the battle j but 
whofc hidden life may be with Chrifl, in a greater 
degree than mine, or fomc- others who have moved 
in an aclivc fphcrc. Certainly to be called up 

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into a£llve fcrvlce, is a token of Divine appro- 
bation ; but if any fervants who have thus been 
frequently ciiflinguifhed, fliould meafurc thcmfclves 
by the fcrvices they have been aflifted to perform, 
they may and ^vill centre in deception, refpefting 
their real fpiritual (late ; and may clothe them- 
felves with the Lord's jewels, when they are not 
adorned with the truly beautiful covering of hu- 
mility, and a fear of endeavouring to appear to be 
any thing but w4iat they are through his grace. 
'I'hus fclf-confcquence may get up, and if fuch are 
not watch fuJ, it will get up, and occafion pain to the 
truly feeling, though lefs aftive, members of the 
church. My fmcere and earned defire is, and in- 
deed for a fcries of years has been, for prefervation 
from it, and that I may conftantly centre in my 
own littlenefs, yea nothingnefs : for indeed in 
my flefh dwelleth no good thing. All good, and 
the power of fliewing it forth, is of and from its 
own Divine fource. Who are great, but thofe 
whom the Lord fees meet to dignify ? All is the 
cfFefi: of his wifdom, power, and mercy : therefore 
to him be the praife, faith my foul ; and may I ever 
humbly coufcfs before him, that I am nothing, nor 
can do any thing, but as he puts me forth. 

Dear Friend, the work of purification is a great 
and deep work. May we attend to it, and not feek 
great things to ourfclves, either fpiritually, natu* 
rally, or temporally, that we may be diflinguifhed 
among men j but be concerned, that the infide- 

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work of the temple may be completed ; and the out- 
fidc will not want the ornaments Divine wifdom dc- 
figned it j but we (hall move and aft in the church 
in pure gofpel fimplicity, which will ever tend to 
its edification. 

I was glad to receive a late account that T. Colley 
and his companion were returned from their peri- 
lous voyage. I alfo hope that there may be fome oc- 
cafion to rejoice, that the Lord is vifiting his people 
in your county (once diilinguilhed for its worthies 
in Ifrael), becaufe I hear there are divers late 
appearances in the miniftry among you. May the 
fpirit of the departed Elijahs, fo reft upon fome of 
the prefent generation, that they may go forth in 
the fame fpirit and power wherein they afted ; and 
become inftrumental to turn the " hearts of the 
*' difobedient to the wifdom of the juft.'* A truly 
living baptizing miniftry, is much wanted amongft 
us ; but except the Lord in mercy favour us with 
fuch a miniftry, filence in our folemn meetings is 
far preferable. Alas ! few, very few indeed, of 
the prefent warriors appear to be thoroughly ac- 
coutered for the battle of the day. Some are 
eflaying to go forth as in Saul's armour, the wif- 
dom of men decorated with literature ; but it will 
not do the Lord's work. Weapons defpifed by 
the worldly wife, are far more efficacious; and 
although the ufcrs of them may be defpifed alfo, 
they are chofen to confound the human wifdom 

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of fuch, and, if they keep within the bounds of his 

appointment, will glorify his name. 

I doubt not but that many of my friends in 

Yorkfhire, will be pleafed to know that I am 

better in health than when lad in London. I had 

a long feafon of weakncfs after that journey, and 

am yet weak, compared to what I have been. 

Remember me affeftionately to fuch of them, as 

thou knowed will be pleafed to receive that falu- 

tation ; particularly to thy brother and fifter, and 

my coufin S. B. Thy wife and felf will receive the 

fame 

From thy affeftionate Friend, 

Catherine Phillips. 



EPISTLE 



362 



EPISTLE XL 



', who had been long in a dijlrejfed 



Jlate of mind, from fojne tenets ejiecmed religious. 



Efteemcd Friend, 

THE fympathy I have repeatedly felt with thy 
exercifed mind hath raifcd earned defires in mine, 
that Divine goodnefs may vouchfafe more fully to 
open thy underftanding into the " work of righ- 
" teoiifnefs,'* and fo enlarge thy experience therein, 
that thou mayeft witnefs it to be *' peace,** and the 
effcfts of it " quietnefs and affurance for ever." 

Many are the ftratagems of the fubtil adverfary 
of our happinefs to prevent our attaining to this 
defirable (late, wliich are only manifefted by the 
light of Truth ; whereunto I have wiflied thy 
mind might be effe^ually turned, and thy depend- 
ance fixed folcly upon the one fure everlafting 
Helper. For while thou art fecking after men for 
inftruftion, and a fettlement in the true faith, thou 
'T\ilt be liable to be tonid to and fro by the various 

and 



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and oppofite dofti Ines preached ; and though ever 
hearing, maycft never come to the knowledge of the 
Truth ill its native fimplicity. Permit me, there- 
fore, in true love, to intrcat thee to ccafe from 
them, and humbly to wait upon the unerrinqj 
Teacher, who can and will " guide thee into all 
" Truth," if thou art difpofed implicitly to follow 
him. 

It appears to me more neceffary now for thee 
to fcek after rcfignation to the Divine will, than to 
fearch into comments upon points of do<ftriae : for 
until we attain to that date, we are not likely to 
^' receive the kingdom of God as little children ;** 
who, knowing nothing, are to be indru^led from 
one point of knowledge and duty to another, and 
are pafTive to the direction of their tutors. Tliof<? 
who are refigncd to the Father's will, are to 
know of the doftrines of the fon : unto thefe 
they are marvcUoufly opened and fcaled, fo that 
they can fay they believe, not becaufe of the tes- 
timony of others, but have " the witnefs in them- 
^' felves" that they are the dof^rines of Truth ; and 
thus believing they enter into reft, being cer- 
tain that they have acquired the knowledge of the 
Truth ; and prelTmg forward under its influence, 
they experience a gradual advancing to the " fta- 
**• ture of manhood in Chrift.*' 

It is this holy certainty I dcfire thou maycft. be 
partaker of, with thofc who arc building upon the 
ancient *' foundation gf the apoftlc; and prophets ;" 

for 



364 

for fuch there are in the prefent time as furely as 
there were in the primitive ages of the church ; 
who know Jefus Chrift to be the " Chief Corner 
" ftone,*' and build upon him, and rejoice in him, 
as their leader, feeder, and inflruftor ; through 
whom they worfliip the Father in fpirit and in 
truth ; and look up to Him in all afflictions and 
exercifes, in humble confidence, that as a tender 
Father, he careth for them and will fupply all their 
wants. 

Thus it was, in the morning of our day as a 
people, that many fmcere fouls who had long wan- 
dered upon the mountains of profefllon, and been 
cxercifed in various forms of godlinefs, feeking reft, 
but not finding it therein, obtained a fettlement in 
the Truth as it is now profelTed amongft us, which 
they pofTclTed, and rejoiced therein. For although 
the publick profeffion of it expofed them to many 
a.nd grievous fufferings both in perfon and eftate ; 
as well as to the general contempt of the world, 
whofe cuftoms and manners they were conftrained 
to contradift, by a conduft and behaviour directly 
oppofite thereto ; they being devoted to fuffering 
for the teftimony of a good confcience, were fa- 
voured with that true peace which the world can- 
not give ; and in noifome prilbns livingly praifed 
Him who had called them, not only to believe 
in Chrift and his doctrines, but to fufter for 
him. Many of thefe have left faithful records 
of their fuSerings, exercifes, and experiences of 

the 



365 

ihe merciful dealings of the Lord with their fouls ; 
which may be as marks in the way to thofe who 
are fmcerely fecking the fame city which was pre- 
pared for them, and tend to flrengthen their rcfo- 
lution to walk as they did ; in holy felf-denial, in 
contempt of the world, and in reverence and fear 
of offending Him, who had gracioufly manifcfled 
himfelf to them as a God of infinite loving-kindnefs. 
His compaffion, my friend, failcth not, but all who 
will come may come, and upon the terms of fub- 
miffion to his will, experience Him to blot out their 
tranfgrelTions, and be a Father unto them. In 
Him is no variablenefs, neither fliadow of turn- 
ing : and if we of the prefent generation cleave 
{leadily to Him, and are willing to die that we 
may live, we may be witneffes in our day to his 
power and mercy, and have to tell unto others, 
what he has done for our fouls. 

I herewith fend thee a colleftion of memoirs. Sec. 
of one who had been under various forms and pro- 
fcffions of rehgion ; and was in no mean flation in 
the feveral rehgious focieties, which in queft of 
real peace he left ; whereof I requeft thy candid 
perufal. I was induced to this freedom by fre- 
quently remembering thee, as I lately read fomc 
of them, which feemed adapted to an cxercifcd 
mind ; and hope thou wilt conftruc it as in- 
tended for a help to fettle thine in a right en- 
gagement before the Lord ; • unto whofe wifdom 
I commend thee, only dcfiring thou mayeft be 

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366 

baptized inro tiiat ilatc, ^vhcrcin, \vlth the Cap- 
tain of our falvation, thou mayeil be able to fay, 
" Father, glorify thy Name," by my entire fub-- 
niiifion to thy will. 

I hope thou wilt not fuppofc from any of thd 
foregoing obfervations, that 1 coniBne the peculiar 
favour of God, to the members of our fociety, to 
the exclufion of others. No, I believe that amongft 
all forts of people, " thofe who fear God and 
*' work rightcoufuefs are accepted of Him :'* bur, 
as faithfulnefs agreeable to knowledge is the terms 
cf our acceptance, it behoves us to feek eameftly 
for flrength to do, as well as to be defirous to 
know, the heavenly Father's will ; and whoever is 
thus fmcerdy excrcifed is likely to attain to his fal- 
vation. I am forrowfully fenfible of the great de- 
tlenfion there is amonglT: us as a religious fociety, 
from primitive purity and love to God ; neverthe- 
lefs, the principle of light and life we profefs, is 
unchangeably the fime; and there are yet with us, 
who, moving under its influence, rejoice in the ma- 
nifcllation thereof to their fouls. That others 
under the fame profeflion flioiUd run counter there- 
to, is no more than inay be expefted, though 
much to be lamented ; for as now many hold the 
profeflion from education, and are born with paf- 
"fions like other men^ until thofi' pafiions come un- 
der Divine rcllri^^lon, they will produce their 
natmal fruits. 

I conclude 



367 

I conclude with defiring, that " the God of all 
'• confolatlon, who raifed from the dead our Lord 
" Jefus Chrlft, the great and true Shepherd of his 
" own fheep," may fo manifeil him as fuch to thy 
foul, that " hearing his voice thou mayeft follow 
*' Him," and arrive to fuch an eftablifliment in 
rightcoufnefs as to be favoured with true peace, 
and llccert-Iy fnbfcribc myfelf thy friend, 

CATflEfelNE PriILL11*S. 



EPISTLE 



368 



EPISTLE XII. 

Extrad of a letter to a Member of our Society, luho 
had f pent much of his time very inconjijlenily with 
bis profcfflon of religion, and was favoured with 
a Divine vifitation when far advanced in life, 

Swanfea, 6th of the Seventh Month, 1778. 
Efteemed Friend, 

I HAVE feveral times thought of writing thee 
fince our return from Briflol, but till now have nc* 
gle£led it ; and as I know not but we may pretty 
foon turn homewards, it may appear the lefs need- 
ful for me to do it j but as my mind ftill benda 
towards thee, in an affeftionatc concern for thy 
more firm eflablifhment in the Truth, I am willing 
to tell thee fo, and earneftly requefl thy conftant 
attention to its dictates; that thereby ihou mayell 
be led out of corrupt felf, in all its appearances, 
and, confequently, into that holy fimpliciry of mind 
and manners, which charaftcrifes a difciple of 
Chrift. 

I have. 



369 

I have been much afraid lefl: thou fhould fetilc 
down in a partially converted ftate, and, after having 
deeply tailed of the terrors of the Lord for paft" 
fms, which indeed were flagrant, fhouldft content 
thyfelf with forfaking them, and negleft to prefs 
after inward righteoufnefs. 

I hope thou wilt excufe me for being thus plain 
with thee, and that I fhall explain my meaning in 
forae degree to thy fatisfa£lion, when I tell thee, 
that the obfervations I have made at thy aiming 
after grandeur or (hew, in thy appearance and fur- 
niture, has given me pain, as I know it to be the 
fruit of a mind not truly or fully humbled. 

In the general, in the infancy of religion, when 
conviftion for paft offences has gone deep enough, 
the mind is very fcrupulous and fearful of receiving 
a frefli wound by the indulgence of the natural 
inclination ; and frequently is led into fo flrait a 
path, that when it has been well difciplined by the 
crofs, a little more liberty is allowed in the ufe of 
fome things, which in that ftate it was reftrained 
from. This has appeared to me as pafling under 
the difpenfation of John the Baptift, which was 
•preparatory to that of Chrift, and muft be ex- 
perienced in our religious progrefs. For, although 
the neceftity of the outward fliadowy baptifm 
ceafe, we muft be plunged in Jordan, the river of 
judgment : and as John appeared in great aufterity 
and mortification, having " a garment of camePs 
'' hair, and a leathern girdle about his loins, and 

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370 

** his meat was locufls and wild honey ;** fo re* 
newed minds muft know tliat life to be flain, 
which delights itfclf in grand appearances and de- 
licacies, and be content with mean things ; fo as to 
walk in contrariety to the world, and be fequef- 
tered from it, as- John w'as in the wildernefs. 
And under this difpenfation of mortification, the 
mountains and hills are brought down, and the 
vallies are exalted, and the way of the Lord 
is prepared ; unto which, as the foul is recon- 
ciled, rough ways are rendered fmooth, and 
crooked paths flraight ; and the falvation of 
God is revealed ; and there is an entering into 
the innocent liberty of the Lord's children, in the 
ufe of his creatures. For although " John came 
<« neither eating nor drinking," the Lord Jefus 
came " eating and drinking,'* yet in reverence and 
fear ; and though he was " Lord of all, he became 
" of no reputation," and took upon him the 
appearance of a fervant. 

Well, my friend, thefe things are written for 
our inftru£tion, and are worthy our attentive con- 
fideration, that we may fee whether wt are en- 
deavouring to enter " through the gate into the 
" city'* of the faints folemnities. We read, " Strait 
<' is the gate, and narrow is the way which leads 
'< to life ;" and alas ! " few find it." The indul- 
gence of the llclhly mind and natural inclination, 
prevents many from feeing it ; and though fome 
have fccD it, they have not fleadily perfevered in 

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371 

driving to enter In ; and therefore have relied 
fliort of that perfected rightcoufnefs they hdd once 
a profped of. Let not this be thy cafe, but ear- 
iicllly dcfire that thy underflanding may be fully 
opened into this holy iiighway \vhich leads to the 
kingdom, and thine eye be preferved finglc to 
God's honour, that thou mayell be enabled fo to 
run as to obtain the glorious crown of immortality. 

Confider thou had fet out late in this important 
race, and therefore it behoves thee to ufe great 
diligence in endeavouring to overcome thyfpiritual 
enemies ; all of which will be manifefted, as thine 
eye is fnigle, for then thy " whole body will 
" be full of light :'* fo that thou will be preferved 
from entering into a league with fuch of the old 
inhabitants of thine heart, as are appointed to 
utter de{lru6liQnl 

The Ifraelites were deceived by the appearance 
of the wily Gibeonites, thinking them to have 
come from a far country, when they were near 
neighbours ; as many, for want of cautious watch- 
ing in the light, which makcth manifcft what is 
hurtful in its tendency, have been deceived, and 
united with thofe difpofitions, in one fhape or ano- 
ther, which were for judgment. 

And it jufl prefents further to fay. Beware of 

that which is without the facred limits of divine 

j)refcription. So wilt thou be preferved from all 

the fnarcs of a fubiil enemy, who, fo long as he 

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is permitted to tempt us, can fuit his baits to every 
ftation and fituation of life, and to every flage of 
our religious experience: which manifefts the pro- 
priety of our Saviour's precept, not only to one 
but to all of his difciples, " Watch and pray that 
" ye enter not into temptation." 



EPISTLE 



373 



EPISTLE XIII. 



To a Relation, 



Redruth, 29th of Seventh Month, 1793. 

ALTHOUGH I have not written to thee fince 
the commencement of thy prefent forrowful ftate, 
thou canfl not be ignorant of my fympathy with 
thee; and confidering my increafed debility for writ- 
mg (of which I advifed thy mother), I might have 
hoped that thou wouldft; not have waited for my 
doing it before thou hadft addreffed me: if but with 
a few lines, they would have been very acceptable ; 
cfpecially fo, if they had breathed a fpirit of ac- 
quiefcence with the will of the All-wife difpofer of 
events. He knows bed on what to lay his hand, 
in order to facilitate his merciful deligns refpcifting 
us ; and if he deprives us of what is mofl 4ear, 
and which alfo may appear to be the moft valuable 
and beneficial to us of all his temporal gifts ; does 
he not thereiji fpeak this in(lru£tive language, Set 
your aftc£lions on things which are in heaven, 
and not on things which are upon the earth, 
which mufl all pafs away in their appointed fcafon ? 

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374 

They are only lent us as temporary affiflants or 
accommodations in our paiTage through time ; and 
ahhough they may be rejoiced in and vahied as his 
gifts, they are not to be depended upon or loved be- 
yond the appointed ftandard of his wifdom. It is our 
interefl as well as duty, to hold them by the tenure 
' wherewith he has intruded us with them, viz. to be 
retujrned at his call ; which always ultimately com* 
ports with our real happinefs, if " we look not at 
" the things which are feen,'* which, however 
high we may prize them, are but temporal ; but 
fleadily behold, with ardent dcfire of pofielling, 
" thofe which are not feen" (fave with the eye 
of faith), *' which are eternal," My principal con- 
cern for thee is, that this eye may be opened 
widely in thy foul ; that thou mayefl: fee and righrly 
eflimate all poU'eilions which are attainable by man ; 
and, beholding and contemplating the tranfcendent 
excellency of fpiritual gifts, mayeft covet them 
carneflly. This is the only allowable covetoufnefs', 
and the mind being thus engaged, becomes tranf- 
formed from a ftate of nature to that of grace; 
agreeably to the apoflle's teftimony and experi- 
ence, viz. " And we all beholding as in a glafs 
" with open face, the glory of the Lord, are 
'* changed into the fame image, from glory to 
^* glory, even by the Spirit of the Lord.'* 

In this renewed flate the will of the creature is 
fo abforbed in the will of the Creator, that its 
Ufc is fwalMvcd up in it ; and it does not wifli to 

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375 

enjoy any thing, which is not " freely given tD it 
" of God;" whofe infcrutiible wifJom bounds its 
defires, and under a fenfe that it knows not what 
is befl, it refers all thereto, and thus it comes to 
experience " new heavens and a new earth" to be 
created unto it, ** wherein dwelleth righteoufnefs;" 
and it abundantly rejoiceth in that which God 
creates, as it is fenfible that " he creates Jeru- 
*' falem (the city of the folemnities of his faints), 
*' a rejoicing, and her people a joy." 

Dear , be not deje<5led at the prefent dif- 

penfation of affliction, nor indulge reafoning upon 
caufes or events, of which thy natural underftand- 
ing is incompetent to judge. Remember that " the 
*' Lord hath a way in the clouds, and a path in 
*' the thick darknefs, and his footftcps are not 
" known ; " they cannot be fully comprehended 
by mortals. How vain therefore is the query, 
Why haft thoii fufFered this or that ? Yea, is 
it not worfe than vain, if our temporal interefts, 
pleafure, or convenience, are put in competition 
with his will and wifdom ? He can reftore what he 
deprives of, or compenfate for it ; and often does 
fo abundantly to thofe who fmcerely defire that 
the light and momentary afflictions may work 
for them a far more exceeding and eternal 
weight of glory, and tend to their increafmg 
in the prefent ftate in that fuperlative bleffing 
which maketh truly rich, and is unmixed with 
forrow, 

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376 

I am pcrfuadcd thou haft fccn this blcfling, 
yea, haft taftcd of it ; but remember, this is not 
enough ; thou muft attentively behold and con- 
fider its worth, and thy defire to attain it muft 
be ftrong and ftcady. If thou pofTefs it and 
hold it faft, then wilt thou be enabled to fay, 
'* I will not be afraid of evil tidings," nor of 
the confequence of the lofs of temporal goods 
of any kind, " My heart is fixed, trufting in the 
*' Lord," who upholdeth his children, and pro- 
videth from one ftage of life to another, what is 
meet for their accommodations, and moft condu- 
cive to their acquiring that inheritance which is 
incorruptible and undefiled : whereon 1 earneftly 
defire thy attention and affeflion may henceforward 
be fo fixed, that thou niayeft experience that what 
has happened, however afflicting to nature, has 
worked together for thy real permanent good. 

I was almoft afraid to write to thee, as it ap- 
peared like touching a fore which might be a little 
healed ; but 1 hope my pen has been direfted to 
fteer clear of adding to thy pain. I faw nothing 
of what I have communicated when I began to 
write. Receive it as a kind intimation from the 
Father of mercies, as well as the cordial advice, 
and afteftionate defire for thy experiencing thy 
mind to be fo ftayed upon the Lord, as to be- 
come fettled in true peace, of thy fympathizing 

Catherine Phillips.- 
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377 



/ could have wtfhed that the following Letters from 
my Mother had been inferted in the foregoing 
Memoirs. They are very exprefftve of her religious 
care for me. 

Thefrji was fcnt me at Dublin^ C fee page 31 J; the 
two others to Philadelphia, 



I. 



Dudley, 8th of Fourth Month, 1751. 
My dear and tender Child, 

THINE, with the agreeable account of thy ar^ 
rival at Dublin, thy brother hath wrote thee we re- 
ceived. Thy other dated the 28th ult. which 
brings the news of thy illnefs, alfo came fafej 
which thou mayefl fuppofe was a great trouble to 
me to hear ; but although at prefent it is a hard 
trial to have thee ill fo far feparate from us, yet I 
efleem it a favour that thy lot is caft among fuch 
careful and good friends, which I defire to be 
thankful for. It is no fmall fatisfa£lion to me that 
thou haft been fo eafy in thyfelf, and I would have 
thee labour againft every thing which the enemy in 
the time of weaknefs may prefent, and I doubt 
not but the fame peace will be continued to thee. 

Do 



378 

Do not think, my dear child, of my affli<^ion 
on thy account ; for as thou waft fatisfied it was 
thy duty to go, and I thought it my duty to give 
thee up ; I truft thou wilt be reftored to me, and 
to thy health, and anfwer the fervice the Almighty 
hath fcnt thee upon to the honour of his great 
Name : then whenever we meet again it will be fo 
much to our comfort and thy fatisfaflion, that with 
hearts filled with gratitude, we {hall, I hope (for 
we (liall have caufe), return thanks to Him who is 
alone worthy. 

Although thou knoweft that I am very fhort in 
exprefling myfelf, yet, my dear child, when I find 
my mind rightly exercifed, my prayers are night 
and day for thy prefervation, as I believe thine are 
for me. I defire, when thou getieft well enough 
10 go on thy journey, thou wilt confider thy weak 
conflitution, and not overdo thyfelf. 

My very dear love is to the friends with whom 
thou lodgeft, not forgetting their care of thee. 
I iliall now conclude with my dear and tender love, 
thy affli£led (but not without hope) aiFe£lionate 
mother, 

Ann Payton. 



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II. 

Dudley, 27thof Fifth Month, 1754* 

My near and dear Child, 

AS I believe that a line from my hand will be 
very acceptable to thee, I fend this, by which thoa 
mayefl have the agreeable account, that through 
Divine goodnefs I am as well, both in body and 
mind, confidering what I have gone through fmce 
I faw thee, as I could have expe^ed, and beyond 
what I fear I have deferved. And, dear child, I 
am ready to fay in my heart at times, * Lord, what 
am I, that thou art thus favouring me with thy 
goodnefs ? O ! that me and mine may ever dwell 
in nothingnefs of felf, that thou alone mayefl have 
the praife, who art for ever worthy, faith my 
foul !' 

And, my dear child, although I count the time, 
and want thy company at home, and in our poor 
little meeting, I dare not defire it before thou 
findcfl thyfelf clear of thy fervice, which I defire 
thou mayeft truly obferve. The reading of thine, 
notwithdanding it brought an account of the hard- 
fliip thou haft gone through, although it affe(^cd 

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me greatl)', I was not call down ; but on the con- 
trary rather comforted, that thou hafl been fo truly 
given up and fupported in fpirit, to anfwer the 
requirings of the Almighty ; who, if thou continues 
faithful to the end, will be thy exceeding great 
reward. Then thou wilt receive that peace which 
the world can neither give nor take away, and a 
crown of righteoufnefs. 

Dear child, I believe in the reading of this 
thou wilt find me near to thee, as thou art to me, 
in that love, diftancc of place cannot feparate ; in 
which love I dearly falute thee, and when my 
fpirit is bowed before the Almighty, I believe I 
iliall have thee in remembrance, and now remain 

The near and dear mother, 

Ann Payton. 



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Dudley, 9th of Second Month, 1755, 
Dear Child, 

HxWING this opportunity, I am willing to fend 
thee a few lines, by which thou mayell know that 
through Divine favour I am as well in health as I 
can expeft; and at times witnefs a renewing of 
llrength in the inward man; but, dear child, it is 
through a daily watch. I can find no fafer way 
than a watchful ftate, that many times prepares the 
licart for prayer, and helps to pray aright. This is 
what I defire we may be found in, and then I be- 
lieve the Almighty will hear our praj-ers for each 
other ; as I am fenfible he hath done mine, and an- 
fwered them in his own time, for which my foul 
dcfires to dwell in true thankfulnefs to Him. 

Dear child, I have little more to caution thee of, 
than what I have done heretofore. Be careful to 
difcharge ihyfclf faithfully in the requirings of the 
Lord, and be fure lake care of thy health, and 

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then I am not without hope but ^'C fliall fee eacli 
other again in his time. 

My very dear love and thy fifter's to friend 
Pembcrton and fons. I am much obliged to them 
for tj^eir affeiflionate care towards thee, though 
have not wrote to acknowledge it. As thou know- 
cfl my deficiency in that refpecl, would have thee 
cxcufe it to them in the befl: manner thou canfi:. 
Our dear love is to Samuel Fothergill, John 
Churchman, William Brown, Jonah Thompfon, 
and all inquiring friends that know us. 

Now, deii- child, with the falutation of endeared 
love to thee, 

I remain thy tender and affeftionatc 
Mother, 

Ann Payton, 

P. S. Our dear love to M. Peifley when thoa 
writes her. Thy brother's dear love to thee. 



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